My fantasy, My heaven

10:42am Fri Jan 06, 2005- back from school, packing? lol

Its friday! hhoho...been long din update blog? mm, not long also lah, just a few days only, quite many thinking the past, till no time to write down...

Back from college, 8-10! hahaa.. so fun, i like my time table, and now all the Bio is arranged either early in morning, or the last subject, means never affect my time table! i dun have to waste my time to wait for classes that continue after Bio~ mmm.. oh ya, quite happy, with my schorlarship which havent voided! haha.. my 5D number is, CBCCC, and i thought it will be no more, and i think i'll be paynig by myself for that, afterall, this sem if good enuff, can take back the money one.. so, with a negatively thinking, which usually i have to keep myself alive, go receive the enrolment paper, and i saw the cop! haha! 100%tuition fees waiver~ yoyo~

The past few days, gone abit cray, 1st day too moody, went out, dragged bing and jonghwa, went summit, watch Venom, ahha! the story lame, but the movie, quite ok, coz scary, haha! like to watch this kind of movie with girls ler! haha.. and i saw jonghwa jump up from his chair when the zombie appeared nex to the car's window, ahha! mm, then slowly slowly, back to college days, study, sien, 2 hours per subject, so bored! everyone seems like still in holiday mood, CNY mood? haha.. canteen come alive again, but things abit expensive than my 1st sem, haha! once ate bak kut teh there, err, quite little only, i mean meat, haha.. but the price of RM1.80 for that bowl of bkt, is like that one lor.. talking bout bkt, Nex Tues, Haji holiday, then i've planned to go klang eat bkt! JH said belanja man! hoho~ who wan join one? Btw, he owe harn 10 kimgary.. kesian.. And finally Fri reached, means now lor.. will fully packed later, and load stuffs into car.. and off i go cameron, working.. not play play.. tomolo nite time, duno when.. midnite? i think so, will rushed back and the nex day of it, another job.. I slowly bcome iron man liao.. haha! Got once father's fren ask me how old, and guessed that i'm 25@! haha.. am i that mature looking ah? If really dun wan study liao, continue my father's business plus work, not bad eh, it guarentee a comfortable life for nex time, not to say rich lah, i mean normal.. hehe.. so packing, and i will bring my jacket, dun worry! 

Aiks.. few days of work.. and surely feel bored there.. dun think alot! haha.. cant wait bkt d, tues, fast come! Off....

11:10am

3:47pm Sun Jan 01, 2005 - head heavy heavy

alrite, its 2006! Happy New Year everyone! may ur wish come true in this year, and.. everything is best for u all..

erm, yesterday whole day sleep, and at 1st lazy to go The curve countdown one, but then slept whole day, till nite active liao, and since bing and keat got join, so i threw in myself and went The curve at 9:30pm! mmm, there got, jiawei, cj, sk, his gal, geng, lohon, anna, abby, tj, huijuin, and 3 of her frenz, ru, weikeat, blaa bla.. forgot got who liao, as long as, its a huge group.. not really big one though, but hard to gather together even just this few of us. 

Met them up, err, Thx Phoebe! Thx for ur choc! haha! err, thx kang too lah of coz, both of u so caring, if got baby ah, hhohoho~ they will be the most xing fu children, and everyday see their papa mama so loving, aiyer.. but then, my choc! lost in Huiru's hand!! She ate or she threw!?? anyway, going to get in back from Harn d! dun care, haha! Phoebe support me for this. Countdown was fun lah, this is the 1st time i countdown with that much ppl, and, feeling quite different. Fireworks stay long enuff, and i got 4 monkey standing in front of me keep on yelling, and this never included Bing, He's the Kingkong nex to me, shout shout shout, oh my.. they're really high at that moment! haha.. saw frenz there.. all dai kor zai dai kor lui liao. Oh ya! i drank a cup of.. "Green Tea Honey Latte" yesterday due to thirsty, not bad eh~ but abit like honey dew's taste.. err.. so fake the sweetness..

After that countdown, went to send phoebe back, and at 1st dun wan to join them for Kayu one, then later all hungry, and since no ppl abroad the plan, we dun wan to be the one who so sui, go ffk, so bing finally drive us there.. and.. funny things happen, we turned in SS2 for more than an hour! haha!!! no choice, all guys there, no one clear bout the road, and seldom go there.. though i use to be there even the last minute b4 exams when i was form 1, haha!! who is in my class ah? that time sure realise once i late to exams one! haha.. really fun last time, no need think alot, everyday go have own life, dun care others, yo~ go go, back to last time! haha!

Yam cha, bing called for me roti bom.. duno who he wanted to bom so far.. btw, he likes to bom in hotels, plus hypermarket, haha! and also those hsopping malls. yeng lah him. last time in school still say that he outside cant boomb one, duno why, u see now, once go out, sure bom.. ur enjin rosak, hoho~ ask ur fenny screw it up! mmm.. so the yamcha session ended at 3:30am.. its early rite? haha!! siao.. back home is aroud 4am! lol.. and.. nex thing i know after i brushed my teeth and layed on my bed, it was 5:45am.. and it was second call from father.. aiks.. really cant wake up! coz this kind is.. too tired, tired till someone wake u up, but to u, it seems like a dream, haha! woke up, then charm liao, not sleepy anymore, very semangat, till reach kelana square, the girl girl's place.. mm, i think have to choose the electric that goes to her papa's office, and off it! hoho~ stick a big sticker there, "just have fun" .. haha! cant lah, aiyor.. once it off ah, the whole building gone black! Father did went countdown too, in pyramid, it was abit.. beh, plus the extra base of pyramid is contructiong, so, wat they saw for the fireworks, is just tiny tiny one, not like us, stand nex to the stage, can see those singer clearly, neh, those Ella.. though i duno her, haha! .. not that SHE ella wor.. Family's countdown plus supper, reached 1:30am, and mine 4am.. luckily father never dulan me, maybe i so semangat during the work.. its overdose! cant sleep d! not tired d.. haha, i lost a day like that.. my enjin going to rosak! 6am start work.. at 1st, i thought, 15relays only mah, 2 hours gao dim, tahan tahan, 8oclock, man! just finish 4relays! shit.. so damm delay, remove the cover, lap it, clear dust, oepn wires, lots of tiny stuffs, that took our time! deng or.. then work work, see time, 10am! haha! it was mys econd thought, i thought at most, 10am should be finish, and? end up, 12:30pm only my work done! and wait to on back the electric, total time used, 6 to 1pm, 7hours! hohoho~ yeng yeng.. went makan lunch, back home 3pm, and now i'm finished bathing, and sitting ere typing rubbish, haha! i think should go get some rest d..

tomolo, big plan! morning bakkutteh, i dun care who got go who doesnt, as long as, i go! haha! Fri cameron! pressure..  work till sat? and Sun might be there holiday a day. then Mon back, and Mon holiday! haha! wan go wet? later i  choose to sleep, in bing house, haha!

4:07pm

1:39am Sat Dec 31, 2005 - last day of 2005

finally, its the last day, and seriously, i do like some part of 2005, but mostly, i hate it! haha

Back, was told by Harn these few days, that his parents not in for sat sun, so wan nite time go steamboat or something like that, end up, he just canceled it, coz he hav no choice, and must go back to johor.. haih.. so left me alone liao, and bing.. i duno him.. Planned to go bakkutteh for morning session, and hav to canceled, haha! sorry jonghwa, nex time.. if they wan, maybe Sun, but i'll not be free, coz its 1/1, got work, 6am at kelana jaya, the place.. that i told someone b4. So early man! haih.. will be damm tired.. so i dun think tomolo nite's countdown i'll join lah

Mmm, Talked with zhimin just now, then she pointed out my weakness, said my words got lots of self-protection, haha! now only i realise got, and.. izzit this kind of words that causing everyone felt so annoying? sorry man.. i duno what to say liao.. its been 18 years of life, maybe i'm the one who is eldest, and take caring 2 of my sis and live in a not so rich family... eh, i know there's one eldest and having the same "over self-protection lady, ahhaa!! u know who!! anything.. err.. oh ya, zhimin said tomolo's plan if can, will be changed to bbq in her house, lol~ her wish, me not going, so tomolo will be damm free, and .. sleep gua..

tired d.. maybe worked whole day, nex friday, will be going to cameron to finish up the work left over last month.. haha.. same place.. and there's also one of the place i miss alot, and miss the last trip coz? stoh beh wee ice-cream.. haha.. ice-cream!! cham.. my turn.. cough for months d.. and now its the critical.. start to burst, sore throat coming, now abit headache, heavy heavy, and coughing.. dun tell me cancer! haha..  i dun smoke..

finished.. going to sleep, bye bye, nitez to the blanked sky...

1:48am

6:31pm Fri Dec 30, 2005 - half naked, just back, ready to bath, or not?

Phew, another day packed with work! Thx father, haha~ sudden job and.. it caused me work alot, at least not to stay in home, think alot.. but today alredi quite funny, there's trice father told me the reading bout the Mega test, and i never record down, was thinking other things.. mmm, today father kena sot one time, haha~ accidentally touch the door when it havent fully discharge. Luckily not the 25KV of high pressure test voltage, or else that one sure bye bye.. coi coi...

After morning job, till noon i mean, then rush to Dr.M's house again, they changed one relay, and we have to recalibrate it. Mmm, really jealous, so big house, the view so nice, in front big big kolam, left side got train, right side is the plane lane, which means most of the flights pass by there, then opposite more than 2 bridge which build so nice, like those mini penang bridge, not fair!!! how come ppl so rich ah? if only i hav 10m in my account, then i dun have to work anymore, haha~ eat the interest in back is more than enuff for a year.. better work hard, then fast fast reach 10m, then no work, then go hanggai everyday with my love one! haha..

Sei lor.. i think i ffk alredi, was planned to back b4 5pm, then rush to harn there, either play basketball or badminton one, but now only reach home.. alredi feel lazy ler.. how ah? i'll phone them later see how lah.. abby's gang was in pyramid watching the Narnia i think.. that movie, lol~ eelynn, u the one who cant join me one ah, means i watch d dun blame me wor, haha!

There's a girl, i really wanna knock her head d.... ppl asked her to take care but then she broke down d.. went to sickness.. ppl said she cant come out today, duno why, maybe sick? maybe grounded, haha! No matter how, both also not a good one.. Too bad.. i've promised myself, to giv her the best freedom she seek for, i very scared ler.. scared what? scared to look into her eyes, coz i will not be able to be back myself, later i did something funny enuff again.. who knows.. maybe one of the day, the bird fly back to the tree, and tell the tree that, it likes to be in its protection, coz of its big leaf, healthy stem and so on.. If that time the tree havent gone missing, or habitated by other animals, it will still in the "stand-by" mode.. aiks.. rubbish.. Hey u! better fast fast cure! and dun left left right right, left is "you" in chinese, right is "zuo" , rite? haha!!

Back to work thing 1st.. the 1st place i worked today, is the indah water base in puchong, near si jie's house, or near geng house there one. Japanese came in, bought the station, the shit station i mean, then rebuild, and produce fetilizer from our shit, and send back to their country. haha!! so ler? wat to say? as conclusion, japanese very very very smart. They come our country to buy shit!!! No offence... plz dun block my blog plz, really no offence one, they really smart mah...

ok, craps enuff.. have to ciao, phone bing!

6:45pm

1:57am  Thurs Dec 29, 2005 - bathed, wish me dreamless nite

Happy bday to zhimin!!! haha~ alrite, for today, really wasted lots of time. Woke up, drag bing teman me to service my car. So have to follow him, go fetch his brother backf rom tuition, then later go taipan coz he wanted to pay the bills, and that caused us 2 hours. yeng man.. bring me rounding in taipan! haha.. then ler.. rush to glenmarie, drop my car, to change the third backlight, and service, anyway, they tak sempat service, eventhough i put my car there whole day.. so tomolo, i mean later, will need to send it again.

went to pick harn up, i thought only 3 of us, then he said abby they all waiting, haha~ means? another wet wet day.. aiks.. the 3 guitars still at bing's car, and never use it at all.. somemore canceled guitar lessons.. so guilty.. mm, anything, since mood not so good, dun care d. the pizzas, really geng, they called 4 large one, and we manage to finish only 3 of it! haha.. i think i ate 5-6 slice compare to harn, 9!! what stomach he has... then later, went back to abby's house, some of them play games, harn and me watch movie, the batman begin, haha.. not bad not bad. then later went summit, ntg to do, except waiting for bing, so we play pool, err.. long time din play lor, miss it alot.. if time can go back? haha!! definitely i dun wan to come to this world, hahaa!!! alrite, erm, bing have to go back home after sending hau home, coz his mother angry d.. and for me.. not much difference.. just that last time i got my standing, and now, i lost it.. dun care again. Reached zhimin's house, wished her, yamcha, then back to her housing area, and? haha.. junwei kap lui, and let the lui kap back, and? they both play wave hand game, haha~ till they later drive the car and flashed me.. yeng.. my small atos, not so stupid go race with them, haha! the day end..

sleep early everyone

2:06am

1:43am Wed Dec 28, 2005 - need to sleep d, plz dun wake up late!!

oh man.. today woke up, 1:30pm again! cant help.. nowdays.. i mea this week, duno why one, sleep so till so late! maybe back to the last-time-me, sleeping not bad mah, no need to think anything, and u like can have everything in it.

Err.. oh ya! happy bday to my .. call her what? cousin lah, mother's sister's daughter, i duno what it should call ler.. luilui, dai kor lui lah, though still primary, be clever and dun so notty. invited dinner to her house, chicken rice, lol~ another day with chicken rice.. really fat lor.. then ler, nice thing, got abalone soup! thats the reason i join it! haha!! after that ah.. they all watched tv.. chatting.. and my sis doing undang coz tomolo test.. and younger one, u know lah, all small small sure group together, 3 girls, lock inside the rooms playstation, ahha! and me.. back to the room, slept by grandma last time.. haih.. why that time i din put much time on her? .. stay so near, dun even go see her everyweek.. and now i got car d, wan bring her go makan also cant.. slept inside the room, feel like got ppl walking around, dun tell me the sound's from her, haha~ miss her.. she's the one i can talk to only since small.. everything from my heart.. and i seriously need her rite now.. sobz..

Harn bought his guitar d, brand Yamaha, not bad eh.. erm.. ya lah, i mean, this money this guitar is the best. with the stand he got. So i think, no need very long time, he can reach out standard d, since he dun have to follow classes one, those notes stuffs.. dragged abby just now when we went summit. i really like it alot.. its not so crowded, and .. the queit atmostphere is quite romantic, haha!! Narnia i still havent watch, eelynn ah, tomolo better fast call me, or else i watch liao dun blame that i never wait for u ah! haha!!

Gals.. haih.. i dun care, must say this also.. girls ah, all is very scary one! when i say girls, i mean all, including my mom, and sisters, junwei maybe.. haha~ they all think something very very very differently one, sometimes something guys can take it easy one, or guys can simply say out one, they just think its some hard words. and then ler? worst part is when they r hurted, and they dun let u know one. at least that day talked to bing harn junwei, all of them can know that if they bu shuang, will let u know. Ok, i know sometimes u may say that, how to let u know, direct hit ur face ah? have to jaga ur face also mah, bullshit lah this excuse.. if u wanted to let one person know something, there's many ways, just drag out, or talk silently between u 2, or just giv a understanable gesture, this will help alot plz.. haih.. gals.. oh ya, somemore something very funny one, when i din feel really hot, they thought i'm alredi reach my danger level, lol.. they din see my real angry face b4 gua.. the luckiest person is only harn and bing, haha! they know when and how.. haih.. why ah.. cant help, i'm just guy.. think back last time, when i was antisocial, u see, allt his craps never appear at all, all i know was, everyone seems so good, then slowly only i learnt something call backstabs, then only i know that all this whilei dak zui so many ppl.. maybe i should go back to my antisocial personality.

tomolo do what ah? shit, guitar class, b4 that.. free. arrange room lah i think.. maid came for so long d, also never free myself for that. then ah, the atos service centre seems like zhap lap d, haha! i saw the rent/sale signboard there.. lol, anyway, i'll be going to usj7's one, there got one. i'll be once again alive! haha!!! huh? how ah? so many things to do tomolo!!! dun care, sleep d only plan

bing! congrates! haha.. just.. keep urself steady, i dun wan u facing what i felt, understand? all the best, and keep the relation  as long as u can! i also wan ur good-nite kiss, haha! yucks..

2:09am

2:59am Tues Dec 27, 2005 - 27th eh? few months more, my bday!! 19.. what a nineteenth...

Back, from wetting just now, lol. Whole day, went back office, do the downlights wiring, and then installed it in new house with father. The granite floor is almost done, not bad, smooth, nice, charming. After downlights, we measured the leveling of the house, by using water inthe tube.. hah, learnt something, coz u cant use measurement tape to measure ur house level since the floor is not flat enuff, and there's no constant level for it. anything.. just, my day passed

nite got chicken! haha, chicken rice man.. full~ and then went find harn, with anna of coz, and went cyber, play some games, and.. funny, coz not really fun, just to let time passed. back to bing house then, dragged him out to yamcha. Roti tissue, apam, roti boom! and.. mee goreng, real full.. and i eat alot.. mm, talk lots with them, and get to know that bing's alrite i think.. he tomolo got date timm! haha.. if i free, i sure go join him! and btw.. harn really wans a guitar.. and i hope he get one soon, then he can practise his fingering..

after yamcha, sure went back to bing's house lor, continue our talks, haha.. and read the lao fu zhi. parents'll kill me soon, nowdays back home so late... anyway, they wunt blast me rite now, haha!! tomolo? if free, bring dog for injection.. and then.. test 2 cables, and then.. see free to kacao bing or not.. oh ya.. the rantai he bought for the girl, nice.

wan sleep liao, alredi tired...... real tired.....

3:07am 

12:56pm Mon Dec 26, 2005 - need to pick sis up later

haha, another post, 12 hours passed from the 1st post today~ erm.. alrite, something funny, my sis called me just now, asking me how to remove the cd coz her cd broke into half and still stay inside the cd-rom! aiseh! what lah she.. duno how to use cd-rom one, and somemore its the undang cd, how is she going to study her undang then? haha~ so later have to pick her up, bring her to ss19.. err.. ya, there to collect her cd...

yesterday nite, though drunk, but not real drunk that one, feel blurr type, and, still can tahan till 4am only sleep! haha.... maybe just wanted to keep myself busy on the comp, till real tired, so that sleep that time no dream.. anyhow... i did dream again, and the same ppl is always there, just that things happens in dream, is better than reality.. back, thx to kimberly, talk to me till so late, kacao her with her fren'z chatting only, haha.. she's an outsider, duno my stuffs.. thats the reason why feel at least abit comfort when chat with her, without touching my hurting part yet. anyhow, abby thx ya.. really one.. u r the one who help me most in this case, and for others. thx also lah. at least got concern abit, haha~

harn wanted to buy a guitar! haha.. later i hav to go back new house to install downlight.. so.. maybe nex time.. or i try my best to finish it 1st lah.. but now alredi 1 something.. dun think can ler.. hehe..

my maid came d.. forget to say in last few post.. she came on friday, and.. feel better, works alot, and i dun have to jaga rumah d.. mayeb can hav more time to do my own stuffs.. err. though cant settle..

1:04pm

12:08am Monday December 26, 2005 - Its dark, blurr, sleepy and drunk

Msn nick b4: "Xmas" - Its crazy and messy- angel suddenly bcome so dirty.. its weird and disgusting
Msn nick then: Drunk with my beer, red wines burn my soul, miss my hennessy cola, crying silently, darkness surrounding..

Every year, i like to be in Xmas day alot, its best when u can live in places where got snows, with all the presents u receive, and slightly hugging ur little one, close in ur heart, talking chitchatting, or maybe, no need any words in between, bcoz the moment is just so sweet and silence with peace... just my dream though..

Went to Feddie's party just now, one of my father's fren one, every year Xmas, sure invite us to go, and even say like this when inviting father "I dun wan call u lah, every year u MUST come" haha!! alrite, back to party.. i thought there should be something like last year, or last last year, got soup, bread, then those cheesy mee~ too hungry when reached, coz? woke up 1pm, which whole nite cant sleep really well, and then, just 2 slice of bread, and went to new house to install downlight! cheap china made stuffs.. anyway, its the new model, i think not many house use it yet, so? this model wan buy better preduct also cant, coz most company alredi migrate to china, cheap mah, and u get cheap skate lor.. The party dun have the foods that i wan, just like something, not like i've expected, this world, funny.. anyway, its different now, got small small stalls, curry mee, char keuy teow, then there got ppl bbq those chicken, lamb, fishes, many more.. another part, is the main course, rice mee, curry, deserts.. Ice kacang!! errr... nothing special liao.. very full ler eat till! plus the beer, funny, coz parents got 2 cups, and i curi curi drank all, haha!! and then they like, "u ah! dun curi curi drink! " haha! nex thing, after dinner, went inside the house to have a look, and b4 that, there's a wine holding in my hand, favourite red wine, not the white one, which abit.. different taste... so.. inside full aircond, house so big.. really rich guy.. i saw a pool table timm!!!! if i got that, and what u guys will think? bing and harn surely everyday come my house d! mother's there sitting, and i let myself lean on her lap.. so secure.. so safe.. i once drop back to my mom.. slightly move my head aside.. something watery falls.. young sis came, helped to lap it.. and nex thing.. slept.. nex thing, mother and father ask, r u drunk? haha.. baoxiao.. i where got drunk ler.. but no doubt, i'm their son.. they know something.. back again, to the foods area, they eat again!! really geng lah, i so full, but sis still go get lamb ribs.. haih.. i just "help" to eat abit, and hoping to get home soon.. it'll be more comfort.. paradox.. it'll be worse.. i dun like staying alone in my room.. i'll go find my sis sleep i think..

Life rite? haha..  speechless on that.. alrite, back, just now opened Xmas presents d!! hohoho.. family seems to like my "mr.bean's toys alot~ lol.. but mother's who took it. and i got my sis's present, which a piggy soft toy to put in hp one,, errr.. aiya, useful also lah. father got my younger sis gifts! haha.. the plant egg~! and father is abit like.."so mah fan" then she was abit like not happy.. sure lor~ ur gift, ppl not like it.. just like something u giv ppl, u hope ppl like it, u hope ppl accept the thing u chose, u planned, u decided for so long, just a small smile from them, u'll satisfied, but father din~ haha! comforted her anyway, she then alrite, and father said will plant it in office, lol~ mmm, sis got my mom's present! the ... call what, fragrance oil burner.. the .. bottle thing, with the oil smelled "jasmine" .. she have 2 of it d, so? giv back mom the one, so that mom can use it! hhaaha~ funny rite? u buy something u like for the one who might not like it. young sis got the presents most of us wanted~! termo bottle~ i dun have any, and i dun get it! haih.... so, its ended.. no no!!! i got extras!! haha! i got another 2 more T-shirts, its from Fajar i saw, haha~ i think is family walking, with excluding me, then they bought it as in big dis%. wondering what i'm i doing.. wasting lots of time, on something so stupid, and leave my family, although they understand me, but just that.. haih.. if i can be 2 person, do 2 things at a same time.. isn't it good? when one of it did something stupid enuff, terminate it! haha.!! killing is no breaking laws then.. i like the t-shirt!!! it's so lala!!! lala not for guy's one wor.. haha! but i use it, hehe, lala shirt, 2 somemore~ i think suit me, hehe~

Cant wait to eat bak kut teh~ haha! Jonghwa.. u owe me one, and if that day i go ask the girl and say u like her, u will owe me 2!! hehe.. nex week, nope. i mean, tomolo, and nope.. i mean today, haha~ will be going to newhouse again, continue downlight installing, this time, left 30... all downstairs one, really hard work lor.. so it will waste me one whole day! yes!~!!~!! mm.. tues.. might have one small job to go with father, it'll be ok gua.. then nex nex, wed.. free.. thurs.. freee.. fri.. free.. why i free myself so much!!! i just thought to free, coz can do something. and hope is broken into pieaces.. mmm, nvm, i'll try my best to slot in something new.. mm, 1st! repair my car, back light mati, then go second service, 8.6kKM~! hehe.. then ler.. bring my jolly for vacination~ and then ler.. mmm. reall free.. go find jonghwa lah, for my bakkutteh redeemtion~ to be with guy's like him is good~ no suffering, no thinking, no jealousy. Wei! u better dun get a lui, or else nex time cant ask u out~!

alrite.. thats all.. havent contact bing yet.. he ok? or not? i duno d.. i just.. i dun even can calm myself down, using this feeling go calm him down, and the nex day's newspaper u will see title such as "2 guys try to kill themself by eating 50pills of panadols with coca cola drinks!" haha~!

PS: every year end is my death year..  not to go KL for any countdown stuffs

12:51am 

2:08am Tues Dec 20, 2005 - Another nite..

Back! from where ah? Golden horse lor.. where got ppl's holiday trip from kl back to kl holiday one.. haha! 1st day, Sat i mean, family went there, and i was "wetting" outside, with hige gang of frenz, go watch that movie, perhaps love.. ctually very nice movie one, u just have to be with someone suit, and sit nex to u, with the same feeling, then watch slowly and carefully, u will understand it and pui fuk their gan qing.

Went find huiru, and dinner then, cj did came as well. Nex, back to my house, then everyone tired, i also lazy go the mines, end up bing harn geng overnight in my house, and sent that insomnia pig back to her house~ who knows sent her home she dun sleep, somemore chat alot till late nite! we all here, having fun, coz we talked! haha, blast gengyi! bing also lah, then.. tired, slept...

Nex thing i know! was the alarm, rang so loudly, but no one wanna wake up! tired gua.. and that 2 fella there, not including geng, go drink wine.. err, the hennessy! i drink very little only to teman them. they.. also little gua.. early morning, geng have to back home coz family going sungai buloh, bing sent him to summit, thx ya~ and later, we had our basketball, haha~ no one playing one, everytime also like that, when not holiday, lots ppl, student come to play, after holiday, everyone busy sleeping, so we just train our shooting. And i was 3 months din touch basketball liao, now lousy like ntg, and~~!! i cant touch the ring!!!! omg! i need to jump more! and then and then, went to bing house for breakfast, every foods is freshly from melaka, coz his family member came to pick his cousin back.

Later went pick that ah blurr from huiru's house, off we went the mines, with bing car. funny lah him. mati enjin twice when we going to reach the mines! long time din drive rite? hehe~ walked there abit, and meet up family, sent bing they all back to car, and i join my family, and later went makan dinner, and later back hotel. the only thing i like there, is their bathroom! one part toilet bowl, one part for u to stand and bath one, another part is bath tub! deep myself in the hot water with the bubbles set by sis, slept! duno how long it passed, so relaxing. if i'm rich enuff, nex time must make one bath tub! haha. but wasting water wor..

early morning, woke up by the noisy movement of family.. (i slept on the floor! with carpet covering..so wei da), not morning actually, its 11am! geng.. everyone sleep so soundly.. i think coz of the curtain.. total black type, u see ntg after u close it and light off. Nex time my room going to use that, and ? i sure bcome pig liao!!! haha... packed stuffs, back to lobby, took photos, and went some places for lunch, then back home.. err.. relaxing lah this so called kl trip. Never went to the swimming pool either, haha! dun like swim? maybe.. long time din swim, 5 years? i think so~ haha.. no more membership in lakeview club.. nex time act like father, use his name go in! hehe

back home, did all the house chores, following days not gonna be home alot.. so have to. washed car, my lovely car!~ waiting to vacuum it when i free.. Now working target, tomolo.. mm.. forgotten where, lots to do as i know, whole day, following, hospital in termerloh, for 2 days maybe, then straight away go kuantan, or kelantan, forgotten ler, (tj: its really big difference okie?), so wunt be at home for few days.. cham.. sure will miss u all alot..

24th, harn they all going to bukit bintang i think.. to meet up with a girl, hoho~ bing will be quite busy? hehe.. asked kang and pb, they not free, not joining then, one US one singapore.. yeng..can sing the gu dan bei ban qiu. then, oh ya! got jong hwa!!! he said he very boring, wan join us~ asked him bout the trip, he said 99% fun! u see.. he just talk less, not that we never bother him.. come on, we all go bother him much nex time! haha~ then ah.. asked abby lor, duno her yet, she said wait junwei wor.. junwei, u dun never join ah, if not.. we die.. anyhow i'll be joining them only after my work, now transport still problem.. us ee, dun have way to go, if drive, jam, if not, lrt, bus, nite time they off, ntg to get back.. really headache.. bing, help plan ur day plz.. haha~

alrite, have to sleep liao, i know if i dun sleep, the girl there also wunt sleep, and she dun sleep i cant sleep.. paradoks? maybe she got stuffs to do ler~ dun kacao alot.. for harn.. good luck and. live happily~ u live ur own style, and have ur own thinking, respect~

2:40am

12:52am Sat Dec 17, 2005 - planning to get some foods b4 sleep! ahaa

alrite, why my title for today is something hard to be understand ah? lol~ started my day, early 8am woke up, erm, not a dreamless nite, but.. i think its better, forcing myself not think think "that" thing!! saw mother's there, mean? she's following us to johor! haha! she wans to teman father, and look for the fishball mee only.. ~ so sweet, how sweet when 2 ppl liking each other can get together, build up a family, buy their own house, own car and have their own child.. always admire by those who only having one side liking or something we call in chinese "dan lian". suddenly think of the song "shat lun wong" by chan xiu cun~ haha! maybe coz harn told me bout the redbox plan for tomolo, then suddenly wan sing song.

Alrite, slept in the car, push the jaga ing father's job to mother, since she sat in front~ haha! once woke up, alredi at the store, and took a big bowl of curry laksa with fishball.. err.. haih.. not as good as i thought, i think my house can do better than that~ haha! dun talk to me bout foods, coz i'm pro liao~ but not bout those expensiv foods, that one i seldom eat, so i cant use it to compare, even if it's alredi rotten, i will also feel nice coz of its prices~ ! haha .. reached Yong Peng at 11:30am, then reached the site, a ladang kelapa sawit site, and start our work~ damm nice the place, although all is only kelapa sawit, but its new, some rich fella bought it, and build up the place, and with lots of housing there, for the workers and of coz for him~ i can bet that if u stay there at nite, come out, with a slight cold feeling, and slowly look up at the sky, full of stary~ ,, yo... what a wonderful and romantic things to do. But i dun think will have anyone willing to go that kind of ladang with me!! haha!!! nex, working not bad, add extra 5 relays due to miscalculate. Some tiny problem existed, the stupid City faulty, and cause our process hanged for hours. If we knew it's faulty earlier, and ignore that, i think we might finished very soon. Nex thing, the funniest part coming. We went another place, to one of the water pump house, to test the relay and board. The road is dry, but the part in front of the room is muddy.. so? i carry all my stuffs, walking with mother, and slowly we approach to that building, andi thought that surface is dry enuff to let me step in. Once step!! haha, omg! my leg sucked inside! haha! and i stupid till duno how to walk back, just keep on walking, and? the farer i waled, the deeper my leg was! haha!!! till i finally reached the door, whole leg, socks, cover with mud! haih.. laugh till my parents drop their teeth, and the chargeman as well.. malunya~ but took it easy, since long time din have fun, somemore with parents, haha! went to the stream there, washed it, and work with that stupid wet shoes...

Finished job at 6:30pm, drove to kluang for dinner. The same place that i worked last month.. perhaps.. same date? ya gua.. but its very different d.. still remembered that time, was just a so sweet moment for me eventhough was working so hard with father, and 4 of his frenz.. hard work, but with the motivation, and the sweetest feeling, its just some flame that keeps u going. Am i going to get it again? haaha... wat a lame ques.. its hard fren, i just miss it, and still hoping i can get it once more, but i dun think so, timing? ya gua.. its just some acuse, but i dun blame. Everyone have their own thinking, i just too affraid of something else other than the timing problem.. such as, err, looseing, losting, no more feeling? lol~  Back, we bought the char kuey teow b4 our foods was served! haha, wanted to eat it 4 years ago, when father and me with another fren just after work and saw that its full of ppl ordering it. So.. its quite ok, with a RM2.5, u can get a bigger plate than the one i got in gurney drive for RM3 , with abit of.. wat we call in chinese "guo wei"(not lguowei!!), the frying-pan's-taste, so its nice. The dinner, with 2 vege, one taufu, 1 fish, cost us Rm27, cheap like ntg! delicious though~

back home at 11:30pm, went out whole day.~ ya, good also, keep meself busy mah, rite? dun wan pressure mah, good also, pressure by work, but not that "thing". Just now talked to phoebe, then? she's really the kind of girl which can giv the guys' full feeling of secure, nowonder that stupid skang felt so damm gao happy! and feel no worries at all! wish u 2 all the best~ and, keep it up, waiting for ur wedding ceremony man!

Actually got lots to write, but tomolo morning sepang, have to work again. Then? later at noon hav to go to the mines, nope, wrong, i mean the .. what hotel, forgotten, 6 stars one as i know, coz got rooms from cousin, so? KL trip, haha! it'll be very boring as i can predict. ya, going to renew myself, dye hair? a good step to go... thx to .. erm.. xufung (neh, the beh's gf ah!), sally, and.. phoebe of coz, for consoling me.. i'll try to live hard then, u all take care~

1:20am

2:41am Fri Dec 16, 2005 - again, same as yesterday, readying to sleep

Yo~ er, wanted to start this blog with this tune~ or else will be same like everyday's so down and so on.

So? worked whole day, woke up at 12pm by sis. Nice eh~ i can sleep yesterday! although begining very hard, but once u sleep, u feel best, somemore its the nite i wan, dreamless nite! haha! thx god. went pick mother up, and went for vegetarian lunch. means today is 15th lor~ nowonder the moon at nite so big and round! too bad, no one teman to see it, grab bing nex time! haha

continue, 1pm, work! same rubbish area, just that today went to base 2. test, clean, and off back to base 1 for cleaning job. work till 7pm, plus tired and dark, i just.. erm.. cincai do my stuffs. father and the other fren, was there hardworkingly opened up all the doors and blow it, lap it, while i just open one by one, slowly lap and slowly close back. Anyway, quality is there~ later darked liao, and the car no emergency light coz father has sent his car to repair the air cond compressor and we have to use the mechanic's car, so, kelengapan is not there. dun think that opening the screw is easy, its actually wasting lots of time one! hate it lah...

finally finish! and actually that 4 ACB is serviced by the ppl there, haha! they too free, and personaly i think that they just wan to..makan abit.. but father din bother, since the bigger one alredi makan ALOT! haha.. went makan ins ome sort of places, and we took meat, dun care alot thought today should be vegetarian.. i dun care this much.

Asked few of them, erm, beh and his gf just now bout the trip, they say not bad, most happy is the gua! man! my part! i did my job ler!! haha, though extra bought one ticket! ahaha.. blurr case with harn. i dun think will have another trip, and i dun think.. i be able to settle myself to go anything for now on, keeping myself busy. Just like my father said, dun make urself too free, if not think alot, and feel that time pass too slow. U see, this the 1st day after trip, and the second day is coming, thinking back few days ago, still in penang, and this time i'm still there havent sleep, or cant sleep, so? time flows fast when u got something to do. Alrite, plz help me fast fast finish my life, then i wan go back to HIS side, and dunw an to be human anymore, its suffering!

Continue~ mood? bad or good ah? its confusing, and .. down? haha.. from my haha, u guess urself. Thx kang for ur.. advise? or anything, i just have to refresh i think. Can do ntg, so dun think,. dun act dun dream. 3rd song finished! actually the tune is about to finish b4 trip, and now.. fully finish during the trip. Got the feeling that the nex song i gonna write one, will be definitely different from this, not around something of this kind of feeling anymore, maybe write something.. erm, alone, and, live best to be single? live no good to be human? erm, some sort of .. song sang by those ppl who is not so sexy in lovelife one, not li sheng jie, coz his song all bout love,  and no pop, hehe

Stupid beh and choong li asked me stupid ques just now, anyhow, i told them how and what to do, and.. actually i din do b4, they thought i'm pro in that.. stupid lor.. i just can giv theory.. but me very stupid in this thing, sorry ler~ haha!

wan sleep liao, read abit story book later, then tomolo rush johor! yes! keep myself bz!!

2:57am

2:36am Thurs December 15, 2005 - readying to sleep

I'm suppose to be sleeping rite now, later gotta go back to that rubbish site to set the relays and do the room maintenence, then back home for rest and nite to go back there again for another maintenence for another switch room.. Anyway, just cant sleep.. maybe just after trip, and feel the sudden loneliness

Reach home at 1:30am!! hoho.. everyone was back at home and clear out their trip's stuffs, and i was still in bing's house to wait for my family back home from movie! They "pit lat" me!! haha.. and i dun have the keys, so.. thats what i can do, rest in bing house, with the mode of half sleeping, waken up every 5 minutes, is so weird. Finally, now finished unpacked, and readying to sleep.. but i'm sure i cant sleep well, and tomolo gonna be a hard day to me.

Trip? Its was.. errr.. fun lah~ though not according to plan mostly, but it's more freely i guess. 1st day alredi eaten up our 6 hours to just wait for the bus to be fixed. Its bearing is spoiled and luckily there's ppl who helped us out. ntg much, no bbq 1st day, too late. Nex day having penang hill, gurney plaza and... err.. late nite bbq. and third day is plainly back home. places to visit is less, but then the trip is more like a gathering, everyone's is crapping and zhatting.. hope they dun mind if i did anything too over. Really hope that the any comment for the trip, can let me know, so that i can find out the solution to make a more successful trip.. err, for nex time.. maybe

alrite, duno what to write also, cant sleep and cant think is worse, take care everyone~

2:46am

1:23am Fri Dec 29, 2005 - nice timing eh? 1 2 3~

planning to write a short one, forgotten tomolo still got exams, and if i write mroe here, i going to die~!

Its the last day of exams liao! yeah!!! later will have physics~ erm.. again, my lousy subject, everything having last minutes, is too late d.. study back those equation wrote by teacher, only realise how easy it is, just that must do more to remember the formulae.. haih.. nor practising, now is plainly need luk.

Whole day thinking of having some rest. Noon time free, wan sleep, who knows half an hour only i woke up! feel tired, but cant sleep, too semangat! aiks.. then continue, 6pm sleep, 6:30 woke up! how can it be! my favourite hobby ler! then only notice that i drank 2 bottles of chicken essence these 2 days, man, it really works ah! its good anyway, since body gone so weak in past weaks.. dun let me fall into any sickness b4 the trip plz~! but it hardly happen.. due to sat, i'm going to have a full day work in? lap sap qi! the places where all the stupid smelly rubbish car go gather rubbish one! deng lor.. everytime work there, is ure sick the nex day! whole day smell of that rotten smell, and.. man.. have to set more than 50 relays! whole day gone, with a such dirty places.. sei lor.. sun morning will be having small job, mm.. hopefully not tiring one.

thats all lah.. wan sleep~

1:30am

11:27pm Mon Dec 05, 2005 - readied, sleep soon

Eh~ i got back my streamyx liao!! hoho~ early morning wake up with a damm weak body, why ler? it's the 5th time i went into toilet coz of that food poisoning! really feel regret eat too much.. or.. wat is that rubbish that gone into my stomach!! very charm ler.. vomit twice, stomach pain twice in this month.. haih.. izzit an unlucky month for me ah?

Later on, the streamyx guy phoned me, and came my house after that. U see, nex time dun call telekom, that stupid number 100, useless one, phone the tmnet one for better services. 1 300 88 9515 !! He came, bringing his own modem, plugged in, and no light for him as well, means its the telekom pasal! can u imgaine that ah? i was phoning the telekom for so many days, then they just keep on pushing the modem blinking problems to streamyx, and never check their own line problems. So.. after a 15minutes check up, the guy off~ and i use back the line to connect with jaring. once connected, "there is no dial tone" appeared! scared me, i thought i spoiled the line! haha! mmm, i think is the telekom ppl go refresh my line, thats why no dial tone. And another hour later, i got back my streamyx, !! and, 2 phone calls total from each, telekom and tmnet to comfirm me the steadyness of it. Yeah~ dun say streamyx really that bad lah.. lol~ there's one new service, fro maxis one, rite? i was thinking to terminate my streamyx acc, then register it with a new one, for the free modem, haha! but never think to change to maxis, duno how well they serve us..

alrite, tomolo is mechanics! 9-9:15am, what a shot test.. but seriously.. these days having weak spirit.. i never touch my chemistry! i sure die liao this time.. tomolo still have to early wake up to read back some of the projactile stuff.. stomach? just taken the "bou zai yun" .. i think it'll help.. but wunt be helping much on my spirit.. so weak.. how to go to the battlefield!? this time my exam is going to be so worst.. no in any better condition..

sleep.. all of ya out there, take care, dun get urself sick, like that girl, went into mild fever! minus her mark as she still having zero rite now.

11:41pm

12:41am - Sun Dec 04, 2005 - pause this blog, go remove mask 1st.

alrite, back now. So.. Its been late!! tomolo whole day work man.. just now went to eelynn's party.. haih.. she never bother me lots wor! got frenz liao lah,. left me and bing alone. haha! joking. Just that she's usuing english as her primary language and i;m usuing chinese. so u know the feeling, chicken and duck. So.. overall the foods, catering i mean, quite ok. When said ok, means really ok, not average type. although it's normal foods i mean. Got a part when father talking to his frenz, "your son work what? tomolo sunday, day off mah!" "day off then have to help to work lor, u see, dun tell me u study last minute mah, rite? so when u free, also have to help abit for the family" .. alrite, i heard this conversation, then only know father duno my style all the while! haha! i;m really the last-minute-person type.. plz lah.. from standard one till now, i din try b4study a month b4 exams.. even the worst spm i took last year. I studied it the last 3 hours b4 the bus reached to catch me up. u see.. haih.. anyway, i have to study...

Mmm, back to her house. Nice one.. so modernize.. got a mrror with 3D picture at the staircase there. Wow.. cant wait for my open house day! anyhow.. my one will be small group type. No catering for money saving.. haih.. there's 3 types of ppl. One type. putside look rich, inside also rich. One type, outside look poor, inside very rich. One type, outside look rich, inside nothing. And.. u see, i'm the 3rd one i think. At 1st they buy that house, i also stunt.. i dun think i gave my full support that time. As i can see, this house is more than enuff, and.. its better for richy inside than having such a big house but using cheapskate, although they din buy any cheap thing, just that what we wan, is hard to get, cost lots of money. So its rather an empty house actually. Anything, for now, its been real beautiful, and.. err.. hopefully inside wunt be so "empty" .. haha!

Work will be started few hours later!! sei lor! i din drank this time! coz that uncle keeps on opening those wine, till bing and me, include my parents, each one holding a cup of it. White one.. not so nice, the red one better, and.. the henessy.. if got cola i sure drink it. unfortunately dun have wor, so never touch coz i know i'll be "bang" after that. So now ler.. feel tiring.. have to sleep liao. Oh ya.. sickness i think is recovered, stomach is slowly going back to normal state, sore throat is better. phew.. got back my energy, have to gambateh liao!

Actually lots of stuff settled this few weeks.. 1st ah.. lwl, junwei's stuff.. hopefully they ok with it. And then ah.. my stuff with vh.. i think alredi ntg not ngam rite? and then so ngam that day, after harn's dyeing session, we nite time went asian cafe for dinner and saw hw there.. and.. seriously speaking, no more those kind of.. fishy feeling. and no more.. something like unhappy, or.. gan ga happen.. so? settled~ and el? of coz lah, settle also .. phew.. feel so good suddenly.. what a spirit to gimme str to overcome that much of stuffs... thx ya.

1:10am

10:42am Sat Dec 03, 2005 - guess sicked.. spirit so weak all the while..

Finished 1st LAN exam! oh my god with that paper.. i need 50% from it.. haih.. say can pass or not ler? cham lor.. imagine if cant pass, means have to retake, its not the big deal for retaking, worse is when i scared it affected my schorlarshipS! what a shame for it.. charm cham!!!!

Yesterday whole day is a resting state.. hate stomach alot.. cant put in any bacteria, and the food poisoning caused me felt weak all day long. Evening even worse, after bath, whole body shaking, then only realise sickening. I fall sick again lah~! what to do? whole nite hide inside blanket, on fan but not blowing my body, on it just for air circulation.. my most cooling area, hand and feet.. is absorbing energy and causing endothermic! cold..freezyy.. Luckily nite time ate 1 panadol, and.. morning wake up, felt better, just the stomach i dun think still in the steady state..

Reached harn's house quite early, maybe sat, no cars, thats why only a few minutes i've reached his hosue. Studying while waiting, and parked outside of inti coz sat, dun have to pay for it. Puifuk gwei and keat, they all alredi half passed their lan, and this exams just like something useless for them. They alredi got 50 out of 60.. compared to me.. 30 over 60.. die! i need another half ler.. Harn's hair ah? mm.. i think he felt regret for not power lighten it.. thats why now is not so obvious with the coloring.. His mother seems like never blame him for that, i heard he saying that his mother complained the colour not bright enuff timm.. means his mother wants it to be more visible~ yeng lor harn, congrates coz u're the 1st lala in ur family, haha!

Will be printing out the chem answer later.. have to study alot liao.. tomolo work.. haih.. later do house chores!! haih.. and.. got facial appointment? haih.. nite time invited to eelynn's open house.. haih. so many things to do.. i'll be holding my papers walking around! dun worry, ahah!

take care.. wish myself all the best..

10:51am

2:10pm Fri Dec 02, 2005 - hugging my guitar

Using Jaring rite now.. too bad streamyx down for my area.. or maybe my line only. It happens few times a year.. Alone at home rite now, coz its a fri, and i have no school, waiting for tomolo's paper. Woke up quite late, i think gonna sick again! not that my body really that cha, i think once again food poisoning! Stomach full of gas, and.. duno what's "it's" problem is now. Remember the last-time-me .. once i have the chance alone in house, i'm just so happy. Ofcoz, u guys ah! dun simply think, i mean alone not neccessary to do something which must only do "alone" .. i just like to be alone last time, to have the quiet moment..

And now? quiet seems to be lost from my soul.. was sitting downstairs just now.. opened my LAN morale.. chapter one.. 12pm, only the mechanism viabration of the fan, and some "ding ding sound from the ring outside my house, which's the only sound i can heard.. so there's shouldn't be anything to distract my attention, ritE? too sad.. its happened.. i cant concentrate at all. 12:45pm.. was still sitting there.. still looking at the word "Chapter 1" ... was asking what happen.. then only know i slowly hate the feeling of alone, loneliness, and it cause me to think of emptiness.. When u have the feeling of empty, then u definitely duno what the hell u r doing in this world..

Yesterday went SP. the main theme is to dye Harn's hair. Early 11:30 reached, 2 rooms we had. one 4 ppl, one 5ppl. mmm, lots ppl joined us, got keat, gwei, kang, harn, bing, nuan, hau, ahpoh, grace, juine, even jonghwa's there. Was dragging jonghwa to join us once we have the chance. Just wan him to join more so that wunt be feel like lost when in the trip later. Din booked the saloon, so have to wait till 4pm. And we have 3 hours later, to wait for harn. Doing something planless.. all the while following xiunuan and vwayhau. Man.. i'm damm planless.. thats what i said, when u feel too lonely with the feeling of emptiness, then u will slowly thinking that what the hell r u living for? oh ya, life so short.. maybe one of the day.. i really will go be the monk.. search for the reasons for being a human? haha....

Sad and dumb.. playing guitar without tunes i'm searching for..

2:27pm

12:00am Sun Nov 27, 2005- many songs duno where to download!

alrite.. nowdays me so busy! i mean ler, i'm so busy to keep myself busy!~ haih.. actually what i can say ler, is that i'm using lots of games to keep myself busy lah~ back to yesterday, finished pure maths.. Hard? of coz lah, duno how the teacher set the question one, so many steps, so many thinking and just a 2 marks ques for each of it. Whole thing 30 marks, and we hav to do every single steps, squeez the head so hardly just to gain the 1 two mark, not worth ler~!! the 1st which time after test, everyone is complaining that the test is so boring.. where got test is boring one, haih.. but this one does.

After that test, and i'm hell free.. free till i duno what to do and scare think!! of coz, not to think school syllabus as well.. so ler.. dragged Jhwa, teman me 1 hour to wait for harn's bio class, went rojak for it.. and.. oh ya, sit jhwa's car to carefour, and ler, that 2 guy teman me cut hair, yeng lor~ let guy teman, anyway, harn went to look for his stuff, at least he got something to do.. to be with jhwa.. made harn and me seems like lady.. so deng.. he too gentleman.. harn stunned when he wanted to go into his car, and jhwa go open the door for him and take out his beg just to let harn get in! man..   then my turn to stunned when we said to go for lunch but i'm not hungry, he came out a sentence "we share lah" .. oh my.. like i'm a small lady like that, go share with him! wha! how can he be so good to me! i'll try not to stand nex to him anymore, scare i loose my "manness"

alrite, back home after that cutting hait session.. and get myself close in the room. realised bing also bored till balik rumah at 2 after his work.. really siu yeh zai.. work until 2pm only.. he come pick me up, and keat, then off we go pay his saman! haha! yeng lor, pp kena saman man, and paid by his father one ah~ not hiself, so good. make me jealous alot ler. nex, picked ahma up, and went summit for Cello.. what a comman ghost movie.. anyway.. i half close eyes the whole movie, although know not scary, just ... not brave enuff to open both eyes.. must learn from gengyi, the serious look when he watch ghost movies.. bought serious sam2, finally.. and went bing house then. Install, crapping, back my house install, crapping, and say bye to them when they all went keat house to continue with the installation. busy day rite? yeah.. keeping it busy.. i think.. the whole thing bored ahma up.. hope he dun angry.. he wunt i swear.. just that .. guy's gathering, like this one lah..

nex. today.. woke up by alarm. never late for myself, readied up,  went work, in sungai long's new apartment.. 2 building but each building only has one board.. saving cost gua.. so after work, still early, back home, and let me to hav a napping session. Continue another work at rawang, 4pm. Really some kampung place we went.. work easy.,.. just another board.. took our "tea time" with a big plate of black pepper noodles... nice ler, and so cheap! including the tea, only 6 fifty..  if in KL area, over 10 liao lor..

back home, dinner, but din take, full liao, just keep it, and wait till just now only i take.. i mean just b4 i write this.. so full now~~!!! err.. some little quarrels with mother, so .. weird lah, i usually dun like to argue with them, when they talk, i just act like never listened, but today duno why so bloody moody one, i go talk back alot, till myself feel that i'm so.. lady.. aiks... plz lah, tired gua.. see my ways of writing alredi know i write this in a.. rather moody ways.. never arrange at all.. okok.. thats all.. tomolo free, can rest, plz be better~! cheers~ 

12:21am

10:47pm Thurs Nov 24, 2005- half reading, half listening to music, half chatting, half... half..

Actually yesterday wanted to write down something one, just that the web is down, and i.. cant sleep too late!~ haha! so ler, today only have the time to do that.

1st... wanted to talk something bout my good fren! Youbing!! hhohoo~ saw my title for  this blog? haha! really my good fren lah~  still remember october .. i kena one bigbig MPSJ saman! and rite now, bing kena! So funny when we all (harn, Bernard and me ) get into his car after our "relaxing" session in cc(decided not to go anymore till everything is finished). He knew ntg bout the saman, din see it at all!! then he somemore drive till the guard there, only asked me to open the door to get the saman out of his wind screen! shame shame.. lots ppl looking at the saman! btw.. he parked his car inside TaylorS! how could that happen? So ler.. ended up, only realise he early early alredi kena that saman b4 he parked into taylors. He went breakfast with Gengyi and din put any coupon for his parking. Reason is that he din saw boxes, thought it wasn't a parking lot! oh my.. if its isn't a parking, then u also have to kena another saman which is simply put ur car ler! haih.. somemore can drive from there till inside taylors without realising the saman! Bet Gengyi knew bout it when he sits nex to bing after their breakfast, just that he doesn't wanted to "hurt" bing gua,,, lol~

Long pasar english crapping just now, sorry wor~ Left Pure maths test 2 for tomolo. And then, continue LAN 2nd Sem test on nex sat, continue Mech maths tue, Pure maths Wed, Chem (die) Thurs, Phy (die) Fri !! cant wait for it to end! harn's bday coming, present? alrite.. a H2O2~ or something called Azo dyes! (nitrobenzene)  to bleach out ur hair! spoiled ur hair! ur mother wunt let u get into the house anymore! yeng lor ~

The trip is half way planned.. really half way one.. bing din really go collect deposits.. and as far as i know.. Ckokwai seems like cancelling the trip, he not going to join us liao! means his gf not as well. and then jenyew not coming.. haih.. ho wah? we booked 4 apartments ler.. For the gua thing... reservation has alredi been done. each one Rm10 for the .. not long not short journey~ haha! eevryone remember to bring urself torch light. not the small one, if can, bring the heavy duty one, coz ler, u going to light up the whole surface b4 u climb over those rocks, or else u gonna knock into something definitely~ erm. btw, everyone plz help me to make sure that youbing is wearing his underwear when he go into the cave!

wei!! how to study maths! Differentiation, and integration! how to study!!! Even Nisha said its hell tough! she's done it coz she having some camp for these few days.. why din she at least copy us the few question ler.. haih.. tomolo! 3 hours maths! i'm going to finish it!! and.. for LAN.. 29/50 i got.. half marks again.. hopefully dun failed it! or else gonna sit it again nex sem, and i going to mad !!!

11:15pm

3:21am Tus Nov 22, 2005 - got ready up, and going to bet soon..

Just woke up.. er.. not just, its 1 n half hours ago.. just that cant sleep back easily.. why will auto wake up one?! sure the medicine after blood donation caused it!

Days passes, and ntg much to happen. Bing and Keat is too free, what to do, no class, holidays started, and actually ending for Keat.. ntg to do at home and so called us to go watch Harry Potter.. Since eveyone around the world has watched it.. so i dun have to keep that movie till long enough only watch. Er.. just to keep myself busy, but not busy in using brains in school works.. its causing me headache, haha! so chose to release it in the movie, no need think, just watch, and again, watch. Eh, not bad ler that movie. Thought it'll be some boring moment same like last few episodes.. but ended up this one is more interesting. Though short cut alot, they have to or else the movie will go up to 9hours. 2 n half hours of movie just passed like that. And mean time, sis sent me a msg to ask me back to help father plan grass if free.. and... that "if free" is actually useless.. so after the movie, have to leave both of them with harn and Jonghwa alone, keat will send them back, thx..  .Jonghwa..lol~ sorry ah,talking too many craps on u, bout the.. er.. skirt girl, hhoooh~ u got alot to suffer if wanted to join our gang, no choice one lor~ hoho

study? erm.. i wanted to.. just lazy ler.. took back chem test.. i din copy much i can say.. 40 objectives.. i got 20 correct man.. half, then.. sub i got only 14. overall 34, harn and JH 36.. anyhow, this time i at least got study and know what to do.. though lots of it i just ismply craps and score marks. For physics.. hoohoh~ i appeared to be the highest, 39/40 , hahah~! but then.. actually i just lucky to get one more extra mark than others, coz the wave there i wrote correctly, same coherant sources, wave amplitude same, and transverse wave not polarize. If not of the ques 1 and 2 i see harns and, and not because of the few ques more i go refer back to notes.. i dun think i can get this marks.. so ler, yiwen, dun think that we can memorize things so easily, we just letting ourselves do things more "easily".. hehe.. oh ya.. again, yuktase got 38! higher among others.. hooh, this fella, wishing him all the ebst in the up coming exams~ dun curi tengok!

alrite.. hav to go sleep liao, if not surely been scolded by someone!!~  thx for caring and let me feel better..~

3:36am

2:10am Sat Nov 19, 2005 - listening to web my.fm

yo yo~ my eye! deng.. the right one, duno why half fall, not. i mean.. feel tired of that eye, like very dry like that, maybe the contact caused it! careful man.. i dunw an blinded myself! the world is still so beautiful.. i still wan to look straight into ur eyes..

Talk bout days~ this week ler, Mon got chm test, tried to study, and i think.. normal works and normal marks for me.. as for Thurs .. i did study for physics ler!! hhoho~ so long i din study anything, after few hours of guitar i still able to study till late, cant sleep what to do.? but then the test was quite happy, at least i know how to apply fomulae, and i think wunt be easily get wrong.~ err.. but then for the morale test.. i guess whole class know ntg more than i do.. lol~ no, i mean there is some fella who is pretty good in their LAN sub, but not for the usual human being will do. Aiks.. what what celebration, what what books for the religions.. lol~ nice to learn if u free, but many things to study, LAN is really causing our life lack of time.

ok, all the test. and who knows today the maths! He said nex week test, nobody was prepared for the quiz at all!! he din say anything, and everyone was so relief after the 2 days test! haih.. quiz quiz.. pure maths.. ok ok lah.. then mech.. haih. all fomulaes.. have to kap the formulae paper, lol~ pui fuk jonghwa and yiwen, by usuing only 2 equation to finish whole projectiles! hahah~ really maths tian cai~

and then ler.. bout the last-minute-plan again! aiks.. this harn, last minute till after the mech, i have to plan myself for doing some stuff.. and to send items, and he ended up with unknown answer for the movie plan.. haih.. so ler?  wait for him at concouse, then fly to cc.. aiks.. who class addicted.. maybe too stress? simply joining, and trying to pass the time.. afterall just a class gathering.. with yewsoon there, i can laugh till stomachache, somemore got hafeez this time, shielding frenz! haha! play more shield nex time~

Last decision, fly to pyramid! haha~ then jong hwa also there! he joining us ler~ so sporting! afterall, he have to meet them up in the trip, somemore he gonna meet 30 of them! mmm, but he is quite like bing's style lah, easy going, everyone likes their attitude~ We watched emily rose today~!! err.. erm.. comment ah? ... coz ler, i watched exorcist once b4, the old version one, so ler, the setting and platting of the movie.. i quite understand liao, and compare to the old one, this one is more ..  soft and not so violence.. that old one disgusting! and then ler? i terslept! i can be the editor of the story, knew the story line~ hohoo.. compare to japanese horror movies.. western one always a looser..

errr.. days ended like that, bing not joining, which make us feel so dulan! purposely make a later movie for him to bring his bro come and he.. haih.. nvm, i will never forget his longest yard~ harn said tomolo go holiday villa derma blood.. so.. if i free will be going.. but mostly not free lah~ haha! excuse! everyone, er.. those penang fellas, go think a suitable title for our booklet~ Iris : Journey to the North / The road to the Cave
Harn: Baoxiao trip~    Abby: Classtrip 2005  <--- lame ....   /swt

thats all.. freewebs.. i'll be jumping out of u soon~!!!

2:37am

1:11am Tues Nov 15, 2005 - anti bac masking, sleep soon?

A normal post, add in some of my daily routine. Finished chem test 2 morning, this time i did study, which i din do at all all these while, wunt be a good one, but i think i've try it. Nex time must not too last minute. Worse when i studied the wrong chapter, haha~ Nex one, Thurs will be phy test 2 as well as LAN.. haih.. why both at the same time.. LAN.. what happening to my LAN subject ah? never know anything bout it, how to study..

Sunway's ppl happy lor, tomolo will be the last day, u see, after that all of them will be so free.. and fly here and there to continue their study life, left those late comer... sien of being such life. Chem tutorial had some wonderful talk just now. Teacher's knowledge is so wide, everything in the world he can just use chemical reaction to answer it. Part of me thinking.. last time ppl not aware of cancer, they took unhealthy foods, and breath in bad gases, end up in their 50s or so, cancer occur. What about now days new generation? We took even more rubbish into outselves.. no doubt, in our 30s, we'll having cancer as well.. life.. haih..... wasted so much time on something, all end up, just a life that u r walking thru, left ntg, even u leave ur name, the world will soon destroyed, and so ur name.. life short, go enjoy, and if u think is happy, work ur own ways, just make sure legal, no hurting, no harming..

rubbish- talk alot rubbish liao timm.. trip how? err, so far we need 32 ppl, and i think got 30 ppl is well confirmed.. bing, fast fast go collect money if not the last minute they ffk. ! puifuk harn's mother, she manage to rebook the apartment with greater dis%.. nice plan harn~ any news will be updated~

tiring? blurring...

1:21am

1:42am Fri Nov 11, 2005 - music, and masking

Yo~ its 11st and my blog once again alive! the blogman begins.. haha~! just like my mood, that few days nearly kill myself, and today seems alot better, not coz of this blog, though its part of it, but then other things is more important~ I just care of u too much.. think too much that few days..eh, tomolo go buy TOTO, sure win~ i mean today! haha~!

nearly a week. nope.. a week din blog, and now comes.. ntg to say.. nex mon Chm test again.. this time i sure myself to study, i have to, not to play a fool again, rearrange myself, to have a better life, to get myself ready to be more comfort. I done my maths, haha~ aiks.. i din use to do hw long time ago.. though my chm still havent touch, but i will~ let me finish study my chem test 1st.

Guitar? bad lor.. but then teacher said grade 4 5 is just a stage of jumping, will suddenly feel why so hard, coz its a stage of learning more skills, more notes and more expert playing. fast , speed is a must.. no more slow slow song liao.. even swing song came in. So those pieces teacher gav last last week din do very good, and then got work and got sick.. hopefully this week's i'll do better, andi must do better.. i wan to jump to another stage! to a stage that i can giv myself confident.. and giv other confident, the confidence that store in heart and not showing out, just like i once hav had..form 3. haha! My song... i'll continue composing it once i get over this stage.

O2jam? nice ler, haha~ but then free one only few songs.. the fingering can train here, for the movement of fingers.. wanted to find some private server which hav better songs..

ok, ntg to add... late, i have to sleep coz " knew i'll sleep 1:30am, lol~ gambateh everyone who having exams~

1:51am

10:55pm Fri Nov 04, 2005 - really tu ran lei le..

alright, u all might not be able to view this site till 11th of this month.. why ler? coz.. this msg! "We are sorry, this site is unavailable because it has used up its monthly bandwidth. Please try back another time" ... deng.. i dun think i encounter this problems b4.. or maybe last time they never use this bandwidth thing in my blog b4.. such a small bytes blog but it says i used up all... alrite.. since long ago i've planned to transfer these to msn blogger or whatever it is.. just not this site anymore.. troublesome

Wunt be writing long this time.. too tired.. early morning 7:15am woke up.. went makan sarapan which is a normal roti canai for me.. not more than that since i cant take too much in the morning.. then rush to some where near The Mines there, for maintenence... its bloody dirty there! oh my god. that kilang is produce what one i also duno.. but something with aluminium parts.. so its contain lots of oily stuff, till the floor the wall, even the fan is full of oil! damm it.. somemore have to do maintenence this time.. imagine u squeez into a lack-of-space and oily small sauna hot room, either standing or ducking, or laying down just to lap the board! Ppl call maintenence as removing dust.. this one really can be said as, removing oil layers! one small panel need to lap few times.. then have to change cloths and lap again! from 9am non stop till 3pm.. everyone felt that its even tired than previous job in Johor.. Plz.. nex time dun get this factory's maintenence again~!

err.. just continue study.. and well study. and.. dun stress urself up.. u think u might finish it but end up cant finish the subject.. still.. dun stress urself and giv urself more tension. Worry u later. jia you..

11:04pm.. i'll sleep earlier.. tiring..

1:44am Fri November 04, 2005 - no music, its late

I wanted to write this thing hours ago, but ended up now only really free! deng.. so busy meh me? Just back home from a 3D 2N trip in Johor.. haha, thought what?having fun? Of coz not lah.. work like dead man.. 1st day went, early morning 4am start car, reached, and work as hard as we could coz its the 1st day, we must do many so that we dun left much for the rest of the days. Can finish 2 sides in just a full day, the ppl there also puifuk us.. Its a tiles factory, and i think the owner earn alot! Its growing.. bigger, and now duno eat up how many lands.. 2nd day, work again, switch to other boards.. my work half day finish since i just do the calibration parts. They all was doing servicing in wearhouse.. and too bad.. the panel there really well damaged! the humid environment caused the panel berkarat. 2 years ago asked them to service it, but then they take no action till now, of coz anything can happened. Opened up the city, yeng.. even got karat powder came out! whole thing wasted 1 full day, till 7pm only fang gong. Quoting for the panel sevicing price i think is under charge.. should go higher..

Ok, the third day, mean today.. not.. mean.. the day 2 hours b4 now. Morning early early work again. this time its the front entrance part, HT and LV.. clean enuff to be said.. can consider cleanest in the 3 parts we worked so far.. they have renovate abit, and changed the board, to Merlin gerlin board.. which is imported model.. too bad, its model often change, and when u play the gear out, have to really study it b4 u do so.. and its really cost lots compare to those comman swtchgear in malaysia u can get.. the LV room is going with aircond. although the supply is off when we testing, but the enviroment is cold enuff for us. Tiles places.. all use sand soil to make one, dusty like hell. This 3 days once i step into it, i wear the mask.. haha~ the workers there alredi immune with it i guess.. Actually i think it'll be a bored work.. but then see father with 3 of his fren.. who is called as worker when in working state.. (real fren), they all zha here zha there, till i also terbao xiao.. haha~ and ofcoz.. thx to.. erm. u .. for accompany me these few days, let me feel warmer and lots better.

This time charm liao. i start to feel the head there.. the nerve pain a while.. then come back again a while.. when i touch the parts above the ears, its pain.. i think i going to sick soon.. i got drink lots of water.. but the dusty sandy enviroment will not help.. hopefully... tomolo i'll be ok.. and tonite plz let me sleep better, dun like the few days there, not same bed, slept few hours sure awake once..

So.. nex target.. tomolo morning. means later, 7:15am, rush where ah? forgotten, will write down nex blog.. servicing and maintenence.. due to calibration alredi done weeks ago.. gambateh~

1:59am ~ sleep time..

12:11am Tues November 01, 2005 - noisy fire crackers..

I know its Deepavali, and Raya coming, but plz dun bomb me ler! i have to sleep, the fire crackers just never stop and so noisy rite now. Mmm.. from tomolo onwards, will have a 3 days 2 nite work in Johor.. Grocera Tiles.. again, hard time, hard work. Dusty, and hot... pressure from work slowly flow into my blood capillaries.. started to feel the tension in work.. After that 3 days, Fri will be doing maintenence in... rawang i guess.. Ppl's holiday, means our time to work, ahhaa~ Wed will be ponteng and thats just the mechanics i'll be missing, coz physics will be replaced in nex week.. so many days outstation.. I'll be missing u all..

So the day b4 this.. its the finals for abby and jing, of coz they manage to do it better, and i wish them good luck. Wat am i talking ah? so tired suddenly.. alrite, its time for me to sleep.. u all.. take care.. waiting for members to finish their finals..

12:17am

2:38pm Sat Oct 29, 2005 - tu ran lei le - lin jun jie.

Start this blog ah.. erm.. say something serious 1st. To the one, or maybe u're not going to this site anymore, but anyhow, just to let u know, dun ever ask us walk off ur way if we feel not happy with u. Its unlikely to happen. Just.. maybe know u since long time ago, and what i said is.. long long time ago.. slowly u're alredi a more than a normal fren to me. If i'm the usual me, i can 100% sure will do the ways u asking ppl to, which is the path u ask ppl to walk away from u. Not this time, we all, our gang, which i duno u consider we r still in a gang or not, but ic an know that is, we will never leave u alone, just blif. Take things easy, and i know the nex thing u will say is "i know how to solve my own things", which is so damm cold...

ok, nex nex nex, Bing finished his exams, and his mood bcome so good nowdays! The day b4 yesterday booked redbox, and no Sat session, so we got the Fri. At 1st wanted to have 3 person room, but fulled, so we get the 5ppls room. Then what u think we did? 5 ppl is too many, we just msg Abby the last minute again! asking her whether she can come out or not.. deng.. last minute again, and fel so guilty dragging them out! they got finals!!!! deng!@! After Sending items, we picked tj and abby up in sunway. The school so cun.. all rich ppl ler! and then saw the .. forgotten call what car liao, parked in front of the main entrance. so yeng!!!!! ok. off we go redbox. If we really depends on youbing, sure die! he came 12:30pm.. which definitely the room will be given to others.Keat joining us this time, coz he too having his holiday, enjoying his free time! .. quite fun ler this time, we really did sing alot! and... i hope everyone feel happy.. coz i think everyone got hold the mic gua.. hope they dun feel wasted.. Bing improve alot liao ler, especially the part from the song.. Ai wo hai shi ta by Tao tze.. he suddenly pop out such high pitch, stunded harn and me!

after that singing session, sure we send them home lor. The 2 monkey have to study mah. And guess what while we walk to our car park? The four aliens duno walk till where liao! left jing and me waiting at the lift there. Oh ya~ that day jing very guai, she take her lunch ler~ so her stomach wunt be crying to change master~ kk, we met up again, gather again in Abby's house. Thought will have a short meeting and leave them home study one, but end up we discuss bout the year end trip till 6pm! feel guilty again!! Now the plan is, Penang, coz the east coast is too dangerous for us to have beach activities. Most of them dun wan bukit one, and the Taman Negara seems not so good for girls.. u know lah, so many girls, have to take care all of them, we guy very san fu ah.. haha! Penang again, but this time wunt be the same as they went in from 4 lor. Anyway, i din went with them b4, haha! 1st day Gua tempurung is planned. Who got more info of that, plz supply to eu harn, thx. Then 2 3 days more in penang. Hopefully everything is done smoothly~

mm.. 31st of Oct coming, means exams for Sunway's coming, gambateh~

3:00pm

12:53am Thurs Oct 27, 2005 - harddisk mode stable

Ok.. I'm back to my blog coz the several days my previous harddisk gua cai liao. and.. writing this blog rite now, is just bcoz i'd have ponteng..too bad, what to do? woke up 6am, wash the dog cage. Then 9am alarm ring but couldnt wake me up the second time.. and so i'm here.. lazy to go afterall its late..

Yesterday went summit, bought my second harddisk in this month. 40GB, for 190.. normal price.. and fix whole nite yesterday, besides attending the guitar lesson. Just thought to have 2 harddisk together, but anyway, the damaged one slows down my current driver speed. So now removed it, and hopefully Keat can help to format it and use it as backup nex time.. or else it will just be dump into the bin. Bing'd holiday started, as well as Keat.. deng lor.. my one 10th December only finish exams.. haih...

For nex week, Sunway student will start their finals.. and its damm important. Here wish them good luck and all the best.. from 1st to 4th.. it should be an enjoyable day for everyone.. but not me! why ler? coz fully booked! Will be doing job at Johor, alredi did the dame for evey deepavali/raya holiday in the same factory.. years. it'll be a hard work, damm hard. And after 3 days, will be coming back, the fourth day will servicing at 2 different factories again... haih.. now only realise how stress it is.. working so tension.

Grade 4.. not a high grade, but thats my current grade, haha! everytime feel so lazy to practise, but then in the lesson, will have a kind of feeling that i wan to play well, but just temporary one. hhaha~ maybe too many things to do and things keep me lazy.

Asked bing will he be angry coz the latest outing never ask him, guess what he answer? "no problem" .. he know we dun call him out, is just that we wan him to stay in his study position. He told us he wanted to study, and so did we do that to him. Not to asking him out, is not mean that we left him out. So funny when this kind of thing is happening on different person.. Maybe thats the reason why human is so intelligent, each particular person have their own thinking.. or else everyone will be robot.. and thats the boring part.

Ntg much to say.. oh ya, harn there, he said he wanted to do something, and i hope he really can do it, and of coz, the best wishes always stay nex to him.

1:05am

1:31am Sun Oct 23, 2005 - really hot

Hot?! of coz lah, i think i drunk timm.. non-stop of taking red wine! just now went dinner, curry fish head. there drink some red wine, and after that went aunts house, dirnk wine again! and back home.. jsut b4 this, i took the left over wine, and finishe it.. so now? whole body damm hot! i blif i can have a good nite sleep later..

so.. back to the purpose i write this blog. Is my blog should be blame when something occurs? Is my blog to be blame when i write something wrong here? anyway, i dun feel that way, its my blog, and everything i write here, will be a memory for me, and its what i think and what is in my memory so far. I might think something wrongly and add it in my blog, anyway, same thing, its my point of view.. For a fren of mine, sorry if i did anything wrong, but no guilty for me since i really duno what's my mistake. I face and treat everyone, anyone the same, and of coz i have to leave some special things for my future one. So? fren to me, all is just same, there is normal frenz, good frenz, and just frenz. other than that, its my enemy. I might sometimes think on something wronglu, and took the wrong action, anyway, if that really hurt u guys, plz let me know. And of coz, i might not be able to acpet ur opinion, but at least i can know how u feel, how u think. I will never know how a person think if u didnt really wanted to let me know. Mouth is just too usefull. Besides, hand in the keyboard is another way of communication. Imagine u have no hands and voiceless, how a world to u might be. Seriously, anyone who viewed this, plz consider and think of urself abit, if u wan something, u must voice out, just like my mother trained me since small. When i tell her ntg, i can only expect she never giv me the thing i wan. Anyway, even i told her, she will only giv me such a negativ answer.. but its still good..at least i know she will not do me a favour.

ok.. really mabuk this time.. i think i drink whole can, or maybe over a can of wine.. hot hot hot!!! dun even feel cold even on the air cond.. but the foot and hands can feel it.. deng, still have to brush teeth and clean up! tired! lazy!

1:42am

3:00am Sat Oct 22, 2005 - just woke up, getting ready to sleep

so tired just now, till terslept and woke up not long ago to ready up and sleep again.

So we had out gathering again since today's state holiday. So lucky that parents leave me alone and never asked me to follow them to Kuantan, just to set a pieace of relay. At 1st planned to play badminton in the morning, with my classmates they all, but then later on our baby milo seven members all lazy to go, then slowly influence me, haha, and left eu harn joining them. woke up 11:30am, its quite early for me for a whole free day, just cant sleep anymore from that time onwards, and btw, feel like peeing, haha! coz tj asked me to drink lots of water b4 i went to sleep! She kena bone in her lunch the day b4 yesterday. so yeng.. now, i mean so good, somemore just now she said no sore throat, how fast her recovery system is.

Finished house chores after woke up, means later i just have to lap the floor twice, which the last time use that magic cleen lotion - Jing jing (feel like tj), and thats my work for Sat, besides washing my car of coz. Did i mentioned that i've bought a pair of silikon wipers? Its so cun ler~ i wan it long time ago. After buying my car for around 3 months, the wipers starts to giv ways, u cant even see the road better after each swing of it. The rubber material is damm cha, u know, hot sun plus hot whether, perhaps acid rain? haha~ so the benefits of using silikon wipers, is life time guarantee, wunt easily affected by whether. And the 1st use of it makes me feel so clear, i can drive better in rain i swear. Then, i bought it where Harn's cut his hair. Not bad lah, and mean time, he did what he said, he wans to have long hair, haha~

Fly too far my isi, back today. Went pick jing up, and passed her theAus U megazines, that she left again in my car coz i hav to go back earlier in that gathering. I try to bring for u the nex time lah, hehe.. then pick eu harn up as well, who afraid his mom alot.. i think no more scaredness lah, after today, everyone is going to have their finals. just left this few stupid Alevels student to have their finals in December.. what a long time to go.. btw, from 1st of November to 4th, i'll be in Johor, running out a big project, many work to be done. PPl's holiday, our working days, haha! Meet Abby and junwei, and off we go for movies. No longest yard, its only show in Midvalley, and very baoxiao coz when we wanted to walk to see whether what show we can hav, there come few fellas, asking me whether wan to watch movie or not, they free us tickets! By the looks, of coz i think he's smaller than me, but i dun think other's will see that so clearly gua.. they bought the Doom, which is 18xx, so when go in, the ppl wan to check IC.. and they cant get in obviously.. 12 tickets they bought.. and now asking us how many we wan.. haha! to be a good hearted guy, i acept their offer~ lol ~ insist of 5 tickets, they giv us 6... what a waste.. anyway, the movie starts halve an hour ago.. we hav to rush.. same thing, they checked our IC, and i know they very sucks in it, since Abby only 17, i left her at the very back, and then the front on pass their IC, me, harn, then jing, and then i think they other giv the student id, not bad eh, hehe~ then i saw something funny, ppl lazy to check liao, but anna has took out his IC, so he keeps on passing it to the guy for checking! ahhaha!! goood reaction~ support them! haha! went into cinema, and of coz fulled. got the quite front places, and we adjust ourselves, sit like those no backbone ET like that, and continue the half-way movies, with the star, the rock.. yeng.. nowonder 18xx, quite kejam.. alots of killing. There's a part int he movie where many ppl die and fall to the floor, and one of the woman's shirt is teared, showed half ball.. and u know what? Anna baoxiao from that! he ah.. yam siu somemore~ the whole movie is more like a comedy, said abby.. hehe. and i think only eu harn the one who seriously watch it, coz i can see that the other 3 of them, keng gai more than watching that movie.

After that, rounding SP again, better that anna hav plans, where he bring us enter to those wearing shops. He wanted to buy new cloths, i mean, now aim for the cloths, but nex time. Again baoxiao.. i heard something from them.. 96bucks only mah, ... er.. erm.. ahem.... eu harn's eyes rolling. haha! and i duno that anna so bad, wanted to buy a shirt got words like.. dog and pussies one.. so wai... round till 7pm.. and there we split. I have to go home, since my sis lah! gimme a sms "back home dinner." instead of "back home dinner?" .. just make me like no choice to back home, and nvm, there's many fresh fish, from Kuantan, too fresh to be said, and i'm enjoying it~ after all the works done, the gang were in abby's house watching movie.. and .. there's where is top.. i terslept as i said earlier..

ok liao.. i think i type till tired, thats my reason to blog here, coz cant sleep again after woke up...

3:30am

12:41am Oct 21, 2005 - chatting, and tiring, and.. uselessing, and.. perhaps waiting call, ahhaa! joking

Tomolo is the state holiday, so.. a day for me to rest, and play of coz. Actually there is one relay to set at Kuantan, then mother so good, say so far, dun wan waste my time, he go with father! yes man! can go be as notty as i can!

the death of the wife of prime minister, pay my condolense here. Anyway, there aint any holiday for it. I think its something everyone concern, rite? haha! back to normal things.. long time din log in, and long time being lazy. this whole week, really feel tiring, i think mostly everyday sleep 2am at nite, u say tired or not? maybe cant sleep well early. but then yesterday fall asleep at 10 till morning 6am! Its a rainy day this morning. If there is no any test, i mean the LAN test, i sure ponteng again! damm lan.. stupid enuff, i just finished my project.. at 9am, within half an hour, thx to yiwen's website, which is the full reason for juvenile~ then? parked near harn's house, come down, only realise that one of my tyre, the front one, deep into the water, since its a big whole and raining! damm funny, but no choice, have to move, or else late for class, i mean, alredi late for half an hour. Carrying the Sushi gif's umbrella, white one, so ya sui~ anyway, my foot's all wet.. deng.. i should have done this blog one, but busy chatting! till i suddenly left this thing here.

okok, short cut - my lan test is death, i duno how to answer at all, who that fella who found out so many stupid theory for morale one! what what ethics, egoism! damm ! err... nowdays ah.. feel so .. ok! haha! feel so ok with everything, quite normal, and.. got a little sore throat, every drink more water. deng, i duno what am i talking alredi. see ya~

1:04am

3:25am Sun Oct 26, 2005 - must sleep soon!

so here i am again! really cant tahan, everyday go format comp, format till i nearly cant breath!

Fri, went Sunway pyramid, at 1st planned to have basketball with clasemates one, but u know lah, all the plans, from guy one, very dulan one. Asked Harn how's the plan, and he answered morning only plan. Deng enough, rite? where got ppl last minute like him one.. really haih.. so end up, the basketball plan has to be postponed, and then he promissed to hang out with Abby, so did we. Straight away a phone call to TJ ( T stands for Tzy.. not Tze.. Tzi. haha~ J? Jiun.. not Juin..)    from Harn, and she is forced to go out with us.. This harn ah.. do things liket his one.. hehe.

Met abby up in pyramid, do ntg, keeps on phoning the Baby Milo Seven gangs member, that anna .. duno what happened to him, never pick up our phone one, just sms replying us. Abby bought her Black and white! happy like baby, no more abby.. somemore she go ask that guy why bluff her, said one month only got .. "malaysia version", but then appeared in just a week that super cheap version, luckily din buy the ori one. Bao xiao.. and me? I grab Bing to cash me Rm350, and bought a 80gb harddisk~ so earger to format my comp totally! Watched a 4:20pm show, left sky high, and sounds of the thunders. We choose the later one, and.. kena zhat by abby liao, coz too boring.. haha! sorry ler, i also duno so stupid boring one, till Bing slept in the cinema.. yeng.. for me ah.. never sleep, coz i keep on laughing at jijing, i like that part in the drain there one, the fish head suddenly appear, and that scared jing off.. hehe.. hhoho~ and of coz lah, another reason i din fall asleep, is bcoz of bing.. look at him, see his sleeping style, alredi very baoxiao.

then ler? bu she de to pisah just after that show, asked them to go bing house. They all came my house b4 that, coz bing hav to go home to makan dinner, and wanted to left us alone.. !! finished up the last 4 stoh beh wi ice cream, and.. another bao xiao thing happened. While i was doing my stuff upstairs, abby, jing, harn was trying to phone anna and ask him out. then ler, they got some fella answered on the phone, calling his bro or whoever he is, to listen to us. But very funny coz the guy on the phone seems like duno us, or ignoring us, which caused us thought that anna dun wan bother us! later when we having our dinner at sri melur, where jing din makan! we tried to check out the numbers we'v phoned. And? Baoxiao lah of coz, one number different i guess.. nowonder ppl dulan us. somemore call the wrong number for 3 times timm! then "wat' hiis sister, say she answered the phone very rude - "i duno who the heck is that".. yeng..

then go bing house to gather, start to feel bu hao yi shi liao, everytime go there.. nex time change plan, all go harn's house! hehe. just having crabs, and fun with bing's comp, which caused abby so dulan when she cant install the black and white in his laptop. anna did come finally! asking him what happened, he din reply.. anything lah, i just hope he's ok with it. And if it has something to do with us, let us know, maybe we dun call u anna anymore, can? lol~ i enjoy the time for being together, chit chatting, ntg to worry, do they also enjoy their time?

Back home late, thinking of to watch some midnite show one, but not brave enuff yet. wait till i free, i sure grab anna teman me! back home without keys, phone sis only realised her phone lost. phone home no ppl wake up. At last called father, which caused him so anxious, thought apa berlaku. then i stand infront of the main door, not gate, is door, waiting for his key, and he thought i was still outside of the gate, so u can know what happened when he open the door and saw i'm standing rite in front of him. haha. luckily he dun hav heart attack. Ok.. back home, finally installed my windows, and starting to back up the files in drive D. then found out i duno how to use the new harddisk! i plug it in, but appear no disk! seeking help badly, and i got the solution from keat. Rupa-rupanya, harddish itu perlu diformatkan. Nowonder lah.. then this morning, formatted it, and after backup for around... 2.5gb of files, the comp unluckily restarted. u see, my comp really sot liao, auto restart.. then cant log in windows anymore! which caused me to reintall windows, for half a day. Mean time, having my house chores, and then facial. the facial, pain like hell, damm charm coz the girl found out the substances stored inside, must be remove or else will become "nong" . so? she go needled it, and press it, pain! PAIN ah! pain till my stomach moving, sounds like hungry.. paiseh nya.. haha! imagine each press, my stomach sounds once.. haha.. and then.. went KL work with father.. haih.. work work work. what to do.. no money .. (what to do, u all dun let me drive, then i have to wait lor - familiar? words from jing)  Damm dangerous after cleaning the ACB and going to on the supply.. stupid old board, i think its the model from years 1970! damm gao old.. on that time, heard the sound fzz fzzz fzzzz.. then reset should be no more supply, but then we saw the lights was on.. so damm, till i got a sudden thought of.. how if it suddenly explode? deng.. i so hard go fix my face, then it explode gao gao and i die just like that! till i gan jeong, and tell my father dun on 1st, take it out to check what's problem, why cant tight it on the on position. hehe.. so the problem is, the mechanism is too old, and design damm lousy, just pull harder to let the contact touch together, non other than that.. haih... dangerous work.. and.. I'm still Alive!! heehe

back home, finally backup all my files, and thought to format comp one.. then who knows problems alot! from 7pm format till 3am just now, only can log in windows. used several windows cd. use the ori windows, canot install one, stupid. then use back the "burnt" window's cd, also hang hang. butnow is using the burn one, ori one abit sot with my comp. Seriously thinking that my harddisk alredi "gua cai" . have to replace it if problems occur again.

thats all lah, tomolo a full day work again! nex sat and sun, also got! then follow on alot!~ haih.. where is my maid!!!!

3:56am

4:24pm Sun Oct 09 - eyes blur blur

just back from working, drive that manual prado, without tinted glass, oh man, spoil my eyes! the sun is just too hot, to show that she's the most gorgeous lady in everyone's heart..

err.. i din sleep well yesterday, guess what? i actually lay on my bed, and then trying hard to sleep, and turn up, i go on my comp, play a 30minutes relaxing song, and i go back to my bed again. i wanted to sleep eagerly, but something just dun let me sleep well, oh ya, maybe too cold, till i squeez myself into a snow ball, and suddenly like putting all the feeling into a central point, weird

then woke up early this morning, have lots of work to finish. After having breakfast with family, which i din call for any foods, full gua, or not use to eat heavy at morning, shared a char kuey teow with sis. Off to work, then only realise actually i can talk so many things with father.  I still remember that last year, when i'm still the dead man, i went into the car, speechless, robotic, closed my eyes, din coi anyone, even when working, which father usually forced me, and everyday kena lecture by him, say sleep this sleep that, but as for now, maybe facing problems with a different point of view, or perhaps.. trying to avoid the heart-cutting feeling

Din feel very tired at work, which i never did b4 in passed few years, imagine u sleep for 3 hours, and go to have a heavy work.. but now i'm seriously tired.. maybe coz i'm at home again, and there is too many things waiting for me to solve, to think, to act, to pretend, to learn, to cope with, to deal with, and work out.. solution will be there, just that the products will always be affected, have to see how well i cope with those stuff..

later? wanted to go watch movie with family lah! hopefully the time table allow us to do so.. and the main thing is that i wan to buy the hard disk! i still havent backup my 7+ GB so-called-important files yet.. until then, i'll one shoot fully format my whole comp! left no rubbish, left no regret, left no feeling

oh ya, that Jing is very very blur, i told her my working place is very hot, as a sauna room; then she came out a question that why am i still so free to go sauna while working.. oh my.. haih.. blurr enuff, but then thx ya for bothering me.. alot

4:35pm

this time really battery flat liao.. for so long, my hand didn't sweat for once, which caused my hand to be so rough as now, and for so long, i din actually have a heart bit up to 126 perminutes, and all of it i encountered just hours ago. although the ending for my current story is just so .. use a simple word, sad.. but then thx alot anyway, for the direct answer i got. its hurting, but that answer wouldnt burn me for long, at least its a firm and killing answer i've got, and for so far i have had. "ntg is more than frenz btween u and me" .. like this phrase alot, why not it become just a sentence like "there is no more frenz between u and me" , haha ! that two might seems like same at the 1st read, but when u read again, and u will get to know that actually the 2 sentence is so much difference..
lesson of Oct 05 ~ courage - success is that old ABC- Ability, Breaks and courage
              Dec 05 ~ presistence - In the end, the only person who fail are those who do not try..

2:49am Sun Oct 09, 2005 - sitting alone, but there's not alone in the net

so long din post blog that "early...  talk bout something happened today. erm, wake up quite late, actually can say early, yesterday back from pyramid, really very tired, maybe never sleep at noon, so drop on my bed, and one short sleep till the house bell rang.. rang 1st time, lazy to get up, somemore thinking that it should be something i dream of, so never bother. later rang once again, so have to get up at 9:30am, but the lazy me, saw sis coming out from her door, so i go back and sleep.. too bad, from that time onwards, i cant sleep liao.. i start to think liao! oh my.. what a nice dreamless dream for me is ended, and my mind keeps me on a  thinking state! so deng..

11pm, really cant tahan lay on my bed and keep on thinking, so get myself awake, and clean up downstairs.. oh ya, and feed my jolly of coz~ clever liao, she din bark alot, maybe know that its sunday, dun wan me wake up so early, thats why till 11am also dund are kacao me.. if kacao how? kena cain lor.. so rude..  later, go pick my cousin up, and put him at KTM, and i went cut N go with both my sis.. back to my cousin.. i really no eyes to see him liao.. remember thurs nite he called me, ask me the bengkel stuff, how can i still remember what day is the bengkel day? haih.. then somemore so late only ask me, he duno that attending bengkel hav to book one meh? ppl now nite time sure close liao lah! always last minute, duno him one. Then the nex day, he come phoned me something around noon, ask me taking a cab, from ktm, how to say wan go metro.. really bao xiao, ppl bengkel 2pm start, now noon time, the transport sure off liao lah! i'm sure he reached there, and being halau.. then nex thing is, today, he phoned me around 1pm, and tell me that the van has gone, so canot attend, ask me dak han to send him to ktm or not.. can imagine that he missed the class for so many times.. really.. haih....

err.. so i have cut my hair, shorter, but also long, just not so thick liao.. back home,went facial , they squeez till my face damm pain, but not as pain as few weeks ago. still got some part is stored those dirty things, underneath, need another sesion to clear it off.. damm cham..

din wash my car, din bath my dog.. and tomolo will be working whole day! haih.. then only i remember i got test on monday, tues is chem, then follow on is pure maths and dirty maths, haha, no lah! mechanics then.. better flip on some notes tomolo..

mmm, i've finish my lyrics for my song, suddenly feel so release, coz all the words has been added on into the song, like the song helped me to say out whatever i think or wanted to say.. not bad eh? haha~

wan sleep soon, and.. good nite to ya all...

3:02am

11:55pm

ok, here i am after back from the after-trials-gathering for those taylors and sunway ppl.. end up 3 fella, which is the baby milo seven leader, anna, then harn then bing, ffk our plan! haih.. how could this happeneD?

noon after fetched jing up, went hantar barang. then later eat ice cream at abby's house~ lol.. abit sweet, but then its original stoh-beh-wi (by tj!) ler! then we planless liao.. wait see wait see, drive to 3K, then harn said canot go liao, then dulan.. drove till pyramid, with little gas left over my car.. i duno how to estimate it.. never try b4 to go untill the car cant move when the light started to blink. left it over the parking lot, we go pc area to look for abby's game.. Black and White.. and.. bao xiao.. the game is just too new, 4th oct released, where got so fast have the.. erm.. "malaysia" version one.. the shopkeeper said another month will do.. then go look for my hard disk.. its actually not that expensive afterall.. portable 80GB harddisk.. i thought was Rm400 one, end up RM250 +- only.. anyway, i suddenly think of ah yin kor kor, will be asking him what brand is good one, and around what price should be alrite. erm.. then again.. walked in sp, plan less...

in MPH store, abby they all met up with their frenz, then intro to me the most handsome guy in their programme.. yeng wor~ then ah, later lwl came lor.. and then how ah? we walk here walk there.. i also duno where i went liao, actually not bad when u go around with girls, they have their own interest, then when u follow, not that weird actually, and u can know more on the girls about "wat, where, who, how, why". err, went kimgary makan, then only realise they din use card! deng.. blurr lah me.. then last time how i pay one ah? i think that time harn help me pay 1st, then only i giv him back.. nowonder duno their system. just keep on rounding till tired, and off to abby's house again, to kacao his dog.. oh ya! the funniest part is. the dog likes lwl's leg alot! if not mistaken, tj's as well! both their leg sure very very very very smelly, that why the dog love them so much! haha!!

back that time, so scared that the patrol will habis.. then i follow the summit's road back home, worse.. coz there jam! till i off my aircond, and the radio's light.. open the windows, to get some fresh air.. and sweating like hell scare of mati enjin! haha~ luckily passed summit and just infront of it got a shell.. pumped in 30 riggit, no resit, and asked the casher to pass me the hand written resits, and off i'm on the road again! and fly with full power! oh man.. so good to have a car that fulls of power but not a car that lack of power and lack of patrol! duno that ic an reach home so early on my outing for today.. 11:30pm alredi set alarm, and readying to bath.. u see, so early..  anyway.. now tired liao. wan sleep...

tomolo? ready for a hair cut? lol, and.. buy hard disk, and.. facial, and.. oh ya! sweep the floor, lap the floor, oh no.. wash the car.. no maid.. no enjoying life... haih..

12:11am

2:42pm Fri Oct 07, 2005 - sweating, just taken lunch

Start this blog, a big big DAMM it! haih.. what can do, kena saman.. coz sendiri cari pasal.. i still remember the day b4 this, i told bing my monthly parking till sat, which is 08 oct.. who knows the bloody number, its actually 06 oct.. and today is 07.. so i kena lor.. romoving the sun shade, saw a long long paper, thought was some admirer put me some love letter, end up with this stupid mpjs's love letter... lol..

went to MPSJ wanted to pay my bill, but then stupid ppl go praying, somemore over time one, end up no ppl there, and stupid guard asked me to remove my car from the reserved place, and parked to the visitor parking. Damm the guard lah, i asked him where to bayar saman, he go answer me correctly 1st floor, damm it, never use brain, straight away tell me now praying, no ppl mah! damm! and then guess what? i saw su fan, and phui yin just outside of the bayaran room.. lol, know why lah, she got a "rou gan" as well.. haih.. there goes my pocket money... sobz... 

then ler? bing suddenly say dun wan go out liao, left us alone.! damm one wor. everything run out of plan! stupid! and also, i've forgotten to hantar barang to ABB just now, i shouldn't be coming back home yet! deng.. so later will go fetch tj up, and rush to ABB hantar stuff.. then meet up with abby, and harn, lwl, anna  lah.. hopefully no other "forces" to spoil out plan again!

10:07pm Thurs Oct 06, 2005 - comp's in critical state

oh man.. so lucky that i still can online! my comp damm cacat now; just now wanted to burn something for eu harn, but then comp suddenly auto restart.. damm it.. and i've planned not to off the comp for this few days till i get a hard disk to backup my files.. plz, dun off my comp again! so scared that my stuff is just lost like that.. haih..

back to yesterday, which i din online for a whole day, coz noon time when i on my comp, duno accidentally press what, it auto off. After that it cant open windows anymore. formated whole day, used the duplicated cd to install win, canot, then use back the original win xp, canot.. then went to guitar at nite. 8:30pm class, teacher came late abit, but then duno why, today teacher so suang, or maybe coz wasted sometimes on changing the string, thats why the class end at 10:30pm.. deng.. havent even eat dinner. Rush back home, only realise maid is gone! aiks! eat alone, wash alone, dulan alone, throw rubbish alone. all stuff. till so tired! back to my room, facing my stupid comp, duno what can do with it.. fedup.. and.. lay on my bed, feel so weird, feel so useless, feel so dump.. and .. u know what's nex lah.. slept! haha~

and nex thing i know was.. its 9am! wow.. fortunately today's class is 10am.. or else i've been late for my class. Fetched bing up, and go school, who knows i turn for the whole ss15 for 9 rounds! damm it.. not parking! all ppl rich like hell! here buy car there buy car! somemore there appear the black BMW Z4 twice! at last, that very deng punya bing, say drop him 1st, deng lah, mou yi hei! left me alone, parked my car at the parking lot near harn's house.. and walk alone to inti!@ %^*%* 9:30am reach, 10:30am only found parking!!

its better that the 1st period was physics, late for half an hour, but no need to giv excuse, haha~ so good. whole day keeps on lazyness... then here forward msg, there forward msg.. i think i forwarded the msg from jong hwa.. bout what what do it on bed, do here do there, feel happy stuff.. and actuallly there got another continuos msg, which is the meaning for the 1st one. Its actually reffer to smsing.. happy to sms even on the bed, like that only .. dun simply think~ dun like tjing, she thought something else one.~ haha!

tomolo will be having gathering again?! yes! i wan meet them up again ler, so long i din go out! oh ya, i got strawberry ice cream for them! haha~

10:22pm

3:10pm

today school till 2pm, so now reached home, and free to blog .. but wat to write? haha~ later got guitar, and whenever harn knows that its our guitar lesson, he sure baoxiao youbing again. he likes to listen to his song, erm. especially when bing sing "wei ni fu chu na zhong shang xin ni yong yuan bu liao jie .." - chi xin jue dui from lee sheng jie.. ~ haha! find a day ask bing open concert, then catering again, and listen to his baoxiao song~

erm, sad, why? my maid is sent back to the agency again! this time this one, too fat liao, fat till after 3 weeks of working for us, she started to "steal" something to eat, and the most funny part is when she deny that she curi makan! this thing happena t 1st, when we get to know the crackers we have bought not long ago become lesser.. then asked her, she said no, its ok then. follow on, sweets, sambal, chicken curry, beef, and even the egg! she can eat, but what she hav to do is at least tell us what she gonna eat, and plz dun try to lie on us.. we r not those 3 years old small kids ler, and dun forget u r just a maid, ur brain is absolutely damm stupid compare to us.. lets see why we canot tahan till hav to send her back today.

Yesterday, i went back home noon time, and asked her to fried me an egg. ok, here, this is the 1st egg. at night, mother cook vege, use another egg. so total 2 eggs~ but mother's the one who bought back the eggs, she knows how many left... what she found out was. there is total of 3 eggs were missing. Try to deduce from that. one day 3 eggs. so mother asked her, and she hav the stupid face, answering "no". Next thing was, mother go search for the rubbish bin, and found 3 egg shells. here comes the climax. She said the egg maybe from my sis, who was tuition at the moment. damm her, go push the problems to my sis. so my mom's hot temper arrise, go phone my sis, and get to know that she din touch any egg. Back to the maid, she started to make story, she then said one of the egg shells was from yesterday, bcoz the rubbish outside the gate was too full, so bring back some yesterday's rubbish, and put in todays plastic bag.. whahaha!! didn't it sounds funny? damm it.. plz lah, we all r not as stupid as u.. ur lies is just too childish.. damm it..

we never torture her, there is always full of food in the fridge, for her. but too bad, she is those fat ppl, likes to eat, and the worst part, she choose to eat! there is some vege, left over for her, and fridged it, asking her what she ate at noon, she said that vege.. and actually cant imagine a same vege can eat for almost a week.. that means what? she din touch her sutff, but stole our things to eat. deng.. fat ass.. so now her ass is kena kick and back to her agency.. bet she's standing above the chair rite now, being questioning alot, by the stuff there.. ~ 

so, there goes my maid.. again! no more maid! deng.. work again, and again, i dun even have to time to clean up my room!

3:25pm

12:33am Wed Oct 05, 2005 - all readied, gonna sleep soon

deng, so late again, nvm lah, tomolo will end my class 2pm, earlier, so can rest abit. but then no practice for guitar, means tidur tak lena.. the Lagrima.. not bad lah the song, just that nowdays teacher giving those notes, harder and harder.. and one C note appear to have more than 3 parts in my guitar.. search till headache..

lwl said that her performance today not bad wor, although got mistake, but wunt be a reason for u not to get a pass gua.. congrates 1st if get good results, belanja out baby milo seven gang ah! nowdays keep on zhatting bing, haha~ what to do, no new topics, and wat can do with harn is.. repeating the same old jokes, bout the bing funny stuff, such as.. the car crashing.. the kapping from tj, erm.. bout his personalities.. haha~ lots lah.!

ate 4 strawberry just now, stomach feel sour.. haha~ is it really that nice ah? maybe in other country, its sweeter.. but for what i know, and tasted.. the strawberry grown in cameron.. erm.. not that attractive to me, just got the taste of strawberry, with sour.. and.. a little, very little sweet.. i like the small tomatos more~  

k liao, gonna sleep liao, tired.. tomolo.. another same old day..

12:40am

11:05am Tues Oct 04, 2005 - holding my guitar now

guess what? i'm back to my home rite now, which i shouldnt be! haha ~ of coz me not ponteng lah! 4 hours break from 10am, then suddenly thinking back to my home, er.. rest abit, eat abit, play abit, haha~ its better than staying at library, and sleep inside, rite?

Had my maths quiz just now, lol~ quiz only mah, can curi tengok one, i think it should be ok.. not that really hard, just cant remember those fomulae.. mmm, now 11.. guess someone at the Kelana Yamaha centre there should be nervous like hell... she'll be playing her songs 45 minutes later.. all can do for her now, mm.. wish her lor, none other than that liao.. DO all the BEST ah!  

later still have chem, tutorial class, thinking of to ponteng it? lol~ haih. 2hours of tutorial.. better dun ponteng lah, no reason for me to skip class, and affraid that the lecturer wan us to pass up the assignments he gav yesterday..

really feel very tired this time. .. wan rest a while...

11:11am

12:59am Mon Oct 03, 2005 - hair wet, bathed, waiting to brush my teeth

just back from Cameron Highland~ u might thinking that i've been there for fun if havent read my previous blog. Actually.. i'm there to WORK!! so just came back, and now tired like hell! started to think of the test which will be having on these few days.. damm it

At 1st, i was thinking that the work in cameron, will be bored me to die one.. who knows, it ends up to be a trip.. to let me run out of thinking, run out of everything, just like went to live in another place, perhaps a deep valley, a seaside village, or something like that.. to have a new life, thats the main point! .. i dun like to think, its wasting my time, and distracting my concentration, just that ic ant control, mind.. set? ok.. so.. the 1st day, woke up 5:40am, tiring, not so good mood, bring in the luggage, and went in the car, bamM.. slept.. till reach somewhere near ipoh? err.. ya. from there, ate the "lai fen" curry mee, not bad lah, seriously cheap! then continue journey using the new road, built by sami vellu~ haha~ luckily no charge! another 45minutes, bring me into cameron liao. check in in the kowloon hotel! haha.. really budget hotel this time, and went to site, new hospital which left alone, delayed for years. 1st day reach, alot pressure, duno where is all the boards, then duno will it be done by the next day. anyway, we just continue our work, one by one, we solved it, we checked it, and the pressure level drop one by one. Noon time went makan in indian store, expensive! but the teh really fresh, just like wat anna said "the teh is so teh" hahaha!

continued out work till 7pm, process is more than 65% liao, suddenly feel so release, at least we know what we'll do the nex day, and there still be 20 over relays havent calibrate, however, then din hang up the board, for some, and don have the light in some rooms, so planned to have another trip, maybe few weeks later. nite time thought got pasar malam, raining, so ntg there, and went to eat dinner just the restorant oposite our hotel. all we called is just taufu and vege, haha~ maybe the boss think that we're vegetarian~ lol~ go cameron eat meat?! o.0 .. er.. it'll be expensive for 1st, and not fresh at all for very 1st.. haha~ bought in some chips at nite, watched fulham vs MU.. and then later went downstairs wanted to hav a tea, and father caught cold, haha~ who asked him din wear jacket... seeing him runing to hide from wind, and then the shivering.. suddenly makes me think that.. if one of the day .. no more father... i'll be miss him that much, life is such short.. he's alredi in the other half of his life, and i'll be growing days by days.. why am i a human? caused me think, caused me suffer, caused me loose, which i hate the most. off my jacket, to cover father, and ntg end up coz too late, no tea for us, balik hotel and wait for tomolo's job.

Live in the town is so worse. whole nite got ppl downstairs keep on shouting, walking, cars passed by, then early morning, stupid bus enjin, its time to change years ago, hit us and woke us up! just cincai find a place eat breakfast, the cao kuey tiao, not bad, then drop sis in hotel again, and went to site with parents.. another day.. this time we work pretty fast. bring the genset, walking around, to 5 places, then finally back to the main operating room for pressure test. The huminity in cameron highland cause the linkage so wet.. err. not wet actually, just humid... Mega test shows minimum 30Mohms.. which we usually got 100Gohms in KL.. so many zero lost in the results.. it'll be dangerous to generate it.. anyway, told the electrician there about the precaution steps, and how to at  least get the board dryer.. some sportlight b4 the day of generating will be good enough. went back hotel, got sis who checked out for us, then went back in site to get the  electrician's signature, and off we go. Drink our last teh, which is so nice. One of the funny thing there is - the chicken rice store, wrote there "with clean soup" ... actually it means the rice is with "qing tang" chicken soup, but then he go direct translate, qing become clean, hahaha~! then we go see the nex store which have the same arrangement as the 1st restorant, and there we see "chicken soup" .. from here, we can know that the copy cat is always smarter~

mmm.. we went back the restorant we ate last nite, for lunch, not too expensive. then start our hang gai trip. went strawberry farm, bought my favourite strawberry ice-cream, for frenz as well ~ jijing! i got u the ice-cream liao!! hehe.. i bet some of them sure dun wan to eat one.. then sure will spoil my "xin yi" .. anyway, at least i got harn and bing, dun care those who dun appreciate liao, anna maybe still can consider.. lol~ we slowly drive back to the road we came from, shop around when we passed by those pasar or stores.. bought lots of vege~ and.. journey to back home. ate the "mian bao ji" bread chicken, ~ in dinner time.. not so special actually, i'll rather get a fresh curry, with fresh bread. the road back is seems like longer, coz the dinner takes time. and using the old road for quite a time. its not so bad that we chat in the car, till we reached home, which at least din caused father sleepy. so.. end my story..

and guess what? just reached home, and on9, and something like that, and i think of something again. shit it... i shouldnt be thinking of other things.. think too much, lead me into troubles by myself! and then ler? i dun even know what should i do nex, and i suddenly feel that some stupid action i did last time memang stupid enuff.. maybe i shouldnt done timm, till now i hit back on myself! haih.. anyway, thx to harn and jing when i'm in cameron, at least they update me abit, err. bout th  bao xiao stuff in zhimin's gathering..

tired liao, need to rest.. oh man. if can.. let me rest .. and keep on resting, and dun ever wake me up, in no any pain or any regret.. life.. sigh~

1:32am

12:31am Sat Oct 01, 2005 - xin qing bu hao

ok, here another post. why am i doing so many post in a same day?! aiks.. too free liao..

start to download movies again~ lol~ promised myself not to do so till i get an extra hard disk 1st, but cant tahan liao, evrytime on comp, doing ntg one, is really ntg that one... it just keep me connected to someone, frenz, soemthing like that only.. when only am i free to get a new hard disk?!@! i wanna do an overall format!

packed up my things liao, haih.. thinking that later will be off to Cameron.. haih.. this time not bringing a new year mood, but a tense mood.. working! 33 relays! few more pressure test! 2 days.. impossible.. its not feasible! i'll rush ! 100% rush this time! orelse i wunt be have good mood. mother and elder sis r following. thinking wat will they do there? perhaps.. they go hang gai, haha! work is just another thing, i hate the journey.. its boring! my good nite sleep will have to be in the car, for at least 4hours! shit shit shit! now really can feel the stress from the work. cant imagine till i reach that age, everyday think of the works! i'll be bodak soon if continue like this!

mmm, say something abit on the national geographic  i watched today. u see, how free am i, free till watch those movie! but lazy to study and pratice! ok, 1st thing which shock myself, and feel damm malu one, is that its actually happened to be 3 total aircrash on 911 ... lol.. what i know so far is just 2 plane, crash into the world trade centre.. but from the show, i just realised there's another one happened few hours later, towards US Pentagon... lol~ shame lah, really have to update more on myself.! after that, watched something about earth magnetic stuff.. so yeng.. saintist did research, and found that Mars might have magnetic field once b4, and it blocks the nuclear force from the Sun. when it lostit magnetic field, all is left, is no more water, sand, but only a round red ball. They too, predict that, once our earth lost it magnetic field as well, we'll be swept out to the space, which will happen in just a flip~ anyway, in these 300 years, the magnetic force in our earth has drop 10%, its a large number actually, hopefully.. i'll die b4 it happens.. life is short enough, and its always live in dangerous.. u might not know what'll happen tomolo, and tomolo, maybe just a day that u earned, to live longer, since u luckily run out of the danger every minute, every second...

12:50am

6:31pm Fri Sep 30, 2005 - stomach abit pain

tired! din sleep this afternoon, coz went to do facial, haha! err.. still pain, and then starting to remove something that is stored underneath. few more times will be ok. Min said today is her last day, she'll be going back to Kuantan, to help her aunt who just open a facial centre recently. lol~ so if she goes, means wunt be getting extra face care nex time! coz Min is too good, the course doesnt included the dead skin remover, stabalizer, and softener one, but she did those on me, and i'm sure the nex one who'll do for me wunt be that good. maybe will need sometime to know her better 1st.

so din sleep, course of 45minutes turn out to be 2+ hours, haha! err, can say its a rest there. come a damm bad news now. just now 11something, father msg me, then telling me that they decided to bring me to work on Sat and Sun, which the hospital located at cameron highland! deng.. yesteray mother asked me liao one, 33++ relays, then pressure test, 2 days definitely cant be done! if the work delay till monday, then i'll not be able to go since monday i got 2 lab, and both carries mark. finally they say mother will be following, and father will try to bring another team. but for now? suddenly pop out a msg, say i have to go, but i have planned myself for the eventh for the nex few days! damm it. then father's reply was like "if the job confirm, then u hav no choice but to cancel ur dating" !! dulan lor..... then i slowly think about what i have to done nex week, 2 test, chem and physic, then somemore i wunt be have time for my guitar practise! no time to wash my car! damm it! my lovely sat and sun is lost just like that! i have to rush on my studies, and thats mean will be question by guitar teacher.... deng one, why everything comes in once! last weeki so free, they din ask me work, now damm not free, they go gorek my time! haih.. what can do? if only i have a job which dun need to work but got income! hahaha! dreaming.. sad lah.. oh ya, then tomolo cant listen to lwl's performance! baby milo seven.. lost a team member.. sobz sobz..

how? now damm bu shuang ler, later have to send sis to piano, then.. half an hour doing ntg.. go pump patrol, pump air, then go kasturi wait for sis, then go back yamaha! sien! dulan time! now i know why the past few days so bad mood, maybe i have six sense, i know something bad keep coming over! come, try to have a positive view.. err.. work for 2 days.. sat and sun, means the gaji times 2.. not badlah.. since i need money desperately.. 

6:47pm

10:57pm - listening to the.. "li xiang qing ren"

lol, the song sent by lwl, some drama songs, and neverk new that yang chern ling can sing one wor~ not bad also timm.. lol, really have to update abit on my song list liao~ nowdays too many new singer, too many new songs, till.. every song like very fast outdate..

here come my day.. normal driving, 9:30pm only start from my house, reach ss15.. erm.. 9:50~ haha! no parking, AT ALL! have to park at the second road after the warnet. err.. stupid enough.. whole day no mood! damm down, why ah? maybe its so-called-boys'-pms ?! o.0    maybe only lah.. me is 100% guy! so dun simply say i got pms! anyway.. mood not good, means not good.. some laughter from harn really cheer me up.. at least abit. but after that, damm again.

finish physic class.. and went library. doing nothing, malas. then attend out LAN 2 hours later.. memang very funny in LAN class.. haha! teacher straight away giv exercise, and.. harn, jong hwa, arun, ... blaa blaaa, of coz included me.. dun even know a single ques~ haha! damm moral, worst than history.. somemore i dun hav the text book~ erm.. so.. wait till everyone done, and thx to yewsoon alot, he went get back his paper, just for us to copy, haha! of coz not 100% copy lah, those not defination one, example one, we do ourselves~ off Lan. Nex chem. err.. something bout the rate order. and its really order my brain. ntg could store in.. know ntg at all.. plus sleepy... better its just an hour of class. b4 we end our chem.. we passed up our hw.. err.. and which is the thing i dun even know how to do.. copy? blindly.. really damm for today liao.. duno what am i doing..

argghh! just finished my dinner 1 and half hour ago.. now still full.. its ngau lam min..  "beef noodle" .. so.. now regret, ate too full.. actually wan sleep earlier one.. since sleeping for me.. is when i wanted to run out of my mind.. but i cant for now! grr!! tomolo will be a happy day.. and plz dun lame my words.. i know i'm abit stupid in everything.. have to go 6:30am tomolo, wish me a dreamless nite..

11:15pm

this time shit liao.. i start to feel not secure on writing something in blog. anything lah, haih.. this time feel weird, why ah? duno ler.. personally feel that, maybe i'm not suit? maybe the type of feeling when i need din i get? then actually i'm comparing myself. really is different type of person.. i'm not the type. what am i actually need for these years? haih.. maybe just searching that kind of feeling, or maybe some more secure feeling. tired of thinking, but it keeps me on to think of that.. not understand? lol.. me as well..

12:16am Thurs Sep 29, 2005 - preparing to zzZzzzZ

well, from sat to now.. 4 days only mah, i din blog. err, busy composing song, haha! started the nex song, err.. some cheap song, but then hardly find "ling gan to continue it. time consuming. If teacher knows i dun have time to practise guitar, but not for writing song, then he'll sure never forgiv me~ haha! grade 5... damm hard those song.. see the notes.. which i called "ya chai", see till pening kepala.. one same note, can appear 3 ways in the guitar.. 3 sets mean.

something past.. got whatelse ah? err.. this week bing study leave.. deng one, so fast he got the whole week of study leave.. so i can start my car earlier, 6:20 move.. and totally no jam at all even in the summit there. happy to fly my car on that straight road~ average reached at 6:40. anyway, no place for my car in front of inti, eventhough so ealy.. coz taylors having exams week, so mostly parked in front of mee yoke.. tiring of coz... but better than driving for 30minutes on the road when i start my car at 6:55am

really ntg special to say lah.. oh ya.. park my car in the house, is worst than parking outside! now my car got another new scratch! thx to my maid.. she really.. haih.. it happened when she pushed the rack for drying cloths one, from in front of my ar to the back of it.. and it is so big! of coz it'll kena my car lah! somemore not lower part, but the centre! even the mirror have a slight scratch! ... never think b4 act..

brain stuck. no idea wat incident is needed to be wrote here. i'll stop, everyone hav a nice day.. (dun sue me! i din insult anyone! haha! )

12:27am

12:51am Sat Sep 24, 2005 -quite tired after outing for whole day

so long din post my blog liao. can say lazy, can say busy... mostly lazy more than busy, haha~

just came back not long from bing's house.. er.. no.. is after sending back abby, tj, and harn after watching the Malaysian Idols in bing's house. this is the.. if not mistaken.. the third time i watch it only, lol~ normally i dun watch movies other from astro, and nex is.. i dun watch those competating with different races one. If chinese, then just compete with chinese to get the champion, is more than enough. thats my opinion lah.. and.. sometimes the judgement... no comment...

Nowdays really charm, having some hard war with my acne.. now is worst, as in the skin is totally hurt, but then is good coz it has lesser "substances" contained inside my skin liao. stupid cream! i wunt simply use any cream nex time, which is so rich of minerals, til stored all inside my face! and bcome pores, and somemore keep underneath! now have to wait all of it to come out b4 i can be normal again. That day mom phoned the dermalogical girl.. said bout why now worst liao.. then she answer that face is alredi injured, coz non'stoping of poping out those acne, but it's getting better coz the face isn't that much of unwanted substances anymore. haih.. what can do? wait lor.. and then she giv me a whole week examples. there got.. err.. antiback wash, hydrating mask, barrier repair.. aiya alots lah.. hopefully it'll help, and get me better.. haih..

so, now i want to balas dendam liao, that harn! go simply write something in his blog.. this guy rite, keep on mentioning about HR, but then din take a move also! and now? he mad on jin sha liao! oh my........ this guy abit weird one. actually i got something to write bout him, but forgotten! deng.. suan le ba..  as for tj.. she bcome more hamsap liao, we watched Land of dead this afternoon, and then there'a a part of a guy screaming, she go laugh.. maybe that screaming is abit too. sexy.. tj.. haih..... that movie.. lol~ laugh more than scared.. coz feel really .. not logic sometimes.. and there's one girl zombie, who's mouth there teared out abit one, almost appear in every scene.. lol~ and then as for abby.. now we set up a new team, called S club Seven.. or maybe Baby Milo Seven~ leader of our gang, anna~ members got, bing, harn, abby, tj, lwl, and of coz me.  total of 7, lol~ dun keep on zhatting anna lah, he's so kesian..

here come's last part.. wait, suddenly think of the idols.. daniel.. not bad.. but i like the girl one more. she is more skillful. hopefully. she can be the one. out there really lots of ppl who is so rich.. go vote duno how manytimes for them.. deng those network company, earn our money at this way.. reason somemore so good "fair results from all over the country" .. deng...

ok, really last part.. lwl invited out babi milo seven members to her piano performance in her house this coming sat~ lol! actually its a good time to overcome the nervouse feeling in the heart.. carrying those feeling to play a song, will just kelam kabut..  and then. she's having her exams, trials start from tomolo, end 30th. and then 4th piano exams.. all the best.. and wish her good luck~

1:12am 

3:32am Sun Sep 18, 2005 - why havent sleep?!

oh man! the second time i blog in these few hours.. i just drank a full cup of hennela, and now, havent sleep yet.. puifuk myself.. after i washed my face, then feel better, and everything bcomes clearer little by little..

"scary as in, u take all the emotion the girl is feeling to urself" this is the sentence lwl told me~ lol, talking bout something quite, nice topic. guy and girls.. so.. are they really got difference? absolutely.. just that i think i'm not so clear bout it. haih.... anyway, thx her, for letting me know so many knowledge i should have know since long.. for a relation.. hard.... hard to maintain, hard to be together, hard to last long.. wat for to have a relation? why do ppl will have this feeling? why not just all like plant cells? its also better to just have aseks type, live alone, stay alone, better..  searching for a peaceful life.. searching for the one who willing to accompany me to seach for the peaceful mind.....

3:48am

11:33pm Sat Sep 17, 2005 - drinking hennela

I'm here to write my blog.. actually quite lazy one, but then Euharn is editing his blog, then i'm here to help him to check something out, so.. came by, write ~ Harn finally has a blog~ i'm sure it'll be funny, he said he wanna write something bout bing, anna, abby! haha!

mm.. i'm drinking something called "hennela" rite now! haha~ its actually Hennessy + Coca-cola~ just that the name is given by TJ! then i'm drinking rite now, is bcoz of her also! hahaha! no lah, just that.. i duno why, feel abit lost.. or something like that, i'm too poor with my language, i cant express myself, i duno what i'm feeling rite now..  maybe there's no word in this world for me to describe my feeling? ya gua.. then Tj suddenly say something like asking me to drink hennela~ so i did! lol~ err. this time is hennela plus honey~ haha! not bad.. just that i've added too many hennessy.. luckily i got whole can of coke, can tambah~ but then she's the one alcoholic! coz b4 we was talking, she just drank calsberg plus 7up! haih.. dun think so much lah.. but then drink this type of thing.. for a girl... better dun drink too much, not good ler!

 oh ya, i have a new maid.. did i mention bout this? forgotten.. lol~ she came. i also forgotten how long did she came liao.. my brain never work rite now... err.. anyway.. those maid nowdays.. keeps on complaining, now she said she wanna go back, hope to have those life like, morning come work, nite go back sleep~ and.. i could just tell her, dun dream ~! haha! she's a maid where the employer cancel her last minute, coz the employer jobless.. so we get her..  and b4 that, she was working for the agency, bring her went here went there, thats why she thought she can have that kind of work.. but she memang dreaming, coz that kind of work, is no moeny one. the money she earned from working has been paid for the agency for her living... stupid enuff... so? monday will send her back. hope the lectures there would be enuff for her...

err.. oh ya, my head pain!! i duno why, the day b4 today.. alredi feel abit.. the nerve there pulling, pain a while, then no more like that.. today worst.. its maybe bcoz i din sleep well.. or.. maybe symtoms of sickness.. haih.. panadol.. can only cure me for few hours..  hopefully its ok..

i've got my spec liao~ eh? i think i'ved mention this in last blog, haha! nvm.. its so ringan.. err.. duno what to say liao.. me now.. feel that whole ody so hot.. hennela~ geng!

11:46pm

me.. haih.. always like this.. this timei really duno why liao.. i think now i know.. all this while i din put a move, is just bcoz i cant really feel the needs.. the feeling that she needs me, the feeling that for me to need her. i'm important to no one.. that is so sad for a guy when the one he is thinking never giv him that kind of feeling. so? i have to move on or? wait bcoz i have to wait.. for the feeling i that i need so badly..? perhaps, most guy needs it.. rite? absolutely rite! harn is also that kind of guy i think.. haih.. ntg can do, coz ntg at all..

11:16pm Thurs Sep 15, 2005 - what's distance? listening songs

just simply answer, what's distance? i just suddenly think of it afteri listen to jj's song, in chinese, ju li~ so.. what is that ju li? haih.. many things around our world, there a big big distance, and what we're doing now, is just to cut down the distance, to reach our target. something . such as.. our future life.. future career.. future .. dream.. future.. wife.! haha! then just talk bout something smaller in distance.. i have a distance to the next minute, and while i'm writing this, the distance become closer, and rite now, there's another distance to another minute... lol~ know what i mean? understand what i mean? we r just like something born to catch up something which is alredi decided by the nature.. ntg can change.. ntg can do to avoid anything that you dun hope to happen.. what can do is to improve it, to make it atleast.. abit better.. "zhen xi" whatever u got. and not to let go anything u got. u'll regret after there's no more~

err. sorry for that craps~ haha!  i'm here to tell something happen recently. 1st of all, for today, no bio, went college at 10, ahha~ then.. break time from 12-2, went cyber with Reuben, who beg us to go for so long, err. stay there an hour, then feel pening kepala, then stop with harn~ i think i'm too old liao, not ngam to play too long games~ haha! err, put my 2nd paper at lwl's car.. lol~ then she scold me.. haih.. dun wan say her liao, scold till so .. haih..  she's damm busy nowdays, will have trial soon, and later will got piano exams.. i cant help, i know, just make sureu take care of urself..

yesterday guitar, funny coz i cant play well, gan jeung whenever teacher asked me play, and actually i din practise much.. haha! but then what's important is that, teacher said will let me and bing attend for our test nex year~ yeah~~! finally got test, and actually.. i dun mind got test or not, i just wan to play well~ but then when teacher say that if continue to work hard, nex year can go for the grade5 test! wah ! 1st test go 5th grade! damm yeng.. which made me think to practise harder liao~ although 5th.. is just.. kacang putih compare to my frenz. but.. aiya~ i think its hard to challenge, haha!

collected my spec today~ ringan, and.. of coz not bad~ just as good as wearing contact~ .. thats's all i wanna say for today lah.. havent do my hw. but then really duno why, in home, i cant do hwork one, not even open up my bag, haha~

11:31pm

11:13pm Tues Sep 13, 2005 - wearing a cellophane taped spec!

My spec, spoiled liao, on the last Sun.. err, cheap thing, then use quite long time liao. yesterday, and today, went to a shop in taipan one, state there 40 ringgit one, wanted to do a spare, but then twice din open shop~ mmm. finally, today asked parent accompanied, went to a shop near kasturi one, then make 2 spec there, coz me over 400~ haha! expensive nya, but then the ppl there.. honestly, really very good. Then he tell me bout the contact lenses, Rm48 only ler~ for per box, with 3 pairs one. I still remember last time i buy in england optical, they charged me 110 for 2 box, some dun even sell cheaper than the usual price timm, which is 60 per box, haha~ cant wait to collect my spec! the cellophane taped spec is really made me hard to see things clear~! talk bout my eyes.. one side, left, 250 degree! damm it~ then.. got san guang, so the spec is 300 degree! deng.. then the right one, 275, no san guang..  but then.. better lah, it's the degree i have so far, since form 5, never changed.. this is cause by genetic problem, until it reached a certain ammount, then it'll stop~

I balas dendam for the dai lou's love letter liao~ haha! today got break, from 12-2, when harn's house for lunch,and then set up my paper, my love letter, haha! "Love Letter For My Sausage Girl" @@! hahaha!! when we walked back to school, we put it on the front screen of lwl's car! then harn helped me to pull up her wipers~ while i'm having my chem class in college, a msg sent to me~ lwl said that her fren read out the notes loudly!! haha!!!! so funny till i din fall asleep in my chem class! "Shall i compare thee to a sausage girl" "Thou r long and delicious" ! haha~ but i have forgotten to add in the "more".. so nice to do that! that is my 1st love letter ler, and really stated it's a "love letter"!

Bout Bio? haha! so happy, i dropped it! went class today, and as usual, feel so weird in her class. then she took up one of the student's book, and read us question, asking us to answer, one by one! haha~ who cant answer what she asked, then salin the answer for 75 times! lol~ what a mad teacher we've got~ then harn cant answer half of the ques, he kena~ erm.. i think most ppl kena~ till my turn, i learnt from Htsien Ho, replied her "i duno", haha! and what? she said "never even try to answer, no initiative, plus 5, so is 80" ~ hahaha! its ok then.. after that, we have our notes to read and copy. while we're copying, she's there to giv us assignments again! its again ler! putting 2 ppl in a group, and then duno when needed to pass up. i heard that if never do well, will be getting 30 more questions~ haha! so happy to listen to it. i seriously felt that she's got abit.. mental problem.. like to become "nue dai kuang". anyway, when she was writing those numbering for lucky draw to form groups, i go in front and told her that.. i wanted to drop, dun need to add me in~ haha! yeng or not? she asked why, and i just simply answered, coz too many subjects~ finished! today's my last class~ oh ya~ i din even discuss with parents bout i'll be dropping.. anyway.. i really dun need it~ u see.. Bio for now, is only India need it, besides.. its only Malaysia need bio for dentistry.. and as for local, i dun think Alevels will get me in into any U~ so forget bout malaysia.. India.. i think so long liao, for whole semester, then now decided not to study there.. its really too beh~ then there's always another road for me to choose, if i cant go with dentistry, i can switch to electrical engineering, just using the alevels, same thing, will be meeting up with bing soon~ haha! but i'll still be work hard on my dentistry dream job lah~ now? free liao, no more stress from Bio~ and for eu harn, he tomolo hav to pass up his 75 times corrections, then do 2 practical, pass up on Thurs, Then thurs he hav to hav a test for the chapter , for friday, he'll be doing his quiz for chapter 2.. haha! all is only about Bio! God bless Bio student~  (i rather choose to get average marks on 3 main subject, than getting all below average marks but have an extra subject)

ok.. i miss my words again., i din sleep at 10! when only i can sleep at 10? now so late liao, tomolo have to rush to school again! hopefully there's still a nice place for me to park my car! i wan IN FRONT OF INTI!

11:36pm

10:41pm Mon Sep 12, 2005 - listening songs.. Life's a Struggle.. err.. nice beat

Er.. my title for today! Love Letter!! Everyone look here! i have a love letter today! ohhoho~~ So.. i go through my day as normal.. just that today got 4 hours lab, the last 2 hours of physics, we done quite early, so Harn decided to go makan rojak (again) , .. haha~ and i have no objection, coz ler, 11pm, its fresh, fresh taufu, fresh sos, fresh kuih.. err.. everything's fresh lah~ still crispy, haha! after that, went back for tutorial of Chem and Phy.. haih. boring days. then.. LAN.. Morale, its not that easy ler! i thought it will be, who knows now is more like phycology than normal 32 morale value we used to memorize! ok, finish the class, walked to my car, and then i saw something funny happened! my wipers!! all is hanged up, and then go look in front lor, got a love letter wor! hahaha! some dai lou spotted my car, and say will punctured my tyre~ and then.. err.. the "dai lou" ask me to watch out wor.. and "his" name is "not wl" ~~!! hahaha! err.. then i laugh whole day liao, revenge is to be taken soon~

mmm.. few days din blog again, rite? me decided to sleep liao one, but then.. have to fold my cloths! then.. do this do that, now 11 liao, haih.. i havent do my homework, havent revise my book, havent practise my guitar! aiks! so many things never do! how?! who can come over and help me!?! duno what to write liao, thats all lah~

10:54pm

2:23am Sat Sep 10, 2005 - writing blog, no foods

So, its Bing's bday, a day a go, means.. 2 and a half hour ago, still his bday~ this time he yeng lor, call catering, so, foods is readied~ at 1st, he's asking around 50 ppl to attend one, who knows mostly ffk, and lots of reason, so now left 30++ .. and the foods, of coz too much lah! i reached his house quite late, 7:45pm.. lol~ then trying to help, but ntg much.. mmm, the fun part is actually the gathering.. we r very seldom have to chance to gather together liao.. talking craps, insulting anna, really fun to be said.. i'll miss all these time in the future, haih.. life is so buzy.. and buzy life is full of worrying, annoying things happened, unhappy endings, haih...

so.. dun wan to talk much bout the party, its.. like that, fun as usual.. but then here i wanted to state out that, tj not a simple girl~!! she used to zhat wailoon, said that if he drops into the pond, there'll be a tsunami! yengler! she zhat ppl! then she drink my coke plus henessy! somemore drive weiling's car home! geng.. this girl here ah... not a simple lady.. silent killer~

err.. so, bing's Inti frenz sleep in his house, kacaoing him! haha~ and i brought back the foods his mother packed for me.. and then .. now i wanted to find some rice, or maybe the mee hoon as supper! who knows the full plastic bag all contains the chiken! prawns! vege! satay! aiks!!! why dun have my most wanted meehoon and rice! haihya! so. i'm on diet now, hahaa~ 

mmm.. if a person charged Rm25.. 50 equals to Rm1250.. bing not cheap wor, this catering cost so much, and those present we gave.. haha~ although not cheap, but all  gap together.. so cheap.. malunya... wish ya~ happy bday.. ur wish may come true..

tiring.. guess ntg else to write.. rite? dun wanna write, or duno should i write..

2:32am

errr.. wanted to write something here, since few days ago.. but then comp sot, then when comp sot, plus mood sot, feel so sot, then will be giving up writing the blog, haha~ err. what i wanted to say? just like that day lor, i have an answer such as.. never think b4. its so.. the reply is so.. "complicated". and then i choose dun dare to go after.. i really duno, i bcome so suk nowdays.. suk? or i thinking more than i should. there is so manythings i wanted to say. but sometimes, i duno will ppl read this or not.. but then i dun care lah, if u think u r not suppose to read, then forget bout it, leave no comment to me, this is just a place for me to remarks my feeling.. if u're the one involving, and i indirectly insulted u, plz forgiv me... this is just aplce for me to release my feeling. so.. i think bout it long long long time ago.. few reasons i din go after.. its hard, as in many ways, such as understanding, if she dun say it out, i'll be very hard to know bout it, nex, its hot, for the previous me, i really duno why.. i cant take it when a girl's too hot, coz if she's my one, and still being so hot, is just like.. making everyone's eyes pop out. then.. of coz lor, the moody mood will directly change my mood. there's another one, of coz dun simply think, no feeling one, but i just wanted to say, her attitude, really is the best.. she can just, follow, then joke around, eat still eat, but choose to eat lesser, joining around to have funs, then.. know how to communicate, its very comfort to being around with her. i think, this is what a feeling every guys is looking for.. if the guys is a normal guy lah of coz.. not those richy, yeng ppl... haih.. tell more, i bcome more keliru.. sentence never arrange again.. hope me myself will be understanding what am i writing...

11:36pm Mon Sep 05, 2005 - cannot sleep, not dun wan sleep

haih.. my this little sister, school UPSR, so holiday, then now she's playing ps in my room, and today i'm trying hard to sleep b4 12am, i brushed my teeth, washed my face, but then she's still here playing the games! arghh! asked her to save then go sleep, who knows she got this kind of answer "i accidentally pressed sleep, thats why he (the guy in the game) slept and it another new day, never save) .. deng..

anyway, Bing's bday is coming.. this time he yeng lor.. he said, his mother told him, say dun wan always bday go out, so ask ppl go his house. at 1st his mother thought was calling a few ppl one, who knows this bing. now like asking some where around 50 ppl! geng man! bing wans a big big party! catering he said. haha! youbing.. hard to blif u really did this, so happy ler! everyone of us, especially Abby! haha! she said u damm yeng~ err. wondering wat type of  present u wan.. or u need.. u see, cloths, u have alots, each more than Rm200, car.. we dun have, shoes, ur one pair is Rm300.. , erm.. beg.. ur beg cost for Rm200.. so? what to do? thinking of to buy u the medical book (how to call it?), which u read till damm suang that day! haha~ joking lah.. still thinking, maybe buy u a towel.. haha! i think tj will be supporting, lol~

studying is just so boring. today's class, 8-4.. nonstop.. shit man.. then never take lunch, reasons? save money lor, haha~ and.. actually no time for good food. then who knows that stupid harn, at the last 15minutes, while doing the morale question, he suddenly said wat wat rojak! damm him! wanna pursued me go eat rojak later, in those lorry one.. near his house there.. deng him lah! the worst is, i really suddenly feel stomach pain! deng.. duno izzit gastric or wat.. later if really gastric then i'll kill him!

tomolo.. will be having Bio .. test?  haih.. and then will be announcing the previous quiz results.. i think i'll be sitting in front again.. damm her! stupid Bio! she's isn't that bad when she's not teaching, haha~ why am i getting bio... so stupid. wasting my time! if i can assure myself for a better results, and no need to go to India or in local, i'll sure drop the stupid damm Bio! although sometimes the info that studied, is very interesting, i like it alot, but not for memorizing, its hard...

err. now talk bout that pitty leong... hohoho.. there she'd something happen. no comp~ haha~ but really lah.. very charm.. i still remember the few days when i was in sabah, no comp.. or in Inti Nilai.. no comp.. damm lor ~ i like pulling myself out of this world! cant imagine the world which i dun have comp and dun have net~ but not taken the melacca trip days into account, coz that one.... activities is fully planned, no comp is needed, haha~ erm.. then u know what? asking why she needed to on badly, she answered that she havent finish her movies which downloaded! haih... no comment.. this lazy head ah.. so.. see ya once in a week..  haih.. ..  lesser stupid face.. lesser sausage head.. and become more lazy head..

hope tomolo stomach wunt pain anymore~

oh man.. just scolded.. errr. shout at my sis .. haha~ deng one wor, she just finished her "another" day in the game, and she'd save it, but then she still playing with it, really wanna wait till i scold only stop.. haih...

11:51pm

1:04am Sat Sep 03, 2005 - now only start to blog

erm..., yesterday, i mean the day b4 today, it's our baoxiao queen's bday! Abby, so hows ur day?

early morning, attend the Maths class.. 2 hours, and it continue with another hour of mechanics! boring like hell.. i was using the 3 periods to revise my Bio, later got quiz~ and.. my classmates was just so damm dak han today, they nominate my name as class representative! of coz there is others, but this time teacher giving rules, which every student can only vote for 4 ppl.. and.. finally the results was.. lvhau be the class rep, i'm the assistants.. oh my god! how can this thing happened to my life! damm Cheraq! how dare u nominate my name! DAmm it lah! and whole class was like so happy to make this fun to me! haih... its not fun at all ler.. then look at the schedule.. i  have to attend meeting on 21st and 28th of Sep.. both Wed! 3-4pm! which is the day that ic an go home at 2pm! damm it! wasting my time! i hate to be like this.. honestly.. i should have been done something wrong thats why the god wanna denda me!

nvm.. just continue.. i had my Bio later, and, of coz, i sit in front of teacher, haha! so funny when i sit in front.. which i never try b4 since long. its still ok bcoz teacher never teach, she just gave quiz, and after answering can go. erm. 5 ques.. if got study sure can answer.. but i dun think i can. haha! teacher somemore said something to me "u can go back to sit at the back one, rite? " deng.. thats mean wan me to get A only.. aiks!  .. forgot the check bout the aimst institute.. i'll do it now!

and.. after Chem.. Harn followed me to go home, then found out that my maid.. zao lou liao! bao xiao! she packed all her things, walking like dead ppl, alone, stupidly, so dump, till taipan there, and those muslim ppl saw her and tried to talk to her, and found out that she was a running  maid since she cant speak anything at all~ hahah! wat a dump maid i have had.. i really duno why.. our whole family treat this maid.. can consider as the best, i dun even scold her once, since the day she came! as for those old one, the 1st or second days, i alredi treat them really damm sui! haih.. maybe this time this maid, really abit too young, thinking not mature yet.. she might think that she can go back once she feel dun wanna work.. i think she's wrong.. my family wunt get her anymore, eventhough she wanna come back, she'll be.. living by her own, after parents get her back into the agency~ so for now.. i have to work back on my own! sobz sobz.. how many months more do i have to wait.. again! du lan ah! nex maid! i'll never be so kind anymore! err.. just now when came back, parents told that.. the maid really got something wrong one, coz when the agencies' there asked her to stand ont he chair and lecture her.. she laughing, haha~  i mean.. smiling~ mental problem...

errr.. so.. no maid, have to work all the things, wash this and that, clean the cage and so so.. till finish, its late! and rushed to pyramid, with the patrol indicator lighten! but its ok lah, wunt be half way no patrol gua~ errr.. met them up, and wished Abby~ have the cake in secret recipe~ then.. go for movies.. bing and my favourite star! i duno the name, haha! but the show is Duke .. something something, deng.. why dun i remember it ah? short of memory! and then.. lwl went back liao..  coz Anna just came, and we must at least eat dinner, or else he's wasted his time to come this long.. had out dinner in the.. where ah? the chili chicken thing~ haaha! dun remember the name again! he's sick! so good, haha~ everyones sick.. its the season.. go drink more water~ especially those haven been affected --- this is for the sausage girl!

thats all lah.. its the day.. haih.. hav to finish my bio ques tomolo, to send them the info i'll get.. lazy nya...

1:24am

12:37am Sat Aug 13, 2005 - Havent brush my teeth~

ok, Here comes my blog.. since July25, i din blog.. haih.. y ler? too busy with college work.. not school work, ahha!! erm.. here presenting, there presenting, then test this test that... somemore.. this week i have had my first term exams.. u say ler? result good or not? of coz not lah! I was always thinking that Bio will be the hardest one, who knows its become the easiest... Chem.. i dead liao.. then maths.. pass is sure.. but A is no more.. of coz no more.. cant see the solving method.. for today's? Shit lor.. 1 hour for 40 MCQ ques.. (objective, and mostly calculation!!) , then another hour for 8 question of subjective! how to finish?! and..  not to say how to finish, is.. how to solve it? so hard lah! i really hate of application..  dun like to use otak alot.. knew that i'm practical type.. how? no average of B in the result, will let me void myself of my scholarship.. die lor...

Just came back from Tanjung.. not rambutan! its the mamak store, USJ9 one.. mmm, lwl, abby, anna, tj, harn attended.. then discuss bout something.. and? talk so much crap.. i like to listen to abby's jokes and anna'a as well.. the one.. erm... "limau Saa---~ t~tt~ uuuu~~!" haha! so fun lah, always so fun when being around with them. talk and laugher, no need think others so much... relaxing.........  erm, today duno why lah, like dreaming, poured my drinks on the table, then fell the cup, aiks.. then end up? they say i'm look so sleepy, or like not feeling well.. haha.. me 100% ok~ !

my heart so pain today, just now help mother sent items to ABB. then when coming out, need to cross a lane, and? the line there is stated the cars canot be in the right lane, except that u wanna make a turning.. so i mah straight away cross it lor, who know a stupid fella stupid kancil potong car, and i appeared to be the one who is blocking his road since he is driving in the right lane.. deng one.. and i have no time to do slow turn liao, somemore canot go straight till the left lane of that road coz there is another car! deng.. mah staright away turn all my stering to the right side lor, and? the car gegar abit, and i was thinking that my door is scratch! what bout the kancil?! that fella go horn mE! deng him! after that, bu shuang liao, go a road side, check the car.. and so luckily, just the rim is scratch,.,,, phew.. cant imagine the door.. haih.... nex time i'll buy big car.. Prado will one time let the kancil die!

ok, back to the noon time activities.. haha. my story terbalik one! haha! this is a type of tecnique use to plat a story, ahhaha! erm.. Harn joked to wmay and said that SJ got go for redbox~! haha, then forcing wm to come.. after picking up the stock which i have to sent, and wm, straight away rush to pyramid.. funniest thing happened.. haha! the girl say that we came too late, the room is taken! haha!! taken man! then can choose for sesion 2:30pm to 5:30pm... lol.. RM22+++ per person.. sot one..... haha! ended up.. met Aaron Leong, and we all go watch fantastic 4.. the effect quite good.. story line.. ok ok lah.. not bad... not like the lousiest movie i had ever see.. "The Jacket" ! that one.. haih.. go watch by urself, and tell me the results..

ok, finished.. tomolo will be going to summit, wanna meet lynn. will she be there 1st? later fong my fei kei.. bing will finish his exam round 11am.. hopefully he come on time, at least we can play pool after that~! long time din play liao ler~~ although i know my skill sucks.. haha ! quite fun lah..

tired... wanna go washroom liao

end here~~ `12:58am

9:37pm Mon July 25, 2005 - getting ready for chem presentation..

Very tired every weekdays.. study study...  had my Bio presentation this morning, and i'm in the 1st group.. too bad.. never think b4 teacher will giv us question 12 or 13.. its damm hard! what genetic code, transcription and the translation.. somemore speack in english.. and i hav lost all the idea i hav during the presentation.  other groups do quite well, ended by 14 for each group, but my group is only 12, sorry to them who so unfortunately having me in their team..

tomolo? will have my second presentation.. Chem presentation.. will die once again... hate presentation.. choosing A levels is just bcoz i dun like do all type of coursework and presentation, but who knows, the semester exams need these kind of things... later still need to transfer some of my points into the mahjong papers..damm! then leR? later got bio 1st chapter quiz, and then ler? 2pm will hav my second LAN exam! deng lor.. stupid enough.. somemore the test will be up to page 107.. and we was still in page 50++ till now.. study on our own.. anyway, its useless though even teacher had complete the teaching.. coz she is.. haih..no comment..

haven practice guitar! lol, everytime also hav to repeat this! haha.. no choice, coz that is one of my part in every week.. so.. hav to say it almost everytime.. mmm, oh ya, some one told me that she is quite confusing now wor, lol. there is a guy who asked her to be his partner in the prom! wow..~ can see that she's so happy, and? that guy isn't from our college, and? she knew him not even long enuff compared to others.. of coz, they r very "suk" wor, she said one.. so? congrates her lah~ who is that LADY ah? erm.. er.... duno ......                             SJ 
my mui ah.. i knew that she facing some problems recently, but then. i also duno how can help in that.. but as u grow, that type of things is often happens, relationship is not constant.. that is one of the theory.. "ri jiu sheng qing", everyone does know.. cheer up k?

the stupid girl ah! stupid lynn! how can u be so blurr one! can even remember my phone number wrongly!@ !!! do u know what she told me? she say wor, she called me last few days, then my phone keep on engage! whaha! of coz lah! u see, my phone number is 9010380 and? she go dial 1090380!!  aiyor! why so blurr! mmm, oh ya.. her phone kept back by her father liao, haha! coz she sent too many sms, which let her father caught her curi back her hp to use.. mm, too bad lah........ dun be so notty! and dun be so lazy! pig.....

3:12am Mon July 25, 2005 - just woke up.. after this will be sleep again..

haha.. what i'm doing at this time? lol.. i was sleeping just now, and then suddenly woke up.. and. go finish of my Bio practical reports, and then? Help mother to look over the White Horse tile's factory location... and, lastly came here to drop a sentence or two for the past of these few weeks...

Exams is going to come soon.. 1st exam will be 6th of Aug, LAN! damm! i hate exams.. and its even more pressure bcoz if i dun get at least a B for this time, then my schorlarship might be voided.. sounds so serious.. haih... this is the disadvantage of taking schorlarships.. Tomolo early in the morning will be doing presentation.. Bio again.. always this bio that bio.. wanna kill that lecturer soon! how? tomolo need to wear formal.. ask her to go die lah.. i will not wear that.. and.. i dun even prepare for my presentation.. lets see what will be done then.. (quite anxious...) then tues will hav my chemistry presentation! oh no... this call higher level study... non stop of presentation .. assignments.. shit!

went to see my new house just now, mmm.... i think 40% of it was broken down, ahaha... now is left the rangka.. from inside, feel that its small, but then viewing from outside seems so big.. duno, maybe that is the point of view.. i'm sure if the house is finish renovation, it'll be very big..  Practicing of my guitar? haha.. just a pieaces i've practiced  ... left 3 more to go.. this thurs will be having the chance to see the guitar that i'll buy soon.. not an expensive one, just that it's an acoustic guitar, buy and play for fun.. really is beh guitar as i know, wait till higher level only  buy better one..

last wed, having schorlarship ceremony in Inti Nilai, hhaha, i went back to that college again~! its seems so lovely now.. that day i wear so funny, coz i dun hav formal, and thats why i wear the cloths from my father.. erm.. haha.. funny.. thats the look when i wear that cloths.. and that slack.... haih, nvm lor, its the ...maybe last time for me to weat that type of clothing gua.... paisehnya, look so . yucks!....

hav ntg to say liao lah~ wasted lot of money these few months, now left ntg... somemore waste money on phone calls.. now getting ready to be question by mother why the phone bills increased!   written a song.. eh, not.. is halfway.. hope to finish that song soon, then it'll be the 1st pieace written by -Alan Chai!

- 3:33am

lol.. i feel weird..... never call these few days.. the last time we make a call was.. wed, that time she cried coz of her report card.. and then never call liao.. my theory was proven right.. just a fren to talk she wants, and then the part of the guy that tutorial her in the pass.. i think he is in the same situation as me, haha.. no free lunch from a guy....... excepts that he's a stupid! yesterday.. Sat lah i mean.. having basketball, then wondering why no ppl playing there, then only know that the school of usj 13 is having function.. then saw cheerleadings walking inside.. i thought i saw her... the skinny one, small one, at the back of 3 girls.. but then no response when she pass by.. although its far, but she could be seeing me, anyway.. yet another conclusion for that.. dun wan to see gua.... finish it off lor... off.....

12:32am Sat July 16, 2005 - tired of driving

phew... so damm lazy these few weeks, till there is many things to wrote down but then? forgotten liao..

back to the very very recent one, last Sat, Si Jie hav a fairwell party, mmm.. early noon, all rush to redbox to show their skills, haha!! but then bing was late! for an hour! haha.. i like Abby singing toxic, so enjoy, and the MTV was so.. haih... too sexy to watch, it should be 18sx! just after that, all of us went Si Jie's house straight away.. They helped her alot, in setting up the party, but not me, haha~ too lazy mah.. thx Harn for helping me bbq the whole nitez! quite enjoy it, and of coz, one of the reason is- there's seldom so many ppl gather together~ happy to see them once again... tired that day, but not as tired as Bing, coz he;s the driveR! Si Jie! thx for it~ those chops are nice!~ and.. wish ya all the best in ur Norway~ and.. meet ur dream guy(s) there lah~

Having so many assignments these few weeks~ once of it, was the Bio~ damm it.. i really duno what she wants.. everyone from the class copy the thing from internet and paste it in to her, and i do the same thing, then she was like.. she click in, just like viewing some webpage~!! damm her.. in the student evaluation, i wrote her badly, hope she enjoy it! really hate her alot, deep from the heart.. torturing seems like entertainment for her..

Here comes the second party, haha~ actually not party lah, is just that we beg Si Jie so much that we said we like the "pumpkin friedrice", thats why she hav another party, for few of us to gather once again. Here goes, Bing Harn Loon, CLW, Keat, Kang.. some of them ffk, say cant go at the very last minutes.. learned the procedure to cook the friedrice from her mother, quite easy ler... but then, i'm sure not as good taste as she does...! Thx alot!! the speghetti is another delicious food there.. hope i caan bring it home! hahah!! later, having snooker near her house.. haih.. i duno how to play ler.. prefer pool more liao, its smaller but easier to control.. not like snooker..  after that, went home, and? lost our ways ! haha!! luckily got Kang, then brought me to the Old Klang Road highway.. tired of coz........

12:52am

here, something last to write down... Winnie asked me some funny ques yesterday, whether me serious on lynn or not, lol~ funny hor, how to answer those thing. mmm.. nvm, go to another part.. i was figuring out.. why i'm single all the while, since small till now, not even fall in real love b4.. then only i know, one of the reason, is just so easy that the one i wan, dun wan me, and as for another reason, is simply bcoz the one never gimme any secure feeling, which make me feel so lost.. Lynn is just so cute, never heard from any girl as cute as her b4.. funny though...coz? when she talked to me something bout her ex, then i suddenly felt so.. lost.. isn't a good feeling, as far as i know, i dun feel good is maybe bcoz i duno is she that type of serious one, or just.. when staying near, being together, then its call a relation, but when separated apart, the relation will be broken so easily.. thats not what i hope to get for.. that is what i think for so long these days.. quite serious actually.. ok, back to all sort of things that begins, who knows, perhaps all the while is just that me perasan alone~ haha~ then it'll be the dumness joke i experience so far. whats a life is, funny......

12:52am Sat July 09, 2005 - feeling.. erm...

long time din blog, hoho, why? dun feel like telling story mah~ tomolo's si jie gonna have her fairwell party~ yay~~! she's going to Norway ler, smart hor? but unfotunately, i have to work tomolo morning, thats why asked my father to make an earlier move, so that can finish early, and go redbox~ mmm, do we still short of ppl ah? we booked for 8 person, but then now appear only 6, how?! hopefully it fill up~ after that will be going to si jie's house celebrate~ lamb chop~ man.. who gonna bbq for me this time? see who so free, make liao dun wan eat one..

really tired, everyday school, lecture, then practical~ today got practical evaluation, haha~ what i did? i make almost all B for chem teacher, and Bio? haha, that one.. C and D.. haha~ sometimes she's very good, but anyway, i dun like her, duno why, maybe too many works, then like to ask alot gua... i wanna drop it, who knows india said Bio is compulsory for dentistry ler.. deng.. 

Just finish keng gai with lynn. like talking with her ler, so cute the voice, and .. erm, lots lah, know how to talk, the best~ i felt that her talking style like one of my fren, but then i duno who liao, need to refresh back..  really like someone, whose voice is that ah? haha.. anyway, mother sure gonna kill me liao, these few days calling to hp without stoping, the bill will be long enuff to kill me... better tell her nex time i cant talk too long, wasting time and money.. haha!!  she sick liao, so wish her recover soon lah. just take care..... n... ntg lah... haha~ ~!

really tired liao lah, feel thirsty.. sleep tight everyone~ 1:01am

8:55pm Sun July 03, 2005 - tomolo school, bored...

so fast, weekends ended.. deng, why the time passed so fast?! anyway, have to face it, no matter how...

parents not in, mean family not in, coz they went makan durian, and i was playing bb just now.. went for cheerleading competition just now.. Winnie asked us to support them, and actually can go yesterday one, but then yesterday bing not free to do so..  and as for today, morning i hav work, delayed till 2 something only reach bukit jalil, and it was late to see their performance..

the competition quite ok lah.. some team really very beh.. saw mei yee, then yee shuang, and then.. aaron, wow, he tin like hell.. cant imagine he's the fat boy we used to have fun with last time.. the results of the competition was out after 3 songs from the malaysian idol 2004. her voice damm geng.. nowonder she's the 1st.. chs never get a prize, and as well as usj 13 too.. sad to hear that..  later when they all gather outside of the stadium, saw Ee Lynn crying wor. how ler? haih.. she also dun wan talk to me liao, means i ntg can do liao lor... sorry ler~  there's another year for u to win, just try ur best. if u dun loose, ppl how to win, rite? dun take it too seriously lah, just promised u'ved done ur best, then there'll be no more regret.

mmm.. sien lah, now like waiting to die like that, coz from tomolo onwards, another week to go, stupid schooling.. feel bored liao.. form 5 is betta, everyday sleep, then wake up, not even need to listen to any teacher.. but now? cant even sleep.. somemore got that fatty bio teacher, and all those test test test! !! oh ya, hate it when saying Alevels still need presentation! i get Alevels is just becoz it dun have presentation, who know the bio and chem lecturer love it alots.. damm~

haih.. what to say ler.. i feel lost again. oh ya, harn told me he hav had a crush, still wondering who's the girl is.. he dun wan tell me.. as for me.. haih.. i duno what to say liao, i dun think the girl like me at all. maybe that just some kind of good feeling, but not like, thats why i din feel lots, and what i wan is betta feel.. suan le ba.. go on with my school life, and waiting for my other hand...

11:41pm Wed June 29, 2005 - never study Bio!

Today is a special day ! why ler? coz hor, today is LWL's bday!!! hhoohho! sorry ler, dun hav present for u! haha ~ but i heard u say that u legal to get married liao wor, legal to go 18sx movie liao wor~ u ah~!! dun always go clubbing! wish u happy bday lah~ happy u know~

that day, erm.. when ah? Mon i think, talked to sijie, then realise that day bout the lrt station thing.. erm.. she said its joking. coz that time she really need someone to send her back mah~ not choice lor~ haih.. anyway, congrates coz she know how to take KTM back to her house! haha~!

erm... to write this blog here, coz really got something to say mah~ at 1st i duno should i write something that is quite.. erm.. private in here, coz u know lah, few of my frens' blog so famous, till their link to my page is slowly bcome.. haih..  a little bit popular to look for.. so.. haih.. anyway, i'll still write whatever i wish to talk here, coz at last, its my blog, rite? hoho..~ need to find a day to save all my blog liao lah, if not one of the day if the server down, then mah cham?! 2 years my stories man...
back to main thing, this few weeks, playng in bball court all the eve whenever we free~ so? of coz sometimes will have the chances to gap lui one lah. so winnie is the one who we seldom talk for so long coz of our spm! she bring her frens along one of the day to play bb. and? the girl seems so cute, whaha! oh ya, winnie joins the cheerleadin club! yeng... why mostly all of them like cheerleadin one ah?maybe fun when being throw up high in the sky gua... so? just now, eve i mean, cycling to the court, trying to avoid passing by the group of cheerleadin, coz u know lah, later not yeng, let them laugh only. who knows winnie called me up! so? go to her, and then she was trying to ask me whether bing got tell me the secret or not, so.. act as duno duno like that, and she finally tell me something! haha! hohoho~ what did she said ah? yeng lor...  erm, then after that, i continue with my bb~ and, later saw that girl passing by, coz they dismiss liao, and i just wave a hand to her, and go back to be my suk cun guy liao~ damm! dun even dare to go near her or what! why ah? haih.. dun blame, too many failure leads me to no more confidents..  guess she wanna know me as well, riite? hohoho! hope one of the day, can at least know her name~  As for what harn said "go after her, but have to see well 1st, study most importance" - like my granma!

deng bing lah, drop his car to the drain, now have to drive to school! deng! tired! anyway, its passed 29th of june, last wish for lwl, all the best!

12:08am - 30th

stupid harn, coz he talked something that makes me so agreed! we went out too oftenly with 2 girls, erm.. i should say the 2 that we always call them fat! haha.. sorry ler.. so now he say wor, should sometimes change partner, so i agree 100% maybe thats also the reason why we bcome so virgin in the pass 18 years! deng! weimay, u'll be our hanggai partner soon! haha!

2:06am Sun June 26, 2005 - sure feeling tired later

I'm not suppose to be here rite at this time. Should be sleeping coz later, 6am need to wake up and ready for my Subang JaYa run;.. anyway, just a Fun run categary i'm in! 3KM, hahaha!! actually i wanted to have the boys one, which is 7KM, but then i'm over aged... 18 liao, must join the 10KM, deng... thats mean ic ant be with eu harn and bing! so? all of us at last, decided to have the fun run, just a run, haha~ prizeless i guess.. it'll be damm fun coz my parents are participating, and my small sis as well.~ tired man... so great that i've done the housework just now, so that tomolo at least can have some "minutes" to revise my upcoming quiz and test on Mon~

The last Fri, something damm funny happened.. what's that huh? ask si jie lah! i told her i got something to tell her, and here it is~ that day, she finished her class damm early, around 9 can ciao liao, then she have to wait till 3pm to go for her other subjects... so she decided to ponteng that, and go home early. So? she come ask me whether free to send her to LRT station or not?! damm! i got practical that day! and u know lah, practical, report must pass up on the sport, and the process got marks somemore! so i just saw her when i'm on my way to the lab, and told her that i cant send.. guess what reply i got? "Just 10 minutes mah" !!!  wah liao.. i nearly burst that time! where got "girl" like that one! think wisely! 10 minutes?! anyway, i reconfirm the stupid childish enquiries from her, i ask her where is the destination. and? "Kelana Jaya LRT station" wow/.... another damm thing! 10 minutes?! what is her judgement? wan me ponteng 10 minutes of practical to send her to station? I dun even will do that to my gf, but as i know my future gf will never ask me to do such stupid thing! so finally i cant tahan, push all to Bing, coz i know he's helpful enuff.. si jie even ask me a ques, whether i can let bing drive my car to send her or not wor... whaha! the most funniest sentence i heard in the years! deng.... not considerate at all! after all my studies that day, around 1pm, harn and me walked to my car. it takes us 5 minutes, and drive to carefour, which use another 7 minutes, means? si jie's theory on 10minutes to Kelana LRT station is damm stupid analisys! After discussing with Harn, we make a small conclude that she's abit selfish! 10minutes? whahah! big joke! dun take it by 10minutes. what about 15? then i dun need to come back? if i did, it's around 30minutes for me to ponteng liao! and? what about JAM? dun she know that subang is damm congested?! oh god... what type of girl she is.. and lastly... once again i can said.. fren doesn't mean everything, its just for certain helps, and which ever importants come in 1st.. going back home earlier not consider my case, and not important for me compare to my practical! and? lastly.. not even is my gf....... stop it.... its the ... forgotten how many times.. she thinks that way and wan us to be her "sui yu" liao.. oh ya.. thx to bing, coz he told si jie how to ride a bus and where to stop to the station..  si jie.. plz change abit.. or ppl will start to affraid of u..

tired alot, after finish this, but shuang, coz i wrote what i wanna remember~ lol..  actually dun hope lots of ppl viewing this thing.. but thx to guo wei alot! coz his sites which s so popular leads my site to become medium popular! deng... dun care lah, i will just write anything that i think here..

car FC is good when it's not jam.. can go for.. 186KM this time, with Rm30.. not bad.. compare to going school, which is jam, only around 150KM with Rm30.. thie few weeks, we're trying our best to play basketball.. its slowly seems fun coz we play in usj13.. not that usj 18 which is all geng yao~ we is the average in usj13.. so.. hohoo. its better... stillr emember last year, i cant touch the basketball ring, which still left around 3cm to go.. but that is old stories~ haha! coz just now, i tried to jump, and i can grab it! deng.. yeng lah! so short i am, but i can jump so high! yes! wish that it's bcoz of i have grow taller and not just bcoz my bone become lighter....  just now hor.. haih.. winnie told Bing something, and i nearly can overheard liao one, who know they 2... haih.. dun wan tell me! like talking my bad things, sui lah..  wondering.........

thats all~ 2:28am

11:59 Sun June 19, 2005 - still waiting to bath

Haih, busy whole day, till now havent bath, and siss' using the bathroom non-stop, dun even have the chance to walk in! deng

plan to write this blog after bath, who knows now got time... b4 this blog, i just talked to vway hau, and? deng one, damm deng, i hate her replies! At 1st, i asked her, how bout the vitamin project that we need to pass up? anything need help so that can start mah, and? She said she finish liao... ok, finish then good, so i no need to do, so my "helps" seems useless, and she replied "i never think b4 need ur help".. damm one.. later she asked me to help a guy, duno call what what Yetsu**xxx, U know, i dun like to remember ppl's name, that is also my personality, so i ask her back, what things that he needs my help, and who is the HE? The replies "U duno who is him? what u doing in class? or u think that the class is only got u and no need bother other ppl? " blaa this blaaa that! damm one! seldom angry a "girl" so furious. should i say, started to hate? hate her characteristic! damm bu shuang liao now... should i scold some bad words in my blog? perhaps that f word! deng lah...... blif me, she dun change her attitude, dun dream that she will have some better fren nex time, or maybe can ask most of her fren, telling honestly, no one will feel that her attitude is no problem!

Just cool it down, and let me talk bout something else.... early morning, Keat and Wei May waited me in front of my gate, haha.... sorry for being abit late~ then we straight away drive to carefour, hoho.. coz of too early, we can parked in, but no doors for us to walk out! finally founda way in the basement to walk out! lucky~ then meet with Harn and Geng in ktm, start riding and reached 9something.... Wei May seems changed alot, really alot, can say pretty liao, haha! dun too happy, coz if the word is from keat, then might be happier~ hohooh~ change into monorail then, which is more expensive than KTM, RM1.6 compare to RM2.1.... what an enpensive ride in KL.. if i know that price, then we might get into a taxi~ we seems like some kampung boy, miss our way after come down from monorail... asked a guide only know that federal hotel is just nex to Lowyat~ and a building that got some name of Royal one.. hahaha.... many ppl was around there... all.. seems like so smart..  of coz, alot lenglui~ that is for sure... wow.. cant tahan...  its better that we reached earlier bcoz we at least get a seat for the waiting. Names by names, and all of them who scored better was gone down to have their tea time! and? for us, Keat, hsien hao, still got several of them, with me, those who called as.. 9A's fella, which is the most stupid among the 1st badge in the ceremony, still waiting like soh lou to take our photos.. haih.. but later also better, coz can gap lots of lui, haha.. there is one of them, who wore in light green, wow.. even hsien hao said he keep on gap her~ hohoho~ after photo's sesion, which i receive a pingat that different than others, duno why.. so ... "lucky".., we went down to receive money reward and teatime. and from there, i use to see the lenglui, in green, once again~ aiya, showed to eu harn and he said okok only wor.. what type of "yan guang"... finish this, we all planned to go Time Square.. walking the whole road, across sungei wang, i saw the girl again, and accidentally followed her to go up the elevator for monorail, hahah! paiseh nya~ finished story bout the girl, nex we bought a 3D ticket in TS. T-rex we watch.. not bad the effect of 3D, but story is beh, not horrible, not amazing at all... ceh~ all of us feel sleepy after that 45minute show, maybe 3D effect made us feel tired.. of eyesight gua.. then we later went to lawyat coz kang said he wanna buy something.. i follow mother back home after that, since she hav car to take me home, as for my dear fren.. i duno what's their plan...~ lol. hope they r happy~

actually still got lots of stuff need to jot down.. but.. lazy, and... still lazy... duno how to arrange my words, so, forget bout it.. oh ya, we met si jie in TS, haha.. one part of it.. thats all lah, tired.. need to bath liao~

12:21am

tired...coz after dinner, i drive family to summit and giant.. buy something and find contractor on the kitchen cabinate stuff.... tired... 

2:03am Fri June 17, 2005 - should be sleeping!

Duno- Bu dong, the song that i listening rite now.. sad tune man... haih.. just now come over to my guestbook, saw guo wei's wishes, thx him by that. Writing this that late, is not bcoz hav any special things to remember, is just that.. erm.. i forgotten last week, either Sat or Sun, that i worked for father and i never jot down.. die liao.. memory lost too fast.. cant even remember what i eat 2 days ago... shit...

tomolo will be driving alone to school early morning, or should i say 4 hours later..  its just bcoz my class start from 8-11 only, Bio lab been cancel bcoz our .. most mah fan lecturer have something to do, and no class ganti, haha, 14 weeks total for this semester, and exp just hav 12 of it, means we dun have to ganti back our lab, whaha~! seems like my sentence turning back the same theme i wanna say, maybe brain is tired liao, cant arrange properly. Oh ya, today is Junwei bday i suppose.. but too bad, alredi book my facial treathment for tomolo, their plan of celebrating is just too late, btw, i'm lack of money nowdays, dun go out better.. after all ,this sunday will be going to KL for kasturi rewards, and.. hanggai..

Bio lecturer sounds stupid nowdays, we just finished her 30 questions, which is very hard to find the info from the net. Saved to diskert liao, total is 2 diskerts, not as much as eu harn, almost 4.. why ah? maybe i simply do my ques with my partner, Sharini... sorry ler, lol.. hope teacher dun mind and dun ask us to redo !! nex week will have a chem test, bio quiz, maths suppose  too.. and... erm.. LAN test!! very busy lah.. its busier than form.. compare to my attitude of sleeping in the class, now i dun even can sleep, class is small, sleeping will be caught easily.. too bad, class dun many chinese, just 2, i mean girl, no gapping as for motivation liao...

Something funny is happened to guowei.. his story.. better dun tell here lah, but i wan remark something. he is being kao! haahha.. duno what will be the end? lol~

tired of tired liao... here, my sudden thought of a chinese sentence, view in chinese simplified, try to feel the words, tell me what it should meant.
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8:03pm Thurs June 09, 2005 - sweating

Just back from bb~ what's bb? i thought it was only know by Bing, me and.. the one who makes me lost my soul in year 2004... sad things..  anyways, bb means, Basketball, easy eh~ hahah!

erm, sis is using my bathroom, and the <<Beutiful Clinic>> that i dl is all watched, thats why i hav the free times to write some... stupid, funny, fun, or sad events...

so many things happened in the all long, but i dun have the time to write (maybe bcoz of tired, sleeping is so much important to me~ haha.. just an alasan for me to lazy), start from... erm.. just have a very very tension moment with Vway Hau recently. Last Sat, i suddenly bcame so brave, to tell her my feeling that is so... mean to her. I told her that i dun like ppl to be too sticky with me, for those who i no interest, no matter how good fren we r, i really dun like to be stick around. For me, there is only Family, Good Frens and fren.. as for good fren, i dun have much, but others i all categarize in fren lists~ so.. plz be understanding abit. not to say that i dun like her to stick together all day long in college, what i mean is, dun be too close when talking, copying or anything... sorry for that~ i know for u, u makeme as ur best fren, but i have my own lifestyle, i dun like that sticky feeling, means dun like..  so sorry again. As for her.. she slowly bcome sarcastic, these few days, once she have the chance, she'll zhat me! and? no choice, my style again, choose not to bother as much as i could, as transparent to her as i could... haih... but honestly speaking, compare to form 5, we used to talk more than last year to her in this year's college life, what she wants? she wants me and Hanr talk less, so that can have somemore chit chatting moment with her? haih..... still remember that day, sitting nex to her in Asian Cafe bcoz i dun wanna sit in the middle of the walkpath, who knows she say a sentences "u not saying that u dun wanna sit nex to me one meh?"  what the F*~ hate it alot.. i dun like girls to be like that, really, make them look so ugly! that kind of attitude might be the main reason why still cant resolve with Kang, and often have some.. "guys" that hide away from her...

ok, stop talking bout her, coz i alredi wrote what i wanna write here. next.. tomolo might go to pyramid, yes! Kang in inviting us to go there gai gai~!! but no money, haih.. later see can get some from parents there for my pocket money in college or not... driving is dangerous, this month will be Bing's turn, haha, so.. wish him luck!

my blog, sure talk bout some lenglui one lah, hor>? usual guy's stuff, mmm.. colleges.... do have alot of them... oh ya.. sometimes, i dun get why some of the girls... who have a little "bit" tummy.. still wanna wear low cut and.. showing of their "oil".... its disgusting... if wanna show off, plz remove that lipids bfore u wear that kind of cloths... mmm.. aiya.. i'm still single all this while! damm cha! wanna kill gengyi and kang coz they r the youngest among us, and they have their love one 1st! deng!@

thats all lah. wanna bath liao! pick sis from kasturi too~

8:10pm end-

2:36am Sun May 22, 2005 - lazy cat

oh man.... never realise that i've been so long never updated my blog.. sometimes lazy sometimes buzy..  duno where i stop sicne last blog.. lol.. err.. what could do is.. write anything that flash through my mind lah..

start my collelge life in 3rd of May.. Alevels, haih.. just like STPM, studying is damm boring. making new frenz, whole class around 25++ now.. mostly black skin.. chinese? not much, no lenglui at all! vwayhau is the only chinese girl in the 1st 2 weeks, then come in 2.. er.. no comment. the dream of getting to know more lenglui is pecah! anyways, better than Bing. only a girl in his class, whahah~ college life makes me spend alot, lunch, junk, bread, yam cha, and? got car = more chances to wet.. no more money now.. haih.. cant imagine if i got a girl with me, it will kills me~ no money no talk it should be. that is why i'm always single and no hope for me, ~ whahaha!

Wrote a so-called-sweet testi for my kai mui, i'm the 1st one who read her updated frenster.. when read through the ear holes part.. feel very weird.. 14 ear holes.. wah liao eh..  feel scary hor? but she's very cute lah.. oh ya.. very notty also, saying that ..erm.. one of the male teacher in the school having menstruation thats why gone crazy on their exams papers~ lol.. anyway, she's jsut been abit better after 4 days of illness.. hope she really get well soon~

1st of May went to Taiping fishing, too bad the angkle is spoiled.. so? half way trip, the boat hav to go back. we pay almost the full price for that trip, and get ntg.. Uncle William's family very frenly though~ they treat us like own family, when seeing their pohpoh.. i felt like.. sadness lah. i lost both of my grandma in just 2 months time.. or.. perhaps 3 months.. aiks. what a sad tragedy happened from last year.. my most bad luck years.. going to hav another same trip nex saturday~ haha! why? coz parents not suang the last trip, wanted to go fishing once more! yes~~ but i hav to take care of the camera this time! need to capture some better picture to make a CD.. looking forward into it

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Date: Thu May 19 09:54:30 EDT 2005
wei.. so long time never update..
wahaha~ actually i wrote this is bcoz of the guessbook Guowei signed.. thx to all my fren who view my blog once in a while. 1200+ viewings liao.. not bad ~ hahaa.. Fri gone to watch Star Wars III ~ what a nice movie.. the graphic is becoming much better~ hav the reality feeling..~ after that went to summit after droping Si Jie to Wai Loon's car.. hehe.. sorry Loon, really forgot that there got a BP.. coz i dun use BP.. if i know it earlier, then i also wunt waste so many patrols and time on the ways.. oh ya, Si jie very .. "hot that day.. but then.. aiks. once again, no comment.. or. comment that not going to let ppl know.. hehe.~

Forgot to say that~ i got my credit card! oh man.. very good feeling when i get that card, evil laugh~~ platinum somemore! very good feeling when paying using credit card in Carefour and Giant, which spend me almost RM400 coz mother ask me to bought her stationaries.. my car.. err.. the tyre is fixed, but i hate the fuel cunsumption.. too high.. RM30 for 150KM.. haih....

Work half days today, go working with father in patrol station.. we ran about, 6 station today, Exxon mobil, which make up of Esso and Mobil (combined liao), left 15 more stations to run.. later will still have 70 more.. whaha~ going to mad, work got lots, but the pricing is too low, thats why cant earn much. tomolo will be going temples for vegetarian, and then straight away work.. hjahaha... stillg ot lots of h/w ah!!!

that day, Thurs.. harn and me went to Alevels office, the main purpose for me to go there is to drop Bio. unfortunately, Dentistry need Bio badly.. Sam said that dentistry is dealing with the structure of the head bone.. grrrhh!! i cant drop it!!! even study medicine can drop. but not Dentistry!! haih.. then after that, we... haha.. mension abit about our Bio teacher.. she's making our whole class live in horror.. her quiz and so on is very.. scary type. i got 18 out of 24, which is the lowest int he class, damm her! i dun like to study every day ler! too bad lah, hav no choice! cant do like wat i used to be, study just the 3 hours b4 exams.. damm! my favourite Sains subject has ruined now!

for some additional.. on thurs.. err. i think yes, Thurs.. Noon 5:30pm, when i pushed the dog cage for washing.. once agai i saw that lenglui walk pass my house~ lol.. just too pretty~ i loose again in the eyes contact, whahaha! coz there got 2 pairs of eyes looking at me at the same time! oh man,t he 1st impression for me was.. wow, that girl who i saw b4 last week walk passed here again! eh? why she looking at me? eh, plz lah, turn back, stop looking! god.. suan.. i turn.. wow!! her fren! what a pair of electrostatics eyes~ suan le ba..  then? i turned, and walk to the water pipe~ whahah! and nex moment was, they were walking towars USJ16, and. wondering that they were talking about.. just keep on laughing.. not me gua.. hopefully not.. or else me once again become clowns..

Story bout Bing? wont write too much on that, he having a bad situation.. hope he is alright all these while~ fren, i'm here.. anything, can just find me, i'll try to help u out with the best i can do.. Love life is memang like that. . . just used to it, and belif me, not to too easy put out all of ur hearts towards a single one, sometimes there r too many factors for us to loose, either parents, or .. the worst. the girl themself.. or shall we be gay? wahaha! it wunt be happen !!

12:56am Tues April 26, 2005 - too many things to write, but.. forgotten about what to write liao..

me currently using this - *.* Alan Chai ~!�š�™ 12:00am work, 6am back, 11:30am work, 2pm work, 4pm work, back 11:32pm, nex target-8:30am  Sime Tyre-—eˆÕ‘åãê" as my msn nick name! what is all bout the time and .. work work work? thats my schedule lah! for this few days.. i work like workerholic, non-stop working! and now i'm tired till tired to sleep! whahahah~

Kang told me yesterday.. or the day b4 yesterday? oh no.. i blurr liao.. haha.. anyway.. he said my blog nice to read.. coz he can update himself abit in my blog wor.. his case with Hau. still very tension.. i duno how to help, and i dun dare to do anything, and i swear b4 wunt do anything to them .. just let them be.. lol.. or i'll kill myself for doing it.

come.. just let me get back some of my memories.. Last thurs.. we went.. err.... oh ya.. early morning.. Bing come pick me up.. plan to go pyramid. but parents wanna see his new house' renovation, so we turn there, USJ18, to hav a look. Very big lah Bing! geng lor.. ur room so big.. enuff to put a King size bed.. for.. hehehe.. whaha.. dun wanna say more~ then later.. we terpaksa follow the stupid EuHarn's plan, which go to pick SiJie in OUG there, then come back Subang, quite stupid that Euharn! lousy organizer..  reach Summit quite late noon, then found Wai Xin, and our new fren, Karen Chai! 1st time saw her.. err.. i think that she's very brave.. just only a girl, alone come to meet her new fren from net.. gengnya... i will never do that~ hahaha.. so, now there is Hau, Harn, Bing, Jie, Xin, Karen and me .. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 person! we go for movie of coz.. and  guess what? we all like trying to giv chance to waixin and karen, wahhaa.. very funny when we do that way.. but i heard that Xin got a netgirl in SMKSU wor.. duno its real or not.. the movie - SAHARA , i mean sahara, H, and not m, not samara.. is damm gao nice! what an action movie it is.. total full 2hours action, nice show~ but.. not so logic of coz lah! whahhaa..  after that, only we know that SiJie need to go back b4 8pm! she's been dated to her gang! to go pasar malam! what a nice plan for her.. and we duno it at all. this is why we say harn's plan is beh! rush to her area with Bing's driving skill, not bad lah.. for a new P and manual, its like that one lor.. then turun kereta after parking in front of the teres house.. i smell "chou dao fu"!! wahhaa.. but they all say it's smelly.. i duno they aware that its that food or not? so.. i go for my pasar malam walk the 1st time in this year! whahaha! met up with si jie's fren, mostly i know, then there is a very cun girl.. (now only i remembered her name, very hard to remember lah! which is. in chinese "hui san" ) the very first feeling is... "i know her.. but duno from where" , (when going back at late nite, then only Bing realised me that she's look like "Xiao Jvan" .. nowonder like someone familiar..." then separated, after the roti tissue and planta and the murtabak.. which belanja by si jie! yes! whaha. thx also lah..  walking along the road.. duno what to buy in the pasar malam also, after one round, then our "Dai lou" bring us to meet si jie up .. in the.. erm.. snooker "arena" whahaha!. long time din play snooker, but feel itchy when seeing them playing, so we take a table and start our 6ppl's game.. not even shoot in half of the balls, and we gotta go after 45minutes.. quite late that time, and we hav to send all f them home.. so.. its gonna be late for the last 2 monkey to get home.. kesian bing and me...

the day is passed like that.. then the nex thing is.. Saturday! we go back school for majlis cermerlang! not bad eh.. but i wear like ah pek.. coz stupid rules,,, need us to wear casual, no jeans.. shit lah... then also. i feel so malu.. all my classmate go for the yellow number tag which is 10 As above and i get the orange one.. i hate this thing.. haih.. who asked me not to study harder.. haih..................!! on the stage.. is very stupid! coz i know i wrote the paper that register to buy foto.. so i'm looking madly under the stage to look for the camera, who knows the camera man alredi took it, and i duno, so i stand there very stupidly.. whahah! anyway.. i go change my cloths rite after this.. back to my normal yong sui style~! mmm... met up with my gang, then take picture with our school.. er.. duno call what liao. the school most geng one lah, i just know that, Sijie lor.. who else.. took picture.. then the camera "girl is sixuan, ahha.. duno that she'll appear at this day. b4 we go for lunch in satelite, go make a "manners" talk with xuan.. then she say "i thought u dunw an coi me timm"... lol.. me stund also lah..  coz ... haih.. maybe one part of my heart is acting like what she said, and the other part asking me to at least talk to her.. so that not like so "cuan" .. anyway.. i'm not wanted to be cuan.. this is for real.. just that.. wanted to say is, for me.. i'll only know how to giv out my best and all to the one i care, once over.. i'm trying not to giv out anymore, and.. really dun hav any motiv or what to make further relation.. maybe normal normal fren talks till can be, but of coz, there will be no more 100% same as what i hav last time. over means over.. haih.. this is also explain to si jie, why wai loon sometimes treat u that bad, and like that day, saying that "if u r his gf, if u prettier, if u blaa blaa.. blaa..., then he'll fetch u up to Inti" all of this is only bcoz we wanted to do better to our love one only, what i mean is Only. so that the one we love is always special, and not like those normal fren we hav, and to let them feel that we really care for the love.... haih........ hard to let ppl knows actually wat i wanted to say.. forget bout it.. later, while having chicken lunch in satelite, si jie say "hui san aimed 2 guy that day, which is wai xin and u" whahaha!! the aim i use.. of coz not that meaning u all think.. coz my english beh.. er.r.. its actually mean that the one which is ok ok, understand? so..  i happy coz? it never included eu harn! then i can laugh at him in this thing! whahaha!!! happy ler, he gonna die liao~ but heard that she's from Sri KL? haih. then better forget this type of girl ASAP! rich.. then.. beautiful, forget is fortunate..  All squeezed in my car later, so there is, Keat, beside me, then hau, harn, wai xin, and.. a girl.  oh no!!! i forgot her name! the prefect of our school. a girl.  but very very good one! deng.. forgotten..  suan... all in one car.. rush to SP, to sing song! wahha.. funny hor.. booked a  8 person room but only appear 6, so we beg Junwei to come, and he pay RM5 for his lunch there, ahhaa.. thx also~ happy coz i dare to sing this time.. the third time total. and this is the only time i dare to sing a song.. lol.. malunya..  after that, we hav our own plan.. while Hau joined her Zai Zai's gang in redbox again~ after our damm gao boring movie - The Jacket (stupid movie telling us stupid story), we went .. hang gai.. and outside of Watson. guess who i met? Yenni! which i usually call Jennie! wah liao.. damm pretty.. she still the prettiest girl i ever met.. damm sexy the black "dot" below her mouth.. haha.. too bad eu harn never saw her.. but Wai xin did! and he also .. liu kou sui.. hehe. hamsap le..  wanted to play daytona in arcade.. but those rich ppl never let go of it.. keep on inserting money.. so we putus asa.. go for snooker, junwei din wear long pants, go for archery.. i felt tired.. so? back lor. i sent wai xin and keat home while junwei sent hau, her sis, ah poh, and harn..  mmm.. maybe i saw too many lenglui these days, so there come an unlucky thing happen to me.. my car puncture! the right back corner of my tyre.. "bomb" outside of pyramid.. i thought it was some plastic or what, so go on till finish federal highway, turned into kampung subang road. only canot tahan when i go over 60km/j, the noisy sound.. go a side.. found out that really puncture. and very glad that got the help from Xin and Keat! Keat geng.. he helped me to fix that! he help to changed to spare tyre! man.. i'll use at least 1 hour to fix compare to him which only around 10-15minutes! thx alot! if not u guys.. me gonna die alone this time! ahahaha.. back home b4 11pm.. told parents bout the incident, and then plan to bring the tyre to claim warranty.. so.. thats all for saturday

sunday, early morning go inspect a work in Hicom.. Glenmarie there.. then back home, sleep like pig, coz nite, from 12am, work till 6am! tired. worked in Concorde hotel.. KL, have their buffet breakfast for free! yeah~ then back home, sleep madly, then 11:30pm, went Sg.Buloh to calibrate one faulty relay, then 2pm, back home to take genset, go puchong, test 3 relays, then rush to KL, Muzuem Arts Islamic, to recalibrate those relays.. that one wasting time.. only 10 relays.. but waiting for them to shut down the supply, and those maintenance work .. damm one.. work till stone stone.. with father of coz! 10:30pm, finally can go home, and? after bathing, on my come till now! coz used around an hour to write this thing! i think this time.. long enuff to store all my memories gua?... hope so..

*Ipocket DV 4000s, good or not? Maybank got offer.. subcribe 18months of nanyang newspaper, then plus RM200 can get this Rm1099 DV! but i duno where the video is recorded to.. the SD card or there is another tape slot? wanted to check this out b4 i book for it.... pocket dv.. small enuff.. to curi snap u guys! whahaha!!

10:00pm Fri April 15, 2005

haih.. just now damm angry.. why cant mother talk to us just abit polite way and not that type of.. sarcastic. and stupid, and let me feel damm fatty vomit face? asking me how long din i lap the set of chairs and table..deng! i do it at least twice a week, just that those dust below the cusion din bother much only, who know she suddenly wanna keep back the cusion becoz new year is over, and found that dusty below it! damm thing! asking me : how long din u lap? u see! fuk off lah! whyc ant just say "here dusty, clean this part when u do cleaning nex time" ..

forget bout those stupid thing there! anyway, here to record some event we did yesterday. It was Vway Hau's bday, and we went pyramid early for redbox and movie.. but after singing, there's arent enuff time for us to watch any movie, coz later bing and me will go for guitar class... so..  hehe.. just that redbox there.. feel very paiseh only, and really puifuk wailoon + that new guy we know, Ah zhe... sounds like that. They can sing well, and loud, and tahan for straigh few hours! wah liao eh... how their throat is built? after that, Zhimin come and meet us. err.. fat liao? maybe, hahaha! just so cute, as always be. err.. i think she's just .. haih.. duno how to face Euharn i guess, thats why keep on pulling me to accompany her to look for something she wanna buy. !!!  me become very hard to be..  2 ppls that luving each other met together, but then there's like got something blocking them, and that transparent wall is made by themself.. so funny when looking at them.. gan ga till ntg to talk..  and me? worst.. being pull by zhimin here and there.. luckily at last i pull youbing together..  just some add on.. - the girl, is trying to say that dun wan tuo ni dai sui, but at last, and for me, i thinking that they're just being tuo ni dai sui now! what do u guys think? they like each other, and actually can be so sweet when meeting each other, caring the other one. but now? they pretending not knowing much on each other, dun talk to each other, just saying hi and bye... stupid! is this call "not tuo ni dai sui?? as for me.. to overcome tuo ni dai sui, is that one of the part that dun wan to start relationship or dun like the other one, then just put a full stop in between them. its then showing not to tuo ni dai sui, but not like their relationship now.. sounds funny, and i suppose, suffering for both sides now...

after guitar lesson at 7:30 till 8:30, went to pick up LWL, !!! that hamsap poh, then take Eu Harn and rush for movie.. The pacifier! not even hav enuff time for us to take dinner, thats why bought a burger in cinema.. and? how come there's only 3 set of food, and forgotten bout Vway Hau! haih.. sorry again!  who know there's only 3 set wor.. haih... sorry again ah! bday girl.  sure she very very angry at me gua? so careless, ahah~ mm... think the other way.. er.. dun eat that much lah, later too fat! whahhaa.. joke joke..   later, having yam cha in "ming tian", just nex to pyramid. and the ppl there is quite.. "high" i guess.. coz those mee seller and.. "hot dog burner" is havin fun splashing water towards each other! haha.. sot sot dei....

1am something sending LWL and Harn home.. and got my msg from father! haha.. "what's the time now", lol.. very powerful sentence..  but is on the way back liao, so never bother much.. while driving back, guess what? youbing din see the road got a big hole! and he .. bumb! drop in one of the tyres! damm one, !! he very careless lah! so lucky that he's car is big enuff, Volvo mah.. thats why enable him to gostan.. if not.. really need to search for help, perhaps from my father's Prado then..

back home, tired, and sleepy, 3am sleep till today 2pm.. and doing ntg this whole day..  feel lazy.....

3:25am Wed April 13, 2005 - haven sleep yet coz forget to write this blog

err.. today's title, like very serious like hor? haha.. few weeks never blog again.. dun hav story to tell mah, thats why dun wan blog lor..

currently.. doing ntg at home, once father hav work, then i'll just follow.. the most suang one, is the recently that job, working in Star Hill, the building that as tall as Timesquare which is just opposite of it, err.. thats a hotel + shoppoing mall. wanna do those servicing and calibration of the relay, can only be done at night for not interrupting the electric city for the whole mall. from 10pm (9th april-sat), jam like hell coz saturday night, reach at almost 11pm.. then? start work lah. 1st time work from night tilll morning, very suang.. haha.. i thought will be very tired, but then noon time i sleep enuff liao, and.. i'm very activ at night, hehehe.. so.. when 5am eating bak kut teh nearby still never feel any tiredness..

err.. yesterday went to eu harn's house, teach him to use the adobe audition.. haha, he gonna sing! anyway.. there's some sad news by him.. he said he's just broke up.. and what cause it? the girl when came back, and going to hav some romantic moment with this guy, by holding hands, cause the gal felt confuse, and she wanna make things clear.. saying that dun wan tuo ni dai sui.. shit excuse... although i'm not the one who's involve.. but i really cant stand those girl's feeling... maybe i'm just some wat..er.. not good in take caring gal's feeling's guy, but i'll not change myself, becoz i know that gal sometimes is just.. unreasonable... and then night time, SiJie online from China ler.. hoho. i'll never forget the present yah~ anyway.. she talked to Harn bout the situation, saying what what the girl freaked out when the guy holds her hands.. wah sai! then i feel very bu shuang liao... never ever describe anything in front of me using the words "Freaked out" ! !!!! damm bloody suck word it is.. just a small short words, is the excuse for those girl who is just scared alot, worry alot, selfish alot~! I admit that i'm very selfish by the way, but then this kind of selfish will only appear in the love story, and Harn is just the same i guess. he just wanted to hav some happy moment, which i said, selfishness of him, cause the other part regreted, and shows out the origin girl's abnormal action -- "freaked out!"

cooled down... haih.. oh yeah~ this thursday, hahaa, 14th of april, (all 4 yea, very unlucky), is vway hau's bday~ hope her hav a happy bday then.. that day.. will celebrate in pyramid gua..rite? hahah.. singing K again! anyway.. to many ppl liao.. then mostly.. i'll be shy to sing ..haha.. er... then later planned to hav movie, and then? bing and me rush for guitar lesson1! whahaha! and later on... yam cha with LWL~ that stupid face...

tired lah... throat abit pain timm.. dun tell me thursday i cant sing!

11:38pm Sun March 27, 2005- haven remove contact lenses, feel itchy!

Yo Man! its been my bday!! wahaha!!! me finally 18 liao! and i break the record- me suci for that long! 18 years of suciness, wahahha! aiya.. feel weird lah, never pak torr b4, shame lor.... come! my wish! ~ erm.. good in study, good in money, good in family!@

Thx for Hau, Bing, Jie, and.. duno still got who... for the shirt they bought me~ nice wor... but izzit abit too small if use it to be jacket? hahah... anything lah, i know not cheap that is.. then thx for those who got wish me also.. although i never send them back sms.. coz know lah... bo lui liao~
Love night's dinner, tomyam seafood in PJ oldtown, which we never been there for years! mmm.. 2-3 years ago.. haha.. coz too expensive mah, but then today special day, so go eat, and try the quality, not bad.. really thailand style..

Tomolo will be going to Subang Inti to confirm my cancellation of SAM, and i'll transfer it to A levels.. hope i really can do well in these subjects... haih.... me that stupid! i wanna be smarter! with lesser work!! hahaha... no hardwork.. impossible rite?

that day si jie sms me, and tod me about rabbit wor... haha.. she's working in.. erm.. MV? but duno what shop also.. last time heard from Eu Harn said that she's working as promoter in Carefour.. lol.. i thought she went NS in March.. but duno why.. she is working.. and then Jie also told me that from her frens, used to know that rabbit will be flying to Notingham on August.. anyway.. just hope she luck.. she's just a lucky girl that is really have good fortune..

11:50pm Mon March 07, 2005 - talking in skype now

~wah, very very long never put time on this blog liao.. haha...  mm.... at 1st can say something terrible happened.. anyway, something that should be done, is settled, fine then.....................

nowdays quite busy, and quite free, hahaa~  busy when got works, and .. not free when i ntg to do. hehe. Happy Bday to my mother, which drops on last Sun, 6th of march.. happy always~ and.  went summit today, do some research on those phone price, and get to know that e398 not too expensive. They open the price  around RM899, and then Bing geng.. chop them, say ppl sell 850, and.. hahah~ they giv the same price, whahah! ori price it is.. hahah~~ so.. and after that many places more, then.. all is 850 liao, parents say this sat or sun only free to go swap tha kredit card, lol.. so....  still need to wait.

mmm, will get my SPM result soon, mmm.. this Thurs..  pray for me, k? ........

get to know the news that.. rabbit hav fen shou with her bf.. i should feel happy, this is wat i hope to see last year.. anyway... haih...  duno why.. feel sorry to her now.. i duno why this could happen. i used to wish her happy always, even till now.. which alredi be one of my wish when i pray... but then.. haih.. anyway.. hope that she's ok, and every fine to her, keep on smiling, and her smile do make one happy.~

10:32pm Tues Feb 22, 2005 - i dun wanna think anymore

working madly this few days, on and off~ today finish those work we left out in PWTC~ energized liao, so, mmm... nex target, tomolo will go puchong test some relay,t hen go PD to capture pics for the ACB that malfunction, late night will be in counsin's house for ... what ah? erm..  annual dinner? lol.. Buffet i know.. the BBQ has been posponed to Sat, hopefully free that day, including morning~ or else will be very tired. thx mother for free patrol~ too bad... i pump till it leaks out, hohoho, RM43.87... lol.. really wasted!! then i have my touch n GO and Bonus Link card liao!! wait till me bday then will get my credit card! yo man~ big enuff to hold so many CARDS! wallet till be pecah~

hoho.... Si jie online today, asking for communicate in skype, but duno why, maybe broadband sot liao, canot connect... so, never talk nicely. She gave me an answer that i should know liao, thx. feel what? very... ke xi..    haih..... anyway, duno why she go offline so early, i just go fetch my sis from bus stop and she off liao, hohoho~ heard that she bought a new phone, what brand is it?! still haven ask timm!!! aiks.. i dun hav money to buy brandy phone lah!

12:08am Sun Feb 20, 2005 - never feel wanna blog liao, but my memories need to stay here, so~

This few days, tired lor, work work work~ all this is those left over work b4 chinese nY one.... yesterday work at the ...erm.. last time punya PM office.. geng ler~ hoohho, then today, go setting in a ~ kolam tahi!! deng... smelly, ahahah, better only 2 relay, not much! then go Lembaga getah Malaysia, to set.. 3 relays.. which is located right in front of KLCC... 

yesterday night having dinner with Mr Wong family, not bad, in Amcorp, hahaa... then today? noon go visit mother's fren, later go makan! geng... those seafoods! all fresh one! From Aust also got! memang mahal lah... when father ask us whether wanna eat "long xia" or not, then? choose not lah of coz, thought we so rich meh, hahaha, so i tell him "dun wan!!" whahaha ~ just like  ... "cant eat the grapes, say the grapes sour", whahahah

Just now back from work, feel abit weird, and go press press my house phone, and... not in my thoughts, i saw a number, which i never think will phone me one.. thurs , 17th of feb, rite? 19:20... mean... 7:20pm...   haih.. that time no one at home... never saw it earlier.. why ah? i think that few days really no mood to check this check that. so? just know that she did phone me once...  anyway... very 1st thought of me was - go phone back her , then nex thought was - better dun... i think i should know what she wanna tell me,  go phone her and being rejected, the most funny stuff i'll do if i ever phone it..lol.....  being cowards... i choose ... not to phone.  oh ya, maybe she's not finding me, what a perasan guy i am, haih.. she might be finding my sis ler~ who know...  enough of simply think liao.. plz let me forget bout this, hope will have a better day tomolo~

12:33am Fri Feb 18, 2005 - leave short note

Normal day, normal life, normal thinking, went Guan Han there "bai nian but his mother went out for tai chi liao.. haih, no angpao then...lol, here are some msg..... from Zhimin of coz..

    hey... i've reach aus d...haih.. oni noe wats called home sick... reli miss d old days wif u guys man..must keep in touch wif me yea... i reli reli miss u guys alot alot... my hp num in aus is 61421140642 jus sms me when u're free k..=)hehe...ermm jus type exactly tat num.. no need wat internationalcode d.. its correct wan...=p 
    thank you for everything u all hav done to help n support me whenever i'm down... i reli reli appreciate it...u all had stand by my side when i need it... gif me mental support n all... tahnk you veryx10000000000000 much..!!!!! arigato..!!=0 
    haih... i reli reli missed d familiar things in msia... all those times when we play n make noise together... i willl surely treasure those moments... everything is so so so different here.... n guess wat... i actually hav to walk to go around places... haha... hav to walk to skol  everyday too ler.. haha but ler.. d weather here is cold lar...so  i wont sweat n get all dirty lor... =p
   anyway... if u all wanna chat on9 wif me.. better come on9 earlier... coz mel is three hours ealier den kl... haih.. type until here lar k...
   LUV u guys alwiz...!!! n miss ya..!! FRENS 4EVA yea....!!! n take care..!! smile alwiz..!!!=)
byebye... keep in touch..

hey.. sorry guys.. for my hp rtie.. u all hav to add + in front of d 614.... reli sorry...
plssssss message me if u're free..or jus come on9 earlier...plssssssss..=(
reli reli big home sick here man..miss all of u guys.. such nice frens n family..
i reli hope i can go home as soon as possible man.. dun wanna study uni here liao..go bac n study in IMU... hahahaha... of course kenot lar..haih..
hhm.. today's 1st day of skol.. kind of fun lor.. made some new frens.. a lot of dem from msia n sing...haiyor... knew noe hong kong gurl.. n two china n indonesian.. erm.. so far.. havent meet any from japan and korea yet lor..
hey... d chinese from indo rite.. speak malay wan ar.. zha dou.. haha...
well.. i'm goin for an orientation camp nextweekk. hope that it could reduce my home sick lar.
haiyor... ermm.. n guess wat .. casio 570 .. d calculator we used in form 5... kenot use here ler.. my skol dun allow.. siao hor.. sumore no graphics calculator.. y har.. means different den sam in kl lar.. so char wan... dey say coz 570 got matrix resolution wor... gila..
hmm..den hor.. when i register for my fon line rite..prepaid wan lar.. use fon to register... i reli reli reli kenot understand wat they r tokin about man.. wif the heavy slang plus d operator tokin so damn fast.. n i was like ssorry.. sorry.. sorry.. until she oso fan liao.. hhahha...
oklar.. dun wanna type so long lar.. after u all ge bored liao...hehe...
byebye lar... luv u guys alwiz..!!!

Thats it... then next thing is Khoo Wai Xin's h/p has changed to 017-6289789 which will effect on 21th of Feb.

speechless..........

4:13am Thurs Feb 17, 2005 - wrote this that late at nite?

very tired liao~ but forgot that i need to write something here, mmm.. wake up 2pm today, geng hor, hahah, feel exhaust liao.......... no more strengh...haih........

do all those house work, non stop, then wash my car, only realise my car kena mud.. smelly nya..... better not shit! wash liao, clean liao, still got that smell, damm......... then late basketball, hahaha, long time din play, very cha.... erm... normal day actually, just that abit unusual when i'm trying to make myself do more works... night, fetch sis, driving Prado again.. hohoho, big car, hard to drive, i hate manual!

ntg much to say.. just think whole day liao.. feel sorry to her, for these long.. she's always giving me the same answer, such as "cant" , "be back normal", "be fren" .......and.. standing by her side, i'm thinking that maybe i'm the one who cause ppl suffer... maybe she never ever hav a little single feel on me, and i do so many stupid stuff to cause her feel sorry to reject....... anyway.. i'm ready abit... just one more time to confirm that she dun wan to hav any relation, then i'll acept what she wants........

2:48am Wed Feb 16, 2005 - very very very very tired! and.. not good mood now

Zhimin will go Aus today, so early in the morning, 8am, Bing phoned me to wake me up, and reach Harn there around 8:40am... who knows nobody pick up the phone, and we guess that he's out... hohoo, and at last, 10am, he picked up the phone, and just realise he's ngam ngam awake from sleeping! what a  pig! fly our kites!

Fetch Hau and Geng later, and go S.Kang house! erm... happy to collect angpaos lah!! and... Kang really rich family! angpao damm big, but they giv harn and geng more! its 5 times of ours! anyway, coz they are close mah... then went airport together... erm.. following Zhimin's parents' car is very hard, they like to fly! lost them totally in the KLIA highway, luckily hav Kang's driver behind us...

Thx to zhimin's parent for their dinner, got abalone one ler! geng.. somemore in KLIA, think the price cheap or not?! whahaha, hohohoho... what a sad scene when Zhimin is ready to go in the boarder... every giv her a big hug, me not of coz.. lol.. sorry for not hugging, just that i'm only hug my family, and the one i love, ... anyway, hope you hav a safety flights, and, be strong, gud luk to u...

when back, turn in USJ, and brought the car members to my house, hohohoho, they collect angpao then,w ahaha! then later on, went some where, erm.. OUG? to visit Si jie.. yam cha later, and ? send them one by one to home!!! whahaha, glad that the patrol given by Harn! so i no need pay for it, wahahaha, thx man! reach home alredi 2am, late lor... tired timmm... and... haih... feel tired also.........

i duno what to say liao lo.... jst b4 the visit to si jie there, i bring along the keychain that i bought as souvenir, then wrote something on a piece of paper. erm.. actually just ntg too serious bout it, just that, i hope to have some memories, for me to know whether how many times did i met her. mmm, quite ok when seeing her, then later, quite nervous when talking alone upstairs with her, and then quite sad when she's giving me back the paper........ speechless........... quite funny when i guno what she wants actually... she's telling me she's young wor.. then dun feel like going to be couple wor... lol... back to normal again, not once, but alredi twice liao................ again? back to normal.... izzit what this should really end, i duno...........just know that i'm very very confuse, and i do not know what to do!  ... thinking of.. haih........ maybe, u help me then, teach me what to do..... stand at my side, then think what should i do is perfect. not to hurt anyone, and hav a .. perhaps.. a happy ending? how?

Am i that stupid person, always doing stupid stuff, just liek making fun of myself..... hate it.... hate myself too much actually... later when having some talks with Harn, he too, tell me that, if a situation like that, he dun think that the guy can really back to normal fren with that girl, this is also one of the part that i am still in confusing......  and for my own character, really, i wunt be, and cant be back to normal, why? there is no more normal for me, alredi fall in that stupid feeling for so long, how can a person say back to normal then normal? like playing games meh~ i'm just afraid, back to normal, will just making myself feel more worst, the weird feeling, then if dun like a person, frankly, wunt be so good to her, to avoid misunderstaning, and to ensure theres a distance btween me and others... quite, hurt, when she answering my ques, and trying to gimme back that piece of paper....   "DUN HAVE FEELING!" .....                    haih......................................................................................................

11:35pm Mon Feb14, 2005 - wanna sleep earlier, tomolo go out whole day, sure tired one!

erm... today what date ah? so special.. sure lah~ valentine mah, aiyor... 17 years~!!! me 17 years celebrate valentines alone!! lol, funny or not, should happy, coz i'm still so suci, whahaha!!!

Back from Cameron yesterday, tired ler, what a nice trip we hav! Jungle trackking, buy vege, eat, sleep, play, very relax... but when relax ler, sure will think of someone, lol... captured many fotos, i'm a pro camera man! whahaha, then ler, like the strawberry ice-cream alot ler...

Valentine's today, but doing ntg, whole day home, sleep, wash this wash that, clean this clean that, haih.... Tomolo Zhimin will be going to Aus liao ler.. if i'm her, i dun think ic an sleep tonight... very anxious... and also, hohoho, her Harn! so tomolo will go KLIA, bring Harn together of coz.. drive safely...

hohoho, hohohohohoho, i never think b4 today will talk to her actually... at 1st ler, still quite busy on the phone with Harn, planning for tomolo, then saw Si Jie's msg, and feel wanted to talk, so mah phone her lor... and then?  si jie is also very. erm... good ler... she passed the phone to .. who? u lah! Very long time never heard ur voice liao, hehee... back from kampung on Sun~~ !! if know it, then will go find her in school lor! too bad, i never phone to get news....  then ler? someone trying to gimme false h/p number!@!! 012-3249333~~~!!!! what a 3!!! the last one should be 8!!! this girl~~~ hohoho, feel guilty later, and phone me back at 11pm!! geng... then she say "this is my phone number" hohoho.... my caller id cant mark down phone number if it never rang more than twice! and i pick up the phone very soon, coz late liao, scared parents bu shuang..  anyway, lucky that she "leaks" her number, hahahah!!! erm... but she very busy nowdays wor.. haih.... haih haih~~~ so how?! plan to go bai nian, thought can see her one, then not in wor, lol... just remember, can make urself bz, but must take care ~

1:01am thurs Feb 10, 2005 - why suddenly feel so tired?

wow man~! how long i never do blogging? mmm.. weeks liao.. not because of lazy.. heheh, can say lazy also lah..  coz b4 Chinese NY, there is so so so so so so many jobs need to finish, so tight the schedule..

aiks.. write till half way, mother come in take jacket.. lol.... why jacket? coz lor.. tomolo ~ not!! today, will be going to Cameron highland, heheh.. once a year, but last year din go, coz grandma passed away.... erm.. so? get ready to go lor.. packing now.. scared bring not enough cloths ler, aiya! dun care lah, wear back only~~ hhohoho... CNY, seems like just quite normal... maybe will meet LWL up there, coz she's too, going there same date with me, just that i back on 13th, and she is on 12th...  hope will not be bored there, especially no more comp, feel like so lonely then, like no frenz....

13th of Feb, Zmin will be having a gathering again, she'll be fly to Aus on 15th. i dun think i can attend it, coz i'll be back on that same day, and for 15th.. haih... KLIA wor.. wai loon also say he might not be going, no ppl lead, dun dare to drive, somemore today asked mother liao, she warn me timm...... haih.....

that day, erm... Monday, 7th went Sungei Wang! its Sungei, not sungai ler~ ohhooh, just realise from Newspaper... drive Harn, hau, han from summit to KTm station, parked at Carefour.. coz more safety and no need to pay. then rite KTM, transfer to monorail, then reached. this time really never buy anything, Youbing too.. just plainly accompany them to shop. harn bought many cloths ler... ppl got money liao, work liao.. grrr!!! me ah! wan buy handphone also dun hav money.. btw, still thinking of what h/p suit me, think till pening kepala... canot be expensive, camera, 65k color screen, not too big, not too small, haih.... trying to find water brand now, or maybe see which fren can sell me cheaper ... 6600? K700i? wow, too expensive, hahaha~

MMmmmmm................................... just really wanted to say, very very miss ya liao......... never hav ur news, sounds weird, do u? mmm, maybe u're not, lol..... that day Si jie phoned me, and ask me bout the streamyx problem, then only i realise your house connection got problems...nowonder never see anyone of u on9 lah.. Then that time, still remember when i find si jie, she's bathing, and duno who is that one who pick up the phone... izzit u? or not? hehhe.. just know that very very tired that few days, everyday run here and there to finish work, from batu cave to KL area, then ampang somemore, might this be the reason i canot really judge that its u or not.  sometimes just thinking that, izzit me, the one who thinking of u only.. and do u actually, will think of me...  thinking of phoning u, but dun dare, duno like it or not; thinking of msging u, dun dare, duno will be disturbing or not.. lol.. still haven actually face to face congrates u on ur number 8th race..  and.. do hav a happy CNY.. may all ur wish come true...             again..    take care....................

12:23am Thurs Feb 03, 2005 - i'm feel very excited towards my car!

Work whole day! 9 something morning reached KL, where i work today? PWTC ah! whahaha.. it even is the hall, which is suppose to be use on the day 1st of March, furniture fair! it is world fair! nowonder lah... nowonder so high salary lah......    anyway, inside still very very messy, those worker work hard! why? wanted to siap mah, March so near liao... somemore say wanna energize b4 CNY... haih, urgent and make us busy only..work till 7pm, tired like hell...

Si jie phoned me just few minutes b4 i back.. then i phone her back, and she's bathing, wondering who holding up the phone, but.. tired and cant concentrate who the voice it suppose to be..  dun tell me is..... ---- ...   !! aiya.. !! wanna see her>? mm.. of coz lah!!!!! but then schedule is fully booked! Tomolo will be working in Uncle Aru's there, witness test, then fro duno where, then sat then sun even Mon!! aiks! i dun think i have the time to drive my Atos!!

Nice pretty small little sky blue Atos! i wanna kiss her liao! just now hav my very 1st drive, auto car is really cun! drive so smooth, to fetch sis from tuition, wow... nice one... then tinted, makes me feel cool, never easily let ppl know whose inside, hwhahaha! who wan me to fetch or sit my car?!! come come, book now!!! haha......

12:33am Tue Feb 02, 2005 - abit tired, maybe after medicine.

recovering from illness liao.. hohho.. at least now no more sick~ i think tomolo will be 70-80% recovered~!

Work today.. Ampang there, Galaxy Ampang, the mall that havent open yet one.. delayed from 97 till now, still havent gao timm, geng... so many parts lost liao, duno when only they can find it and install it, atleast we can finish out job there. If not coz of the death of Uncle Yin's son and the job is urgent, i'll be going for interview for the furniture fair.. too bad, noon time at 2 something, Bing call and said no more available place for me and nuan... suan lor.. no mah no lor, although good payment job.. now my turn to see how they go work, so early, ride taxi? bus? lol....

From work there, erm.. near there lah, after take lunch, father straight away gimme car key and ask me drive back home! geng.. i 1st time on this road, and so nervous..  do many mistakes of coz.. the car is too big for me.. haven hav a better adjustment of it.. need some time.  From there, pass through Bukit Jalil, then IOI, then back home. IOI there, those road, really pening kepala.. i nearly scratch a New Kembara! where the kembara suddenly fromthe main highway turn to left, potong me, in front of me, stop, and ready to cut queue just to go in those shops... i never realise it stop when it wans to cut queue.. so i just continue keep right to go into that main highway..  luckily never touch it.. if not too bad.. sure need pay.. then rugi..  aiya! 1st time, then so dangerous liao.. duno when only will be better...

Tomolo will be going to get my car plate number, yeah! then they say can get road tax too, not bad.. if like this, will be very fast can get my car liao! wanna drive it lah!!! after tomolo, then will be a bunch of day that i'll be busy.. Wed, need to go test LV.. then Thurs, same place to calibrate HV and cable.. then Fri, go back that Ampang mall, then Sat, duno where... wow.. mad liao...  grr! cant get that furniture-good-paid-job, now still not so shuang.....

Lol, xuan spare 5 minute to chat with me wor~ and me ler? disappeared liao!! me taking bath ah!!! haih.. then she leave me msg.. thx for caring, really so warm, ahhaha, hope she can get top in merentas desa.. i'll pray for u, dun worry! haih.. after school and me got work, everyone also so busy liao..  anyway, can hear from her is alredi very very good~..  me then leave her back some replies... also duno she got read it or not... then also duno can let any other one see or not? then duno got who see it or not.. hope everything is fine lah.... i'ved save the reply msg, incase someone off comp without noticing her bout the msg.. Gambateh!  i know u can win the race!! and also......looking forward to seeing u......

12:24am Mon Jan 31, 2005 - still abit blurr blurr!

erm..... still sick lah.. too bad.. just now ask sis to meassure.. then know that its 39 now.. better than 39.5 yesterday, hahah~ ... slept whole day, and then eat medicine, and then eat lunch, then sleep, aiya, sien.. too bad the bone so pain.. if now go train taekwondo, sure die! anyway, washed my blanket and those pillow sheet liao, and put all my bed and stuff under the hot sun! and then? 3 something, rain wor!! whahaha, so my pillow sheet not dry yet!!  erm.. the bed, i throw liao, ahhah!! coz saw it got s hole liao, can see the spunge, so father ask me throw it and get one from their room.. hehe...  i hope that thing wunt make my bone pain! old people... aiya!  brain cant move smoothly..  i'm sure abit weird when reading this... not arranged!

mmm, bing will be going with harn, hau they all to interview for the march furniture fair! left me and nuan.. not bad.. got nuan teman me, hohohoho, coz she got dentist appointment.. i hope i can drive there then... when can i hav my car?? wait till my neck so long, sobz sobz.......... dun dare to drive my fathers car lah! so big............................................... Bing just told me that his father say can buy any car for him wor! yer.. why so sui one... rich ppl, always make me so jealous........................ anyway, i hope he can hav his dream car, safety the 1st of coz.

erm.... know where i went today? 5 something, gone to Puchong IOI! and guess what? just now that soh mui say she just back from IOI too wor! grrr~~~ why i never saw her one!!! too bad lah........ and also ler.. at 1st saw her liao, but she put busy, so never dare to kacao, and when she talk to me, i'm in discussing those car loan thing.. ..haih... so many halangan!  why coudn't i see her in IOI one ah!!?!?  mmm.. maybe that time too blurr liao, just taken the pholarlamin... (something named like that), flu's one.. so ler, walking just like flying, hahaha, geng ler..  if that time father ask me drive, sure dimm lor!! waagaggahahaha..... anyway, we left to take dinner at 8:30pm.. so maybe the time not suit us to meet... very very miss her liao.....(especially sickness time!)

1:39am Sun January 30, 2005- sick liao ah!

wow man.. the messurement show that i'm 39.5 degree now?! oh no~~!  anything... nowonder head hot, body hot, leg and hands cold..

wanna get the job liao! 1st of march till 5th, PWTC funiture fair.. not bad payment ler.. but then need to interview this monday, and i have to help my father work! so how? duno lah, see tomolo eu harn come fix it! mmm...... tiring lah....... oh ya, jay's concert just end, everyone is so high liao, whahahaa.. but then paying 200 bucks just for listening to his voice.. mad i think......

i wan recover soon! if not i cant drive! and ler.. my plates number will be register on 1 of february, coz its new month, better wor, and never kena the tax penalty coz i book car b4 Feb... not bad lah.. ok liao.. wan sleep ..........................

1:09am Sat January 29, 2005 - throat start to feel dry, oh no! dun sick !!

Uncle Yin, one of my father's work partner, can said as helpers when my father need ppl to help him in work. Too sad to say that one of his son, eldest, 22 this year, dead yesterday night.....   read till here, u sure will think that its car accident? nope.. it isn't.  After attending that ceremony by parents, they have some info of it.. last night, the son, use to fix the comp at up stairs, around 11pm, then later, his younger bro come down to ask his mother to wash the cloths, and then around 12am, found that he's dead. Doc said its lack of oxigen...   he is a .. quite plum guy actually, less excersice, and eat alot, such as fried chicken.... so ler.. human is just so...   "hua xue" .. live hapily, and do what u wan, just that ensure it is good to everyone, and no harm to others..  excersice more ah!  if wan, come play basketball with me, lol

got my license liao, then father so funny, straight away ask me drive from the Metro centre to home... scary.. one week never drive, then suddenly ask me drive, and that mainroad...haih... scary ler.. power stering really nice one! i forgot the car got power stering, so ler.. i turn it hardly! and? the car swing, whahaha... its better Prado is very steady type, if not sure boooommm... jatuh.. then evening, went to office, and my turn to drive again! aiks... so anxious..  although very near, but crossing that main road really hard, especially driving this Giant CAR!! then ler.. parking that time,w ahaha!!!! nearly scartch the kelisa! whahahaha!!! who ask the car so big, till i dun hav better adjustment....  

discussing the renovation with the house designer! i like the design man!!! so big!! i can even play pingpong in my room!! whahaha... coz my room will be bigger than masterbed room! gengnya............. anyway, parents room punya view really shock~ whole wall will be glasses, so that the corner view can have a better look... as for me.. haih... the stupid roof top, covered my view, haih! now can only watch to parents room, or the other window, which can see the back KLIA highway! whahah....... 

everyone just have their ganti sekolah tomolo... including my sis, and xuan..... badnya.. so lucky i'm not going back to school, coz why i'm graduate! whahahah!!!!  sometimes really think that she's very geng, PMO.. i think whole week one, rite? its good lah anyway, use the time to learn something that is even more usefull. As for me? now the helper cant help father liao, so i won't be so urgent to find work liao, will be helping my father these days....  (hope i got good payment) , ahhaa.. wanna earn patrol money b4 i drive it!

12:16am Fri january 28, 2005 - feel so stone..

feel blurr blurr lah! i think is bcoz dinner time taken 2 little small small cup of chinese wine.. haih.. why me so cha.. later go pub kena rogol...

erm.. i planned to write this after i brush my teeth one, who know still chatting with hau, Jie, zhimin, so cant go so fast, especially Jie! she angry of me very 1st, coz i say wan go toilet and she bu shuang liao! say me purposely dun coi her.. grrr!! hahaha..  worked today! tired ler.. few hours work, but waste me energy.. and then go office later to fix my mother's comp.. hope it works then after reinstall Win98..

back to main topic.. actually should i feel same thing as yesterday, to keep my weird feeling all day long, anyway, keeping myself busy quite ok... very early, mother knocked my door, to ask for the name card of one car company's salesman..... i'm not sure i lost it, or i even never get it.. so mother abit not happy with it, but i'm sleepy, so continue my dream till 10:30am.. coz 11 need to go work when father back to fetch me! at the moment, used to know that the salesman, Sam Yee... he said he found one dark blue car.. ask us whether wan or not.. honestly, i'm still not ok with it, althought it is the best for now, but the color, haih.. whole family chosen the light blue, now suddenly dark blue, so we refuse to acept it. My mother even go ask him to use this dark blue car to change with his CO's light blue, which is sold!! whahaha, funny...  i think he really za dao...

After work, 1pm something.. mother called! and the NEWS is!!!!!~~~~~ ------- Sam founds a light blue car! wow man.. so good, and so happy now.. whole body feel lighter, slightly lighter...  will get the chasis code tomolo, and then buy the insurance tomolo as well, then saturday process of it, and then sunday offday, then monday, 31st of january, last day bfore the tax increased in February, will be the day for us to choose our car number!!! yes! so ler.. fastest can get my car at the end of nex week, wow.. happynya...  anyway, i hope it is a good car for me..

Then, here comes my P's story, Bing went testing today, and he passed! congrates him of coz.. then when he pass up his info, the ppl there told him my card is readied in Metro USJ!! lol.. but this news is too late, Bing told me after the shop was close, so ler.. will be getting it tomolo! yeah~~~ i feel scared lah.. duno how to drive actually, 13 hours where got enuff.. i havent try highway, faderal highway b4.. even USJ taipan... and the only car i can drive now is.. Prado!! what a giant car.....

   
-- i wan this car!!!!

I'm just.. thx to xuan.. for her caring of coz, if not she wunt read my blog and try to understand me......  mmm.. funny when she wrote to me just now, and i'm ngam ngam available after back from office, and off my sleep mode to chat with her... she then feel ntg to say to me liao, something she wanna say is better when i am sleeping, she said..lol...    erm..  actually ler.. no need to say sorry to me one lah.. 1st of all, i will always forgiv u, so a sorry is really mean ntg liao, 2ndly.. if really till very very hurt liao, then a tiny sorry will not cure me, so sorry will be no neccessary... busy or not busy is not just a reason for ppl to refuse another one..  u will never know what will happen b4 u try to understand the other one, cope with him/her....  maybe one of the day, u might tell that busy make both ppl cant always  together, then will feel sorry to each other, or what, but till that time, then only a person will grow, and learnt that maybe busy really is not ngam them to be together... anyway, what i can say is, dun think something that will not happen, or will just happen after a long long time, and only with a tiny percentage...  this will just make one's affraid to do anything, and run away from question...     
From her replies... feel more release now... actually i really duno what to do yesterday.. i'm just there thinking.. how am i gonna face her nex time.. i'm not like those... ppl who can forget eveything and pretend ntg has happened.. bcoz i scared i either more like that person, and then till cant control and at last maked that person feel angry.. , or i'm suddenly so cool to that person, bcoz i just wanna avoid myself from treating anyone too good.. haih.. really stupid personalities......       anyway.. i hope everything is alright.. .. ..... should be more release after solving all the problems i had yesterday.....

12:27am Thurs January 27, 2005 - wat to do later?

I hate myself, now only i realise... always when there is a tiny small little hope for me, and i'm looking forward to see it boasting, and at least, waiting for it to come true, all i have at last, is just some stupid dust leaving object....... Phoned metro today, to ask bout the P license, and then the girl, Emie, what a beautiful Malays, really pretty one! too bad i'm not Malays, whaha, she just tell me to wait coz she'll phone me if the card is ready.. haih.  i think coz of that few days holidays, delayed my license! Then? i forget to ask them to change my house address! this time is really sucks.... using old house address for whole year.. damm..... how can i forget it.......

Noon, mother back, and tell me one bad news, haih.. my stupid Atos salesman, wanna knock his head, or maybe, F* his mother up... when my parents go get the order form today, he just told them, the car is sold by his CO, something like boss? maybe, main point is, the car is sold! mother fuker!..... and then my parents diao them hard enuff, lastly they trying to solve it, by offering another new car, but with silver color, gosh, ask him eat shit...... finaly, they just promise to see whether other company still hav old stock left or not.. haih.. i dun think they'll even go look for it... and they said 7 or 8 days later will have 10 new car coming, but color is no promisssing... damm.. This is really a big pengajaran.. nex time buy car, must get the car order form, to ensure that the car is being sold to u, idiot salesman, all those idiot is same in this world....   How come so many things, bad things happen to me in such a same time?? so stress, i feel cant breath ......  sleep till 2pm today, but still feeling not so good, how come she gave me such a stupid decision.....  busy couples wunt stand long, duh.......  i'm now like thinking, why those ppl who is also so damm gao busy all days long, still manage to hav a good time? so me now not agree to that answer, main problem that makes both ppl cant stand long, is bcoz of not understanding, not being understanding, and not trying to understand, then? then simply think bcoz of duno what others thinking, and lastly suffering like hell, and then bomb.......... ok, enuff.......  bad luk plz swept away from me, and dun come even closer..... i'll die for it......

1:10am Wed January 26, 2005 - just so down

1:20am Tues January 25, 2005 - waiting 2am for checking utopia

Morning been waken up by mother coz wanna stop his recording tape, lol.. then later ate some bread, and go One-U with Guan han, bing, keat.. very fun when being with them, not just those sarcatic joke, laughter, most important is.. i am using my mind.. i dun wanna think anymore, at least that busy, or gather moment, can let me release my stress, for just a seconds, or so.....

one-U, i think the 1st time i been there,... ops.. not.. if really wanna count, then should be 3rd times.. 1st time is working with father, in that bloody hot electric room, second times is.. pass by when zhimin's bday, and used the toilet, lol.. wat a wonderful time.. and last.. today..  wanna find pants, but then, the price nearly kill anyone.. maybe not all, just ppl like me, not so rich.. whahahaa, by the way, why all i see nowdays is jeans? blue only.. aiyo.. wear longer, will kill my sperms! hehehe, anyway, those cutting is perfect, but the price is perfect too... found a cloth type long yellow-brown pants, but how much? RM109, wow.. scary tag ...  there is a shop, which sell original CD, VCD, with dirt low price, even can get new album, 2-cds just RM12?! geng.. i think its something come in without tax.. mean what? illigal, whahaha... i never bought any.. coz i can burn my own cd song if i wan.. the fighting fish there very nice, and not very expensive too.. special and rare types, cost between Rm10 to RM20..  , anyway, i buy 2 bottles of oil lamp there, not bcoz of wanted to use it, but the design of it, and the contain of flowers inside is so nice, can decorate my room..  the jelly perfume in my room is now abit "suk sui", nowonder they said can tahan for 2 months only..  hav my lunch there, at 5pm... whahha, KFC, the new burger they sell.. hehe... try it if u wan, coz delicious anyway, just that really mini, small man! 2 bites can finish it.. then the what what fire pepsi, dun ever hav another try, coz it contains too much gas..  back home 7pm, and might be going to KL tomolo with han, for making my new year pants..

Tired of having this type of stress, should i call stresS? maybe just that i am stupid enuff to feel weird.. i dun really know what she wans, what she needs.. from the very begining.. aiks.. i also duno when do i really start to like her.. but what i know is, like, is bcoz i got the main reason, i feel comfort, i feel happy, i feel fresh, i feel i'm just like having high blood pressure whenever flirting around with her, talking to her, knowing her status, trying to get deep into her heart.. But  what else i got now? after telling the whole world i did hav feel on her, i lost all those things i use to hav, conversation seems to be less like counting teeth in a 1 month old baby's mouth. everytime on these so-called usefull MSN just to waiting for her to online. Doing this stupid thing, i call stupid, is bcoz its really stupid, i did this long time ago, everyday trying to keep my pc on, just to let the other her to know that i am here.... and ended up, i'm so moody, acting so furious, locking myself in my room, for nearly 3months, living with just some dead spirits.. oh man. long time story, but now it trying to start on me again?! saw her on, really, did she on, if that was last time, she'll be the one who get 1st to say hi to me, and as i'm those who dun like to start conversation, she is just so nice to do me a favour, all the time. Maybe this is also another reason where i get those comfortable feeling, being together, just want to be happy, wanted the second half try to know what ownselve is thinking, and wanted to share the best, the worst, the happiness, all together.. i'm bloody bad mood now, from the minutes i came home till now, trying to act ntg is useless when i am alone in my room, if i can, just wanted to yell as loud as i could, or perhaps, have some tears, to release my current tension..  never ever drops any tears, long time liao, except the twice last year, and few on the funerals of my both grandma..   Sometimes, really trying hard to ask myself, why am i so sat bai.. whenever i go like a person, i just cant get the simple and lovingly love that i really wanted to hav.. looking at bing is just making me feel jealous, he get what is ppl called, simple and easy relation, why i never ever have the chance to take it, the one i like, is just always giving me comfort at the 1st, and later on, not even started, then gimme the suffering, while the one i dun think b4, just sometimes making me like i'm feeling myself so perasan.....  maybe i'ved been curse, not to have an easy life....... laughing at myself, and hoping that i can hav a good nite sleep today, at least........

12:06am Monday january 24, 2005 - Damm bu shuang

Idiot Msn! i really wanna fuk dap it! Ci bai one, evrytime when i'm in the very serious situation, it sure come out giving me msg that connection problem, and ended up is its stupid server down..... oh god! Hotmail msger, i think u need to improve abit, Yahoo is winning u 360 degrees! Brainless Msger service provided! i dun care~ if that serious talk is ruin coz of it, then i'll swear to hack ur hotmail till i get 3GB acc!

1:46am

ok, enough liao! MSN! not just once, but down fo many times today.. and my hotmail mailbox is abit unusual.. cant delete junk mail.. alrite, what i wanna say is, conversation is just done just now, and then? my very secret is just leaked out.. anyway, not big deals i think.. That buying car process is too slow.. tomolo will be getting the order form(now only have it), then later still need time to buy insurance, and so on.. so fastest willl be end of this week to collect my car.. still thinking of where to find my patrol money nex time.. help me to think!  any plans for tomolo? dun hav wor, coz of that msn break down, the planning is cancel automatically, wait for tomolo's call then.. as for work? till now none of them phone us, maybe our interview is categarize as "sat bai" .... its my third time to wrote this blog today, why? maybe the whole world connection got problem, supposely some big virus taken action, whaha, i hope this time will upload it...  oh ya, Harn said my english damm bad, i admit it, coz really cha, especially when i am gan jiong, ot rushing for replies...

X is telling me story liao....duno apa should i reply... very begining, she put there, no mood to chat as her nick, and then.. she really no mood i guess. those replies from her, either none reply, or coolest and cold replies i get.. leng dan.....  feel shivering.. too cold.. come, here goes the story...... you, make u as a boy, a male, a guy that suppose to be, and there u have a little younger bro, who is abit, taller? and abit.. handsome than u..  ok, problem occures, one of ur fren, if wanted to categarize.. put it as best fren.. she, its a SHE, not him, she .. a girl, gals.. not guy, k? so, she is ur classmate, and what happened? she go likes ur little brother.. and tell me now, what do u feel? how do u feel,? and what will u do?
really funny abit.. i duno who is the He, She, and the him.. should i know them? i should be, rite? or should i dun..... better choose no, later guess wrong, i'll be mad, i'm the third party, make it like this, goes easier.....  what reply? ashame? i think not.. maybe.. if that He is a girl, shame.. or what, should be getting a little, afterall, thats "her younger sis, who should be going to having this type of feeling, relation later than her, rite? anyway, if we use to say a guy, then i choose, shame is a  no no ....  Guy will just feel jealous, then now comes the issue, jealous bout what? U, as a guy, if u dun like dun love no feeling on that girl, although is best fren, then will be no jealousy..  If u say u like that girl, then here comes, she just wunt be ur best frenz, from the very begining.. it shouldn't be, what is the meaning of frenz? Maybe i'm really not same or what.. i cant take best fren, as the one i like.. sounds funny when u like the one u treat him as frenz, then later on u'll need to care more on him/her... okok, back to topic.. maybe i'll be angry to my younger bro, and my best fren, that girl. abit or very much? depends on how deep my relation to them, if i like that girl, then jealousy plus angryness, sure need time to burnt it; if it is just plainly best fren, i'll try to let her know what a guy my bro is, she's my best frenz, i'm sure to help her to overcome what they both should encounter, maybe this may or may not help to improve their relation, or maybe at last can ruin theirs relation, bt i'ved try my best, of coz..  Wunt be angry to both of them actually, angry to them is useless, think maturely.. think back too, when u have a girl who like u,  u wan that girl to treat u better, or her best fren, who is a male too? I cant take it when the one i like is serving others, especially guys, better than me.. i'll think that she take no important on me, i'm just a dust, in her memory, rite? if i use to think this way, then i should be glad too, if the girl put more time on my bro, other than me.. of coz, you may say that, ur relation with that girl is becoming loose..  but i dun think it will.. as what u said, the girl just keep on talking bout ur bro, in front of u, ok, take it easy..... she is just in the mood of thinking of him, what can she do then... keep her mouth shut? coz u're just her best fren, if she dun shoot her feeling on u, then whoelse? if she dun talk it to u, then u should be more sad, coz she never bring or make u as her best fren, and those faces when she is facing u, is just some lies beneath it, not real, not honest, not the original face..  think other ways, she talk this to u, is just bcoz she wanna share the feeling with u, should glad of it... as i think..  lastly.. both, 2 types of relation is different, dun mix them up, ever. u may  say that conversation btween girl and that guy will be lesser, i think not.. u may say those conversation she wanna said, will go to younger bro, i guess not.. one is call frenz, and one is call lover, how to mix it up. the brain is turning everyday, thinking and talking, just a pieace of cake,... what am i talking>? aiks.. nvm, let me continue..  i mean, no need to affraid the relation, coz she may have too many things to talk to ur younger bro, but she will be have those normal good old days talk to u too! why so scared? conversation on both ppl will become different, one type is those really caring frenly talk, and one more type will be caring loving talk, rite or not? too bad.. i'm very weird now.. never arrange my mind and words bfore i wrote this.. just.. try to understand what i wanna mean........

2:51am Sun January 23, 2005 - after wine, but still haven sleep, i can tahan eh.. hahaha!

Fri, gone to MV, wanna find cloths one, who knows dun have those pants i wan.. long, and it is better if bigger at the bottom, while the center at least have 20inches... hard to find lah........ haih.. somemore i hope to have lighter color, such as white, ... anyway, saw Guo Wei, Kah Lun, and then.. mm. teck long. haha, not bad eh.. Si jie said will come one, but then never see her wor, then ler, from LWL's blog, used to know that she's there too, never see her too, aiyo, so damm many ppl there that evening.. from 11am till 5pm, we shop, then go to chi cheong gai...

same many ppl there, sis bought lots of cloths, then mother suddenly say each person can hav Rm100 for buying cloths, whahaa, good lor, then i no need to pay more for myself.. lol.. but compare to others.. they buy one cloths, or what... alredi cost them over 100... poor mah.. who ask me to live in a poor family, aiks! i should be born as the son of the Genting manager...  Bought one green in color's long pants, cost RM30, and a black shirt.. so funny when buying that pants.. found a light chocolate long jeans, but then when they take for me, founded it is too small in the center.. erm.. the weidth is just 16inches.. if i wear that, will be look like gay.. whahaha.. then that pants, 30 is too expensive actually... normal cloth only.. then we go other's stall, and guess what? they open price as "RM60" for one, wahhaha, f* up... KL buisnessman... whahaha, at last, go back there, and pay the pants in RM30... not bad lah, at least i have some new cloths...  when only can find the pants i wan ah...??

sleep till ..mm.. 11:30am today.. then wake up, do ntg.. sleep again... later eat lunch. then sleep again... whaha, till 5:30pm, Guan Han fetch us to see kakeat's work place.. a Thai restorant, call  what KJ as in short form... he seems mature liao. hohhoho, short hair liao, neat, smart... lengzai liao! He works for 3 weeks i think, and then now he just like naik pangkat, coz later there will be another malays who will wash the plates, and he will be those waiters, standing like woods, and getting order... thx for his drinks, whahaha, 100 plus.... hehehe... when only i'll have my time for work, and earn my own money?? now i dun even have money to watch movie, or at least for patrol when i have my car... oh god.. imagine hav a car without patrol..= useless...

back home at 6:30pm.. family went to club.. swimming and so.. me? sleep again? no lor.. i go vacuum the house floor, too dirty liao.. i feel dusty.. after vacuuming, can feel the comfort and relaxing.. dinner is .. shabu-shabu (66) , haha, vege, meat, mee, rubbish.. then later on, drink wines and watch kungfu, which i downloaded and burnt.. oh ya. that show.. not as good as previous one, but then still ok ok lor... not so funny lah..

and right now? i'm doing reading forums, wahhaa, checking what so good on Atos, compared to kenari and kelisa.. and also as for the Picanto.. now i totally feel very happy coz not to booking it.. it is such of wasting time, and money, ppl from last year August booked it, till now havent get the new car, which cost RM44000, then ler, if delayed till later than Feb, the tax will cost it higer price, they need to pay more to it.. moreover, they created a new Novus edition (special edition), and cost around 50k... but then later only i realise the special accessories they added, not 100% build up in overseas, which answer why so many ppl cant get their 44k picanto as early as they can, coz the Kia company kept all the cars, then later on build in extra accessories, which costed actually not more than 6k.. and incresed the 44k to 50k.. funny eh.. and then lately, my parents found out that they sell the special e. now for 53k.. whahaha, siao one....  dun let the Peroduo release the new car.. which coming soon, it will kill Picanto! and the Boon too!

atos pro over kelisa/kenari:
1) very solid car (door close with very solid sound like alfa)
2) very comfortable car ( much better suspension , comparable to altis)
3) very low in NVH
4) much better braking system (bigger pump and disc)
5) got centre arm rest with compartment
6) electric boot open button, also with button on the alarm pad
7) design wise, the back seat can fold flat down. so very good design for a MPV
8) new sports rim
9) new from bumper with very nice fog light
10) expensive rubber mat as standard (no need to get from access shop)
11) 4-speed auto with o/d button

atos cons over kelisa/kenari:
1) very high fuel consumption ( kelisa rm40 = 370-400km, atos rm40 = 250- 300km) will inform SC to rectify this problem or that is the FC for
     atos...:(
2) power wise, much slow pickup and need to pedal more heavily
3) no dashboard compartment to put things ( only tray under the seats and centre compartment
4) kenari boot side open (better loadability)

Wow! this info great arh~! overall, the pick up for Atos is just abit slow, but btw, it isn't a race car, pick up fast is actually useless... dun dream of getting 1st after green lights coz u r not driving Ferari...whahah........ fast fast get my car!!! and my P license too!!

aiks.. actually dun wanna write anything one, but my blog mah, just to jot down my feelings... i saw her online today ler! which i hope so much, everyday, coz at least can talk to her.. but then, i'm vacuuming, so never saw it, later, when i finished, is alredi dinner, so changed to dinner, and saw her sign as "toilet" , then later when i finished dinner, and hoping to see her, she's "busy".... i never put away sign then.. hope that she's at least can say something to me.. but who knows.. when i back at 12:30, she'd gone.. 7minutes ago...... haih... i still duno what she's thinking actually.. like or dun like is just a reply, an answer, which at least can let me know what should i do.. i feel being tighten now, i cant do anything for it.... and her nick, changed to frenship forever, is it showing to me? or what? u see... i can think lots, think too much, till everything she does or did or doing or will be doing, will affected my mood, my way of thoughts... written a testi to her, but till now, she never added yet, is the frenster's problems, or she scared there appear too many my testi in her board... funny................... the feeling is so bad now........

4:21am Fri January 21, 2005 - woke up for 1 hour liao

hohhoho, planed to sleep from 11pm to 12:30am one, who knows tired till cant heard the alam, and slept till 3:45am, geng ler~! then go downstairs, eat the "tong sui" and then those kuih i bought this afternoon. I buy those kuih is because, one of the year, i think when i am Form 3, i went SS15, cao game, then i buy 2 kuih which cost me RM1.40, then i dun have small change, only RM50 and forty cents, so the ... "ah poh" ( she's really bit old..) , said pay her back RM1 nex time, and guess? i never go there buy liao, coz no chance, i since then seldom go SS15, lol... and today passed by, so buy it and return one dollar to that ah poh.. feel happy, at last i pay back ppl what i owe liao~!

On too late liao, everyone goes... left me alone, to write this blog. Oh ya~! i passed my P, whahaha. Morning, metro ppl said 8am come fetch, who knows wait till 8:30am++ only the van came. reach around 9am ++ then register. My number is Hijau 90. wohohoho, Hijau.. lol, green, not bad. Bing is Hijau 91, just a number back of me. Briefing at the open-air hall while waiting for those JPJ ppl come. then i saw some frenz, Thian, Ren (i dun really remember their name liao), so today Bing and me aren't goingexam alone lor. waiting so long, Putih around 30 ppl, Kuning around 60, then Hijau 150, man~! so many, after JPJ came, we line up according number, then Putih do all those test 1st, coz they r retake i think, then Kuning on the road, and lastly Hijau lining up for doing Bukit those stuff. So long, at last its my turn, and Bing just nex to me! we go up the stoke together man, and i saw that Bing aims the square box better than me. He's very accurate in the box, and i am abit back of his straight line, so means i am behind the center point, hahaha, anyway, after giving out my number, wherelse Bing go read my number 90 as his, whahaha, making the JPJ pening kepala, then we start balancing, and go to down hill. me doing this very smooth,  guess.. but too bad, i feel that Bing isn't coming with me, and when i walk up to sign my result, knew that Bing has failed... i think he too nervous when balancing, when release the cluth, he maybe release the accerelator together.. thats cause him go forward for a short distance, and then backwards... which mean no chances given, straight failed.. haih.. then i go for parking and 3 pointer test, as easy as makan kacang, Kancil so small, parking damm easy lah... later, wait for on the road test for nearly another hour. Thian back with good result, 18 if i never mistaken, then Ren passed his Bukit too, mean he totally get P liao, coz he do on the road at 1st, he is Kuning. Giliran 5, car 8, i sit inside when my turn came.. never realise its my training car man! WLW 4340, nowonder i dun feel any uncomfortable when i go in lah~! adjusting those seats and mirror is a kind of wasting time, i dun think that JPJ likes me to do it, coz he ticks all of it b4 i do it, mean i actually dun need to do, but then i still adjust it coz dun hope that he minus my marks.. on the junction from Metro to the main road, something funny happened.. wahahha, that time got one rubbish car passing by, then i duno how fast it is, so i wait lor, who knows JPJ go ask me cross the road faster wor, it makes me nervous very gan jiong liao, lol~! then i fast fast wanna cross, and release cluth too early, till sei fo.. damm fish.. so faster start back engine lor, who knows JPJ still wan me cross b4 rubbish car came, whahaha, and guess what? sei fo again, and again, total 3 times, whahaha! then i think i'll failed coz of it, so bu shuang liao, i go tell JPJ "saya tak tau lori itu cepat atau lambat mah! sorry lor~ " whahahaa, funny eh.. then after that, quite smooth, till school there, when doing U-turn, there's another person testing in front of me, but he takes too left, so i take over him on the right, and funny thing happen once more, i go ask that examiner, "bagi dia lepas dulu? " and i get this answer "Jika boleh, kamu pergi dulu lah, siapa tau nanti dia mati enjin" wahahha! so i mou min bei that car liao, see the road quite empty, straight away cross him, whahaha! and then back to Metro... i think i hit the break not hard enuff, till abit fast when turn in.. although changed to second gear...

The result? hooho, 18/20, high marks ler! i never see anyone better than me, whaha! but bing said saw one 20/20, unbeliveable.... when its Bing's turn, we went into Guan Han's car, and following him. hohohoo, then we try to help him, when we saw that he might forgotten the signal lights.. anyway, he do quite well, 17/20, passed lor.. abit sad coz that bukit cause him cant fully pass... He need to come for training class on Tues, then nex Thurs test once more.. anyway, he no need to do any payment liao, coz Metro "bao" it, till we pass! Very happy ah!! I passed my P! wahahha, eventhough sei fo 3 times, still can pass, geng ler~ maybe its the help from those who praying for me!! hehe.. who ah? aiya, know lah............

Actually planned to go MV tomolo, with geng gua.. but he never tell me any further info of it.. like no more planning.. so forget bout it. Xuan, Jie, will going to MV!! with family... ?  i duno, but my family just said that they wanted to go MV too.. lol.... so ler, tomolo make it as a family day lor! long time never go out with them, hope they buy me new cloths!! whahaha .......... oh ya.. just now 11pm something...Jie phoned me.. ask me whether pass or not wor.. then ah.. after few seconds talks, i also duno what happened.. coz i ngam ngam slept.. blurr blurr, then heard someone like unhappy there, scolding "shaddup lah! " wah liao... who make who so angry... ?? hope ntg serious happened.. and then ler? dong, sleep till 3am something lor..........

few.. tired liao... wrote whole day..... Once more, thx to everyone who has wish me luk in exam! i wanna drive my new Atos!! fast fast!! deliver to me!! and my P license!! fast fast deliver to Metro USJ!!!

2:03pm Wed January 19, 2005 - dreaming of my car!

LOL. wanted to write this blog yesterday one, but feel really tired liao, so add in today.. mmm.. why tired? coz ler, i on9 till 4am, then sleep till 9am, then go pyramid meet eu harn, then sunway hotel find jobs, then holiday villa, then the hotel nex to it! whahaha, do so many things, 3 interview... the Holiday Villa one most.. damm.. why? wan us cut our hair, to short, then dye to black, what the fuk... stupid school rules! i tot that was only used in school.. whahaha,  should say SMK Holiday Villa, nex time! deng one.. i'm sure i will be absent at the they they wan me go for face to face interview. whahaha.. I hope those 2 hotels can help me, gimme a job... good payment of coz, and good work..

Dreaming of car? whaha, of coz not lah, i'm dreaming of..   ~ you lah! nowdays u often pop up in my dream, how can a car replace u in my heart, rite or not,  hehehe.. anyway, i mean dreaming of my car, is bcoz! i'll have a new car! wahaha, i dun think i'll get P license b4 i have my car, mean what?! i will have my car very soon, even i stil havent receive my P !! whahaha...  Atos it is.. at 1st ler, we go see Picanto one, really my 1st dream car, coz of its very modern look, and then sweet color, and nice comfort... the price is good too, plus those accessories.. so good ler.. 44k.. but yesterday noon, parents back, tell me that Picanto is no more, now maybe only have around 100 buah in malaysia, then got few special edition, but alredi sold of with price 50k, nex month will have some new special edition models, sell with 53k, wahhaha, so expensive! if wan the old models, will need to wait maybe a year, god! one year man, then ler, they said the price will be increase, coz one year, the govenrment also will make the price higher of coz..  those stupid Tax lah! then no choice lor, goes back to Atos..  after having some discussion with Guan Han, then slowly think bout taking auto.. manual isn't that good, especially in KL area, will hate it the most.. moreover, Atos.. not a sport car, wan manual for what, rite?  At night, parents bring me go booking, and then so surprisingly know that the Only left manual silver Atos in Selangor alredi been sold! whaha, luckily i'm not aiming for it, if not sure abit disappointed.. then they said came one new auto, and is also the only auto in Selangor now, there will be no more new car, till Feb.. hohoho, why ? coz Feb the new laws on taxes increase the car price by at least RM700, whoowhoaho, so we book it, nice one ler! light blue, do u see this color atos b4? never rite? coz too nice liao! whahaha, very happy to get it! 45k total up with those insurance, road taxes.. oh ya! that car is very comfortable, this is the most important, long enuff to place the knee behind my seat even though how tall u r.. lol...  the car in paid by parents, under company name now, too bad me not yet 18years, if not i can join in my parents company, and then put under my name.. then the insurance NCB will be given to me, it is to be used next time if i buy another car.. complicated of it if u wan to know it, wunt write here, but if wanna know, can ask me. lol..  they paid, i still duno need me to pay back or not.. anything lah, i just know that i'll have a new car! whahaha, fast fast pass my P! then i can drive liao! tomolo test man! thx for xuan.. and of coz michelle, for writing the support to me in frenster, whaha.. i wanna pass!!!!!

12:54am Monday January 17, 2005 - feel sleepy after drinking some grapes wine..

wow man!!~! I'ved finish all my driving lessons,  and the most geng is.. straight 3 classes, Fri, Sat, Sun! haahaha... love driving alot, but when got teacher besides, or.. haih.. feel nervous anyway.. very gan jiong, then wil do many mistakes.. such as signals.. forgotten the cluth when hitting break.. oh god! mmm, Bukit that one.. balancing is quite good liao, just that still need to target the yellow square.. no more extra classes for me.. if need, need to pay.. so how? canot try anymore, and this Thus will be my testing day! parking and 3 penjuru.. ok ok lah.. so far never do mistake for that... hope that examination day, the JPJ fella dun ask me go further to take the high way road.. i want the short one, the.. hehehaha. go out of metro, then straight, then schools, then go in, then u-turn, whaha, thisone easier... as for highway... hard lor..

Yesterday having 3rd lesson alone, coz the instructor of youbing not free, he have to go for afternoon lesson, and different teacher..  so i cant meet him. And i met the girl that same class with me in undang kursus, i think she's the only chinese i can see here, except myself, ahaha..  then get to know her, named Joan, something like that, Taylor's currently.. and i met Shuet Mei too! she having her bengkel, haaha....

Trying to keep myself bz... i just dun like to think too much.. later myself suffer, whahaha.. oh ya!  parents bring me go see car yesterday...erm.. Atos, Picanto.. not bad man, the price is not BAD too, whahaha ... i really hope can have my own car, at least no need to walk alone or what to just take that metro bus.. sien of taking bus...

Grrr,,,....,.,.,.,. what am i doing? writing blog lor, whahaha, thx for Zhimin for her testi!! whaha, oh ya... we planning to have some.. gathering coz she'll be going to Aus on 15th of Feb.. and guess what? ppl said she very busy on 14th wor.. bz doing what? whaha, valentine's day, sure lah.. and who is the boy ah, so lucky! hohoho.. sure know.. u sure know one.... hehhahaha..  this year.. who will be celebrating my 1st valentine's day? aiseh.. no one i guess, whahahaha! Stupid Bing.. he got liao! sure leave me alone that day! cham lor...........

2:29am Tues Jan 11, 2005 - recovering from sickness

wow, having 1st driving lesson, just yesterday.. or should i saw few hours ago? hoho, erm, 4:45pm, van came to fetch us to kg Subang.. damm far.. then from 5:30pm, drive till 8:30pm.. tired of turning that non-power stering Kancil... lol, thx my dad for giving me lesson 3 months ago, where i at least know how to controll my leg for the clutch and ... erm.. break.. my teacher, En.Asmadi , erm.. should spell like this, or .. Asmali? amali? aiya.. duno lah, just call her cikgu then can liao.. asked me whether i drive b4, i said once only, so that he teach me from the very begining.. forward, reverse..ahaha... then slowly rounding, and changing gear.. just a short road, change from gear 1to 2, 3, 4, 5 .. gengnya.. then very fast change back to gear 1.. hahaha.. i thought gear 5 is only used on highways... 1st time hit till this high gear.. then next.. go to small hill driving.. stop at the top.. and go down.. this abit tough, after stopping, need to hit cluth till the engine noisy, so thats mean got power, then add oil, then only release handbreak.. haih.. so many things to do at a same time.. anyway, after 5 times.. then only i can adjust my time abit.. not to mati engine too much..  finally, go to parking lesson. love this.. coz just to adjust the correct place b4 release the cluth.. oh ya.. i love this. Kancil actually, coz i think they do some adjustment on the gear liao.. when in gear 1, no need hit oil, it still can move, normally this is only happened to bigger vehicles, such as Prado.. parking isn;t that hard.. but i hate the turning process, the stering.. turn for ... erm... 720degree at 1st, then turn back 720, and turn other side 720, wahhahaa.. till me sot sot liao... then lastly.. go for U-turn.. this is most easy. just go in, turn.. after having some rest, teacher let me drive alone, whahaha.. then what? on radio, on air-cond, whaha.. so shock..  driving alone, wanted to fetch.. someone ...nex time.. back home abit late.. 9pm.. then separated the pineapple tarts to another box for Bing.. super nice.. so delicious.. mom said so too.. too bad.. we dun have the biscuit recipee.. mother do one is just loose on the biscuit.. coz her's not so.. soft.. and.. erm... "sou"..  never phone harn, duno the hotel works how liao.. anyway, i hope can finish my driving lesson 1st.. and.. driving is just so fun!

need to wake up tomolo, for basketball.. need taller!! man, help me!! sleep soon...........

12:38am Mon January 10, 2005 - why sick?!

Wow... mmm, its Monday... so fast!! anyway, wanted to start my story on.. Fri? ok, that day then. mmm, ntg much actually, planed to go pyramid, watch movie.. at 1st is Kungfu, but then most of them watched d.. no choice lor, so we plan other.. and asking frenz to go. Too bad... really abit disappointed when knowing Xuan cant go, why ler ah? coz know lah, she too active liao lah,  its what i say .. got one word.. erm.. "hyperactive", too much tiroksine in her body liao, and i lack of it, better ask doctor to transfer some to me, oh no!! is my father lack of it.. my father having 0 now..  man, zero! thats why having .. erm.. call what, dai geng pao , leher bengkak, something like that.... hope he can recovered soon... erm.. seldom see her online really.. anyway, hope she take care..

Sat. promissed to reach pyramid 11am, but then .. transport problems, and also.. over sleeping.. coz us reached at 12:45pm.. geng ler.. the most funny part is.. when we reached, we went toilet, and there is no one who take care of the casher, so bing and me went in without paying.. as we come out, she calling us... but i act duno, whahaha, funny ler.. piss only wor, also wan my money.. deng... ppl Jusco free of charge one ah! stupid service.. should resolve it.. found Harn, Hau, and we bought tickets.. Unborn, which is a Thailand ghost movie. Hard to buy tickets nowadays, coz of the 18++ law.. anyway.. Hau asked the ppl in .. one of the shop she knew to help her to buy it.. then later, we saw who? whahaha, Ling!!! then what else happened? easy lah.. Bing go following Ling, ohohoho... they 2 just like... couple.. so the rest of us never kacao them lor, and met Jie later.. that show isn't that scary, .. Jie like not so happy to watch it.. sorry ler...  Lunch in Kim garry b4 we met anyone, but then dinner we ate outside. The store named "ming tian" whaha... this name also can be used.. what about work whole day? found one, but never ever talk about price, so ... i dun care lah, the boss look cool, and.. actually should say cuan.. i dun like it.. now hoping to find jobs in hotel.. i dun care wash plates or what, just wanted to earn as much as i can... need these money to survive nex few years! sent Jie home with taxi, and it make a U-turn to bring Harn, bing and me back to subang once.. ohoho, funny.. no choice lor, she's girl mah, dun wan anything happen to her.. hope i can drive soon, and hav a car, hehehe

Sun, Harn reached bing's home at 12:30pm, and then we all ride bus to sunway.. Sunway Hotel needed lots of ppl to work, but today aint the date to interview, i hope they can gave us fix time job, and a high price job as well... black pants and black shoes, hard to find for me.. father have? i hope he has, so that can borrow from him. as for those hotels in KL, my cousin is helping me to ask, will be phoning her either today, or tomolo.. but there's too far... mmm, later, we went PWTC by taxi.. RM12, is it cheap? think so lah.. edufair, 1st time i attend not counting the school's one. Listening to the talks, quite fun.. medicine is a huge subject to follow on.. i duno what should i study actually.. dentistry not bad.. now just hoping my SPM result is good, so that i can go INTI to study with schorlarship, if not, then will be trying to get into form 6.. its good too actually.. why ler? hohoho... dun ask me.. i will not answer..hehe.. erm.. too bad lah.. sick whole day.. feel dizzzy... hot.. and cold together.. what type of feeling is it? sick feeling lor... outside feel cold, but then my heart, feel hot.. aiks.. after the .. what we call that? seminar? aiks, dun care, we went The mall and ate MC.. double cheese, man, nice, but drink water.. no more soft drinks.. who ask me sick, haih.. very funny that we saw a guy, with white hair, white eyebrow.. eating in MC, we thought the.. Kentucky In KFC come support MC, or merge with it, whahaha ..  back home later, with taxi again... RM20 total? i guess so.. oh my god.. wasted too many money in just only transport...

wow, write till now... 1:06am liao.. will be having my 1st driving lesson 5:30pm, whaha.. fun? wahohoho, i hope so.. and.. i hope can date her out one of the day... hope the day come true.. cheerioks!

7:16pm Fri Jan 07, 2005- Waiting dinner

Hoohoho, why am i so short?? hooho, i really duno ... last time when i meassure, is 175cm, but  then last year Bio class experiment, showed that i'm just 174cm.. wah~~!! need 6cm more!!! how to grow?!?! Anyway, i'm starting to play Baskeball~~ hope can help me a little.. Wed, morning played basketball with bing, and just only i realised that i'm so beh now... i'm like those who duno how to play basketball.. really need to do more excersice to gain back my strengh..   Yesterday evening, me go basketball court alone, luckily have frens there, or else i will not have the balls to shoot. Happy then.. coz i teamed with a small boy... and then win the other team who is 2 teenage... whahaha... i win man~~!!  unfortunately.. today is raining.. cant play, but to sleep.. and have si jie's phone call. She'll will be going edufair tomolo in PWTC..KL, interviewing wor, why ler? coz she registered the.. wat wat China trip thing.. geng man.. these type  of super woman.. is always very scary to man.. mmm, duno what's the plan for tomolo, Hau can only go out on Sat, Sun she'll be having japanese class, then Harn duno will follow me find jobs or not, and then Jie duno got transport to come or not.. all case.... oh ya, will xuan go ah? duno wor... and bing ler? bing sure follow me ah... my buddy..whahaha.

1:36am Wed Jan 05, 2005 - tired but havent sleep

few days never write liao eh.. why ah? coz ler... that few days dun have the mood to do anything liao... anyway.. today i have to write.. i need to jot down some events..........

Mon, went Inti working, its student helpers.. mmm, help in writing, calculating, and rearranging those ceks they collected due to the school reopen days... wow, that type of amount, is really big number! each time i calculate, at least willl show the total of 70k... cant imagine it! meet fren there, but her name is what ah? forgotten liao lor.... just know that i sleep late b4 that day... and.. its really lucky i never fall in sleep while i'm working.. this work is boring, no doubt... although easy..  but i learn alot, have some experients in those acc things liao.. 

came home around 9pm.. alredi late.. but i straight away on my come.. i duno why, comp seems to be my second life? or... i'm using it becoz i feel lonely... later on, erm..  still ok ok lah.. although have conversation.. but actually cant really remove the sickness in my heart.. Copied one poem from Inti.. it is :

If u think u r beaten, u r,
If u think u dare not, u dont,
If u like to win, but u think u cant,
It is almost certain u wunt.

If u think u'll lose, u're lost,
For out of the world we find,
Success begins with a fellow's will,
It's all in the state of the mind.

If u think u're outclassed, u r,
U've got to think high to rise,
U've got to be sure of urself b4
U can ever win a price.

Life's battles dont always go,
To the stonger or the faster,
But soon or late the man who wins,
Is the man WHO THINKS HE CAN.

is this poem nice? lol.. anyway.. i have mine...

If u think u are beaten, u r,
becoz win don really stick to u.
If u like to win, but u think u cant,
its better, so that no hope means no disappointment.

If u think u'll lose, u're lost,
bcoz there is many more better than u,
Success begins with a fellow's will,
but there is actually failure more than it..

If u think u're outclasses, then u're wrong,
u dun have money, dun have better knowledge,
dun have good looking, and dun have good attitude,
Look at urself and u'll sure the distance to win is far away..

Life battles dunt always go,
but once it comes, it'll swept u far away,
by the hand of the tsunami, u cant face the world anymore,
losing is sad, just becoz u aren't the best...

haih.. duno how to say.. ppl asked me to hav confident abit, but i feel weird, confident? if u lose, then how? i wanna win! hohoo, not to lose, not to being laugh at.. anyway..         oh ya, Jie said she started to baked cookiess... so ler, who wanna buy some, tell me!! her pineapple tart, nice one!!! hoohho, Bing and me decided to buy one, if she can go on this sat/sun gathering.. we wanna share it out, hohooh, so everyone  join that Kung Fu gang can taste it, and hope can leave some for bing's mother, let her taste ,, whahah... 

Bing passed his undang liao! geng wor, really did hardworking this time.. but sorry to his mom again... me over sleep.. so hard to get into sleep, and then alredi 8:30am... after that amali class (bengkel), we reached home is alredi 7pm.. late hor.. tiring timm, but still on9... why ler? tomolo will be my day off, ntg to do, but asked father, and he said thurs or maybe fri need me to help, lol, at least i can keep myself busy on those days.. not to think alot.. My 1st driving lesson will be on Mon.. one week to go.. haih, wasting time.. the timetable is fully booked by previous student in Metro.. haih.. 20th is my driving exams, which mean after i have all my courses that continues on 116th, 17th, and 18th of Jan.. hohoh, if like this, can go wet wet liao!! whaha. mm... wanna start my guitar lesson liao.. long time never practise, sure die! and i hope to learn singing as well...  then ler, working is my main target.. no money, cant survive in this world.. besides of love i mean......

actually, wanna continue that paragraph up there.. but i duno is it good to make it visible..  anyway.. haved some small talks with her.. and...  i duno what answer i get actually, .. but i told her all the truth, is bcoz i really cant stand any longer, to keep myself mouth shut.. her reaction.. quite funny.. omg omg omg... and.. haih... i dun really get to know what she means.. no matter the response later is positiv or negativ.. i just hope that.. it makes her happy... i really dun wanna make her feel weird.. feel bad... then later on ruins her life... stupid hor... i am ...          but sometimes.. i cant controll myself.. dun sleep too often, coz i know, after i sleep, she sure will appear in my dreams, think too much liao lah....... i should have listen to bing.. clear my mind...

Jie online at 12:30am.. asking why Harn never reply her msg.. and then its open up our conversation.. after a long long story, and deep talks.. then only we know that we haved too many misunderstanding.. me here once again.. saying sorry to her.. i hope she can forgiv me.. and as me.. i can tell that, jie.. me never angry u anymore on that pangkor leg kicking history~ i where will angry it for so long one... aiyor.. by the way.. i hope our talks make us notice something bout ourselves... i need to change, rite? my behavior aint that good enuff.. and.. i dun really get to know what u mean.. maybe.. u r telling me that.. she dun like me?.... giving me clues that.. asking me to ..putus asa? or... haih... yesterday.... should i say ... all these days... i dun really understand what ppls thinking liao.. not so good in sixth sense anymore.. where is it gone?...  

12:00am Mon Jan 02, 2005 - Starting of a new day!

when to Kg Subang this early morning, abit late, nasib baik, van havent go. from there, we ride back car to SS15, coz they said only can have undang exam in here becoz we booked it the day b4... wasting lots of time! then later.. bing line up at 10:30am, and wait till 1:27pm for his turn, stupid system, the queue so damm long, and how many workers there? i think one only..  too bad, bing not well today, aimed for 41/50, and 39/50....   bad to say it here.. anyway, he dun mind, i knew it.. he just belif what is real.. hoho..mm.. tues will be his 4th time exam, god bless him.. dun make him some tricky sentences....

tomolo..today lah i mean.. will be working for INTI, not good-pay job, but just work becoz ntg to do in home.. one day only.. i hope i have the str, and no tired for working there...

something stupid happened... what is it? i'm mad liao... saw xuan, say hello,and she said wanna watch TV, nvm lor... really duno where the 2 sis bzing at nowadays... then... at 11:00pm.. i saw a person, named.. Happy New Year Everyone.. and i use to thought it was her.. i talked to her.. and never realise its the wrong person...anyway, found it out when i feel that her reply aint the one i knew so far... its Jwei.. not xuan of coz...why am i so stupid... heart bit faster than ever.. but cool down too fast after know that i meet wrong person....... Geng said, its better to talk over what i'm thinking, no matter good or not.. i really wanted to talk something to them.. but never see them, what to do.............

3:55am - after bath, washed my face, brush my teeth.. feel slightly better..

Wow, so late, why am i still here? coz my time is opposite liao mah, hohoo..  mmm, know qing wei he wu? "ÇéΪºÎÎï" i really duno wor, but used this as my nick, and get many funny response from frenz.. actually i am copying my frenz nick, he used to put it 1st, i'm the second one, hahaha.. Stupid LWL, somemore gave me advice, said that love is still a long way....lol.. aiya, teacher, Pn Ang, told me b4, this thing when come, will come, not anyone can controll one lah.. and actually, i have my own thought.. if u keep on thinking that "love" is still a long way, and when it comes to u, you avoided it, hiding urself.. time longer.. till u reach the age as what u said, the time that suppose to hav love, u'll facing that feeling of love in different ways liao.. every ppl, every day... no matter what time it is... the feeling on any objects..anything is not same... i'll bet u admire someone when u're small, and so when reach teenage.. is those 2 types of feeling the same? not right? enjoy ur life.. not to force urself do anything.. that u think is better, and ended up u created a character, which is not suppose to be urself.. own unique personalities...  Geng, thx for ya funny advice wor... lacking confidents might be one of my weakness..hahahaa........ Sis, mm, not just her, Xuan too, who else ah? whaha, just know that tomolo they're gonna go back school! start the 1st day of being in school!! whahaha.....   Good luk to u all~

...lol.. finally chat with her, but quite surpriced! its been so late.. and she still on.. what a tough girl she is.. mmm, not much to talk, no serious conversation, but at least cheer me a little, not to think too much? haha... tiring..  hope can sleep well... wish her, wish me...........

2:38am Sunday, Jan 02, 2005 - mood going down, together with this song, tears.. so down..

listened to this song liao? damm soft.. .. pulling my heart deep down... feel once again, wanna talk, but all like just locked in my heart, cant breath!...... isn't me stupid?

Sis bday 01 Jan, may her wish come true... aiks.. never bought her present timm! haih.. every year also forget one...  and also, every time our house member bday, sure got ppl not happy one, sure happen arguement.. shit one, live in this kind of family, will die faster! anyway, this time i really cant tahan they keep on talking crabs in the car, i yell too loud, and really .. haih.. released my gas liao......finally, go to pyramid, chicken buffet settled it!!wahahha, ate too much, till now still very very full...

will have bengkel class tomolo, hope dun be so moody again, i am too weak in this kind of feeling, so bad......

once again.. writing here, just wanna note that. why i feel so down.. .. yesterday, from yesterday i mean.. i just know that, Jie might be started to angry me, and i really duno what both of them feel on me, i'm that bad? or what? ahhaha, stupid alan.. am i think too much? last time.. i use to have the same bad feeling, when online, i saw rabbit did on, and then? she off, or never talk to me, this maked me feel weird... and as for now, i saw her online, for a while? how long? i duno, just know the nex moment i see her nick, offline liao..  keep on asking myself? izzit they blocking me? or what? oh my.. am i thinking too much again... i need rest, but feel down, no mood liao....

5:48pm January 01, 2005 - Singing, sad song? duno, tears just drop

What happen to me?! I'm dead fish...... i feel weird, too weird, very very stupid feeling come to me again... feeling so down.. so deep down.. hiding deep under the sea...cold....

Last night, mmm, 31st of Dec wor, mean count down lor, whaha, but government stops all celebration, due to the Tsunami attacks.. recently dead 130k++ ppls.. counted alot? should be, but what its wanted to come, it will, nomatter how hard u try to avoid, try to hide.. its just swept u to the end of the world..  Noon 4, ride Bus to KL central, so lucky that our bus used the short cut to reach KL, using the KESAS highway i guess, so fast, and less ppl in the bus, mm, plus me, i think total is only 3, hhohooh... funny rite? then later on, we walk madly, thinking of where Time Square should be.. then we saw Masjid Jamek LRT station, where Jie and Xuan just drop down from there. Thx they coming, so that at least i have my gang, to make sure not too boring or ntg to talk with bing's gang, hohhoho.. Starbucks is just expensive, but the drink is nice, nowonder still got lots of ppl buy drink from them. Then meet Ah Ma.. rounding Time Square without any plan, and see that Jie Xuan started to feel boring gua.. 8pm, Bings gang came liao, so we at least can have some small plan, and the 1st thing we do, guess what? go find store to eat dinner, whahhha, funny man... but all of them.. so .. like tortoise.. dili deli, slow snail.. haved plan, but no ppl seems wanted to start to walk, wasting lots of time.. so me beh tahan liao, somemore Jie said must go back at 10pm liao, plz ler, waste no time...    KL ppl started to mad liao, they buy spray, and keep on spraying others, even they duno each other..lol, after dinner, and "bong chan" KFC of its toilet, Jie wanna go back liao...  stupid LRT, and really a straight mother they have, not dare to stay any longer, they buy tickets and went back.. Bing still staying, while Ma and me teman them.. haih.. who asked me to invite them along, anything happen, not so good one ah, heheh, and.. from Bingtang Walk, monorailed to Hang Tuah, and LRT to Sri Petaling~ mmm, later.. what happen ah? me also duno liao, so blurr, but i know my parents fetch us back in Bukit Jalil's LRT station, thx them for waiting me so long.. saved my money to take cab.. should i say happy this day? aiks.. sorry to Jie ler, cause u boring to be in Time Square.. nex time wunt be like this anymore... guys mah.. sure duno how to shopping one lah, rite? .......  i also duno what should say liao... many things, i need to think back, wanna know whats wrong with me, or.. haih.. i think the one who know what i mean, or at least understand me, will know what i wanna write here... not even a blog can help me to release my feeling..  very numb now... feel sleepless, but tired... dun like to carry these feeling to sleep, not sweet at all. I think, i should have some talks, to them liao, if not.. really big problem later... shit myself... i think i'm very nasarep person, rite? so wu liao..

Morning, working with Dad, he's having sickness, mmm, leher bengkak, coz lack of iodin, and stress, tiroids problem, haih.... heart bit so fast... and fast to feel tired, i hope he can overcome any sickness.. and..  its maked me starting to think bout my career later.. i wanna be doctor, can i? i dun think i can, but at least, specialist on some easy one, can gua? haih.. just a thought, still need time to digest...

recently, never sing song liao, why ler? coz i duno why, my recording system very beh liao, got those stupid Hiss sound, last time dun have one..haih.. i sang N times liao, but dun hav any differents, still very not clear.. choose another time lor then..heheh, Harn said there is a place to laern singing, RM40 per month, per person, and 4 ppl in a group. one week once gua.. how long i duno.. i hope i can go.. at least i can train abit, can sing some song, if not very paiseh...

Wish all of you here Happy New Year! 2005, is it a good year to u all? i think i am, whahah...

Actually, have something wanna write down.. i hate myself for being so sensitive, often drop into some bad feeling.. mm, i've just feel her, who is her? haiyor.. no need to say liao, coz from my action.. alredi know i have motive one lah, "drunk ppl motive is not on wine" - cantonese, whahah, sorry if i do it too much, this for X, and sorry to J, coz i cant control ler, me not purposely like what ya said. "bok mong?" but just that react so normally, standing nex to X, or holding her hands, make me feel secure, boys need secure? funny, but it does, feel so warm and sweet that moment.... saying i'm hamsap lou now, rite? haih.. anything u wanna scold, i acept it, coz its my fault to like her...... why am i typing this here? becoz.. i just want to tell out what i feel, this is my blog, my diary ler.. i think i'll feel better, dun hope to be so down whole days...   end...  any words making anyone not happy..plz forgiv me...