My fantasy, My heaven

2:46am Thurs 15Nov, 2007 - updated windows

Yo fren, its alredi half of my holidays, did ntg much, not many works, nex week will be busy abit since there will be a cameron works, and also another cyberjaya whole day work.. hopefully still got the time to go genting with them~! all my boring-days-frens haha!

Bing how? he said duno, the relationship now is abit tense, and duno wat will be, duno shud say bf gf, or frenz.. anyway her mother's very aggressiv, keep on call him.. mmm.. maybe she's really the one who pulls them back tgt soon.. ~ anyway i just hav very small thing to say.. conversation, talk more, discuss, and do it tgt, dun simply break out... its very hurt, and very waste to end a relation in such a way.. moreover the one is the one u like the most..

Back to myself.. sien lo few days, went summit just now with zy kk.. balls fury, haha~ funny enuff, but nt as good as the pink panther, lol~ bought few masks there, wow man! i got the soft mask, 500g for 35bux, what i got from the lowyat net person? she sold me 250g 105bux ler, which is alot expensiv to compare with... of coz u will say diff quality, but then u know, this shop opened for yrs d, stil it's there and no complain, so i dun think got any problem, i will stick to it and see how the masks do, if ok then i wunt be going for any more expensiv stuffs anymore, waste money! i am damm poor.. btw i bought too hair tonic.. haih, no choice, going to be bodak soon! and scalp not so healthy after the dyeing process...

I called xy just now, lol~ its the second times i call when she's sleeping, whahah! how come her voice so special.. duno.. maybe too girlish d, i got part of the address of pj where she stayed, she back d just now from her hometown, lol~ seems like she traveled alot eh~ i asked to pick her up tomolo, but she seems like abit neglecting.. aiks, somemore after some conversation of kites theorem with Harn, decided nt to disturb her tml~ and days after that, whaha! since i hav my stuffs to busy around, so i dun think i will waste my time to bother much in relationship gua.. sometimes when i think bout it.. kind of paradox.. i wanna hav a girl, to let me lay my love, put my time, and hold her tite, but in exchange, how am i going to be with her all day long? and also family? and then what will it be when there is only we 2, always go out hang gai? wunt it be boring? haih... somemore thats after u got a gf, for now when u doesnt hav one, u need to spend so much time, so many thinking, and stupid acts just to get to know her more.. aiks...

ok lo, wan sleep d lo, tired, i must fix my line tomolo! i hope ntg happen to my modem or i hav no connection for a few days!!!

2:57am 

11:17pm Sun 4 Nov,2007 - chatting and listenning

Harlo harlo... cant help it, must blog coz abit too .. excited.. and no one's there, harn not here, bing not here, wanna share feeling also no one found!!!

Let me start off abit 1st ah... after sometimes in this U, i think i've really found the one who really touched me! cham lo.. this is more than any other things, and no feeling of hard feel.. why eh? maybe still new to her, or maybe she's really so good or perhaps.. she really looks like the rabbit i used to know..

The weeks of examination, just ended, and i never tot that this week will bring us together so much closer! really really never ever think of it b4.. Thats the nite after my 1st exam. Saw her online and just trying to hav a normal harlo how r u conversation, since we duno much.. but end up she's like so depress bout the nex day's cprog exams.. and thats the second time she asking me when going to library.. of coz the 1st time i din meant to avoiding it, but i really no study at all, if i drag her out and couldnt teach her anything i will feel bad.. real bad.. anyway when her second asking came, i really feel like helping, since i got these pass yr papers from Hsong, and quite useful for understanding, so we dated.. the nite.. i cant sleep well.. 12pm time, and 2:30pm exams.. heart beats up..

 The next day, i drag Hsong with me, since he really studied alot, he might able to help her out, i think in my heart, and that was so happy to see her to get into my car, thx to sis coz she's working and i got the chance to drive, or else i wunt be able to hav the most important tools.. Happy enuff, thou at 1st i dun feel like eating, but its noon so we ate at COE canteen and she's there studying her notes.. again i din help much, and kind of nervous the real 1st time hav so much talks and so close, i felt warm..~

There ended our day, thou the exams was sucks, but din really think much, its better than i no study at all.. coz of her.. and here's... i wan to keep in touch with her, but there's no reason for me to contact her.. and i dun feel like being stupid anymore, plus she never online that day, so the nite is kind of.. weird, lukily roommate back d, at least got some voice sound or i'll be half dead... Wed is the nex day and i got no exams, happy coz i can sleep more, and who knows the nex day 1:10pm i got her msg of thank u for the cprog.. mmm, and then duno from where i got the braveness and called once again, since she said if got go anywhere study ask her along, so i really did it! i cant afford to loose any chance, rite? Thats the moment i will not forget, and tats the time the feel i'm searching for so long.. -shit.. how come i type like 3yrs old essays? otak abit kelam kabut complicated feeling so ler nvm lah... my blog mah.. continue....- I always hav a dream that i could find someone to study with me and pass every our precious time together.. thou she's not my girl, but for so many yrs, this is the 1st time i really study, 3pm till 12:30am, thats a non stop of study-dating-day for me.. yet i feel no tired, i'm so awake, and i input alot of formulars to my brain. The way she talks.. so softly.. and so warm.. the way she "sobz".. just so cute, and the way of her inteligence, so smart.. the way she feels sleepy.. so charming, and the way she tite he hair up, so gorgeous.. cant stop myself for the every moment looking at her, her hand, her lips, her eyes, her face.. her hair and the smells.. Thx to her, i never wasted my whole free day, i hope i got help her at least something, real sorry if doesnt, and i sstill hope she can get the marks =)
anyway there's one thing in that day, 12am, be4 library close, she went down said something to get from fren. and i wait wait so long, can say quite long, and there i saw her back, the tired look, and holding some sort of things.. there i think she went down to someone who i think, is her bf, her abit-like-fren, or like-her-guy-fren, whatever, but i can sure thats a guy, so.. i abit down and suddenly no mood to joke around d.. thou i keep telling myself she's not the target, i cant loose time on this, or sad of this, i hav to study becoz i really appreciate to get the chance to get into uniten.. but end up i still abit down.. -from her fren, i know thats baskin robin's stuffs, how a nice guy who went out and brought her things- .. and also the time when she said "carpark  there so dark, feel so sleepy" ... my heart felt sleepy too that time.. sadnya, whaha~ so i lost myself after this, forgotten my way of talking, like bing said, i can actually just ask "ur bf eh? presents, hehe~" but i din, sadness covered me.. cham lo.. how can i become like this, need to act more rational next time.

Harn told me love is like a game, so i din really do much after that, we din study for circuit, the nex subjects together, and i never talk to her also, her laptop alredi back to her sis place, so never online, i msg she also seldom reply, again i din msg much, dun wan to farn alot if not she will hate me.. so end up, i thx her for the techniques of using calculator to do complex numbers. Thx ah, that saves me alot of times. and alot of calculation just using calculators will do. Thx =) oh ya havent finish, the nite after Static test, which mean thurs, i msged her, to wake me up to study, hoho~ i tot she will just send me a msg, who knows she called me at 5:30am! sorry i din wake up after the calls, but i appreciate it, alot.. of coz lah.. her voice that time is really very very.. sweet... i never imagine b4 the voice can be such soft! the way she said "wake up lo.. ok? bye" .. haha~ in here i hav to admit i abit stupid, coz the 1st i listen to the voice, i forgotten its her call, so i drag the talks, ask her study till where ah this that, end up she said she wan study d, whaha~ maybe she wans to stop my talks? who knows.. mm..

and of coz for now i blog this, coz!! i just called her.. after test, i din talk to her till now, thats been 2days d, and the laz msg i got her she din reply.. abit down, but not very lah, coz i canot put high hope, there's alot of guys after here in my U.. but cant stop myself d, second day so i hav to do something to get her news, msged, and she said free and so i called. Againheart pumped.. very the fast, i dun actually remember what i speak, i just feel like talking many things to her, coz i like to hang on the conversation, dun like it to be stopped. Mmm.. maybe i really made her the target d.. i canot say scared, girls dun like  a guy to scared of something, but i just dun wanna be sad anymore, so the hope.. dun wan put high.. argh.. complicated feeling, she's really alot alot better than anyone.. rite now i mean.. thou i din get along with her with other frenz together.. ok thats all, for now i just hope that if no chance or what, do let me know, dun drag it, i cant take it =) live happily~~

typed so long d, other things nex time write lah, sien d..
i dyed my hair! and abit over d, so brown now, whaha`~

nitezzz

11:54pm 

1:39am Mon 1, Oct - typing on my laptop, sleep soon?

Got mosquito ler!! stupid! luckily on aircond, then cold and it will hide somewhere and sleep no time bother to suck my blood!~

Sien ah.. why ler? i waiting xinyi, haha~ joke joke. since this my blog, just drop myself some feeling lah.. err.. oh ya, i found the type of gal i like, who? her lah.. i mean the type, feel like tackle, hav the bravery, feel like.. having the same feeling as i was with rabbit last time. maybe her look and maybe her hair or.. maybe becoz she is also one of the ariens.. but ariens wont meet and be together.. haih..

bing said i "suan si cao" ... damm him! lol, we were having msn chat now, talking about kim..
BuriedM00N-Tobi=Uchiha Madara? says:
i mean u buy a thing or get a thing u oso get the best or something thats worth one....

 haha~ so this is what he meant by suan si cao.. i tot he said i am those super calculativ, but i admit, i am, becoz the money i got, its not easy, for what i use it on another human being since its not his/hers.. its bring up my second idea, to lwl this one : we r frenz, but we r no bf gf.. i dun hav the responsible to take care of u, and as well u dun hav any right to ffk me.. its not the 1st time, 2nd, and again.. the day yam cha when harn back, 3rd... thou that time i din count u in, its chongli who said u will come.. anyway i will only be organizer, if and only if its ntg to do with u guys.. i mean ur gang, becoz ur gang, r the most mah fan gang i've seen so far. speak to u all, will suddenly hurt u all, plan for u all, will suddenly let u all ffk, and with no better reasons. fren to fren zhat u all also take it so heavy, say the real thing but its negativ to u all, u all take it as insult, but not to improve.. i speechless, like ppl said, no same ppl, not same point, dun hav to go together, so u all r out.. i rather be alone, at least i dun need to hav the kind of bad memories.

ok back to kim, bing asked me "do u admit or not u fall into trap" .. yeah i do, a trap of her, damm it.. she belifs her fren said, i am those playboy in college.. whaha.. i dun even go to class, how am i going to meet someone not in my class.. stupid.. just one word right from bing, dun like then say dun like, dun need find excuse.. maybe ppl out of the ring will see things clearer..

back to the her.. err, sorry bout her purse, lost d.. i know the feeling, i lost books, and calculator in just a month.. and thats not so important stuffs yet i feel so down for a few days, and urs.. i'm sorry for that. U know, when i talk to u, and u tell me that u lost purse i got the feeling u wanna share ur feel with me, i kind of happy(thou the way u said u only wan luck b4 exams, i duno is this mean u hint me to wish u nex time b4 exams, or u really dun wan my gud luk wish and hint me to back off). but then everytime talk to u like so short and off so suddenly, seems like u not having the urge to talk to me more than ever. and with the 4sms u only replied 1, damm short again, its just exactly the same thing i always did to someone who i dun hav the real feeling.. so.. its funny also lah, u see, ppl treat me good, but i got no feeling, so i push them off, like the way u did to me, haha! exactly the same u know, such as.. i reply them slower than usual.. sms i dun even reply if its not important.. suddenly offline without byebye also dont feel bad.. i know i'm damm bad, but plz lah, i dun wan waste time on ppl who i dun hav feeling, sure will hurt her nex time, and.. its the same u did to me.. whaha!!! paradox..

so ler, rite now i wan study! no mood.. fri exams.. circuit, and i stopped at chapter 5.. havent start, 4chapters to go. 4days.. haih..

oh ya, bout the bak kut teh lwl planned one, sorry i was late, tired and sleeping.. hope u dun mind, but my real intention is.. become a real planner, its not easy.. gals not always  the one right, guy gal the same, so if u do wrong, admit and say sorry and.. giv ur reasons.. as well as myself.. sorry too becoz i am damm revengeful.. also remind me bout si jie when harn said it "becoz i'm gal mah" ... plz.. u gal then shall the responsible falls on me to send u home? find a bf of urs and he will do u that, i am damm busy with my stuffs. U juz hav to sit in the car, say byebye, and u reach home, but for me, i still hav to pay for the patrol, tolls, and my time for sending u back, and alone like soh lou drive a long journey back to my own house.. and yet, u are not my gf.. plz... calculate abit.. that is also why we ask u go find one bf.. and somemore u are spoiling my genting plan u know. 9am to start, u said 9:30 something reach, means 10am reach, eat bfast, u think 10am to 11am enuff ah, let say 11am, then i hav to go giant buy things, 12:30pm only start go, reach 3pm since we cable car, start play 4pm... the best play till 8pm, RM51bux man the ticket. ppl wm pyee waste money on that? and now u add on wan me send u home, means 11 send, 12:30 reach giant, whaha! 4pm become 5:30 play, u are damm stupid on calculating.. do more exercise.. study smarts doesnt mean that ur general knowledge good.... sorry to hurt u all.. but i din mean that i will treat all gals like that.. just that, the privilage will always go to my future one, not u all, not u gals..

harn back singapore d.. thx to him, a 2times singing session in a 1week holiday, whaha! kang damm geng! sing gals tune, and somemore the si le dou yao ai! whaha, he sing till damm gek~ i cant lah, lower pitch i got..

thx to u all, wish myself luck on exams, and u too xinyi.. aisk.. as well as all the ppl i know who having exams soon~!!!!! enuff lo like this? hehe

2:13am

3:58am Sun 2 Sep, 2007 - brushed, cleaned, and wan sleep(again)

Phew.. alot happened lately.. and seldom log into this to leave a word. Sometimes in hostel will feel like doing so, but still never.. why? the stupid line is super slow.. i'm affraid that i will use 5minutes to write and 5hours to upload there.. stupid line i would i like say.. hehe~

1st of all, thx to wm and py for the genting trip. I know they planned so hard, as well as i do, at least i can say that i am one of the organiser who i never ffk myself. I hate to be organiser, since the time that harn being ffk once. From that day onwards we already started not to link much with ppl who will ffk, or we will only put more priority to some ppl who seldom disappoint us. Ok, main thing now, i hate it when u plan it, and someone slot in ur time, ask u to change ur time, and then call up and say sorry becoz cant made it. This is to sijie, why? i've planned whole day for the genting, ppl is paying RM50 bux for a day ride, so ppl will hav to go up hill for a full whole day to enjoy the money spent. And then.. she called up and said for a meeting, since we got quite a handful of ppl gathering around. So its ok, at 1st i feel dulan becoz the plan hav to delay. A 9am start journey, she said she will be arriving around 9am. Then after that she told me, will be some times pass 9, ok.. so this word i know that it will be 30minutes late or what.. and then a breakfast, do u think we will eat a 30minutes which reach 10am then we say "gud bye si jie" and rush off? no.. and again for what i think, if possible we better sent her back, of coz not! if we sent, it will took another 1hour. Sometimes.. plz think rational.. be logic.. and dun simply mah fan ppl.. this is what i know and learn from the modern world.. althou fren fren, unless i am super free and super rich which i dun think spoiling a plan is a case, then..  it will not be a problem..

and nex.. to the 2 of them who ffk the group of us.. one of them, tell bing that she will not be following.. so.. thats not my case, i dun even remember i count her in from the 1st, just that bing insists that he will bring her along.. so its ok. But for the other one, its not the 1st time she ffk, not counting those small small gathering, the big one, like laz yr harn's plan, she ffk at last, very last, and this time its less than 24hours before the trip. Imagine u got a msg, at 10pm, saying that u cant, and never giv a good reasons, stupid or not? not responsible at all! and if u say earlier, ppl wunt be doing much for u. Do u know that we have to bring a 1kg and a quite "heavy" present with only 4of us sharing? all is about planning, and spoiling the plan. So. i think its the end of it.. no more another ffk from her.. i cant accept it anymore.. think urself.. u going to be a lawyer and.. yet ur timing is so irresponsible.. bad attitude.. maybe u r the princess in ur family or what.. but to me.. u r no more than a odinary person.. u ffk, u still wrong, no matter what..

to the one who hurt me so bad, again.. kim.. what to say? i cant forgiv u.. ur explaination is kind of sux.. u keep it secretly that u already attached, and he's not the old one. Ur reason is that u dun feel confident for me, that i will look for another better girl, and u chose to listen to some of ur silly frenz that i hav many gf in college.. whaha! childish.. and plz.. i never know any other girls other than some of the idians in my class.. u making me speechless and feel like i am the one who is wrong.. i listened to u, ur principle that u dun wan to think bout love till after ur exams.. thats why i din bother much and juz keep in touch and then u tell me u r attached, i'm the one bluffing u all the while... whaha! i really feel like scolding bad words.. but i dun wan be like u.. scolding ppl bad words and then still get the pride out of it. Bing's right, dun like just say dun like, dun pretend anything. If u like, u dun need a reason for u to start with him. Hatrad built. and disappointment to u..

going to start class again. wasted whole week.. i din do anything, just work for father a bit.. haih.. no even ready the packing.. need rush up.. i wan get at least a 1st claz honoured this time.. dun wanna loose to anyone.. and maybe.. its time to stop, just concentrate on study, soon, girls will know that they hardly find anyone, and then its out time, guys time, waha!

lazy d.. i wan sleep.. see ya all, and thx to my blog for me to release my tension...

4:16am

 1:49am Mon 30 July - Brushed, sleep soon?

Wow man.. its end of july, it's been a month i din write anything here! why ler.. to many things happening d...

1st back to uni.. the day i went to collect offer letter.. 29th of june.. its a saddy day.. it printed i've been put in foundation.. too sad.. really... anyway its my fault for getting such stupid results.. so 1st of july i went orientation.. and while in the registration progress.. the registra ppl ask me why in foundation.. whaha.. funny hor..  the net shown bachelor.. so they ask me collect the offer letter again in nex week.. so.. lucky me falls into degree again..

1 week of orientation, thx to it.. thou at 1st felt abit funny and reluctant.. but i get to know a bunch of frenz.. and familiar with this place d. Add on.. there some very pretty gals here.. including some malay.. yo.. what am i talking... continue with 3 weeks of classes.. on and off.. got study abit.. but still abit lazy.. haih.. i need to work hard d.. test 1 coming in august 10th.. everyday curry chicken.. thats abit boring.. uni here got lots of nite activities.. club.. i not mean clubbing.. i meant club society.. but i seldom attend any.. lazy.. maybe if i got someone special in here then i'll spend sometime on it.. whaha!

thx to dad.. all these while supporting me, from foundation to degree and orientation and sending me there picking me back.. thx alot.. (i hope i got a car !! so that dun hav to ride bus.. the bus schedule there is nice, but its not accurate and on time...) everyone plz wish me luck... and we work together study hard!

Just now been to harns farewell.. i din join dinner, coz i got mine here with gu gu family.. i joined them and chit chat a while.. so.. i wunt be seeing him d.. and he said december only back, means .. a .. 5 months time! hwhaha~ end up we din went to sing at all.. hohho~ no plan lah them.. i hope the upcoming 24th genting plan will be on..

frenz in U dated me fri sing K.. but fri.. i think i will rush to back home.. so i duno will join or not.. dun care lah.. if that girl there then maybe lah, whaha! stupid lah. ppl got bf d lah i think, but i think only lah...

just now.. got a tot in my mind... maybe i'm rite, and she's rite.. i'm not and will never be the one talking english to each other.. i wunt talk english to my gf or wife.. becoz.. my main language and most comfortable language is chinese.. and.. she gav me the feelings that she is the higher class ppl who will use english.. and of coz.. i will never watch english series movie.. so.. i know what i am thinking..

tomolo go uni again! sien lah.. need study! take care

1:58am

2:01am Fri June 29, 2007 - tired d.. stomach gaseuos

Congratulation~ oh celebration~ ohoo// ayyaya.. i got a place in uniten finally, but still wondering its bachelor, or foundation. i hope i get degree.. at least i dun hav to waste time.. and i hope i can be hardworking enuff to chase back my time.

i book one laptop, the nice nice acer brand. 5920 gemstone! yay, very nice eh, my 1st look on it very like d. the design very nice, how to say. very highclass.. and when u holding one of them, u will know that u r the one so special.. whaha~ i hope not so many ppl buying it, lol.. anyway, the design of the laptop is actually those who design for BMW>... ya.. car designer who designed this lappy.. yeng hor.. i got a 15.4inch one, big enuff to me.. 17 i duno.. but need wait lah wei.. now second day, i hope faz come

still nervous about the uni thing.. i hope faz faz got the letter.. or best we go take tomolo.. but if can i dun wan take.. i scared what i got is foundation.

oh ya.. that dumb dumb.. no..shud call smartie.. lol, she order me to call her like that.. whaha! kind of sweet? er... i think too much. nice guitar class with her. and also soon will go temple with her.. hope that she know whats she's doing, althou its not the time to get together, but dun use me as a tool thats the only thing i hope. she's.. still the one touched the heart.

and what about others? mmm.. that day saw her, the one i think i never settle it calmly... and i know i've hurt her alot. but she always let me to hav a feel that she's that kind of tough one.. very tough.. which cause me when facing her i loose all my confident... bad eh~ so.. i felt abit awkward.. when seeing her will like auto go to her.. but i dun hope so.. i dun wan anythinghappened anymore.. coz just like the lyrics in the song.. from ah qing.. qi shi hai ai ni.. i really did dream of her, she's laughing, smiling, and yet not with me.. maybe with all her frenz, which make me feel like.. who i am, cant even make her happy, i just like something making troubles.. so..

no more guitar claz, thx teacher, kind of miss him. whaha! and.. gud luk to myself for future.. i wan study hard!

2:10am

1:51am Sun, June 17, 2007 - All done, sleep soon

Again long time~ My U still havent accept me, za dou, not even any news, latest update 31st.. anyway there the place i will be starting new life, plz make no bad moments.

I wan buy laptop! saw this D"ll brand, 2GB ram, T5300 core2, 80gb, windowsvis premium, yor, 2799 plus 116 for delivery, yor!!! but too late d, wrote ther end 18th June but this model 6400 alredi no more on net, so u hav to call up, the latest is 3pm saturday and no calls on sun.. means.. ended, no more, but u can choose a smaller one, not 15.4inch screen but a 14inch.. haih.. then called up this SP guy, the sell one 3.68k .. if upgrade all to nice one, t5500, 2gb, 120 gb HD, graphic card, vistapremium, 3.9k .. still alot expensive.. but i know lah if buy d.. no need worry alot, can sue for long time, and i can do my video plus audio editing there..

today's junwei bday i think.. wish him happy bday!! and then.. coming on is lwl's one, wish here all the best and dreams come true~

sien lah nothing to say.. oh ya~ today noon time went taylors, the leisure mall there, my sis open days, say got lots of foods ask us go eat, whaha!~ funny wor, but seriously damm nice the foods, althou today no main course, but the roast lamb damm wangi..~ i drove my Benz go~ yeng or not.. really stable car but very hard to step on the paddle.. eat oil like drink water.. i saw one super lenglui there, her mother i think is a gui poh.. means she is mix one lo, coz i see not really full gui she, but her looks really damm cun.. thats the kind i keep looking for, not gui poh look, but sharp enuff the face.. nice ler, whole restorant student looking at her, whaha~

wat else to speak ah? ntg much lah i think, i wish everyone hav a nice day, too all ppls i mean, to those i hurt before too i mean, lol~ take care~

nitezzz~

1:59am

3:34am Sun June 10, 2007 - Ready to sleep, watch series 1st

Oh man, damm gao long time din log in to write a little bloggie.. deng..

Ok, whats i still remember is.. the last outing with chongli, which end up a bad thing, damm gao dulan, u talk to me ok, dun dulan and using that kind of idiot tune to voice ur feeling to me. I dun need to listen to ur words to keep me alive. damm gao u. "u dun zhat ah, i tell u, i drive home!" diu.. u think i care alot? i dun even think to hav dinner v u all that day, u think u exam very stress, and my work not stress? damm gao u lah, study only mah stress ur head, u r like one small little child who duno how to feed urself yet, then stress of learning how to get urself a spoon. Dun tell me stress, if zhat u not happy d, talk to me in a serious way, only u and me, or send me msg or what, dun hide it behind like lwl suddenly burst out. diu... i dun hav car that day only, if not i the one go home. stil spend time and money with u all eating outside what wat aluminium foil.. not cheap and very normal foods.. za dou...

anyway no hard feeling ok, just some words here to remind myself some incident. Nex thing.. erm.. once outing, for ah ma bday, pizza hut. hope he dun mind, me no planner. nex.. inti gathering, again me no planner, i dun wan care plan anymore, i dun even feel like having to mix with all of them alot.. me now live very good, fresh and ful.. i will meet more frenz in U nex time, which i hope i dun hav to act to say good words to tam them.. deng.. "so harsh.." thats what abby wrote in one of the chat box when this si jie asked a same question twice and harn answered before and she dun admit she asked the second time.. deng.. i really cant cope with this. U did before, then just say yes lah, u wan say no for what, say yes no harm, u loose nothing mah, dun go and bluff. and i just copy and paste the same thing, then i got a blame "so harsh" .. za dou.. end up i off chat box, chat with ppl like that very san fu..

I'm so happy these days, for living life the fulness as i could.. after the chongli thing, i went a one week trip down to Johor, work, Exxonmobil, run whole melaka n.sembilan and johor. then another week later, running up prk, kedah, penang, kelantan, trganu, pahang. then just a week a go.. means few days ago i just back from tasik kenyir, what a nice fishing trip with father! but very expensive.. 700 plus plus one person... not much ppl sharing a boat, thats why.. i can use this 700 to buy alot of new stuffs for fishing. but after this only i know what i shal upgrade.. i know i need a new rod a new bait caster some new hoke and line.. and i know what to get, unlike the last time, see price see nice then buy.. now is what is the thing good to use, small small but enuff pound to get up the fish more than enuff, dun need big big stuffs.. u seldom got the chance to bring up a fish with 30 pound, so dun go and get one 100 pound link.. haha~

i need go buy a wireless laser mouse.. microsoft products now promotion, i need one, damm bing, bought me a present i know is good and nice, somemore brandy, buy wire! i need wireless ok... wan sell it but no one seems wan it. one offer RM70.. net selling 169, and i know bing sure buy without dis%, so must be 235.. deng bing.. i dun care, i go buy 2 wireless mouse, one for myself nex time, one for him bday..

harn said wan service car, but din see him these days, cant ask him much, duo how was it.. but one thing.. do it fast dun delay, i hate ppl who delay and no end.. liek what? jh and jwei, laser eyes, till now no news..

nex nex.. lazy to type d lah.. wan sleep, update nex time.. nitez lo..

3:47am

11:56am Thurs May 17, 2007 - just woke up, ready to work

hiHI everyone! been long time never visit my own page, abit busy ler!!! Just pass by drop some news to myself

damm lo. woke up after a damm bad dream.. whats that about ah? u see here, sounds super funny, what i dreamed at 1st is some rubbish, doing some presentation, with all kind of frenz, like idol, go sing somemore, but of coz lah what i dreamed is only the 1st part, the ready part, clothes all, but not on the stage yet, whaha~ then jump into another dream, za dou.. dreamed bout kim sending me a msg, asking me to meet up b4 7pm, try and see to be together, for a yr, ngam or not.. then i cant reach on time due to stupid family stuffs, then parents cuasing me crazy and i nearly kill them.. using a knife to cut of the throat so tat cant talk anymore.. wah! damm evil ... and i never get her reply sms .. then woke up.

there u see i'm a kind of dangerous ppl, dun stick with me around or maybe i'll do u something bad.

Just back from Johor yday, today can sleep abit late, morning father go meeting dun need bring me, then will continue work later, go install some relay on some apartments in kelana jaya.. i think no problem one. Sure very hot and sweaty only.. compare to those who sit in office, aircond, earn big big money. my one damm san fu...

after that, maybe continue abit of patrol station.. now left penang, prk, pahang, trgnu.. sel and Wp, alot ler.. testing some of the Eso and mobil in the states. already 2 full weeks i work, haha! good also lah, no need think alot, rite now just work work, dun really feel like sticking with frenz, thou sometimes i will feel lonely.. but really, i dun need many, 1 or 2 enuff. and stll i finding the one my gal that wunt caused me hav any pressure.. i need one...

talking about gal.. seriously, kim i really like alot.. she let me hav the feeling of.. more than enuff.. by the outer looks, then the way she think, and the environment she having. She wunt be like those chasing for brandy stuffs, imagine ur gf is anna. haih.. shake head.. then she knows how to go for cheap and quality nice thing.. even foods. then know how to think, still remember one time saying bout eat expensiv thing, she straight away say out "we share lah". u see, no need to think, she help u think d the way u wan to do. haha! not that i stingy, just that not gf bf, canot always belanja! then nex thing ah.. she is those active person, i always hav a feeling if i bring her go out the sea, she surely will join me for snorkerling, if i bring her to gua, she surely will get in wet herself, at least she enjoy the place the trip set for her. i guess lah.. but i think she will... better than anna.. then talking bout appearance... damm, i duno why in my eyes she really damm pretty... and i like her long hair alot. haha! body? no need say lo.. alot ppl canot compare to her. she got the right body to her.. and the shape of it! .. then she very cautious one.. ownself will know fat d.. need exercise.. but still she will eat.. imagine ur wife dun eat one, how can i survive.... for harn too i think, if that happens, then i think i will always go n find harn lo, haha! so cham.. anyway ppl got bad habit too.. her thinking, sometimes i really za dou.. like youbing one.. easy forgotting, blurr, and then think for all ppl, but sometimes u have to think and then choose one best thing to do but not doing all.. blurr till not responsible enuff for me i think. then sometimes talking to her, suddenly no more news, i duno is that what she always do to others? maybe i not important enuff, haha! alot more lah, nex time think d only write..

phew, wrote out all the things i wanna say, what else ah? nothing lo, i wan go eat d, see ya~

12:12pm

2:29am Mon April 30, 2007 - masking, stomach got gas! Korean BBq lah

Ok back home from a small outing.. went SP with harn bing jh~ yes!! another guy's day, and yet so good~~ nice one.. watched Jangan pandang behind.. scary ler.. to me lah, maybe no gals, then i got the real me d, if got any gals with us then i wunt be so scared, haha! thats me, live like parasite!

Thats wasnt my initial title, i wrote one jus now back home at 8pm, too bad my super yeng mouse from bing, at the side there got one back button, accidentally clicked.. so.. no more! My title was.. Yday dream.. ya. its a dream that i had days ago.. just to write it down here.. In that dream.. she's smiling happily, the kind of smile i will never find whenever she being with me. Thats what i hope my girl will got after being with me.. so.. eventhou she never choose me, me myself the one created alot, also should hav put things down. Heard ppl saying, the one u marry wunt be the one u Most love, i think its true.. u marry coz secocok, can grow ur future, bride one, but the one u love, is the one u dream of... actually not the one suitable for u..

Just now SP there, harn like hinting. i know what he wanna said. Something like.. u cant be too close with the one u like, canot touch the hair lah this lah that lah.. gals duno how to hide... or reject.. ok.. 1stly i will say, bulshit, go die, if u duno how to react, then u useless dun even know more bout urself, u dun wan something then just say dun wan! anyway, its gal.. not like gay, girl memang abit.. mah fan one, thx harn ya, and all of them outside who trying to hint, but when not ngam, no meaning to be together. And also.. i prefer a gal.. who will go into gua with me.. who will be going to ride scary things in genting with me.. the kind of abit adventures one.. haha!

Oh ya talking bout gua.. i going later.. 6am, then go go go! talking bout these days.. alot of work. not.. very little, but all big project.. from Wed Lot10 nite work 11pm to 4am, then another fri mentakap, one day, then fri termerloh, stay a nite, work again, just came home just now.. tired u know. Then tomolo lagi teruk, gua then taiping penang.. haha, family trip, since i ntg to do, why not support, and also can let me out of the Love world for once a while..

Ya, love world, maybe i not enjoy in loving someone, but enjoy myself in flirting someone~ haha! u see, just now korean bbq sp there, i duno where i got the nuts to flirt with a few of them, senior 3, who's name vivien, then senior 8, duno name, but i belif she will be very pretty when u know her for times, then got trainee.. all lah. but when that big guy come ask anything to help.. i really no mood to flirt with him.. haha! there's long story on flirting, but lazy to write d, anyway not something important, i can find anyone to do so anytime!! ahhaha!!! going genting!!!!!

wan off d.. nite

2:40am

2:53am Thurs 19, 2007 - eye itchy, brushed, sleep soon?

Woke up 2am, a nap which turned me from dinner to 2am sleep.. whaha~ so fun, no need study just play.. stupid..

Ok, since long din update here, i came now.. what my last post did ah? erm.. forgotten... let me say something that i still remember lah

Thx jiawei for inviting to the 988 concert.. then the following week i went Kem for work, its good... i felt lah, coz once harn too free, then i think tj went find him, and he suggested come around my area find me.. za dou.. luckily i'm not there, or else i will feel.. awkward..or funny.. Another week.. actually i dun feel like going out, i tot got work so can drag abit till their gathering over then only i join in for jonghwa and harn. Anyway its vhau bday, so hav to bei min. Rush work, 2pm back home, eat bath and bing pick me. Not a bad day, funy when all went puchong galaxy and no place, whahaha! no student price i mean.. Went find jiawei finally, alot of chi chat there, somemore feel like whacking this chongli... hahah~

This week? Supposely going termerloh hospital work one, but pospone, cant get permission to shut down.. so i think falls on 28th, nex week lo.. then this week should be free d, see how maybe drag bing jh harn out, with kakeat also.. this is the 1st time i feel like going out without gals.. gals.. to me slowly become something like very farn.. whenever there is gals, there sure be something funny happening, sometimes i'm in the case, sometimes i'm not.. gals,, haih....

So as the title said, i wan leave myself some small secret .. or.. target here. see whether i can achive or not.. rite now, i'm already 20, 20 yrs ago.. an adult of 20 should already start to earn their very own money without the help from parents.. and i havent.. i havent even did any job outside. why ah? coz i felt not suitable, and somehow, my interview sucks.. i like to ask more question than the interviewer asked me, whaha! So for now, i will have a 4-5 yrs of study.. this time telling myself.. no play play.. i aimed, i choose, i go.. so hav to be responsible for what i've chosen.. like the form 3 me.. after a 5 yrs term, i'll be out.. i dun think its a hard work for me to find a job.. As for electric base, TnB will grab me since they need alot of fresh graduate..-- cheap salary. if possible i'll be working for them, a few yrs.. not long, why? To gain experience, and to know more inside ppl.. Out then me, follow my father? no i think.. willl go for Uncle Wong's factory, there i'll be working on something higher pose.. hopefully consultant, supervisor? those.. Its about 30.. my age that time.. the time should me be marry,  i dun wan too late, i still need the time to enjoy my life with my wife without baby for a few more yrs. Ya.. dreaming bout my future wife, the slim body, and sexy figure~ wow.. the way i can hug her waiste tightly with one hand, grab her bring her up without using much strenght.. haha~ so thats my gal, possible smaller than me, in every sense, from mental to physical, smaller, not big size, then long hair, then not smarter than me, but hav to act stupid abit, know how to attack my weakness, whahaa~ In the mean time, my working free period would be some helping for my dad, to continue learning and slowly getting over his job.. once i'm mature enuff in the field, out me~ i'll be myself boss, i go tackle business and seek for quotation from parents, i earn % from there, as working time, whenever in need, i already know ppl, there i seek help, including sometimes u need tnB ppl to "help" abit.. hehe~ what about continue studying? Thats a second tot.. if everything ok, i'll be continueing my master in uniten, cheap and i dun think too hard if u work hard enuff.. thats the last thing.. wow.. by the time really good d, me age 32 34, wawasan 2020 came in, i go hav baby! whahaha~ i think i will love my wife forever, if she is the one i pick myself, which my feeling is deepest enuff to made her my own life.. of coz she hav to secure me, which i dun neeed worry about her in any circumstances.. then there i continue my life.. hooh~~

Dreaming....

3:11am

6:17pm Sun April 08, 2007 - bath soon, dinner soon and got movie on astro tonite

Too free d lah, ntg to do, dun feel like dating anyone out.. so stayed at home, just now went SS there wan eat pan min, close, za dou, so went klang bak kut teh, whahah, one family again, why will i follow? coz too free.. then back home sleep again, haih..

Anyway worked from fri till yday, 5pm home, kem syed again, the tentera base in johor melaka border line. Working is a way to let me not thinking alot, just keep on thinking of finish work, whaha! Oh ya, thx to this jiawei who invited me for this 988 concert, whaha!! my 1st time real concert ler, last time that one chinese NY in genting one not counted, not high at all, this one ok ok lah, but the feeling is like.. watch at home better, whaha!! got alot sexy gal with sexy looking and sexy clothes there, woo~ din see any bikini thou. i tot got.. according to this 988, they said need, whaha! and ah, they din ask me wear short pants, with slipper, me like going to shopping like that, luckily i know will be hot thats why normal tshirt one.. if not die! tell one thing funny, i reached, wave hand to jw, and knows what? i saw a guy waving hand to me, who is he? My cousin!!! deng him ah, this wei dok! he got the tickets from duno where, and then din invite me, end up invite fren, fren sis, then fren sis me.. sei zai ah! lol.. maybe ppl wan pak tor with me not good mah, rite? whahah~ fun also u know, going out with that gang, thou i duno them, but i feel more polite, dun need hide this hide that feeling, dun hav to affraid of hurting anyone without notice, dun hav to care more what they think.. althou they're small, not like me 20 old ppl.. but still.. they let me feel pure.. wahaha~ so stand there listen to songs, luckily not many tall ppl in front of me.. kesian this jiawei, nearly faint, whaha! At 1st i'm not VIP also, they got not enuff for me, i supposely to be this normal one, with another gang, but u know ah, jw and her bro and frenz all help me,w haha! funny ler, when walking inside i got all tickets around my hand then the ppl just check one VIP, all go in,w haha! lucky me.. then u know what, there the girl who is quite pretty one, who's sis ah? wei keat punya sis, whahah!! the world is so small, all ppl surrounding i know.. za dou ah... she use dove i think, whaha!! damm dove strong smells. dun simply think, nothing mean. A nice day i can say, at least dun hav to think alot, just watch and kap

SO so, whats else.. nothing d, thats all i wan say, eye ok ok d, dry abit

6:30pm

2:26am Thurs April 05, 2007 - havent brush, eye tired d

Stupid virus attack i guess.. everytime repeat the same problem.. some updates, then restart comp, then found out this system files gone, have to repair, then my stupid acer dun hav individual xp disc, came with the system disc one, which mean can only format the comp before install, nothing as "reinstall.. deng it. So no choice, got alot of files..including.. ahem, ahem.. whaha, joking, webpage favourite, this that, so no choice go n reinstall a pirated one, just to move the files into backup and reformat comp after that. alot of work.. then ler, finish d wan update, deng, 1st thing i found out, installed the windows into wrong harddisk.. the one use for cctv.. so hav to install again, opened CPU, take of the hard disk, blaa blaa.. nex nex, after installing wan go net update one, who knows update half way cant connect anymore, i think some router problem again, headache, angry, nothing can do.. then always wan miniport fault.. duno apa itu.. end up alot of username verifying problem, call tmnet lo... then only knows that they hav breakdown.. suppose a big virus attack, which affected most of the comps in klang valley.. still remember the last time i kena is the earth quake period, now again duno what.. luckily updated now, and can let me blog a while

Went check up, have some tissues overlapping, za dou.. if serious hav to remove it, whaha.. left 0.50 each eye, haih, not perfect eyesight.. what if i do the intralase.. mmm.. mm... 2weeks later hav to come back to check again... this is why i need to do earlier, at least i got time, imagine if i do later, then alot of checkup, die lo.. this time i think my cousin will be following, she needs to check see whether can do or not, cornea too thin cant.

After the checkup, abit funny, feel like too free, then think of this tj, dun wan her to be hav thsoe stupid feeling, yday whole day say frustrating on lots of stuffs, anything that u can think, she felt bothering. za dou.. like the world is so grey. So asked her to hav a drinks or what but end up she busy, received msg quite late also.. whahah.. nvm, as long as take care.. Anyway myself also busy, coz of this comp stuffs..

Tmr.. no, later do what? i think got work, duno father will need me or not, if not then i can sleep later, nite got guitar, hopefully teacher no blaa blaa. then can ask him this time teach me some performance technique, not those notes thing, i cant read it.

oh ya, my title, copy.exe. the one lah virus, i use several programme also cant detect, end up got one can, hav to pay, haih, still got wat to recover it ah?

tired d, end, byebye

2:36am

7:02pm Tues April 03, 2007 - going to bath

This what i got as a reply..

To be frank, receiving a mail like this seriously got a little of my nerves. Then, I thought from your view. I guess its not easy being at that point either. Later on, its all disappointment I felt. Had be friend with you more than two years I guessed. I used to think that being friends, you need a little understanding in each other to know what others feel. Today with this sorta mail, I see that for the past two years, there isnt really that much of understanding between us. You had your chance to tell me about you, now its mine.

Theres only a thing I will tell you here. Since the first time, you had been always thinking that everybody is defending me. Keeping me away from you. Listening to me when I complain about you. In the actual fact, I did no such thing as complaining. I treasure you as a friend. I cherish friends and I wont start complaining about people. Gosh. Im no more a three year old kid who barely opens their mouth and speak for themselves. Im already twenty. I know what I want and I do have the ability to talk. I will tell what I want right in their face. Im not pissed. Its just disappointment. Since things progress, you have such assumption already. Then, it ended. And I left things that way without explaining myself. This time round, you are still so firm with your stand but Im not giving in. I think I have my rights to talk for myself. All this while, I did nothing such as complaining. I act not like a baby whining. What they say and do is all from themselves. They are not speaking on behalf of me. Im not a mute who needs speaking devices. They see things, they voice out their opinion. They are not wrong. Sometimes you just have to allow some disagreements. I dont know how to change your mind about this. Maybe after this mail you will still think Im the one telling people all about. If thats so, I dont think there is anything else that could change you.

And when I meant Im not freaked out, I mean it. Dont jump into conclusion. Im different from other girls. I tell the truth.

I didnt wanna make it this tough but you left me no choice. I just have to speak for myself. I wanted to be cool with things but it will make myself even a worse person to you and the others. There is why I find the need to clear things out.

And I didnt know Im such a terrible person to you and people out there as if complaining is the only thing TJ does.

Whatever it is. I had said enough. You might not understand what Im trying to tell you but thank you for your time. Good bye and take care.

Heart sink, secretly telling to my bloggie.. i still hope. Anything lah, after the second, and the third time i read this, i know she hasnt ready at all, and can say, no feel at all, just that dun wan hurt anyone so din say out, never giv me a no no sign. haih.. sad rite? I did reply, forgotten to copy up.. mainly saying something bout.. i din wanna hurt her as well, just that sometimes ppl think alot, then temper will arise.. Since she saying that there's alot of things for us to take care of, mean this is not the time for anything yet, for her, not me, whaha.. ok lo

Went out whole day, collect cheque, this that, DVD copy, checked, no problem, burned, waiting uncle william and jimmy to come collect.. nothing much.. Oh ya my cousin hong hong wan do this lasik thing too, haha~ but u see ah, as what i always said, when u wan do something, dun care about any results, just go check out 1st, dun worry this worry that, like this one, u hav to go and check ur eyes 1st, then only can confirm either u can do lasik or not.. havent check then go plan the date operation this that, haih, go die lah, wasting time..

Tmr will need go n hav my eye checks.. hav put on alot of fake tears, hopefully tomolo wunt be too dry.. and plz no left me too much power, i felt abit of left over power.. sobz..

Nat went in hospital due to denggi, her mother too, hope they all ok, recover soon.. i feel like having some games or what to distract myself from thinking alot, again.. plz..

7:08pm

12:59am Tues April 03 - Watching departed, then sleep?

Went eye check up morning, too dry, cant even see things clearly, so din do the eye power check, haih.. dry so how ah? maybe guy's nerve cant produce more tears,w ahhaa~

i wrote something,

 Duno what to say, but feel like letting u know what I think all this while. Damm it when I feel weird to be with u again, how to face u? All happened when something affected, ppl will be affected by the environment getting on and so me. If u have realized, I think I did quite good this time, I din ask for anything because I dun wan to. What I know is, I’m finding something what I cant find in any other person, and I tot I can hav more time to know what am I looking for, not to say to get together or not, as long as I know I finding the feeling, finding the peace and the smell of it. Sorry for making u freak out. To be honest initially I never think to go for u at all. As u can see, we r not meant to each other, I’m not ur type, and so on the opposite. Somemore there is many consequences that I need to think. I dun wanna face u with that kind of stupid feeling again, like a fool being around, like a beggar to ask for something dreaming off. Is this the correct way of definite it? Anyway at last, was being pushed on, ppl keeps speaking around, I act like insane, laughter to end it, but the real words is there nothing to be lie, so what I can do is just follow it, I told everyone being normal, let it be. Still it ended up like shit, belif me I din wanna get along with more thou I got think once in a while. U dunt understand me and we dun hav the chance to communicate better, I’m not myself being in front of u, it’s a kind of lie. So now have to let u know that, dun be worry, nex time what u wan, wat u think, just let me know, dun go speaking around, letting a third party or what to let me know what position I am. U know this just making the situation worse. Being a fool for the second time is worse than anything, and I hav to reassure myself, I din go for it this time, the situation made it. End it, I duno u, and u duno me, u really not my type.. sorry for disturbing all this while. cheersZ

Is this rude? not gua i think.. its something i feel, thats all, at least i can let the person i hope to know what i am thinking.. tired d now, canot comment more on this.

Tmr do what? ntg.. oh ya just went hair cut with harn, now i look damm bodak,w haha. Tmr if free.. finish off cameron video, then go the government clinic if possible, free of charge one, check see my this fluu things, how to spell? "phlame?"

tiring eyes, good nite..

1:03am

2:11am Mon April 02, 2007 - Ready to sleep

Got appointment with doc tomolo, i mean later.. hav to sleep soon, anyway slept too much whole day, morning out qingming, not bad, thou raining but got an outing, still ok. Back home with 3 families, eat lunch, which we used to pray just now, chop eat, nice man, the chiken duck and xiu yok.. i ate too much, till suddenly very tired and slept few hours.. never even notice when they gone back.. i tot they still downstairs enjoying the video i edited.. wahah.. so now left cameron part, add in frens picture gao timm! fast finish it so i can free myself.

Man, i think i will starting my guitar this week, what bout singing, too gua.. hiah, feel lazy d..

Eyes still red above there, inflammation too geng.. need time remove gua.. hopefully.. and for tomolo i hope can get perfect eye sight on the test, i dun wan to be left residue.. cham...

watched the movie Happy bday from liu ruo ying and louis koo.. not bad, love movies, funny feeling when watching with 2 sis, lol.. the liu really like kim lah, duno why its my view so different.. i felt the same person acting i tot, whaha~ sad movie anyway, ending sad, but quite notice since this kind of love movie.. when only can i hav the chance to watch this kind of movie with the one i hope to? slowly lah.. there will be time for me..

tired d, type till blurr blurr now, wan sleep

anyway from the movie there i felt something funny.. there's one scene a guy wanna tackle this liu, and her fren, a guy help her to avoid it, and let this louis sit between liu and that guy.. za dou.. why i feel like i am the stupid dong with this sk trying to protect tj ah? whahaha.. weird..

2:17am

1:50am Sun April 01, 2007 - eye fluctuation

My eyes ah, fluctuate alot, maybe these few days stress it too much.. late back, outing alot.. even today sum follows parents buffet, replace the upcoming bday, left sis and me, go find cousin, and went summit walk around, wahaha.. found peaceful anyway... relax.. no need think too much, especially arcade, he taught us play one 3players game, whaha, fun enuff, and the sensitivity of my sis really beh enuff...

Settled the card credit of half yrs, man.. i finish off all my money, lol.. anyway will got it back soon when i come to work.. in future of coz.. my target? good for asking, dun tell anyone.. erm.. right now, 4 yrs+ of studying, see how well i did.. come out, before, work as something recommended "consultant" or what in a factory, it's high pose u know.. then get the signature from formal tnb district manager, wow... great signature i can get.. then if possible, future study in master, get the certz not manyone have, then continue work, till 30, come out, help father abit, but alredi start to look for job, ask for work, be the bos, whaah!!! anyway, i'll be thankful to anyone helping me so far, i'll try my best to finish up my course, dun worry, i told myself i need to do it, i will

Kang- New(Rare) Blog Post- To be read by those who remember I even have a blog.. says:
what i want to say gonna end up being exactly the same as what i said before N months ago
*.* Alan Chai~!�š�™ arcade, wahaha says:
nah, its just my style, dun work mah dun work lo, there's alot ppl out there, my style my type, not found yet only mah
*.* Alan Chai~!�š�™ arcade, wahaha says:
just that the feeling sometimes she gav is so tight, so close so peaceful
*.* Alan Chai~!�š�™ arcade, wahaha says:
so got the urge to go further, hoping, maybe would be great
*.* Alan Chai~!�š�™ arcade, wahaha says:
but nothing is important lah, if not meant together, dun hav the right feel as i got, no use also, got so many yrs to go, me the one i scared i cant hold it as i do at 1st, i might not treating the same anymore after some times, so better be back myseklf
Kang- New(Rare) Blog Post- To be read by those who remember I even have a blog.. says:
but looks like history come back..
*.* Alan Chai~!�š�™ arcade, wahaha says:one thing lah, i'm a guy, i must hav my stands, i dun wanna be like a dog go beg for ppl loving me, or let others to fool around making fun of my love, anything lah, rite now dun care, got feel or what follow feel, nothing is perfect, who knows later regret

This what i speak with the person named above, whaha.. so what ah? duno am i talking the right thing, just that i hope what i said, i wunt regret. Of coz i hope i'm telling the truth, not something i use to lie on, but its different of thinking from my heart. Then cham lo, whahah~~ time will settle everything for me, dun hav to worry baby..

Tomolo qing ming ler, meet up family members, yay~ again no need think alot!

Oh ya!!! i just remember, watched the CNY video d, edited, very nice, duplicated d, the original kept, now left one house use, yay! nex what hav to do is.. remove fmaily part, left cameron, add in uncle jimmy's wil's picture, make one only cameron one for them, see what they say. maybe they will praise me, whaha!!!

Hope to start guitar nex week.. hope not to be so lazy.. hope to get back to singing lesson, hope can learn more in the few months, before i total stop it.. everything is hope, just like my title this yr. whaha!

2"02am

3:01am Sat March 31, 2007 - bathed, hair dried, eye blurr

eye blurr, and heart more blurr, deng..

Went out whole day, from morning sending sis to parade, then back home, send bing go college, then back home, then drag bing go out, who knows back his house also, then out pick tj, then galaxy,t hen everyone sing, then eat aluminium foil, then abby came, junwei too, then back abby house, then crap alot, then listen to her father's talk, then see abby packing, then back home. Can say tired, i straight stress my eyes for 2 days.. za dou...

Sorry but have to put this into non in Navbar list.. really got alot to write, but sometimes letting too many ppl know what i tot, is a risk, also would be something funny or joke to someone.. no choice but to keep myself secret..

There's once a breath moment i felt the tense... heart beat gone fast, deep and heavy.. the kind i din feel for long.. i tot after a big round, can be facing things more gentle, more mature, but end up not, i just like a small kids, looking for something, i wan it, and i hope i can get it, that kind of feeling. And of coz, not many one can let me feel that. Feel shit when i can sense the avoiding feeling. and feel even worse when hope for something or reflect but din get it. Feel bad thou i know they are good fren, but to me, what am i, seeing they alot closer than me, and i know my stand i aint anyone, still.. hope to get more. Feel sad when din feel that she sticking around, thats the most i hope to get, be with me, stick with me, and feel with me. Cant, too many things make it impossible. Got the feeling of being like a begger.. beg for something someone not going to giv u. oh man.. i really tot i overcome it, still havent for now what i see.. i tot keep on telling everyone, nothing one lah, just normal, bullshit i told myself.. i'm just lying myself, numb my heart. I feel bad when i have the feeling of.. "cant live without u" and got the feeling back like "i still dun wan u" ...  From that moment.. i told myself should end it, fast.. i think its time, must end, find another one before fell too deep.. again. Hate to mean like that, like i'm so selfish, but in love, there's no fair, i cant hope to get what i gav and ready to giv, so i wunt be a good one when i dun feel like giving.. must stop myself, its correct way if i do so. i hope so... seriously damm pain.. sometimes looking at the back, got the feeling of going ahead, hug from the back, tight enuff, and smell the sense of her, talking something only could be heard from both of us, non other things.. wunt be happen, dun need to think.. i'm aint any patient lover, do love me when i still feel, do not love me when i feel tense.. sad

3:12am

2:01am Fri March 30, 2007 - Bathed, sleep soon, tomolo hopefully can go wet, whaha

Deng! i Dun wan Blog anymore!! za dou one, rupa-rupanya got alot ppl read my words.. i tot just some random search ppl will come by.. sei lo, alot "secret" from the heart let ppl know d! shit, nex time must write something general one, then no need affraid.

Ok, Back home 5pm just now, from kedah, an easy work, just tap back the voltage from 433V to 415v for the giant, just that the driving is damm far, from here to sungei petani, kedah there.. mom followed, we droped her in penang and both of us head kedah for work, 2 hours siap. Back penang that time alredi 2am plus minus i think, drink susu, they said habis, drink milo, they got but too heaty, no choice lo... sleep with my ninja turtle eye shield, middle of nite auto wake up, cant sleep well, put in the ointment again hope inflammation recover soon, dun splead..

So drove to find bing, then follow on went carefour buy domino, reach bing house late d, everyone waiting, fun ler when got alot ppl gather around, listen to them crap abit also happy. Then tj back family fren thing, nex zy, nex nex we all.. after a long talk to this anna... whahaha.. shit.. why i feel that i write till very.. not my style ah?

Eyes abit dry, really, hopefully will get better. For now its alot better, better than u wearing a fresh contact lenz, which cause gatal and dryness. U know ah this bing, sometimes i feel like whacking him one.. after pizza party, while i'm alone with him he go bring me my "special" presents from him, back home opened, deng! a mouse.. now using it, its a really good good mouse.. logitect G3, deng u bing.... using this laser mouse not suit for my comp at all lah! somemore i dun gaming one!!! deng lo.. no matter what, even its laser, also cant pass thru transparent glasses one mah.. sobz.. really so gan dong, this stupid bing, if i am a gal, i will love him forever.. this guy ah... then i go check out the prize.. shit.. what i can say is.. i will not buy this kind of mouse.. at all.. out of my range.. deng bing ah.... thx alot!!!!

talk back to the presents i got from everyone of them, babymilo 6, no bing, hahaha, then jh zy chungli.. i got a new polo formal shirt! wow.. oh man.. the 1st original polo i got.. lol.. thx alot ler!!! (i wan someone teman me go adjust abit, if the waist there can tighten abit.. 1-2inch, will be better, more personal) hehe...

As for tomolo.. hope can go out lah, since i free, then follow on not free d, work and qing ming... then duno whats else.. see how

err... what to say ah.. erm.. dun simply guess what i write here.. sometimes just my feeling when i write the blog, its different everytime, cant tell an exact value what i wan or going to do, like kang keep on asking, deng.. duno lah, runsing, cant sleep d.. not to write too much, whaha!

Thx to ekjohn michelle and one duno who she/he is from frenster.. lol.. thx thx!!!!

2:15am

4:14am Wed March 28, 2007 - Wearing sunglasses, infront of comp, hhaha

i'm not suppose to be here rite now, the one "arent u suppose to be sleeping!" .. wah.. later i kena marah again.. lol.. anyway i slept too much d, really cant get into sleep anymore, n then eyes abit ok with near objects, not like just now abit "lou fa", canot see near things.. so can type abit.. dun worry wearing sunglasses to blog the monitor's glare. alot better compare to 4 hours before, rite now abit dry, not itchy anymore, just like the contact lens moisture abit d.. hehe..

back here to thx all of them that i forgotten to do so, lol, one by one ah.... Zong, yinying, huijuin, peckyee, guansian(wah.. he sent me one testi of happy bday.. just that cant imagine got his wishes, lol), peihuan, my stupid cousin Nic (ask me giv him present instead of giving me!! grr...), sis' of coz, parents for yday but then hav to thx again coz a new waller from them... this small sis lah, go say wan buy then finally they go pay.. oh my... owe them again.. nex nex back to what i got in msg.. err.. lwl jh peggy gengyi, chongli(harn pasted some conversation of urs to me, what u mean ah there!! what wat v... -.-) for those wishes.. hehe.. sorry for late reply due to.. having lou fa cant see well.. forgotten still got who else d.. got ah, tj for my last wishes, triple wish, whaha..

Maybe i need go back sleep d.. but hav to write something over abit 1st.. so ler, came story abit, morning 10am check in, test eye, repeated all the same thing with jonghwa.. wait. how come i see the monitor now the bright suddenly brighter then dim .. maybe wearing sunglasses.. whahha, ok.. test again, but this time continue with alot more canggih things, like one dimlight testing, i hate the cornea thickness test, put the thing in ur eyes, thou ur eyes numb at that time, but still feel like jelly look when it pokking.. nex got 2 more machine for the picture capturing, very yeng.. whole day capture picture only on my eyes.. test also test till eyes tired.. oh ya, the right side of my eyes abit cataract.. the one only ppl old enuff to get a cloudy things in the jelly for focusing.. the down part of it i got.. maybe born with... they said.. i dont remember any injury.. so this eye cant do custom lasik due to no wavefront will be reflected when sent in.. it blocks out.. so now one custom and one conventional.. both blade cut. whahaa, luckily cornea deep enuff to save me money.. of coz power too.. actual power after test is 300 left and 250 right. one fun thing i learnt about is the dominent eye test. Try use ur hand and make it a hole in front of ur view, now, close one of ur eye, left, do u still see the same image as u open 2 eyes? now close right, the one u see diffrent inside the hole, is resesit, lol.. funny izzit? hehe...

so all these takes around 1:30hour, father teman whole progress, he need to wait till consulting, but who knows this thing so late one, so no choice he wait with me.. eye drops time, they said using it to dulute my pupils, make it the biggest so that meassured for cutting later...(back home i checked mine, the pupils really big d! last 2 days she said). After a second part check, repeated some process, now she talks to us in consulting room, general things, which i read alot in web d.. so finally appointment made, 2pm operation, and rite then follow father out for lunch, whole view outside is very blurr, pupils bigger d, so the glare too high..

father back office, left me alone so talked to one of the young guy there, indonesian chinese, study here and come do lasik.. lol.. we went in together, consulted, by doc, and then same thing, repeat diluting my eyes... ok, nex nex, one by one finish their laser, 2 guys before me, i'm third, 3 follow up after me. they did a marking on my left eye, lol.. using marker pen.. whaha, but duno what type lah, for the eye of custom, taking 5 pictures of it, wave sent in gua, cant feel.. wait a while more, doc reconfirm the cataract, then we start. Nurse helps me to clean my eyes, she never told me not to open when doing antiseptic, za dou.. i tot still need to open like previous for cleaning inside abit... so it sting me! cant open anymore, but she is so skillful.. duno drop what to my eyes, lap it, no more pain.. hehe..

Steps in, lay back on the bed i used to snap eye picture just now, still no gan jeong, seriously, one eye covered, then stick a lot sticker around head, left one eye out, then bracket in.. my eyes small.. lol, so abit pressure then bracket adjusting to make it bigger.. ok, starts lo... a ring add in, sucktion.. thats what i heard from doc, looking at the red light, my eye balls kena sucked out, whahah! no lah, just feel abit pressure only, then see black thing.. no more red dot, due to the blade moving, finish, doc use a "stick" to open it, laser time.. right eye 1st, last for 32seconds, since i cant blink, what hav to do is just stare in the red dot... oh man, duno is that my problem or what, i felt the reddot moving, as i know if ur eyes move too much, results not good u know.. heard doc said seomthing like, welldone.. excellant.. all.. anyway, by that time affraid of distracted.. i keep on singing "rumeo and ju ying tai" from cao ge.. whahah....

nex eye then.. felt that the bracket tighter than right eyes, same thing repeated, but this time custom, somemore higher power, need 1:12 minutes for it to finish laser off... smells the burning plastic material... should be the laser burning the gas and shoot into my eyes i guess.. or maybe the smell of bbq my eyes! whaha i felt the red light move more in this eyes, seriously, move here there, za dou... i scared it makes it left residue power.. hae it, i wan perfect eye sight! din heard an excellent from doc, za dou.. so finish d.. no pain, out, doc checked, can go off d..

Father came fetching after my calls, 3:30pm finished. starts to feel itchy, like wearing contact lenz terbalik and dry... back home drops in antibiotic and fake tears, put on the protection on eyes.. like ham dan chiu yan.. then sleep... woke up, eat, sleep.. whole day sleep... hoho.. anyway, i felt my this left eye got abit shortsightness ler.. damm if really left alot residue..

check up tomolo morning, i hope can get into sleep now! recover faster!!!!!

nite everyone, talked too much, kena marah soon...

4:49am

1:30am Tues March 27, 2007 - ready to sleep? not yet.

not ready to sleep yet lah! thou abit tired.. body got heat.. just that hoping to get myself tired so i can get rest after my surgery.. whaha..

I would like to take this opportunity to thx my parents.. blaa./.. blaa... haha, joking.. so the day goes like this. near noon woke up, tot going optimax to check things out with father, who cant, but to back office for some work.. so i went there too later, to help him check up something on comp, edit movie too, the only cameron part.. for uncle william and jimme.. nex nex.. bout 2pm, finally can go, reached and talked.. at least this time father convinced.. hav the confidence on it, it more like a small clinic, unlike the Mv one.. so asked them for the appoinment, of coz i knew cant make it that day.... its so late, i still hav to undergo another 3hours eye check to finalized my eye condition before surgery.. so how? Sun need go qing ming, means if can do as soon as possible, so that sun can be more flexible and not so harm to the eyes due to those smoke.. asked them, got thurs! no wed!!! za dou, wed in HUKM.. i dun wan that, so no choice asked again, tomolo, which mean later, my bday! whahah... then think think.. dun wan delay... n.. bday mah, falls on tues, ppl cant out too late lah, so i finally pick this time for checkup. Wise decision? duno till tomolo, nite.. wish me luk, and all the best.. to my eyes, ok?

Later on, eve, went this Nikko hotel with parents, not bad man.. they joined the buffet club, so got the voucher, and went there to celebrate my bday, since later cant.. so ler~~ haha... an expensiv experience.. the 1st time i took my dinner with over RM100 bux after tax.. anyway the foods are nice.. oilster.. mushroom, desserts, fish, sushi, lots more.. nex time really hav to go with someone else to this eisteen hotel, they said they prefer there, haha! thx to them for bringing me to hav the nice dinner...

Back home, Kang harn tj came find me, thx again to all of them... tj too coz the nex day will be having this exams.. sorry ah.. din tell anyone bout my tomolo plan.. really rush one, suddenly appointment, suddenly dinner and no time to let u all know. Anyway i think this jiawei will come meet abby on fri, then maybe that day is perfect day to outing, at least u all can teman me abit longer, till late nite also nvm.. sometimes hate going home too early, especially these few days outing, whaha~ harn feel the same i guess..

Thx everyone for the wishing, nuan hau wm jw gh ab nat and all, jobstreet too, whaha! oh ya, this dumb kim as well, thx for remember and calls. appreciate, and dun be notty k..

wan off d.. cant sleep i know, heart start pumping, high pressure now.. gan jeong d..

1:42am

1:42am Sun March 25, 2007 - just back home, brush teeth soon

Just only remember this Iris told me something like "another" "small" little trip for our college guys.. haha.. like she said, before everyone separate.. err, ya maybe.. so duno where there all wan go.. small trip but seems like all like to go this redang, whahaa! its not a small trip ok... lol. Go klang lah, makan jonghwa, stay cherag, then go shah alam walk walk giant and puspakom, then stay iris, then come subang walk pyramid lagoon, then stay.. ahem.. my house? whahaha..

Kang back, for doing license and stuffs, sun bian surprise this tj, end up funny tj happened funny stuffs.. no angry lah everyone, dun worry.. we just tired d, out whole nite doing nothing 3 mah lat lou.. so u know the situation lo.. Like what said in msg, sometimes just duno what u thinking, doing and reasons of doing.. sleep tite.

Work ler! tomolo hav to work, deng.. maintenence.. hopefully not very very big project.. will be very tired if so.. 11-5pm the optical open till, hav to bring sis go there tomolo for doing spec, and me myself for sunglasses buying, whahaha! need for after surgery. And for future lah.. got one damm yeng, and damm plastic feel... wahhaha, coz it covers the whole eye, seriously the outcome very good.. even with not sunlight, just normal shop downlight, when i take the glasses off, i felt shine, too bright.. means the protection good enuff.. just that the look at the side damm bao xiao.. whole thing plastic look, covers all.. whahaha another one like thos u can buy in the RM5 shops, lol.. see lah tomolo how, anyway not brandy stuffs, so not so expensive, compare to those got singer all promote one. The quality of the glasses is perfect. Especially with this Polarize thing, can drive comfortable during day time and got no reflect back from other cars. good eh...

ok lah, sleep sleep... if not no strengh to work, father du lan me..

now think think.. maybe i can do the operation on... mon.. tues or wed ler... yes! do faster better..

1:51am off

12:25am Sat March 24, 2007 - listening "I'll fall in love"

Yay, ended a day, with joy, ritE? haha~ happy Belated bday to Tj, thx for sk the cake, thx lwl gang to help buy presents, thx harn gang for the gathering planning. thx myself for participating, whaha! err, sorry anna ler, but u kena aim is normal case rite.. hehe, hope i wunt be aimed... lol, i will be smelling "good" if kena..

Checked alot centre, from net and appointment bout Lasik. Finally put up the mind on Optimax, the one better than any other normal outlet. at least the pricing is ok, got the refferel award which i can get back 100 per eye, and bonus more, then popular with alot ppl, including aunties, lol. went there on Thurs, with Jh, so gay, but ok, checked and funniest the pressure test on eyes, 3 wind hit to the eyeball caused him tearing, whahah! thx to the customer manager, who answered all my question, but now got another 5 more ques for her, will be bringing father there soon, to pay up the deposit, and do in April, since april my custom lasik will be no more promotion but intralasik, which cost more but i dun need.. so its good for jh who going to take it in april, got dis% for him in intra.. he had flat cornea, hwhahaha~

omg.. feel weird.. sometimes just that will feel so close, yet sometime will be like the distance more than sky and sea... For long din taste in the cake again, a year ago? guess so.. which i still remember i shared it with my sis.. wahaha. the time of eating this now, got complication, what to think.. what to act? what to do. Affraid the feeling of being so distant, affraid that distant will came soon, affraid the distant feeling everytime i felt, affraid the greed of the heart starts pouring, affraid the feeling of disappointment, affraid the feeling of wasting effort, affraid the feeling of letting go and affraid the feeling of loosing. Last, and why.. affraid the feeling of getting close... think more think worse think again.. (add on after bath.. think again, thinked, still hoping to get the peace when being close..close with peace, close with feel 1:21am)

12:36am - go bath loo..

1:00am Sun March 18 - Havent brush teeth

Oh man, i old d, memory total lost, forgotten what i did in this whole week! za dou... just getting and little help from my sis

Mon, went catholic, sis results, then fly to MV, get infor bout Lasik, then mmm... find bing, then he drove us home, to my house, harn jh having dinner here.. then sent jh back klang, like this.. ok finish one day.

Day tues, whole day editing video, nite time went piano concert, man.. my 1st time concert, those professor from Germany, Ausria, Mexico.. erm.. Name Dr Ratko, peter.. err.. forgotten.. sis captured some pics with them, frenly and... oh ya, really damm geng, conducting master class, which will be perform in Sat, tell later. 1st time know that violin can be such nice rythem, and the speed of their playing, scary, not finger anymore.

Wed, whole day editing, even edit again at night.

Thurs, edit half day, nite went dinner with Mr Wong, each year once, haha~ so the foods there the.. shui shang cheng, erm.. ok ok lah, too expensive, one "shun hok" need RM128..

Fri, lol.. err.. went puchong punya galaxy, big is big, aircond not cold enuff, damm hot inside, then.. all receptionist guy, waiter guy, deng, got gal lah, also very Man one.. see also no mood sing, so gay. wan change room dun let, giv us 2 mic, boo~ i saw a promotion, student after 6pm only cost RM10 with 2 drinks, not bad eh~ nex time 8 to 11pm, haha! Nice meeting jyew, waixin jiaci, liyan, and guowei. and this tj brought us to some stupid food court later, which the bandaraya sealing the shop for not clean enuff i guess.. end up went to another one, i asked for redhot char kuew teow, ok lah... then san ben...

Sat, early morning hav to wake up, deng.. they bought me the tickets of the performance, got 30 participants in this master class, only 10 perform, and.. ok lah, got age 6 till 17+, not bad not bad, got one gal play till i feel like she's washing clothes, the hand move move haahah! got one lenglui too bad no perform, maybe dun need perform see also enuff, whahah~! International school cempaka, big ler there, nowonder helding there lah, inside got this drum thing, electric piano, everything ready, really rich ppl place.Follow on, back home, go work, work again later in bukit beruntung, nearly reach genting, haha~ then with father surrounding that area after work, seems like got alot of damp. From megazines, there's one damp with many fishes, so might be going there fishing soon, see when free lah. Nite, just now lah i mean, went cousin house in sri muda, .. they really chat alot, and.. really family outing, nvm lah, at least i got talk and giv some infor about future study to cousins, if not he also duno which road to go, like me.. the last time, ahah

Deng lo, tomolo early maybe need wake up again, to duno where eat seafood bak kut teh.. aiks.. straight few days din sleep well.. i need to sleep!!! from 4am to 12pm!!!! its my sleepign time... u see now.. super semangat, coz nite time again, haih...

Never wear contact lenz, will be bringing father to teman me check up for this Lasik thing in Mv nex tues, need 3 days advance for not wearing contact. I need to do this lah, wearing contact dammm mah fan, sea water canot enter, itchy, wear for 2 hours feel like sleeping, tiring, dry, sometimes even fell off, no money to buy good one, liquid yday ngam ngam finish.. alot more. So if wan do lasik now should be the time, if not i will go n buy 3 months contact lens, 2 botol solution, make a spec, i think will at least cost me Rm500 d, lol.. big amount.. to me... hehe~

Some small little 3 yr old going to bday d.. duno what to present, everyone will share and think together gua, rite? As well as this guanhan.. what to giv him ah...

good luk everyone,

1:16am

2:28am Mon March 12, 2007 - Bathed, going to sleep and ready for tomolo

Finished the movie 300, watched in cinema summit, nice man.. story line is some kind of.. old empire story, just that the CG effect quite fun watching, and seriously, abit hamsap. If i were watching this thing with any other gals, will die. maybe only this cinema never cut away those, like the final destination, or else will be end up something like last time watched with jiawei, the most horrifying part gone.

Just update here abit, nothing much to say actually, life goes on, work work rest rest, day dreaming.

Kang's rite, smell is a kind of powerful sense.. if i hav earnt enuff money, i would be stop working and just go for research of this smell thing.. za dou

so for tomolo, going to send sis for piano exam, then.. go catholic wait jiawei or what, hopefully jh with me or else will sien till like shit. A nice day.. tired d duno what am i talking about.. maybe worked wholeday in perodua till now havent rest.. haha, go go, bye

*funny!! whaahha, i tot someone post comment or rating, then tot this freeweb thing will let ppl searched for promotion or what, if so cant keep anymore secrets here, whahah~ luckily just that i look wrongly.. bao xiao... ok lah, need sleep, bye

2:35am

1:58am Tues Feb 27 - Tired abit

Edited The homepage, cant remove the advertisement, lol~ Free for u, then hav to paste in some rubbish for u, za dou.. Anyway, still got no mood to learn those html setting coding stuffs, nex time lah.

Just searched the web, one core2duo, 1gb memory, 80GB, 7600gt(duno whats this), cost only RM2200, mmm.. thinking thinking.. should we change this comp? Make this pentium 4 2.6Ghertz to cctv-use comp.. like this better, then we can get one new core2duo comp, excellent speed for any editing. including games.. whaha!! let me slowly convince my father 1st.. btw.. need a laptop ah!!! wait till i start my U

Went JHwa house just now, he brought us to some ulu place, the foods real nice! and dirt cheap!! got curry fish a big big bowl, fried keuy teow alot zhu yao zha, pork, and then toufu, wah.. erm around 40bux, but eat till we feel like vomit.. maybe curry too lemak, this jhwa lah, say curry mee with fish one, end up curry fish, no mee, and we hav to ask for rice.. haih.. wah, now think back also full, dun think d.. too full..

Then later back to his house, he forgotten to close the gate again! hahaha~ he said he straight 3 days forgot to close, then when his mother home, the face.. wow.. so fierce.. till harn bing me hav to suk a side. Then his mother pass the angpao to jh, not us, whaha~ luckily at last when we going back and say bye bye, she's ok.. his small sis really cantik, nex time grow up sure a pretty girl, whaha~

upload some photo in frenster, CNY one, got cameron also, too bad this sis, never bring in his camera to the jungle, dun hav any to post yet, wait for my fren..erm, father's fren's son, to send us, then only i can show abit the enviroment we had inside. Damm nice, i surely bring my dear one go there nex time, to enjoy the freshness and quietness there.. cold and quiet and fresh and .....

what to do tomolo? bringing cert to uniten, they called and ask for it, then.. back to office and edit some video lah, hopefully can finish this taiwan trip one soon, then can start my CNY video, and fast fast finish it!

Ya.. the smell still there.. hardly fade away.. think alot

2:08am

2:36am Mon Feb 26, 2007- Hair wet, easy dry, lol~

Yo man, so fast one week CNY ended! za dou, time like not enuff, everyday spending time like drinking water, fast like nothing, no feeling, see see, sit sit one day gone

Went lot house lah this year, lol~ thx alot everyone, mm bout cameron trip, not bad, i tot will be bored, end up.. its ok, maybe coz 3D2N trip, time shorter, everything hav to go on time, so can say its packed with event. 1st day steamboat, follow on nex day jungle track, and then BBQ, then third day buy stuffs, vege, souvenir. luckily we go on the last few days, the days before no water, za dou, imagine u got no water to bath and brush teeth wash face, wah! 1st day really got no water, till nite got 1-2 hours of water supply, nex day after jungle track then around noon, water came, till the third day, not bad. They should fix this water shortage ASAP!

Tired ler, not becoz i drank a can of beer, whaha! just feel thirsty and feel like drinking, its ok lah, i'm not kaki botol, lol..

As for tomolo, maybe we'll going to jonghwa place at nite, noon wait for jiawei lah, not sure she coming or not..

Hav to go Uniten soon, they need the statement of results, haih, let them certified lah, mah fan, if bring back to inti again. Duno what gonna do on the following days, everyone started their routine and i got nothing to do, maybe editing the video, i got lots to do there. Taiwan trip and now the New Year one. maybe make some nice nice video, then can get some pujian, whaha~

Thinking something, she left me the smell that so familiar, just beside the place i sleep, think alot..

Sleep tite everyone, do ur best

2:47am

10:58pm Wed Jan 17, 2007 - damm headache, watch too many movies

phew.. early early morning sent father to KLIA, he goes KK to check somethings, erm.. the hospital we went years ago for testing... i tot he going Miri, whaha~ if so i will follow to check out the Curtin U~

Sadnya~ why? coz all or nothing, and this the best lyrics that speaks out what we want to tell those blurr and abit.. stupid gals about.. plz dun play with feeling, just ... giv it all, or nothing at all. damm gao dulin... and heart pain

oh ya~ happy man, i finished up my fifth songs, thou not what nicenice song, but still its what i wrote and what i wanna say..

Nex.. waiting results, then go register, see got offer letters or not.. hopefully got, where? curtin u lo~ the best place, no need run to those western or aus, still here, and far far from where i dun wanna be.. damm headache being here.. everyday, blaa blaa, blaaaa~ the face the look, i feel like vomiting, going insane, mental hurting, going to commit suicide soon

what else ah? mmm.. ntg much lah.. wan off d.. ntg much to talk here.. damm man, feel like dying. whaha~ i go get guitar and sing 1st, take care everyone

11:03pm

1:31am Mon Jan 15, 2007 - wanna sleep early abit

phew, thinking to write few days ago but no time.. lazy also lah.. but really cant tahan must put abit in this if not alot event forgotten

1st 1st.. that day monday ah last.. i think so.. or wed lah.. went ghost movie, pool with bing, michelle, not bad ah, ppl win us ler!!! 4 round somemore.. za dou.. hope she ok lah, dun keep on angry ya. The ghost movie best! really nice, not the story, but its the enviroment, haha!!

duno wanna talk what d.. ok lah.. byebye.. haha, joking. Oh ya, found the problem for my line, limited connectivity, luckily the second calls(actually its the 4th.. alot broken link half way. maybe purposely, instead of choosing technical support, i go for requirement, haha!), then the second person, the 1st one beh lah, ask me terbalik the wire and what.. stupid one.. the main purpose is to see i got plug in nicely or not only, i check the light also know alredi plug nicely lah~ haha!! so the nex person he asked me do some test.. what run, then cmd, then ipconfig.. haha ~ found that my modem no ip address, he said must be the cable or modem problem.. so brought back the modem from office tried.. nice eh~ but still the line so slow.. haih.. waiting it to be recover and and start download bunch of xxx! haha~ joking joking.. my dumb dumb wan watch~ haha!

yday had steamboat buffet with Alevels gang, including Mr Sam and Ms Roz, haha~ anyway the foods very beh, what yuen steamboat.. haih.. 20bux for that kind of thing, i rather go sing K and buffet dinner, also 20 bux, neh~ its what i did today, haha! fun wor, especially when u sing that tian gao di hou, man.. i hate the bridge~ its the last 2 words i will never can sing, even u yell or use falsetone, canot reach,, damm it.. maybe need to train more. But one thing, last time when i go for K, one hard song, such as.. mmm.. qi dao, i alredi can die, no more voice, or falsetone, but now 3-4 hours blast, can wor, maybe learnt from cousin d, sing sing, then other ppls turn, then u singback, keep ur throat in best position condition~

Sorry ah quan han, rejected the work u offered, being work as promoter and that money per day in carefour damm nice ler~ but then i hav many things to do lah in this month.. this week going to get results, then wait see what to do, monarch U? if need ielts and if i going to stay here, then i will go take it, if not i'll jump to nilai or the sarawak U, what what curtin U.. but so far.. i think i will miss someone.. haha~ hav to plan.. plan? how u know what will happen nex time.. later u start here and u never get ur main purpose.. also die..

I needmoney.. damm lor.. i kena saman also duno, no paper on my windscreen.. then i checked d, i parked the tree there, no kotak one, what they can do is pulll my car but not saman me ler, deng, reason is sengaja tak bayar, za dou.. RM80! fxxx.. i wan kill them man.. hope tml can negotiate abit.. so poor me..

gek lau jor dumb dumb.. luckily going to see her tml if not i gonna die d.. so long din see man, months.. so tml going to eat her!

chatting with sijie, mmm, ntg much.. how nice if i born in a rich family, or one of the day got some lawyer come find me "sir, u got this wasiat from ur grand grand grand father, he leaves u this tones of gold and few hundred acres of lands.." man... fat cin hon...

just like the page said, newhope07, hopig everything to be done, in the best..

1:48am

*oh ya.. sorry grace.. din join ur party, tj never tell me she got join! so we spend our moment in this steamboat.. (never prepare presents lah, no face go)

off this time, ciao~ wish me luk tml..

1:49am

1:47am Thurs Jan 04, 2007 - liang zi lao hu liang zi lao hu

Za dou.. maybe chao ge think that he's so good in BLUEs and the next Album is juz so Suxx~ got one song, copy the children song, liangzilaohu, the part "yi ji mei you yan jing, yi ji mei you zui ba" , niabe.. damm wai...

Want to write blog long ago d, but u know lah the earthquake, quake till my line so sot, now i still on the windows msger only, not the msn, why? Coz no IP, za dou, duno what happened, the LAN shows limited connectivity.. sei zai ah.. wan see xxx also hav to load damm gao long... ops... xxx.. what is that ah? shh... dun mention.. haha! but my wife understood what i mean, rite? whahaa~ dun ham sap lah wei

I had my best Xmas eve! the day before xmas, we.. did what d ah? forgotten ler.. deng, i old d... let me refresh.. gimme 5 minutes.. deng. really cant remember, otak berkarat.. i juz know that got jhwa, zy, harn me. then duno where lah.. at nite we go find bing, and what? His father juz back home and brought all of us to eat western foods ler! if that restaurant hav turkey, i bet uncle will just pick a whole turkey.. yeng lor.. we 1:30am, it's AM! drove from bing house, 2 cars, with jhwa's 60km/h skill, so san fu-ly following his father, passed horrizontally in toll due to no smart tag and ikut blindly behind his harrier.. za dou lah jh! then after toll, passed a dead-dog, really dead.. so ke lian.. and then finally we reach somewhere damm far.. muz be sri petaling, found a westant corner, name what what cowboy steakhouse. Then we had one bottle of red wine, uncle nearly call for 2, then ler... mmm, we dun dare ask too expensiv, later too full, then all of us.. no lah imean zy harn me, order sausage, hahaha! as for this JH, yeng lor ppl, order tau fu, za dou man.. bing whole nite(morning actually) very diam.. u see ppl in front of parents guai zai.. after 2 full glass of wine, i felt hot, haha! damm high and back home changed, all sleep bing house, whahah!! Thx bing and family, brought me the best eve~

Then zhimin party.. mm, not bad, fun. I din push her head towards the cake ler, haih, she said i did and belanja my face a little bit of cake cream.. haha!~ and then we hav our nice nice water game at the end, and ciao quite late.. a nice day, no need think, just play.

Eh? did i mention bout trip? deng lo.. did i har? nvm, erm.. trip not bad, everyone enjoy, expecially harn. Choonglii too gua, he za bo wor, auntie's one, ahah! Nex, lagoon trip, thou all guys, but nice, can kap can see and peep. and can show muscles, skin, naked also can, that is bing lah i mean. I love those ride, anyway trainned too good last time when was small (that time i was a member there, RM100 bux, one year went like 8 times.. so super geng d) , no feeling on all rides, really no, the new pirateships abit san fu, the bar pressed on my leg too pain, and nearly break our "eggs". mmm, nex time maybe we can hav some games, such as hold a bottle of water for the 360 tomahawk, see finish that time who's water the most, never pour one, hehe~

nex nex, countdown 2007, nice man. I love The curve compare to Sungeiwang, not mad lah the ppls there, another nice day, We back home at.. 4am.. haha~ nice day nice day. Family went genting, there lagi nice, they play with fireworks, 1st release here abit, there abit, then nice one last shows, nice ler, nex time must go there, with my love one, muz.. then will hug tite tite till we cant breath!

yday hav a day pyramid, wan skating but.. late d no shows.. sorry ya michelle, sorry really.. but i dun feel like skate lah.. sorry again.. went galaxy instead, sing till no voice, i prefer redbox, the mic alot better. songs too. went gengyi house at nite, long time din see, yeng, play cards and back home 12am.. bing hav to start school lor, haih.. my heart lagi teruk.. going to get results soon.. thou i know any results will easily let me get into electical engineering for now, as long as u got duit. but still, i forgotten how proud i was in last time, when the time i got my results and my aim for gals.. i lost my way seriously.. now is like no aim, work hard for who.. alot of stuff, i always look back, why? maybe old d.. look back and back and byebye...

aiya wrote so much.. duno can upload or not one, later wast my time only.. anyway hope u all Happy New Year 2007!!

2:09am