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Free yourself 10minuts, to feel this midi, Tears

Winner is ------------

1st - Lee Eu harn (9 votes)
2nd - Tan Yet Teng (5 votes)
         Alan Chai
3rd - Leong Wei Ling (4votes)

thx to you all for having fun here

1.00pm Thurs, Dec 30, 2004 - Tired, bath later

Wow, just came back from One U.. mm, yesterday morning, go school, to receive my testi, 10:30am reached. And then stay till 2:30 to find out what score my sis have for her PMR result.. not bad though, 7As, 1B for Bm.. , Wai loon's bro 7As too, 1B for BC, Huan 6As, and as for Xuan!!! that one really geng one, b4 get result, i've alredi can sure she score all As, and.. what do u guys think? sure straight As lah! happy lor, her mother more happy! then get to know their youngest sis and bro, that 2, very notty! hehehe, call me horse somemore, !! like to zhat ppl~!!!! forgiv u lah, later u'll know, better watch out..whahaha

mmm, then Noon, ride bus to Skang's house, and later go Zhimin's apartment. not bad, party wor, where got bad one.. too fun to play there, eat, sing, play, joke, and even jump into the pool, whahaha, Ah Tiong, you are the one who puts the cream on my face, so no sorry to u lor, whahaha. BBQ, like the jangung alot, hehe, but not really cooked.. should put in longer..

Late night, never go home, stay i Kang's house, so bath a while, and guess what? i have to wear back my dirty clothes, coz never bring any shirt there.. anywaym its dry, the that Cake's cream alredi dried.. Chitchatting, till 4:00am.. and dong.. slept.. at 1st sleeping downstairs, but i've later became the BBQ for mosquitors, so went up to find a nice bed.. then ler, saw only Jie and Xuan sleeping downstairs, no choice lor, who call us guy, we left both of them a bed at the uppest stairs, and Kang find some where to sleep..

Morning 8am, woke up by thet Chang Jin's voice! geng one, loud ler.. and guess who the latest who wake up? is the pairs of sisters, Jie, and Xuan!! really like pig, whahaha.. go yam cha, by walking, ... then later decided to visit Pn Tan.. in hospital.. she's having brain cancer.. too bad.. and she's very thin now.. cant talk, but the mind still working, waving hand to me, and bing.. and she still pull her hairs with her hand, to let me know that she's asking why i dye myhair, whaha.. erm.. me notty mah... sad to see her like this..i hope she can recover.. but really if cant.. then  i hope there will be no suffering for her...

12:00pm, we surai, and bing with me ride taxi back.. mm.. tired now, going to take bath liao......one day never go back, duno my parents will show what face to me...love to having this type of gang trip..gang gathering... so fun.. so good, so.. warm.. no worries.. haih..... happy days is always ended too fast...

Tsunami..dead over 100k ppls.. i pray for them here......

2:47am Tues, Dec 28, 2004- Feel tired?

Wow, its been a long long,,,long long time i din post any blog liao.. why ler? a good question, whahaha, coz lazy liao, whahaa. not even go to basketball court nowdays, why ler? lazy too, whahahaa.........

No choice lah, Si jie, Bing they all said me long time never blog liao wor, so now put some rubbish here lah~.. Am I tired now? whahaha, should be actually, but .. now night is the time where i most active.. hyperactive now, but dun ask me to study, coz this type of spirit not for study one, is for playing one, whahaha..  Just bath, why so late? coz ler, gone to my cute cute little cousin's bday party, wish her..mm... 7th years old bday.. izzit 7 ah? or eight? lol..... so stress, to complete my whole 500 questions of undang in this whole day, boring questions, and the most hated parts is when the answer given not 100% accurate.... i hope Menteri Pendidikan can banned all those books who giv out wrong answer, what for to study a book which given wrong answer, stupid one, i damm them always....  hehe, u guys, wish me luk ler~

Actually go this undang test with bing and my cousin one, but ..haih.. my this cousin, haih......duno how to say him liao, alredi warn him, not to play so much, who knows he just come back from frenz house today, since Fri till now, never touch the books b4...... so ler, better not to have undang lor, i feel..mm... pei si him..... play lah, good one, i'll bet he will fail, if he does go..

Planned 29th will go back school to collect testi, and at the same time, will go to kang's house, later to attend Zhimin's bday party.. Is she really invited me? or... coz of Kang? lol.duno...  hope all those thing go smooth...... and.. pening kepala again, present! wah liao..... duno how to choose...   nex, 31st of Dec, any plan? Bing said he might go Time Square with frenz.. i should be following.. anyone if wan go with me, contact me plz.. whahaha..

Harn working liao, telemarketing... talk whole day, for earning, whaha.. erm.. still waiting Jie's info bout working in Genting.. i dun think the price there will be cheap.. anyway, really wanted to work, to make some pocket money b4 i start schooling..  Hehehe.. Si jie said i missed lots thing in my blog bout the Pangkor trip wor.. actually is purposely one.. and some.. really not so important for me to remember.. its saved in my mind liao, blog is just for a backup, if i suddenly memories lost.. She said the part.. She, Harn and me go into the toilet together wor, whahaha, this thing also can write one, lol...

Hwa Khang gone Aus..ops.. or..Canada? or.. UK? wah.. where liao.. i just know that he went overseas for further study liao.. Hau and Nuan sad sad.. anyway, hope they overcome it.. wil be meet sometimes later, bsides,, still can contact one mah, internet is just so advance nowadays.. And.. hehe, that day Hau so angry, thought we go watch Kungfu ourselves... lol.. dun worry, now giv u the opportunity to help us buy the tickets..lol, just that need to plan another better time..

mmm.. anything to write? ntg liao ler.....  Xmas celebrated alone.. coz fong Jie's fei kei, never go Time segiempat.. no ppl teman me lah... haih.....

anyone listen to my MIDI liao? this midi so nice ler.. 10 minutes only mah..slowly enjoy it, tell me ur feeling, hehe.....

12:45am 14 Dec 2004 -feel not so good, down..

what the hell~~~! Its not just over SPM, but my classtrip as well... time flows shit.. damm fast, why couldn't it stop a while when i am enjoying my lifetime, to stay together with my frenz ...

With my hair yellow brown in color, i walk into Satelite restorant... and meet with Euharn, Geng.. anyway, thats happen one week ago. Gather all frenz outside of 7-eleveN at 7am, and start our journey to Lumut, Pangkor... although its a long way, but really i did enjoy.. sleep, wake up, toilet, sleep, talk, play, and i am one of the game..erm..  team, so i have to help on it..

12pm, reach Jeti, ride Ferry to Pulau Pangkor.. We leave in those double storey teres.. very funny when we accidentally gone to a wrong house, coz of that stupid van driver, bring us ther. Its better not that house anyways, coz its just too lousy, with only 3 inches mattress on the floor, hwhahaha...   we stay in the top masterbed room, i mean all the boys, while 12 girls seperated in 2-3 other rooms.. Story about nex house, i duno much, i jus go in there for once, 40 ppls in a same trip, 1st time i had..   rest a while, lunch, and go cycling later.. realy duno how to tell the whole story... its fun, not even tired actually.. we make am bad idea to go far till the end of that island, where we reach Dolphin resort and meet the lenglui, Vicky, ahahhaa.. dinner and cards later. While playing cards, S.Kang asked us some silly question, bout something he wanted to know, somwthing he want to do, but he forget.. what happen to him? and later on, he even dun remember what date is that day. I told him its 6/12, and he reply me he duno the date just after my answer, might be knocked in the head when climbs to nex door to play... sent back KL, and then sleep/.. worrying is it serious....

Second day, a very early morning wake, ready for snorkelling.. we round the island, saw some rocks, elephant stones.. crocodile stones... turtle beach, monkey bay and so on... then we have sea cucumber and sea rambutans.. isn't it illegal to take those out of the sea??. its wonderfull, then we have seperated with the second boat later, whih carry mostly girl.. they have their own goodtime snorkelling and as we boys, play water games in monkey bay. later, we have banana ride for 2 rounds per person... so shock when all of us drop into the sea by the forces of the sudden turn. Lastly, our turn to have snorkelling, just in the sea opposite monkey bay...  Lunch dinner at the same restorant, crabs are R.Xins favourite foods..as well as euharn, wai loon too.. met lots of ppl evening, realise classes 5s1, 5p3 and 5s7 came too.. suddenly so many catolics in pangkor island, whahahaa..

3rd day.. so fast, its 3rd days... ride van and have a tour in the island.. 1st reach a tokong, we pray, get sticks, check number and those stuff... zhimin have 2, and its make her happy, guess it should be a good one...later on, we go to another tokong, snap lots of fotos there, and uploaded them to my page..we go those junk food store too, expensive is for sure.. but i do buy some, just 1 i think, for my parents.hahahaa... who ask me to be so poor. Have bad news after reach home, know that Kingsly break in his arm.. coz of cycling.. too fast 2 furious.... And this bring Zhimin and Kings back to KL. S.Kang is back to join us now, really damm geng, suddenly memory lost, and now recovered. have a nap after lunch, then cycle whole island later evening. R.Xin the best.. never push bicycle once.. and for us, should say abit tired..  7pm reach home, we go beach then. LWL!!! likes to throw sands on me, and she gets her balasan..hhehe... aagagaga...hahahaa..hohoho... what happen?? she's in the water after 30 seconds... hahaha.. so light.. i thought she's heavier than me, hohoo...  dinner is BBQ, last dinner we had together..  no need burn ourself, as uncle alredi done it.. anyway, it makes me full.. then games time. quite funny.. and i never join in, coz i affraid kena played, whahahaha... Late night, gone out to have some tea, with jia wei, harn, geng, kang, then incident about Marcus happened. He suddenly pop ups in this island, and duno what happen between him and Abby.. both just quarrel like hell.. here cry there shout...    at 1st i just thought leave it alone, but then i heard from those ppl said Abby affraid that he will beat her up... and i really cant tahan this thing to happen, so i go talk with him alone.. wondering if really fights happen, will i be looser? wunt gua.... hehehehahaha.... wai loon stands my side, and asking marcus to calm down, later, left me and him alone.. to comfort him of coz... from him, i know the whole story liao.. who rite who wrong? in these type of relationship, nobody correct, no ppl wrong, just i hope they can try to overcome it, anything bu shuang, talk till find a better ways...rite? Last night.. its over when i close my eyelips..

4th days.. ntg special.. just know that i wake up coz i heard some stupid noise from Yew Jhin!! and jia wei... what telematch.. and i still have coupon in my hand for breakfast in sea view hotel.. Anyway, i join them, and play as hard as i could.. but no winner and loose at the end, coz the game cacat, ahahhaha... I port u!! Si jie, set this game without timer!!! hahaha... but she gave me presents too when we have our lunch after packing... Euharn belanja drinks when we rach Lumut after having group fotos.. then ler, we say bye bye to pangkor and lumut.. 30minuts b4 reaching 7-eleveN,  we use to have lots of snapping.  Busstop.. huged huiru (my devil!!!!), abby, vyau hau, weiling, Tjiun..  feel sad actually, so fast it ended.. and we will be no more have such a gathering...

Love this trip alot.. really, the 1st time i have trip with my classmates, from primary till now... and the most fun.... for being no parents to bother, have my own time with my frenz... Thx huilynn, for her angel's present... and sorry for yewjhin if never take care of u, as well as i am devil of wei wen.. wei may..( should i say i'm wei may's angel.. coz i suddenly found another name in my pocket the last day....)

I love you guys, 5s2 spirits... let it burns over the world...........

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2:38 04 Dec 2004, Sat - writing story on 03 Dec, not now ahahah

Yo, its the 1st day after SPM, so fast it ended, rite? Cant believe when the last subjects passed up from my hands!!! Although i have never puts efforts on this exams, but i can tell i'ved alredi do my best, just hope not to get too bad, or else i cant go college, which is my dream for now...

1st day, doing what? Keat gone to his fren's house, till 4am back and sleepy while helping her sis buy new books. He fetchs us to looking for some info about getting driving license.. and he is very very sleepy, ahahha, what a good fren, ~! Later go Carefour and cutted my hair, so sucks now, so short, at 1st still ok, but later, duno why he likes to cut short, suddenly cut my side to short short, i can sure if this hair keep some time, around 3-5 weeks, will be ok, but not for NOW!! when i am having class trip... sobz sobz.......

Bought nagets in carefour, whawhahah, 2 packets, which mean 2kg of meat, hehehe, its cheaper than schol, alots!! let me count it nex time, to see actually how much % did school's canteen earns. Let ya know later on in my next blog. mmm, bought 2 dyes too, one is Hi-bleach, and one is colouring.. did it late at night, helps bymother, and now i am lalazai!! my hair is yellow now!! i hate it , too shiny... and that dyes is so acidic, not like those i used last time, maybe because there is few wounds on my head, that makes me pain like shit, feeling like dropping all my hairs the nex day morning after i sleep...

Wanted to have lessons for driving license soon, but all of them : guan han, Bing, is having vacation, what what christmas trip, what what langkai, pangkor, haih.... duno when only we can finish this thing..... i wan to drive!! parents ask me to work for cousin in..mm, forgotten, just know far, work as mechanics, helps them in car, changed oil, those car stuff, dirty... for sure, and low cost, for sure.... but one of the thing they said to me is, i go there is not for earning but learning, although i might not be mechanics, but i'll can use the knowledge of it one of the days, solving my own car's problem ... aiks...feeling not to go, because i wanted to play, while working in there, just like putting me in lock up for months... haih.....

Si jie! know how to find the torrent files liao or not, if still duno i wanna muntah blood liao! sorry morning time, abit not so good attitude while answering u, when i said "whack", wahahah, coz 7am sleep, and wake up 12pm, not enough for me, and you seems like never try before to search the forums title and asked me what to do, lol........sorry again.....

i want my hair grow faster!!!!!!!!!

1:54am Thurs Nov18 2004 - should be sleeping~!

Gosh... do nothing at all in the whole week after my sej examination.. never study, no preparation, !!!! i'm a useless man.. feel so useless in this world..

actually duno what to write in this blog, but suddenly wanna leave something here.. i'm still using the normal setting that done by freewebs, which is just click and click for my decision, while that stupid LWL suddenly become smarter liao, know how to do coding, ftp . . . html stuff... and her sites! is just like  Song Hye Kyo:.*'s webs... abit sot sot one...

few days ago, was warking in Johor, kilang Grocera Tiles. Its glad that we finished our works in one day, never delay till the second day, thats why after work, when staying at the hotel, feel relaxing. In my own view, i feel that there is a much more peacefull town. morning tea, and not very crowded, coz its a small town, but still can say is full of ppl who yam cha. Lots of ah pek, ah sam chit chatting, lol.. just like in Ipoh morning market. The "cui pi mian bao" (bread) is very delicious, and that famous coffee. While in the road back to KL, saw an accident, and father and me accidentaly saw the leg of a human, at the middle of the high way.. dahsyatnya.. the nes day in the newspaper, knew that its an accident between a Land Cruiser which loosing control and hit with a Wira. 2 death, chinese, one woman, one child.. kesian..

after one day of resting, (Sat work, Sun back from Johor) Monday morning, 7:30am, followed father to Samsung for relay calibration. What the hell am i talking about? Relay? whahaha, i know u know nothing at all. Actually i wanna show some pics so that can clearly know what the job am i doing, but its so mah fan to add image in this web.. so ler, nex time..till i learned how to use html coding from S.Kang and that STUPID LWL!! work is smooth, 4:30pm back home. Hate it when i hav no maid to help me.. clean the house, do this do that, tired one ler...

Kung Fu Soccer is very nice, watched 3 episode liao, and laugh til i mad.. u all should watch it too, lol...... always thinking about what will i do after my SPM.. play? fun? i  feel affraid, coz after that, i am on my own road, to a new world, mature world.. i'm too lazy to do anything, which is the weakness for me to do any success. mmm... 1st of all, going to Pangkor after SPM!! happy.. and abit ..nervous, duno what will happen, afterall i havent join any outside activities, which need to stay for nites since i'm small. Then, get license.. cut my hair, dye my hair, whahahaa, play games, aiyor.. so many things waiting me to do!! SPM< fast fast over...!

I've just learned some new tactics in folding T-shirt from net. Who wanna learn? pm me , i sure i'll teach u, but the lesson course  u RM50, kakakaka.... tired liao lah... waiting to meet leng lui in my dream~~

2:45am 10Nov2004, Wed - hoping to clean out some bytes for my comp

Used up all my space in comp liao! left 300MB rite now.. downloaded too many movies, the series of "Shao Lin Soccer". total 40 episode, i hav 30, waiting 10 more to be release.. aiks... how to continue downloading if there is not even enough space for me? burning in CD is a waste of money, i just wan to watch and delete thats all.. enough time for me to watch some and study? lol..

Finished 5 subjects in exams. Left 6 more, which carries till Dec. One week plus holidays for us starting tomolo. Hope this time i can really make good use of the time. Exams? sukx i could said. Hoping everyone is not so well, so that the standard can be go lower.. Fizik, Kimia, Bio is the 3 main subjects left, put more effort in these, might help me lots.. haih...lazy study, so how???

Maid is going back to Manila due to the attendence to her mother's funeral. Hope she wut cry too much, and for me too! coz i need to do housework from tomolo onwards. 5 more hours and she will leave us. Washing toilets, sweep the floors, lap it everydays, and plates, suffering during this exams' month!

Currently playing a game on Utopia, and found it actually very nice game. Although all is about words and clicking, but it need us to think and do planing or u game over.. play this b4, still remember is in form 1, stop and play back now. Miss more than 10 ages, added many option to this game rite now. need some time to explore how to survive again.

I am selling winter cloths ler.. wha i mean is second hand one, short, long, thick, thin,   blue, red, dark, brown, various type i hav. Haih... duno actually how to sell all of it..   

Funny that i gave maid a Nokia handphone model 5310 which is outdated years ago, and mom asking me why giv to her. She said i could use it nex year onwards, and i'm nearly yelling sukx! asking me to holding a "da ge da" to walk along the road, what a shame.. i rather use my own money to hav a better choice. Just wondering, why she always dun understand what we need, and what is actually best for us. She only know how to compare herself with us. Something she cant get when she is small, she hope that we cant get it too when we are small, old ppl's thinking. She is just like doing some revenge on us bcoz she cant hav some luxuries when she was children, so we are. Dun ever compare me to urself plz, i am not born in 1960s, and also plz, dun ever mension about something which is very sarcastic and very annoying such as I am aiming for ur money that left for us when u die. Shit it, and shut it up. Dun implant me rubbish knowledge that i never think b4.

Phew, why suddenly talk so much... hahaa, enough liao... gtg, .....

6:54pm Nov06 Sat, 2004 - abit tired, sleep whole day

Feel boring, tired rite now, dun wanna do anything, i hate exam! I should be studying, but what i've done? I on9 for every single minute, and throw my books far away from me! Nex week, will be having BM, BI and that most boring and hard to remember's Sej. Bing is in exam mood liao, great to him, but i'm not yet... Its fun to say that Addmaths is over, but what is coming is the key whether i can score A's or not.. Nervous, anxious....

received news, my uncle, which i usually call "jiu jiu".. just pass away, lungs failure... Sad..wish him rest in peace... and also to Cherry's mom, whom also pass away yesterday...

thats it, no mood to continue, shut this up.

2:42am 29 Oct 2004 Fri - just woke up

ngam ngam wake up, coz duno why suddenly hav nightmare, something like ghost one...scary...
so ler, go downstairs, watch drama, hav a bowl of tomyam, hahahaha, geng ler..

uploading my song..duno why cant.. so bad.. just now simply type in info of that song, and it loaded successfully, but later i wan change details back to normal, it said error, so i delete it and upload once more and... cant anymore.. bad.. what is the problem? lol.. thennow i'm attaching some photo to our class' email 5s2@myquickmail.com   wanna know password? guess lah, very easy one, stupid also, whahaaha

so damm.. nowadays sleep late late, wake up late late, no study, what also never do, like a useless sampah masyarakat... i saw only few ppl on9 right now, mean all studying.. bad ler.. alredi straght A's, still hoping to get A0, which is better than A1, deng..

Kang received his tortoise liao, is it his birthday? i think so, hope he's happy.. erm... wondering hav i share the money? or it is too cheap..and left me away...nowonder Kang thx Geng and Harn only...sobz...no my name..

Gunbound! how to hack the system? i'm trying hard here, wahaha, wanna be pro to hack game system, lol.. anyway, talk more on this is no interesting to u all, rite? hehe.. exams... why take so long, nex week 2 days, then continue.. whole month... boring...

Never see Kim online liao, think there's problems in his comp, cant connect i think.. still got files wanna send her! oh ya, edited one file, one pic i suppose, whaaha, coz too boring, and use the photo which is get by Geng's camera to edit it, dun say me wu liao! later i bogelkan u all semua!

10:44 pm 22 Oct 2004 Fri - feel bit sad.. bit worry

Its been so fast, and rite now..i've graduated....
am i happy? or what i really do feel.. i duno... feel lost, a kind of feeling very losty feeling, like lost liao something, where to find it? how it lost? what is it? is it important? when do u lost it?  God... all of these ques.. pop in my mind again ..
still remember i once hav this kind of feeling.. and what u guesS? that time.. it's the case bout the lost of that rabbit.. currenly, feel very ... down should say.. what i mean is not so happy, think alots, abit moody, sad... and if only i am a girl, i will try hard to cry it out, .. i cant, and all those feeling store inside my heart, so hurt..

I hope to graduate very very long time ago.. i wan to leave this school, to grow up, to hav my own lifestyle, and now, i haved my graduation certz.. holding it, i feel no more any joyment.. i dun hope to get it.. rite now.. why today past so fast.. its the fastest time flows i ever face.. morning go school, line up, reports, back class, snap photos.. not even enough yet but recess, miss recess, continue snaping, line up, go to the hall, saw frenZZ, sing school song, receive certz, sit back, chatting, line up to perform on the stage, saw Kim, hold that paper of "you" , on the stage, saw Pn.Tan Lin, finished, joking around, sing final songs, bye bye, joking around again, back to class, another photo sesion, but not enough! eat cakes, nice one.. oh ya, Happy Bday to Hui Juin!! missed bus, ride metro, and bye bye to my lovely school liao!!!!! what actually happen? why so fast......

right here, i wanna wish all of u, a very very best wishes, good lucks, hope u all hav a really wonderful time.. for ur future, for ur dreams..... and remember dun forget bout me.. i know i am silly sometimes.. but do not forget me.. as what i'll do..  u all r the angels, Heros in my past, present, and future life!!!!!!!!!  All the best.. happy forever

• Harn! u're the coolest guy. By the looks, i'll never guess that u r so smart.. jealous ler.. anyway, do ur best in everything, hope u happy..

• Hau! fai poh, haha, joke....... u r very very cute ler.. really one, erm.. can i say u r pikachu? wahhaa, dun angry.. u ah! i know girls very easy to angry, and u r abit not so easy to angry, but anyhow, plz try not to angry a person till so deep.. or so long... not good.. for every pihak.. including me.. hey.. u r the one never get sejarah but A1 in sejarah! hahaha, anyway... u will find ur fantasy on the road in front of u~

• Kang, another smart ass... like study alot! do addmaths often, do exams with such a high speed, and high score.. very yeng, and very ... hav his own characteristic.. oh ya, rich guy, who lost many specs , hahhaha, and too.. we used to talk something very secret sometimes.. i'm his councelor! hahaha, and.. we used to watch Xu Ruo Xuan ! hehehe.. shhh.. dun say it out...

• Geng Yi! smartest of smert ass.. lol..... very china man! hahaa, planing to go taiwan U timm! me pui fuk.. very very helpful, kind, gentleman, manly frenz.. teachers frenz lov him alots.. really very happy to know u..... i'm sure u're the guy that every girls looking after..haha..

• Si Jie! another fei poh! whaha, joke joke... very funny one.. she ah... likes music alot..sing song! oh ya, that "tian bian" i dunw an listen anymore! listen till abit.. "yan liao.. u ah! listen to eu harn lah, go "jian fei .. he said u will be very very pretty if u kurus liao.. i know he is liar.. but belif me, what he said , is true.. erm.. she's another smart one, who no need study, but win me alot! Moral same marks with me! and sej higher than me! how she study... wondering..  frenly, lots of fren.... dun remember me ah, k, ajahaha,  lol..

• Bing! everyday sleep with me in my class at the morning, ahhaha, nothing more to talk about u, coz u r the best fren i ever had. Study well.. i always support u, just try to attempt something u wanna explore.. i really hope we wunt lost each other, in the future..

• LWL! i nearly forget about u, here come i put an addon.. This LWL, i know her long long time ago liao, standard 4 till now! hahaha, she know what is my lengcai face when i am bodak.. lol. Cute girl she is, ppl call her Harimau, is that very garang? dun think so, what i know is, maybe she's too Stupid! lol. always put smily face or noob face when replying my msg, so lazy to type words..weird. try ur best, u r clever, can do well in exam!

• Si Xuan~~ haha, know her recently, not long.. and ..erm.....she's tall ah! very scared her..  so tall, u dun scared u cant find bf ah?! haha, erm.. same with si jie one, very.. open minded, and very..brave to say something very stupid... which i also seldom heard from any girls..lol.... actually very pretty lah..  can tahan lah, smart........8A's is in her hands.. and..erm.. aiyah.. encik chan is in her hand too lah! hahaha.......

• Stupid Kim!! u're the most hamsap and naughty girl i ever met. U'ved done many many things that i cant and dun dare to imagine, very very geng..... cant belif! and.........! dun use cry to scared me.. coz i very scared girls' crying! lol.. do ur best, i wish u always, succeed in ur dreams, most important, listen to me, ur study... &! dun be so playfull! (hamsap too)

*Ps - those who never mensioned.. is not i forgot bout u guys, just that.. the more i wrote.. the more sad i am...

2:47am 09 Oct 2004, Sat - planing to play games

sei lor, tomolo guitar lesson again, never do any practice again, repeat this problem again, i die lor!! 3 songs, havent find cord, 1 clasical song, never practice, twinkle-twinkle little star's cord, havent find, die!!! somemore tomolo 12pm father asked me to work with him, sei..... why he always duno that i need some time b4 i go guitar lesson for practising one meh......haih.......

Si Xuan, gengnya.....worst than her sis, haha, joke... i mean , both of them same...for their characteristic, hahaa, like to talk, and dun scared to talk something that is abit... what what one....... si xuan, stupid ler, say my bday on 4/26, haha, when also duno, but i do know urs liao. 890415-14-6456..yeah, i wunt forget anymore, hahahaa!!!! wanna sing song, then ..... need to wait 10more years lah, haih, haha

LWL!! u ah, dun make case bigger and bigger, i mean...... try to solve if u think abit fan...coz is suffering.. he will forgiv u, rite? if he really likes u. wear spec lah, if not, how to cure ur shan guang~~!

play gunbound whole day, wasted a day... long time never play, now like newbee, noobs... hahaha...

that 415KV, i really cant tahan when see her, charm like angel.... sad.. duno her yet, no chance, she back earlier today, if only she can stay abit longer while waiting for her car, and me too, then i promise i wanna get her name, at least be her fren, hehe, then i wanna see who is her bf, see who is the lucky fella..!!

3:15am 08 Oct 2004 Fri - feel meaningless

Doing what? I duno what am i doing, just feel very tired, but i dun feel like wanna sleep..
Just finished 2 episode of Initial-D forth stage.. abit hard when see this kind of gan jiong movie but still hav to view the chinese words below as subtitles, coz its languange is Japan, wonder when only hav the Cantonese version..

Start to feel nervous bout SPM, hehe, but useless when telling that i am anxious without any hard work.

Asked Kim some stuff, actually duno why.. some of her reply, is just like something i saw b4, something from "her. Maybe both of them r born to gimme this type of answer, hahaa... so what is it about? erm... sure u all thinking bout that kind of loveship. mmm, rejected? duno. Acepted? duno. how it was?  that reply, same like the reply from bai tu, "dui ni you hao gan, dan shi wo yi jing you nan peng you le" ..  sin..... hahah

Fri liao!!! gonna shut my comp liao.. sad sad.....  

1:05am 07 Oct 2004, Thurs - doing wat? ntg..

stupid streamyx! duno what happened, my line suddenly very slow since i used it 3 hours b4, !!lag man....

middle of holiday, i do no revision, no study, my otak will karat for sure.. .. i got back some space in my comp, after i finished some movie and deleted it, it wasting my space... Aiyor, long time never record new song liao, why ah? coz i no mood, now is in "lazy mood....

Si Jia's so funny, talking about some stupid problem she having, haha, and about that prom web page, just like a place where ppl date girls when go prom.. she, Hau Hau, Snowy and ++ will be having their seni paper today, just few hours more later, i hope that they might do their best, but i'm sure they will, coz i saw their drawing b4, damm cun....

today, that 415KV never go tuition, hahaha , and i miss the chance to meet her.. Bing seems no mood, lol!!!! why am us so suk... should go there, ask name, no rugi to hav a fren, rite? Teacher Lynn is the best english teacher, her letter to us, is very deep, hard to understand, but very usefull to make it understand. Teaching us how or what to do when facing problem, and mostly all those event we'll meet in our future. THe funniest part is where she wrote about sex :

"Here r the 3 advices I hav for u on this. Never be afraid to lov. Make sure u ask for a medical report from hyour partner b4 having sex. Never practice unprotected sex if u engage with sexual intercourse b4 marriage. And lastly, sex is not an ugly, sinful, dirty act. It is an act of love. If u pollute ur minds with dirty thoughts and indulge so ever frequently in pornography or blue films, u will never be able to view sex as an almost holy, sacred and divine communion btween a man and a woman who choose to share themselves with each other through intimacy."

Geng ler, hahahaa........ talked to Kim this afternoon, seems got alot of thing can chat btween us, maybe one of the reason is, she know how to open a topic for me, which i usually not so good when facing a female. If male, i'm sure i can handle well in craps, but girls... no no, i'm looser. I think this is why i loose someone without my notice.. She's.. a very playfull girl as i know now.. let me count.. i think its more than 3 times she tipu me liao.. after all those long story and question mark i put on her, then only she told me is a joke, hahaa, funny rite? mmm, feel got something same or maybe some odd feeling.. when she's replying my msg, just like some words that i see b4.. maybe some feeling that i got b4, long long time ago, which is from "her..  "we seen each other long time ago, rite? "dun wan me transfer to chs izzit? suan lor" lots more, but forgotten, the type of tune... hard to explain...         (hope dun play play) one more thing, i duno why she used the Q to me.. how on the earth am i got a single part is cute... i dun think so...........

tired liao............ wanna sleeep, perhaps watch movie, ahhaa...... nite to everyone, and to my dark and unpredicable deep sky...

12:02am 01, OCT 2004, Fri - Happy New month~!

wow, now is month 10th, so fastnya... 1 more month and i'll be sitting for SPM. Preparation? no lah, i will never prepare....... haih......

Add maths !! i get back my AM, and i score 44.5.. lol, its pass.. lucky got that project saved me..
Anyway, i'm the lowest in the class, cant tahan that feeling!!!!!

left BI and BM, and i'll know the number in my class, hope not too low.... Fri, i think its the one of the very last day i'll be going to school. Afterall, nex week PMR week, no need hadir, then no more impotants to go to school, except for hari perpisahan.... so fast.. am i happy? or sad? for me.. its normal.. mm, maybe better, since i no need to go school anymore, and bye bye to Pn Keng Jie, and Ah Chan!

i've post few more song in my page, really very not satisfied with it, but no choice.. who ever in this world can do the best in their 1st time? ahhhaa, but still feel abit malu..... .. me got zhi bei gan ler, so now is extra paiseh.......

Jenny.. wow, prettier liao! i felt her 415KV electric shock yesterday~ ouuww.. gonna know her.... i mean i wan to know her! one more month, and we'll be lost contact.....

tired lor....... and nothing to tell.....liao.. sleep.....

1:34am Mon Sep 27, 2004 - listening to some song!

Yo everyone, wow, so long i never log in here! what am i busing? haha, i'm just too lazy to drop any msg here.

final fantasy x, the song is really touching, i'm gonna sing it, ehhee, dun laugh ah, hahaha. and recently i trying to download the 12 Horoscope's song, anyone who interested, leave me msg, or inform me, i'll send ur horo world to u! erm.... each song about 30mb, which mean 20 minutes per song, geng ler``

mmm, i need to train for singing, need some tunjuk ajar from pro. although singing is sounds of useless for my life, i mean career, but at least i do know how to sing a nice song, rite? Posted the third song in my KTV web. Go "Site" link and link to my page to hav a view, hehe, erm.. u can laugh, but plz dun use it to compare to pro, or the original person, coz i'm not them, "i hav no profesional training b4" , hehe, oh ya, and also if u can sing better, or u think that u r almost same as the artist, then plz share with me, i'll like to listen to it!

Ow, damm nice that horos song, now listening to Gemini, till i feel happy, haha, maybe its mean Gemini's r always happy,hurh!

Taken back some exams paper, haih, its lousy, not even a B for Sains subject, hopeless. really hope my addmaths pass! plz...

Wasted this week ends without study, just sleeps and eat, and watch some movie, erm.. Lion King 3- Hakuna Matata (carefree). I like it, although not movie about lion king anymore, but its something bhind the scene, quite fun to see movie like that.

Ulser in my mouth is recovering, phew, finally lost that stupid painfull feeling. Actually, i feel that life just flying, too fast, and just like dream. I think alots, maybe , am i dreaming rite now? ahah, who knows, it might be true. In my mind, i used to think that, out world just like some organisme, or some sort of tiny bacteria, staying in some Giants body.. hahaa, isn't it true that we are hardly explore the universe, just as if we r one of the micro-organisme in some "humans" body, how could we manage to find out that we r so tiny! hahaha, i know u all will blurr from my words, nvm, more info, plz contact dreaming pro - Alan at number 012-3456789 , hahaahaha, erm... this phone number.. given to me by one of my never-forgetable-"fren". Miss her lots..

k lor, wanna stop rite here, affraid talk too much, then i cant controll my feeling again..~~

4:27am Sun Sep19, 2004 - duno wanna sleep or not

Damm san fuu wearing that retainer, pain. erm, parents tipu me whole day! morning, follow then go taman for morning walk, then go pasar pagi in old town, and sungai way for chicken, just bcoz i wanna get my retainer in PJ road. haih, if only i can drive.. noon, after guitar lesson, tipu again went to Puncak Jalil to see some new housing area, its cool there, but not the nice place,  the design is lousy, then we go sungai buloh to test on one relay in a industrial area. Dinner is bak kut teh, but it sold out, so we hav other dishes, then only we go Tesco for my spec. Wearing spec is better than contact lenses, its not so dry.

reloaded my song in my homepage at   http://www.ktv666.com/user/user.asp?id=30354 . Hav a look and plz drop me some comment. i wanna improve! tired abit... guitar lesson is smooth, learned some technique to catch the cord in some song. The major, minor thing, abit "tou tong" .

Stupid Harn! he is damms tupid bcoz talkingcrap to Kim, and bcoz of that, i did talk some nonsence to him. but he used it to "wei sie" me, paksa me burn cd to him, what the hack, i said only if i remember, then i'll burn it. i hate ppl paksa me do anything, i really wanna kick his ass fly high up in the sky. Anyway, plz dun make like i am an idiot in front of everyone, k?

1:12am Sat 18Sep, 04 - my eyes damm tired

finally! end of trial exam, i am damm tired liao.... although never study, but more or less, the stress is unpredicable. coz the lost of my spec, i'm wearing contact days and night, its dry man, after nap in class, bus, in air-cond room, facing comp, or watching movie.

recorded 2 songs, one with my cousin, and uploaded to my album's page. The link will be set in site link later on. i will work harder to produce better song, i just need to hav 2 more keys to reach a easier way to sing.. Hope Kang finds the best effect on audition, so that i can add it in my vocal, make it as same as the original one..

2 weeks never practise guitar at all, simply played some songs, but never study text book, gonna die later when temu teacher. Very happy to tell that, my braces is taked off, will get my retainer later morning, ahhahaa, 18months of suffering from my mouth, finally release, no more rubbish stuck inside!~~!! hhhaah..

Kim~! sorry that i duno her bday on 15Sep, but at least i wish her b4 that day over, what a coincidents that i simply wish her bday that at 1st i thought i should wish her to recover soon. Really hope u happy always, and about ur cracked bone, recover soon, k? i wonder without ur right hand, how u do other stuff, like.. writing, eating.....
oh ya, and one thing, dun simply point ur "lan" to other ppl liao, its rude ler, hahaah

2:37am Wed Sep 08,2004 - having rest after revising Kimia

Exams' weeks, how long will it come to an end? i really hate it, its stressful. I thought i can study well to overcome this exam, but lazyness conquer my mental, cant concentrate, so , this is the very last exams in secondary school b4 SPM, and all these years, i never been get a better result, and its ever. I think this exam, now is testing on my general knowledge, of what i heard or learn from teacher and frenz. Its not some exams that supposed to be testing on my study. Sep is a month, i think that is full of adventure b4 we go to Oct, and Nov. When will we hav hari perpisahan? i hope it come sooner, and end the SPM faster.

Just finish downloaded SP2, upgraded my comp, guess not much problems will occur gua. Thinking of to change this web to ftp mode, so that i can add banner and u guys here help me earn some money, whahaa.. I'ved download plenty of movie, such as Ragnarok Animation 1-22, not end yet, but no more any new episode, need to wait, Six Heros, Twins effect 1/ 2, Alien v Predaetor, breaking news, Doraemon, Hidden Heros, Day after tomolo and so on. Using bittorent can get new stuff, but its slow sometimes. And i think i've get it tru the sharing from china, coz most of the chinese movie, is in mandarin, too bad not to get their usual voice.

Adobe  Audition is good, 99% same to cool edit, bcoz that cool is now under Adobe's registration, they buy the rights. Thx Kang for teaching me to remove the vocal, so that i can sing any song nex time, by just one click on the track to remove the voice from the song! Planing to come out my personal CD album, wahhaa, who wanna buy??!

11:01pm Sat Aug28, 2004 - doing ghost movie with Ah Sa!! i wan go watch

Just drop by here, to make some words. Mm,,, this few days, non stop having flus, hate it, but anyway, just i am weak. Never kena Ns, really happy, coz all of my gang never kena, if i'm the only one, then paisehnya... Kingsley, WooiChen, Wei Yan, Anna, Wei Mei, kena, lol, kesiannya.. Wen kena too..and the one, the one who name Suria, ehhehe, kena also, so... haha, good luk to all of them.
Sorry Jie, duno what should write here to cheer u up.. listen to my music lah, should be better? ahha, joke. I on my comp 24hours this few days, luckily parents never check, i'm downlaoding movie, thats why.. Bittorent file is usefull in sharing info, and files, but sometimes is too slow..
watch the movie, " zui ji ba yue shi liu" , got ah sa.. damm bloody, like twins too much, influence by Hong Kong ppl liao! now shes there having a ghost movie in astro channel 30, rushing to downstairs watch it!
Tomolo still need to work for half day.. damm ler, never study whole week, duno how to get better result liao.. god bless me!

2:55am Wed Aug25, 2004 - back from majlis por torr

Just back from the ceremony of the por torr festival. All is the same thing as done in last year, the only things different this time is, without my grandma, miss her alot. Hate all those duty member there, they keep most of the barang dermaan for themself, it should be constribute to everyone who wan or need it. I saw they keep at least 3 "sao zu" and 20 bottle of oils just for themself, unfair. Tomolo will be getting earlier tuition so that enable me to attend the dinner for this festival.

Go Summit to cut my hair today~! really funny, at 1st, the Saloon girl asked me "cut bodak?" then i answer yes, and later when the Si Fu come and cut, i forget to tell what the hairstyle i wan, i said only one word, spike, lol. So now, i got a durian head liao! short man! but its good, cool, no dundruff ever, hehe. And it can keep till the majlis perpisahan, i hope.
Actually this world got lots of lenglui, is too many, saw dozens of them in Summit. One of the store seller, where i buy the chain for my jeans, really gorgeous man~! cant really look into her eyes, small small size, that type i like!! hehe, then lots more i saw, in almost every corner, and also the majlis por torr, haha.. but they wunt look at me anymore, who wanna look for a durian head?? 

3:26am Tue Aug24, 2004 - chatting with Jie

actually not ready to write anything for today one, but bcoz of send the 7mb qi li xiang to her, i need to stay a little bit long and got a  little bit of time to come over this page!

I've just finished compose my 1st song! Ji mo bian jie- zhang dong liang. Anyway, its not so good i know, and the sound is abit blurr, still duno how to use the Cool Edit software, but it is a powerfull software i know. Its funny when i listen back to my voice after being process by the comp, maybe the mikrophone isn't so good. So, ended up, this version is under "headphone beta", using headphone to listen should be better.

Just found a new MIDI, jie kou- Jay, so i set it in this page, hope u all like it! just now layar to Kang's web and download his song, chun man, so brave, sing without music, clear version! i like it ~~!  Thx to Kang for inviting me to the 1GB gmail, and also the Blog sharing stuff! u r the best!!

This Jie ah, file still havent finish sent, but she go sleep liao, left me alone to wait! go go , bcome pig liao, hahaa. thats all for this time, ciao !~

1:27am Mon Aug23, 2004 - stomach abit not suang, maybe wanna.....

Yo man, i worked whole day in this lovely Sunday!! stupid case that maked dad and me wasted around 7hours! Woke up 11:30am morning, after my father knocked my door so rudely, hehe.. then take a big bowl of mee, and go the base. today need testing for the cable and transformer, in where? geng lor, in the Tentera Udara KL, Materiel Udara 1 Base, hahaa, know where? make it easy, its the base of tentera udara, one of the switch room lah, hehe, they upgraded their electric city mah. Reached, 12+pm, start a little bit work, coz they havent finish joined the cable, so we can only test the transformer, easy, 1:30pm finished. then nothing can do liao, just wait. so we decided go Yam cha. The security is damm geng, so rather not go out of that place, we go canteen. actually there is really big, u can live in there and no need come out to buy anything, bcoz everything is prepared inside. Got club, bank, hospital, food stalls, even mahkamah too, haha.. One nescafe ice, one mee goreng, till 2:30pm, and walk back, and luckily father saw that they joined the wrong cable, which only can stand 1000V compare to 240KV. Bloody lor, wait they remove it, order it, go the kilang to collect it, and bring i there, its alredi 4pm. Then wait again, for them to joined it, and install it, till 7pm. And now? The lousy generator cant work properly, wasted another 1 hour to find another one, without it, no light, cant work. continue joining cable, lastly, 9pm finished. Then now is our time, we set up our alat-alat, start to test the cable, and ended in 40minutes. SO?? we back home at 10+pm, which means our work is less, but the time being used is really funny, wasted my life, in waiting them to solve their problems, to continue my work. haih...

yesterday forget to jot down that, evening, Keat, Bing & I cycle and chatting in our area. Bing likes Sammy alot, keep talking about her, and then i told her about Kim tomato thing, then he accidentally heard that she bcome potato when seeing me(chinese means "zong fan su" =die ), stupid bing, so he laugh, i laugh, keat laugh, then keat take off his pants in just 1/100 seconds, hahaha, i saw Grey color, hehehaahaa, Bing, watch out! Talk somemore nonsence, u die!!

10:59pm Sat, Aug 21, 2004 - mom not in, on a little bit longer

I ponteng Taek again! shit, whole month i never go!! this time i die lor, everytime ponteng, too bad.

I realised why i flu whole week liao, i mean till Thurs, coz Jie putting up my photo in her Wallpaper, ahhaa, thats why, got something "kutuk-ing" me, so sneezing to warn me, lol! Joke lah, but after she take it off, the nex day i am ok when go to school! so, is it true? Fri, Pn.Wong told our class that there is one admirer for Jie. He's a young engineer, chun man! Jie got admirer, Gambateh, go ask Pn.Wong for his contact, he'll lov u forever, !~~ gud luk !!~~

i received the "short" movie from Kang liao, and finish viewing it. erm... quite ok, lol, i mean, it is ok lah, anyway. Harn cant know the contain, coz his mouth is really, abit.. ehhee.. bigmouth!!~!
Sorry to Hau and Harn, yeaterday i really cant go library to meet u all, stomach not so good, and receiving files from Kang, cant run away. Later mother catch, then i kena gao gao.

Kim is funny, replying my msg and saying that i am "cute". what type of description she gav me? weird. that day the reading corner case, she's really waving her hand to me, not other ppl, lol, and i thought that she is greeding to others, so i look backwards, and look back to her, and giv a small smile only, and walk away, which makes her feel so "fish" ( means "yu", the word she teached me yesterday, ahha). Not wrong to tell that, that day when she came in my class to sell Frisbee, really paiseh, and she heard Abby they all talking about her, so... haha, malu, and said she rather run away if she know i'm in the class, . haih, why run away.. makan her meh. Tomato! which she will transform when she see me, hahaa, funny... Finaly asking her about her BF, i think is the guy, i forget the name liao lah, from Form 5 one, then she acting like "duno" like that, eyer.. pura-pura.

Kang giving me lots of advise to day. Not to so playful anymore wor.. i'm not that playful lah, but, me too, affraid later let lots of ppl salah faham , then die de.

Thats all i wanna say, below is the blog i copy from Kangs, copyright is copied, hahaha. sorry ya. good info, thx!

Class trip surprises

12:48 am Thur, Aug 19, 2004 - wanna smash Kang!

It's been few days i never come in this page, time is short, not even enough for me to sleep. When i logged in just now, i saw 2 new entry of guest book, the worst part is the name of Kimberly appeared! Straight away i know its Kang's work. Damm lah Kang, how dare u do this to me, to seksa me~~!! and he dun even know how to con ppl in a better way, at least u put down ur email(Kim), and also get a different time to write mah- the 2 entry seems to be in the same time, in between 2 minutes. hahaha, Kang Kang, dun play play. Later i chop u to 24 parts, !!!

Jie is chamm, kena Pn See today. Actually i never really heard who Pn See is zhatting, so i just follow the crowd, sorry Jie, if u tersinggung. But its good to teach u lesson anyway, rite? haha,  Thx for ur kindness of giving me the sample of Johnson&Johnson, hahaa. Ren Xin as well.

Hau has made me promise her not to call her AhPo anymore, so cham.... not fun liao.. wonder why so many girls affraid to be called old. If anyone call me Ah Pek, i'll be appreciate, coz it shows that i am mature enough, and ready to go "Heaven" too, hahaha..

This few days, i saw Kim, around with lots of guys, there is, maybe one of them is her bf. Aiks, so how am i gonna kao ler?  haha, joke lah, like is not mean kao, i like her look only, and also Jackee, and the famous Catherine, haha.
Harn being played by me, coz i talk to Yan in msn, and make it sounds like he likes her, god, he gonna kill me soon..

Hate addmaths projek! Anyway, thx to Hau for her free copy, hehe. tired......

10:23pm Sun Aug15, 2004 - just finish dinner, too full

today is a lazy day for me. woke up 12pm, which is the time after i hav the second nightmare in my dreams. Not really nightmare, but just some dreams that really scary! haha, who appeared in my dreams? Jie lah, Fri night, and Sat night, both nights came out her face, and the worst part is that i dream of something not so good, of coz not that she is not good, is that something bad happened to those ppl in my dreams, haha...

mmm, Hau is angrying me, what am i do wrong liao... i think i am Ah pek, k? dun angry anymore lah, second times she angry till dun wanna coi me, kesian. Maybe she still not so stable after Wee back to UK. Be more patient, try control, plz. u can take it easy, just hav a try, dun sad, baby. mm, really sorry, Hau, if i do anything that is annoying to u.

I surfed Kangs and Lynn's web yesterday nite. Both of them r bzing study. "today fizik, tomolo chemistry, then later wanna piano practice, and wan do addmahs...." what a shit, all those words make me nervous, scary class i stay in. All those donkey cant stop study, haih.. hope i can be one of the donkey, at least is a smartass..

Too full rite now, the dinner that i just taken, "66", made by mother, haha, is too too full, the seafoods is fresh enough, that just brought back from Kuala Selangor, coz father and mom go there to reload some new seafoods and "pak torr".
Know a fren today, name "funkygal", haha, never ask her real name timm, forgotten. Nice to meet her, i mean know her, my list of frenz added one person.

Yesterday night while having dinner outside, asked mom about the classs trip. She said can, by helping me half of the money only, wah liao.. poor thing. then i told about going to Pangkor island. and she answer to me that it is not fun to be in that island, coz .. it can be consider a very very normal island, plus the seadside is not indah enough, not a good place for memorians. Pensea she told, which nex to Pangkor island, is better. Anyway, she said she can help me to find some info, about some good places, and also ask the tour guide about the total fees for the peaple around 40+. I think it is better for us to join a tour, which they provide everything that we need, rite? 

1:13 am Sat 14Aug, 2004 - short blog

Wee Back to UK on 12th Aug, Hau so "bu she de", went to school the next day in a very exhausted look. She sleepless, thinking bout Wee. Go rest more Hau, she'll be back nex year wert, she aren't lost, just not around only mah. Hav a smile!
Jie and Kang never come to school today. Jie said she ate alot of ice, that makes her cant come today. Kang? duno about him, think he is studying gua.
Exam is nearing, need study, but i am damm blurr, duno where to start, or how to start. lazy too. Later 8am need to go Taekwondo again, plz dun make myself ponteng once more.
Saw Kim in reading corner in recess time. funny that she's waving her hand, but duno to who. scared of doing stupid stuff, i hav her a small smile thats all, affraid ppl calling me perasan. I scared of being perasan, it is horrible.
Who is Suria? hope to see her soon, or meet her, or know her, hehehe, then someone is going to die lor, hahaa...(duno what i mean? nvm, just a word for one of my fren.)
Thats all, wan sleep liao, zzZzZ

10:36pm Tue 10Aug, 2004 - feeling missing

yesterday damm bad, kena flu. Starting from recess, non stop sneezzing, feel my nose bloody itchy, but cant do anything bcoz there's aren't flu at all. i think mucus... haih, cant tahan lah. PPl said, "when ur nose itchy, "da ha chi" , means that there is someone kutuk u , or someone is thinking of u." whahaha, who dare to kutuk me whole day ah? wan die meh. Or... is there, someone is thinking about me, ?? whahakak...

MmM, today got something wanna write down lah. Not so interesting for u, but i need to write down notes, so that i can know what i hav did. Blogger, Journal, all same.. Hope one of the day, i hav the chance to review my life. During Sej period, i thought i saw someone i knew outside the corridor. Look at her, not the one i wanna met, but what a damm shock when i look back to the front, i see M3274 standing rite there, asking teacher for permission. lol, really makes me terrified. nothing can do, i "kap" her again, look at her as what other guys use to do. She saw me, smile at me, i waving hand at her, and then, she just smile fo the rest of the time, while announcing her Frisbee announcement. "Who wanna buy Frisbee anymore?" i thought i suppose to stand up and say i wan, rite? hahaha, joking. Mmm, like her smile alot, but Eu Harn not here, is not i can listen to some of his "rubbish advice" . Dun dare look at her too much, me pai seh... hope one of the day, can meet her again. really..
Wonder why Harn never come, maybe he sakit buttock. mmm, i hav searched some info of 3274, she is very famous, ppl said she is cute, pretty, smart, more.. duno much, as long as what i hav learned last time, ppl who is famous, is very hard to be wif, agree? Surely Kang support me?
She is famous, she is charming, attract the guys, without noticing, killing the one, who is in love with him/her; at last, he is suffering, he is crying, deep in his heart, he is trying, to let the one he is loving, to know how much he is loving.
Correct me if my meaning is wrong, lol!

1:14pm Mon 09Aug, 2004 - on to paste the "essay" i wrote yesterday

Seep for 4+ hours, fresh rite now. tomolo need to past up my addmaths pelangi h/w, havent finish yet, 80+++ ques more to go. aiks, dun think i can finish it, hate it. i mean i hate to use my brain, its karat liao, nee WD-40.. how to improve my addmaths if i still dun wan to practise? really sorry to myself.

End of Sun, and start a new week. Had Malaymail Bigwalk Sun morning, which is a very very fun day to me. 4:50 readied, but Keat over sleep, thats why he "fly" his car to school, wif 100+ Km/J along the Federal Highway.So luckily, we got the last chance to ride the bus, the last bus, met Harn, G.Yi, and Kang there. Harn seems so happy coz the day be4 he saw a girl who looks like an actor, and the main story is- She is Sammy's sis. wow, and Kang sat nex to Sammy timmm. That is call Fate.!! 6am start, reach Dataran few minutes later. Went down, and go direct to Padang. the moment i walk along the sidelane, i saw her, hahaa, her... who is she? A girl lah of course, M3274 belongs to her participate's number. Sometimes i dun really like girls to looking back at boys while the boys is eyeing them. Do u all agree? put a big vote to me, rite? not to say that i am perasan, (although i act like i am), but i am telling my feeling, and i feel that, everytime i saw her, she is looking back. That is bad, it makes me look like lunatic. If in another words, means "ham sap lou", hahaha. to avoid her eyes, i look down, and walk right past her, and turn back to get her running number, 3274, should i go for 4-D? kakaka.. When i saw her the second times, Harn is beside me, so i pointed her to him, and thx for his Honest answer! "i'll give 3/10 points to her" hahaha, what a nice grade. Si Jie is around us, hahaha, she is very funny, and i cant keep my mouth from "zhatting" her.. sorry Jie, forgiv me if i do talk too much, hehehe, but its fun to zhat u, hahaha, rite? somemore b4 that, our boys gang is chatting about "shit", what the hacks r we doing? shit also can be our main topic man. cant tahan, being wif frens around is fun, really, even at the toilet moment can chat alots, haha, Loon damm bad, wanna open a container who suppose to be a person is doing buisness inside.. malu lah if i am that person, disturbed by Loon!  7+ am, need to report in the report zone, go in and tear it out my report card. The third time i saw her, and again, her eyes, killing me, this is agreed by Keat, he did saw that she is looking at him too. Embarrassed, i duno what suppose to do, ended up a smile to her, and i received it back too, quite cute.
The run started in exact time, we walk, slow and steady at 1st, till a girl with a browny long hair appeared in front of us, that makes everyone bhind her ran over her to hav a look. Harn said shes bad, but Bing said best. Taste is different, i will never judge a person's look by influenced from others. After a small walk, we started to walk big steps, and faster. I wanna finish the line in the time, so that i wunt be loose to myself. Kang ran too fast, lost him just a moment. Forth time, saw her in front of me, and there's, Sammy behind her. Taking a deep breath, i walked to her, and asking for her name, hahaa.. i dun think i did this b4. abit nervous, and my voice r not loud enough, to tell her my name, till she pronounce my name to Annet, what... should be Alan mah, ahhaa. Kimberly, (izzit spelling wrong?), thats her name. i never stayed long, i left her to go back to my race after 1minute. Jie was in front of me, she is grabbing Harn to walk wif her, haha. Along the running road, a road trip, we turned many places,  go in the hill, up and down, saw the big house, big bangalow, which i see it every years bigwalk, saw a lot of frenz. Stamina is enough for me, but the energy is not good, the leg started to cramb. Not for a long words, me and Bing past the finish line at 5minutes b4 the closing time. Congratulation to Ren Xin, who won 48th in the race.. if only she could follow up my steps, then she might get 20+ as a girls categary. Getting goodies beg is fun, the most fun thing to do after a long walk, and receiveing free drinks. LIVITA, IsomaX, Drinho, Milo, lots. The fifth time saw her going for the goodies, hav a words to her, showing her to road. Know that afther today, it is hard to see or talk to her anymore. We rested, till 10+ am, we rushed back to school by bus. Jie sat nex to me, hahaha, and she drank a lots of water, till cant finish her packet drinks. Keat send us back, never bring keys and join Bing in his home. Playing Poker with his family, and back till my father fetch me.

1:42am Sun, Aug 08, 2004 - less than 2 hour sleep to ready for bigwalk

today will be having bigwalk in KL. Once a year, bcoz of the 10extra points to card gerko and the cert,  i participate it every year since form 3. Actually its quite fun, walk the whole road, 7KM this year, and get those goodies, "sample", fun activity with frens around. Q.Han dun wanna go this time. Stupid guy, told me last time that he will go for it every year, but now he fong fei kei, giving stupid reason "i got tuition, father not well, lazy to go, the shirt not suit to me..... bla bla blaaaa". Now, nobody can send us go 2 Dataran Merdeka liao, the final decision is, Keat send us to school, and smuggle into the bus, as we never register to ride it. hahaa, duno wat will happen to them who hav been stoled the seat by us. 4:45am Keat will come, we ready for the 1st bus, and hope the road is not sesak, coz he is still new in driving. who will i see later? Harn and Kang got go ah? i forget ask them...

ponteng taekwondo class today again, i am damm fool.. haih, lazy willkill my life. Guitar lesson seems good, although make a mountain of mistakes, but teacher in good mood, never ask me to do all over in nex week, and make me pass the few works. Nex h/work, 2 little song, with the title "MY LADY" , "PENSANDO EN TI" . Don't know what is it? nvm, i duno it as well, as long as the song is nice, and its my h/work, hehe.
I del quite a number of GIF files that in my blogs. They eating up my "50-free-files-space-limit". Now, I use to copy and paste some GIF that i found on the web. Days later, the file will be missing, so..if u like it, save it to ur hardisc. Thx Kang for signing up my guest book. mmm, mension him? nothing to talk about him lah, too smart who makes me feel stupid in front of him, hehe. 

i hwcta the emiov jus now, title? "WHY ME, SWEETIE?" -Synopsis: In this comedy romance, an American Chinese student meets & falls for a nice guy - who keeps forgetting who she is! Starring Louis Koo & Cherry Ying.
Why am i gmosninine stsi emoiv? gntoihn is yralle tipmroatn, but this wsho smkae me eraesil gsmoehtni. mFor the tsatr llti now, i keep on gsiany that i hav tfroog u. i will rnvee ktinh of u eaynorm. rAtfe all this glno, 3 months.. u tlfe me, 5months.. u rneev ktla to me hwti a enic ncnoevsratio, 6months.. that i tstra to lefe ttha u r not 100% gptuitn ur thera to me. yAtcllua twah i am in ur thera? I ask fmsyel alots, am i mad, for a lgri ttha dwolu not be hwit me in yrliea, but only in the dworl of yfsatna. Not hwtro of ecsuo, gwnitsa my etmi, and yegren, to add in hmcu more, hmcu hmcu more ssseetr..
After the emivo, i hfsal kbca alot nbeewte u & me. i wkon ttha u will tfeorg me in jus a emtuni, or a dsnoce, but for me, i twnu, till the day i yrlela nac pdor u ffo ym dwlro, dnee a glno mtni ot og. I gdnimaer fo ghniva a enci kwla hwti u, ni yan epcal, ro sppahre, S.dPmiary's acmeni? ghnidlo ru dhna, glnitte u nlan no ym rsedluoh, a dgoo gfnilee. lla si sju nioitanigam. not lrae, reev. I rneev tem a nposre elik u b4, ohw edvir em dma. fBile em, u r hte tbse. gWnitir ehre, zoc i awnna sneto ndwn ym gfeenil, neo yda rleta, nweh i wrviee kbca ym tpsa, i lwli wkon ttha etreh si hscu a lgri, ohw i yrllae pdor in pdee vlu, b4..   2:51am 08/08/04

10:38pm, Mon Aug02, 2004 - morning kena flu!!

Morning, start the day in this week by sleeping the whole way to the school + 30minuts in my class room, hahaa. But it doesn't help in my flus. It gone worst when staying in the class, cant bend my head down, coz the mucus will drop down, hehehe. Use up 3 packet of tissue man, nose going to flat liao. mmm, taken medicine after BI periods, it makes me feel sleepy,luckily  i hav the license to sleep in BC class, hahaa, teacher never scold me. :)
i think i'ved past the germs to Hau Hau liao, coz she's getting selesema at nite, hahaha... sorry ya, stick too near to me liao, hehee. Take medicine lah, if really cant recover, get my "kiss" then. lol, ;p

Notice that our class' leader for the class trip is working hard. If never wrong, i think i am in the group of "Games" under Grace. Wonder what should be prepare. Looking forward to reaching this date! I hope i really hav the time for making fun with whole of my class' gang.

I found the cord for "qi li xiang". anyone who wants it, can ask for it. Cost.. RM149 per masterpiece, hahaha, joke.
I'ved make a pot of yogurt yesterday, and it seems sucess this time, quite delicious when add in some rough/red sugar. MMm, making another cup today, but this time i use low fat milk that make from milk powder.. and i cant find the Yisss after turasan dibuat,  haha, wonder will it failed ?Plz dun make me hav any sick or stomach pain in school anymore.. it is damm bad.

1:58am Sun Aug 01, 2004 - late nite after back from PMO concert

Today, school helding PMO concert in Tian Hou Gong, i never been to any concert b4, but i go bcoz i need to support Jie and Grace, who both "paksa" me to go!!
readied myself sharp noon, ride bus and reach Kota Raya. Wearing that long sleeve shirt, and pair with Bing, making others thought we r gay. We walk to S.Wang, and shop along LowYat too, during this PC fair period, stock is selling in dirt cheap price. At 1st, we lepak in S.Wang, take MCDonald, (i'm suppose to hav vegetarian today!), then go Lowyat, and finally come back S.Wang bcoz i wanna buy the chain for my jeans. Its mahal man, and the size is smaller than the usual one , which is RM29 compare to RM18 in Summit. I think i'll back Summit to hav it.  
After our small trip to KL, we ride taxi back to Dewan Tian Hou, cost RM5 to reach there, quite cheap. Oh ya, forget to mension that, i saw a women while riding the taxi along KL streets, very good body shape, and what is worth to write down is that...she din't wear any bra as i guess, so that i saw some, .. "mata" haha,.. then i slowly look into her face, oh my god, what ya guessing rite now? I'm so sure u dun the real answer till i tell ya, is that, she is definitely look like an Ah GUA`~~, ahaha.
Funny, after reaching temple, got some fellas said that me and Bing and "wai" (vomit< disgusting). haih... malunya, lol, i duno who r them, if not sure kill them, whahaa, joke. is that really annoying?
coz of the lunch in MC, so i never really feel hungry, but there is a very very kind teacher (Pn Lim i guess) giving out free dinner, boxes of rice, so i take one , hehe, thats my sumber tenaga man, if not sure sleep in dewan liao, ahhaa..
The concert is very awsome, Jie and Grace perform very very geng ler, espeacially Jie's .."ding dong ding dong" those "golden plate" whahaa, fast and chun. Lynn said she's pretty wor, :), but she's too the one who non stop murmuring that shes feel boring... hehee..The concert end with extra 2 song after encore, and only the last 2 i heard b4, others is new to me, though, i like it alot. feel very "pui fuk" when i saw them playing the "er hu", with that high speed on both hand, scary man.
Seeing En.Ng, and Pn Lim.Y.K. is scary, they r like "beast" to me. hahaa, hope to hav this kind of concert somemore..

tomolo morning need to go for dentist.. remembered Dr said few more months can remove my braces, happy ler, 4 months most, heheahaa, i hope to hav a  nice teeth b4 prom or class trip 
Missed Taekwondo class today, and the payment will be dalay, which means i need pay extra RM5...aiks... Affraid of grading bcoz i never do any better preparation, if i'm failed, then waste money, so how???

aiks, finish the whole page only i realise i forget to write something, i prayed in the temple just now, and pick a "qian" , its number 34, Promising Prospects Ahead , asking me to work harder wor, :)

12:55am Thurs July29, 2004  - wanna sleep liao

No choice, gota on for ending my story. erm..oh ya, stop at someone make me better, guess who? should know gua. By that time, i'm in the world of Ragnarok, day and nites for only this game. That nite...sad, but on, i saw her, in my game, and teman me alot, although she knows nothing about my real feeling. I feel better when seeing her after the incident, even on the net only.
Late Dec, story about the angel with the vege started. But angel was selected by another Hero, vege once again cry deep in his heart, without tears, quite hard when wanna cry, but cant.
Late January, my second grandma loose in her battle. White blood cells conquer her body, leukimia takes her life away. Should i be sad? actually i feel that she's suffering, too suffer means death will be the best choice, as Miss Lynn(eng tuition teacher) said that death aren't scary, take it easy, bcoz we r still alive, we need to continue our life. I did cry, at the very last day of the funeral, never try to act like mature, it will more hurt when u make a wall and keep all ur sadness inside.I flash back alot of things btween me and the dead. My grandpas , grandmas, lots, for their caring on us, and for the stupid behavior by us. Said sorry to them if i hav done something wrong, but is too late. Forgiv me coz i am young.. i never keep my promise to them, that i'll drive an aeroplane to bring them fly on the sky, not even to drive them on the car. I lov them. 
3 Months non stop of getting sad news, and heart broken story, i cant stand it. Thx again for the angel, for saving the guy. However, at last the angel need to go back to Heaven, but she is always in his heart. Thx angel, for being nex to me on the past few months.

Finish liao, i got one more story about rabbit and tortoise, but i wunt write now, tired. heheh, that Hau Hau! wan me mension her alot wor, haih, really mah fan, hahaa.write what wor? she got her seni project to do, know it. Everyone is done except her, too malas . But anyway , her works alot better than Q.Han's, haha.

3:48pm Wed, July28 2004 , ready to hav a nap

Abit sleepy, waiting Bing to my house for printing his project. Jie the 1st one who sign my guest book, haha, how can i mension her too much in my web wor, as nothing better to write down. The chat box i've created seems not working, maybe only premium user get the advantage. i mad on one song rite now.. qi li xiang, (Žµ—¢��) - Jay . Quite hard to sing lah! 
Harn gone mad liao, nowadays always pinch my neck, pain one ler, but forgiv him, coz he is childish, haha.. Class trip is planed to go Pangkor rite now. Am i going? duno, ask my money, and ask my family 1st, ahaha, poor ppl, seldom talk something over hundreds one..
Actually, now only i feel something not good, about her, not about her no good, but about my selfish to her. Say forget? i think i am lieing to myself, The Sun is too hot, cant cool down for jus a moment, what i need, is time, time , & timess....  

Just only i found the MIDI for this Qi Li Xiang! i'll load it here, listen to it, tell me how was it, hhaha, Hav a nice day!

11:02 pm - ready to off comp

wah, left few minutes only, !! still sending song to Hau, and is too slow! HHaa, i did mension her, but nvm lah. Today eng tuition, learn something "when i come to this world, everyone laugh at me, but i am crying; when i left this world, everyone is crying, but i am smiling." this is true, that makes me remember something that hav past..
remembered last November, my dear lov granma gone, for very suddenly, after 5 days back from Thailand, coz high blood pressure, and never even wanna take medicine... Old ppl, is like this. Shock me, whol family!! take a phone call, and said something might hav happen in her house, coz aunt is out, and left the small girl girl with granma. She saw granma sleeping on the floor, with some fluid out from mouth, wont wake up, and phone us. We rush there, too near, usj 17 - usj 16, but, she'ved gone, thats all i know. My lov lov grand.. jus gone like that, i did cry, that is my 1st deep cry for many years. At the same time, theres someone who makes me feel better.. although something bad has happened again later.....          to be continue.......

9:33pm Sunday 25 July, 2004 .. listening initial D

nite, cousin came, and playing PS nex to me, wakaka. maybe big enough, never think of playing it! erm, song? Initial-D rite, now, whole set of its song, like it too much!! the song, erm, techno, rock style 
oya, i keep putting alot of GIF file here, the sassy girl one, quite lots, save it if u wan, lol!

erm, something about Yan, i think is settled, in Fri, talk to her, then Sat meet her in school, but seems like nothing liao, hahaa, so i think overall is settle, no need feel abit..strange to see her, (am i stupid to let go a chance? deep in heart, answering it with a big "NO", i am not dump, and i know what am i doing. i never feel it, thats y i canot acept it, i cant feel something i am seeking, that i lost b4, ......)

   <----------  I like her alot!! when she is being cute~~

1:35am July 24, 2004, "tou ji"

wahaha, curi on9 rite now, coz something havent finish set up yet, lol. Oh ya, forgot to write down here, yesterday, mean the afternoon that just past lah, our Bing, suddenly mad liao, bcome "YU FA Bing", naik miang, make the whole bus laugh like mad. I think he likes "Ru Hua" alot! for more info, view the link below lah.

I really pui fok LWL, coz she able to read my whole web page, in just 10minutes time, wahliaoeh... what a good reader, she should use her ability in school text book, 

will hav taekwondo morning later, ... i hope Yan, erm...maybe dun let me see her, hahaa, coz i duno what to do when seeing her, pai seh, espeacially her frens eyes...haha.. "PHEW"..my father just back from work, hardworking, for my family...but he suddenly open his door, shock me!! hehe, curi ayam...scared kena tangkap.

10:53p.m. July 23, 2004 , worry for tomolo guitar lesson

Today is fri, wahhaa, fei hua! stupid, need to write this page second time, coz just now accidentally, press -Back, lol. Aiya, scared for tomolo taekwondo and guitar lesson lah, never practice, sure kena scold alot!

mm, hav a talk with Yan in noon, hope she understand what i mean, not to hurt, and not to giv the dream she seeking for. sorry ya.. Or maybe i'm perasan? lol, tuition, saw that charming girl again, can say that she has the gift from the angel!  

Erm, go this site if u able, got time, or no time, but if u r not happy, sad, or.. moody, go there, giv a loud laugh, coz it is really funny site, i'm sure u will laugh at it, Hav a nice day

http://fun-film.ecdisk.com/china/tv2.htm

10:56pm July 21, 2004 , very tired, abit hot

Erm.. today Frisbee competition, win 5p4, and loose to 5p2, score? 1-0 and 0-3, hahaa, too lousy. I dun even score a single point, just act like a monkey run after the disc in the court! Very tired, maybe under the sun too long, now feel hot, sweaT.

Yan, talk to her a little in tuition, lol, coz nothing to talk, i'm anti topic human! izzit i'm too boring? might be. Tomolo got seminar, and PJK? yes, too many free periods for me to sleep! i wan rest ler, somemore that stupid you bing keep saying "Lotion", because his " Ru Hua" in the show apply "ru ye" (lotion) , the he wan to do it too! i know he loves her too much, wahhaha, Ru Hua and You Bing~~@!              

10:22pm, July 18, 2004 , leg and arm damm pain ah!

Yo, today i haved the Taekwondo frenly match between SMKUSJ13 and SMKSU. erm... my stupid fren, all tipu, 50+ kg, put only 48kg, thats why all opponent is so light and quite easy to fight! I'm in categary 50-60kg, coz ... i am 57kg gua, rite now.... 1st fight win without fight, coz opponent didn't come, hehe, i earn it! nex round, fight with that bloody strong Black Belt Tall guy!! and guess... i am too happy to say that i win him by 1 marks!! wahaha, and the last round is a yellow belt guy, it is quite easy tough... i'm champion man! aiks, but it dun hav any gold medal, coz is frenly match, so, i hav a piuter medal as souvenier! My leg and arms... hand, elbow, whole body, very very pain now ah! i think tomolo all become black liao, coz of the heavy kick by the black belt guy!

MMmm.. this freeweb got abit disadvantage lah! all those thing can only set to 7 page.. i think i need to compress all my web to only few page, so that can write more... 40MB is more than enough, coz now i only use up to 1.5MB, left alot, for all these pages, but.... 7 is still not enough! haih.... need work somemore , wasting my time on this web page.

Eh... abit funny today, Yan never phone me..... actually is nothing one.. but duno why feel abnormal liao, coz i guess she'll phone me one.. funny, when she phone, i hav nothing to talk, but never phone, i feel abnormal, crazy yah? anyway, maybe she's bzing with her things.

- 10:49pm July 12, 2004

1st of all, am here to say a word to my Hau Hau, hahaha.... sorry ler Hau.. wonder whats wrong i've really make u angry so much. If it is coz of the rubber band.. then plz forgiv me for me fool, k? Actually play wif u is better than avoid from making fun of u, rite? (joke). haha.. so, plz plz plz , andry too much will grow older one, hehe...

Kang, u too mad about ur Lynn liao lah. Why cant u 2 just sit down and hav a nice talk.. u Guys like to guess whats the others thinking.. its hard u know. we r individual creature, cant manage to know what the others thought.. As i can see, u like her too much, and actually u just cant release her. Girls.. too mah fan, for lynn, hope ya do the kindness for Kang. Like or No, just a word, say it out is better if u care about the feeling for a boy, but if u keep it, without any comment, then boys like to simply think, i'm one of the example...  anyway, wish u 2 happy

Erm.... maybe now only i realise something from Wen.. Maybe actually she is quite know of me. I hav a long time never get any news from her. At 1st, i thought that she's angry about me, or dun wan bother about me, coz i am the lame, but afterall, i start to think that she is trying not to appear from my life, coz she knows i dun like anymore, dun hopw to see her.. lol... hope what i think is correct!

- 10:29pm July 10, 2004

Harry Potter is nice! Espeacially the third one. Hermione is perfect beautiful... hehe, but i havent finish it yet, the cd got problem.. aiks.. 

Morning go train taekwondo, tired man, 8:30pm- 11:30pm, long periods.. coz need to train for nex Sun competition in SMKSU.  I dun think i will win, whahaha, i hav no power at all. but i wan to make a try, plz plz, dun hope got anyone laugh at me, hehhe. Oou, and also today get to know some new fren in SMKUSJ13, mm, name is Pik Yan and Yee Ling, guess i never spell wrong, lol.  Damm tired today lah! 6pm go Basketball, and noon time go guitar, whole day activities, will die one ah..

- 3:56pm July 08, 2004

Yo, another week in July! mmm.. exams over, paper is back, and the marks is worst... its what i alredi know... thats what called never study.. Addmaths failed again ah! 33%.. haih... and all others is in bother line, chun eh...

Oh ya, in tuition centre there, the girl who name Jenny... Bing said she is suppose to be named Evonne... hahhaa, what a big fool name we hav gav her. However, it is not confirm yet.. lol. Bing ah, dun just keep kap her, and make her laugh at u lah, i will jealous one arhg, ehhe, joke lah.. Tired man, sleep liao, still tired... why ler?  i am too old liao.. ah pek mah... And also, i hope Discipline teacher wunt catch me anymore for my "very very tidy hair".... i just cut too short lah, plz... cuz i might look like "soh lou" , if my hair too short.. hehe...

--  10:47pm July01, 2004

Finally!! end of exams.. today the last paper, kimia 3, and it ends with some relief. But that moths teacher.. haih, pass me back my stupid add maths result, and it failed again. "what happen to u?"asked her. 33%, its too less. i must work hard, for my future.

July, hope it will be a very very new fresh month for me, plz. i dun hope to hav any sad case, wish me luk. I just caught a flash, remember that one day Harn told me about he hav some talks to her. She tell him, me and her not ngam, she with the college one should be better. Said her, she'll make me a call...  .  I dun hope she call me, i just cant stand her.. for all the hopes she gav me, all the best feeling she gav me, and all the sad things in my minds, i told myself b4, i let her hurt b4, 2times.. and when it reach the 3rd, thats mean nothing can turn it back to the road. Wen, i'm not angry about u, its true, but i feel disappointed.. U r the one who told me dun wan to start it, wait, u ask me to wait, and i do so. Waiting is suffering. And during the time, i just too scared u'v been attracted to another more caring guy. I'm insane. too fool to hav the feeling of scared to loose u, while u just thought i am another "guy" who've been drop to u. I;ve no important to u at all. U never ever gav me ur heart, u keep it. U dun show it up, and i cant catch it. Maybe i'm not the one who know how to open up the road to find ur heart, but atleast, let me a try, pass me ur full life, full heart, see whether i can handle it or not.. but its too late.. i loose without words. Sad and disappointment filled my head rite now. Gav me sometimes to forget u, maybe , years later, i can take u back as "fren" that u hope. And u , plz dun always keep something to urself, giv it ur lov one, k? Hope ya happy.

Tuition, we those monkey just keep on kap lui ler... its bad, lol. But fot sure, she is damm pretty, i can sure it for everyone's feeling. Her eyes, is just too naughty, leep on looking at ppl. I like her hairs alot, long, straight, i guess she never rebond it. Its just too normal, straight smooth hair. And her eyes, that i always try to get a glance at her.. hehee, i am too perasan liao lah! I like her to look at me, whahaa... perasan, rite? But she reallly did it. maybe....i mean. erm, hope to know her soon. Her name... jenny rite? duno, i guess again. Lets see how long it takes me to know u, :)

- 10:44pm June 24, 2004

Exam in half way, plz faster over.... i did no study in this times.. i couldn't answer any question in exams.. hope the marks wunt go too low .

Long time never write, coz duno what to put here. i think i am able to cope with the matters happen during last few weeks.. i think i am able to forget about it, make another new hopes. Jus like what others say, there so many fishes in the sea, But truely, she is the best till now. Anyway, my story,.. about story of the rabbit and turtle.. turtle is always loose, he wunt win, bcoz he is set to loose. He comes too late, and when theres got chance, he cant run, thats what design by HIM, by God.. loose once, get chance... loose seconds.. i dun like loosing, dun like losting, lost my property.. the story end when the beauty choose to leave the beast, and gone to find his Price..

- 11:03pm. June 17, 2004 Tired in my eyes.

Sej Half test alredi been done. What i hav studied for it? just only 2 babs.. what what i can answer? None.. Wonder what marks i can get... tired lah, tomolo Modern maths. should be easy, but i duno some fomula, forgetfull... too forgetfull, just like what i forget..in the time that has past..

i like to think about u. although i know i shouldn't, but it is funny.. maybe something that goes so long b4, almost few years time.. is not easy to forget.. Trying to find a more suitable Midi for this page, but..quite hard.. i will find it, just duno when will i found.

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-  4:23am June 13, 2004  lonely cold nite

Its just too fast to reach the end of the holidays. i do nothing and this 2 weeks off is no meaning for me. i dun even read, do hw, or practice guitar. Seems to be a weird guy, useless thing in the earth...

very lazy to write anything, is just too lazy, wahah... but now i got the time, cant sleep. The girl there in tuition, is really too too pretty. i know there is no hope from those popular charming girl, but her eyes make u jump. can i know her? lol, Bing keep kap her during class.... stupid eh, hehe... and he said her voice is too sweet.... i often saw she looking at us, Bing, Harn, and me, maybe other guys too, thats too bad... coz i know this type of girls... too easy to run away from ur hand.. from ur caring, loving, sacrificing hand.... they can fly away one of the day, when they realise they dun wan to stay in ur cage anymore...

now, i'm listening to a song, from Final Fantasy X - Suketi Dance ... just too..... down my heart, sinking rite now, sink to a world, lonely world, feel cold, really... it just like living in a lonely late nite jungle.. looking at the stars.. and wonder where u r... where u lost.. from my heart.........      it doesn't.. wunt lost,   forever,  it just..  run away, flee from my sight. do u know that, i'm searching u , hardly, but when i finally found u, i dun hav the strength to keep u fresh, alive, happy... Maybe the go of u, will make happier.. as long as u happy, its enough for me...

school'll reopen on Mon, and exam falls on Thurs.. i know i wunt get good result this time. haih........ just let it go... i'll be fine.

-  10:49pm  , feel not so good

wah, so fast, school reopen tomorrow liao lah... and guess what i did today? erm.. sleep till 1:30pm, eat, watch movie, play comp, till 5, sleep again, till 9pm, wasting my life... haih..... feel not really good with my lifestyle.. i hope to hav a more normal type.. but damm , i'm too lazy.

mmm, get lots of question from fren, all asking about moral project, zuo wen, pelangi!! i gonna die this time. i must must rush tomorrow loe.. this is what i get after this lazy holiday. I hope i still got time to study. i wanna get pass this exam... not an A' of course.. dun wanna think anymore, wan put my best in nex exam, this time real.

-  2:16am June 08, 2004

Something really need to put aside, dun really need to waste my time to think about it, it is too ... annoying, and i'm ready to flee.

These days, i back to my usual life, and i realize, I've lost something, but i earn something too. I lost my duty, my heart bit, my world ; and what i get? Its my new life, the life that i no more worry about the thing in last few months, its an end to me. I live more freedom, The object that i lost, had bring away my heavy ques too.

Without so many worries, will i live longer? mmm... i think 80 is enough for me, wahahhaa.... jk..

-  1:45am June 05, 2004 , Lonely night, noiseless

Think alot today, and it uses up all my energy to think, end up, eat too much in dinner, wahahaa, now stomach pain, lol

u know, when u hate a person, then come up another one who has the same feeling of u, hate him alot, then both of them can shoot lots of crap to that stupid fellow. And right just now, me and Kang, keep on bullshitting about him, the stupid bloody bastard,  woooW!! vey shock, wahahhaaha.... eh, plz, dun be too flower heart heart, if not, u will end up being hate by lots of ppl. Kang ask me to tell her the truth, but i choose not, just hope she can find it out by herself, and let her choose her best choice, furthermore, i dun like talking bad things of him to the person that i need her attention.  If i do, maybe she'll think that i'm too talkativ, creating story, or back shoot her "fren". 

Looking back on my bed, i think back the days, the days that the only girl who can make me cant fall asleep at few nights. The few little nights, just too suffer for me, cant sleep, feel down, cant cry, hope the tears fall, but it just couldn't, coz too deep the pain, and thats, just bcoz of her, i cant sleep. Right now, i do sleep, i almost sleep 18hours per days when i am free. Why?  coz of u again, think about u, wanna know how r u, hope u'r ok, but i dun hav any latest news from ya... r u well?  I hope to see ya, talk to u, for every moment, but i dun dare.. i affraid, u could hav been get another choice, and maybe i'm just too annoying to u, end up..i dun disturb u for that, rite? and it means.. i lost u, lost ur situation... i hope u can tell me, what r u thinking right now.. perhaps, ur homework, its good, or him? thats bad..to me..

Anyway, Kang's problem been settle, happy ending, jsut his over worried, waahhaha, dun think too much bro! .. but i need to think much, hhehee, coz i'm more matured than u, hahhaa... True wishes to all of us, all the best ------ ~

-- 10:40pm , too freeze right now, should it be sad?

morning, working for dad, whole day man, tired... and dirty, and what else, do play basketball, meet a scene where some guys wanna hav fight, and i shoot well today, thats all

and continue right now, haih... stupid heart bit, pump damm fast, coz ... saddy.. i get news from fren, good stories? bad? sure bad enough for me. Make it with simple sentence ,, " the girl, wunt like the bastard anymore, it is ranking as good result, secondly, she hav good feeling ont he other guy out there, who is too good for her, everything start with a good feeling at 1st, so, i think she'll get it... maybe i am happy, coz actually i dun think i can giv her what she wants, i'm too worst to her, and, now should be the time to let go, let the bird fly, coz i never ever can keep it in my cage... sad......."

-  3:16am June 04,2004  , thinking what to write

it's been few days never write anything here, i'm too lazy, and tired to think of anything. Thats me, lazy dog. Anyway, here's, today i got something wanna talk a little.

Kang tell me something just now, he said his problem solved, but i duno whether it's good or bad ending, hope it's all right, best wishes to him.  And he told me, i should ask something from Lynn, perhaps i should make her a call, lol, and he said something is good for me, wonder what it is, maybe she wanna belanja me makan, hahahahaa.... Hope to know what she wanna tell... but sadly, i duno how to ask ppl question, i dun think i'll call her...

- 3:13am 01 June 04, lonely Life

So fast the end of May, and bring me to the beginning of June. Few more months later, i'll be sitting in front of my SPM papers, and guess what, i havent prepare yet, and also for my coming second term exams...

Feel really tired, lol, I've learn how to save flash file and MIDI from the website liao, Thx to Princess in J-hk.com

- 5:31pm Noon,

dammm tired after back from Bing house, wan sleep, but got tuition later, cant sleep long, hahah,

just receive a mail, from M.Kai, talking crap from the Sakai's brother kepoh about whosoever loveing a girl call angellove, oh god, why ppl so kepoh sometimes,, i dun even know who his brother is....

and rite now, chatting with Lynn, again, suddenly pop out ques to ask who is being with her rite now... bloody question, can can i not mad for these things to happen....

- 10:36pm ,turning minds, turning thoughts, and emotion

just hav a very very nice talk to a fren, Kang .. 1st time to hav a over 30minutes talk to a guys, lol, wow, thats not mean i start to change to gay man....ahahaha... anyway, a vey nice talk... make me very... down though...

1stly, ask him what his girl(lynn) asking me about the news of... she and me... and it comes out with many stories...many thing lies beneath... What a sad case, when i know that that stupid bloody bastard miang guy hav a kiss at her forehead during his B'day ....and its what i suppose, hoping,  and greedily, wanted to do... break my dreams, break my hope, break my heart... how could she let him do it... when i'm still here, when i'm still havent gone, when i'm still havent giving up my hope, to make u happy. Sad, down, overall, these days u never bother me much, should it be becoz of... someone going to change... change back to the girl she was, go back to his arms.. if it is reality, plz just let me know, what u'r thinking about, can? I wanna get the real answer...from the flame heart, to the frozen life....... i'll freeze...

And this is for Khang,   Plz dun think that much... love is sometimes... very complicated...i'll try my best help u out with her, hope u giv up so easily, maybe she just wanna see u strong, stand still.. thx for ya info too.. i'll work out my case by my own... hope it happy ending....

-  12:27pm 31st May 04

Very tired.... sleep at 6:40am, woke at 8:15am, for playing basketball, funny, izzit? hahaha....really abit blurr when sleep too little, Stupid Bing, and Han!! ppl sleep for 1+hour only, sure no strength to fight u both lah, aiks......memang pai seh... loose to 2 monkeys.... will take revenge, wahahaha.... "sobz....not even shoot in one ball... very very malu...

Noon time, curi on comp again... and so lucky, mum come back suddenly, and what i hav to do? shut it down immediately lah...  no doubt one day my comp sure rosak due to everytime emergency shut down...

And right now...  Ei asking something about me.. something i duno how to think about... haih.. how to reply her, should i really need to take action for my one, or what..... blurr

- 10:22pm nite

sleep whole day again.... aiks, duno what is my life, keep on sleeping and eating, thats all... and noon time, S.Jie ah... phone me for what ler... me sleeping, dun like ppl kacao one ah, din i tell u this b4? wahahhaa....

U did online again, me saw u, "away" again, thats what u do everytimes, think about u again, thats very normal, just duno will this happen to u, maybe u dun, lol..

Bing, dun keep on BoA lah!! u dun hav chance one lah, hahaa... anyway, she's pretty somehow... 

- 10:05pm, 30th May 04

Again, a boring Sunday i hav. Wow, sleep till 1pm, eat bread, and go back to continue sleep till 4:30pm, what a pig i am.
trying hard not to bother about family problems, dun even wanna think about it, hate them sometimes.
What can i do?

Me going lousier in Basketball liao... not even can shoot in once, so malu. bing, han, keat, me, loose to other team for 17-4, .... malunya...

Hope not to be so boring anymore, or should i start study for my coming exam..

-  Night, 4:40am, curi on9 again, hahahaa

just duno why, like to on, for surfing, for typing, or what, maybe just to see whether u r there or not.
i dun really know how to talk, how to find topics to keep on chit-chatting with u, but i really like to hear from u, but its been a very long time since the last time we hav months ago.....

Stupid Gunbound... loose for so many rounds, just wasting my time to play it, haih...... maybe just no mood,  nvm, play it just for fun, lol

Bing ah, keep on telling me BoA so so pretty... i'm ready to hav a  look at her, by downloading gua, hohoo, this Bing ...know how to kap lui only, wahaha